thirsty

Some people think love is sex, it's marriage, it's six o'clock kisses, it's a bunch of kids.Maybe it is.but you know what i thinkLove is wanting to touch but then withdrawing. - "Heart of Broken Tales"

When Black and White Shuangsha won the first battle last night, Xiao Xiao was rushing back with his luggage, and when he got home, he washed hastily and fell asleep on the bed.

The next day he slept until late in the evening. After waking up, he took out his cell phone from his pillow and stared blankly for a while.

Li Ke was on a business trip and he was on a business trip. During this time, the two of them had no contact. He didn't look for Li Ke, and Li Ke didn't look for him either.

Now that they both returned to the city, Xiao Xiao wanted to see him, but felt that he couldn't find a suitable reason at this embarrassing stage.

He lay on the bed holding his mobile phone and hesitated for a while, not knowing what to do.After the evidence-pushing incident last time, Li Ke must have felt that Xiao Xiao had ulterior motives, at least he wasn't absolutely serious about him.

The phone screen suddenly lit up, indicating that a new message had been received.

It was Li Ke, Xiao Xiao poked it twice and clicked in.

"coffee shop."

Xiao Xiao stared at the simple three words, in a daze.

If you see him, what should you say, do you need to explain why you don't want to be with him, should you apologize, or say something nice to coax him...

Xiao Xiao sighed, not wanting to continue thinking.He lifted the quilt, got up, got dressed, went to wash, ate some instant noodles and went out.It was a bit windy when he went out, and he was shivering in the cold wind wrapped in the long gray scarf that Li Ke had given him.

When he arrived at the door of Li Ke's house, he knocked on the door, but no one answered.

In fact, Li Ke gave him the key a long time ago, but Xiao Xiao seldom uses it, and he may feel that it is not his home after all.He is still used to knocking on the door, but he is also used to no one coming to answer the door when Li Ke loses his temper.

Xiao Xiao took out the key from his jacket pocket, inserted it into the lock and opened the door.Li Ke was standing behind the door, lighting a cigarette and looking at him coldly.

Xiao Xiao glanced at him, closed the door, and leaned against the wall beside him.

"Because my grandma went to dance ballroom dancing with other old men yesterday, my grandpa got angry and insisted on a divorce." Xiao Xiao said.

"Are you persuaded?" Li Ke asked calmly.

"It was just angry at first, the old man is just like a child when he is angry." Xiao Xiao replied.

Li Ke responded, "Yes."

"My cousin sister-in-law is pregnant, and my aunt is very happy, giving out red envelopes in the group all day long." Xiao Xiao said again.

"Haven't they been pregnant for many years?" Li Ke asked.

"Manual," Xiao Xiao said, "a lot of money was spent."

Li Ke responded again: "Yes."

Xiao Xiao had nothing else to say, so he remained silent.

Li Ke didn't speak, and stayed silent with him.Xiao Xiao knew that Li Ke was waiting for him to speak, for him to give himself an explanation, and for him to tell him that he continued to like to be together.

"Hug." Xiao Xiao said.

Li Ke immediately turned around, put his arms around him, and knocked his chin on his shoulder.

Xiao Xiao was a little shorter than Li Ke, and he could just lean on his shoulder with his head down.He reached out and hugged Li Ke's waist tightly, and the scarf covered most of his face, exposing his eyes and forehead.

"How long can I hold you," Li Ke asked softly, "Huh?"

Xiao Xiao didn't know how to answer for a while, and said after a long time: "...I don't know."

Li Ke stood still, put his hands around the back of his head, lowered his head slightly and kissed his lips.Xiao Xiao kissed him cooperatively, tenderly, unwillingly, and sadly.

The mobile phone rang suddenly in the room, and the hot thoughts of the two of them were somewhat poured with cold water. Li Ke took out the mobile phone from his coat pocket, glanced at it, and threw it on the sofa with his backhand.

Xiao Xiao tilted his head back a little, pressed against his lips and asked softly, "Who?"

"My mother." Li Ke replied.

Xiao Xiao was silent for a while, and asked, "Blind date?"

"En." Li Ke replied vaguely, bowed his head and continued to kiss.

"Li Ke." Xiao Xiao frowned and turned his head away.

He pushed Li Ke away with a little force, and explained with a random reason: "I have a bit of a cold, and I'm afraid I'll infect you."

Li Ke was stunned for a while, let go, turned and walked into the bedroom: "I'm tired, let's go."

"Well," Xiao Xiao bit his lips, as if he had made up his mind, and said softly, "Then I'm leaving."

Li Ke held the doorknob of the bedroom, and heard the sound of the door being locked. It was very soft, so small that it was almost unnoticeable.

He is too familiar with Xiao Xiao, every time he gets angry, he will slam the door loudly, and every time he goes out, he likes to slam the door casually, loud and refreshing.How many times has he slammed the door behind him when he wanted to break it off, as if it was the only way to express the indignation he left when he left.

But when it was time to leave, the sound of closing the door was the smallest.

Li Ke was stunned for a while at the door of the bedroom, let go of the hand holding the doorknob, and slowly turned his head.

A key and a credit card are neatly arranged on the coffee table.

I will give you back your promises, give you back your memories, and give you back all the fragments you have imagined.

Li Ke felt a sudden pain in his chest. He picked up the keys and credit card on the table, threw them to the ground indiscriminately, and kicked the table leg violently: "Fuck!"

He slammed into the sofa heavily, leaned his head back against the back of the chair, raised his right hand, and covered his eyes.

Xiao Xiao didn't go home directly, it was almost night now, he visited several dessert shops nearby, and bought a lot of desserts to take home.

He gulped down dessert like crazy and ate it endlessly until it was so sweet that he had to rush to the bathroom to throw up.

He likes Li Ke, everything about him, even his embarrassment, his rage, his indifference, his gentleness, the scent of white orchid on his body, and the faint smell of tobacco on the tip of his tongue .

Now, Xiao Xiao has to face the fact that Li Ke is going to start a family.People like them, after all, have not received the support and approval of everyone, especially the previous generation, how many people can agree with their children and the same sex for a lifetime?

He himself is not afraid, if someone objects to them being together, he can ask for nothing, but Li Ke can't ask for nothing.

I love you enough to give up everything for you - including you.

In the middle of the night, the wind blew outside the house, rustling the evergreen leaves outside the window.The wind clasps the two ancient-style wooden windows, and the creaking sound wafts gently in the bedroom.

Bai Shen got up and closed the window, and when he came back, he lifted the quilt and lay down.Lu Xun turned over and stretched his legs onto his stomach. Bai Shen endured it for a while, and within a few minutes he felt a little out of breath.

Lu Xun moved closer, smacked his lips in a daze, and said something in his sleep.

Bai Shen leaned closer to listen to what he was saying, but Lu Xun suddenly shut up and became quiet again, wrapping him in his arms like a pillow.

In the middle of the winter night, Bai Shen still felt a little hot after being hugged by him like this.He arched out a little, shaking like squeezing out toothpaste.

After not moving for a while, Lu Xun suddenly trembled, then froze, and Bai Shen froze along with him.

After being stunned for a while, Lu Xun breathed a sigh of relief, Bai Shen arched back again, and patted him on the back lightly: "Did you have a nightmare?"

"En." Lu Xun replied vaguely.

Bai Shen didn't speak, and waited for him to speak. If Lu Xun wanted to speak, he would listen. If he didn't want to speak, he could wait until he wanted to speak.

"Have we adopted Ranran?" Lu Xun said suddenly.

"Okay." Bai Shen said.

"...That's it?" Lu Xun asked, his tone still obviously unfinished.

Bai Shen found it funny: "What else do you want?"

"She has autism," Lu Xun said, "I'm also...not normal."

Bai Shen was a little annoyed when he heard this: "What are you thinking?"

"Why don't you think about yourself?" Lu Xun asked, "There are people like this in the family, can you bear it?"

"What kind of person?" Bai Shen frowned, and pushed him away, "I told you, you are cured, but you can still be normal. If you are not cured, I will find a way, and you will never get better. I admit it."

Lu Xun reached out to pull Bai Shen's hand, holding his fingers tightly as if grabbing a life-saving straw.

Can Bai Shen understand the feeling of not being able to see the light, can he understand how difficult it is to get out, and can he really bear all this alone.

"Actually, I have selfish intentions." Lu Xun said.

"What?" Bai Shen was stunned for a while, and after thinking about it, he finally understood, "You think it's easy to adopt, but I can't leave you two patients and face it by myself, right?"

Lu Xun looked at him and nodded. In the dim light, his clear eyes were particularly sharp.

"Why do you think I will definitely leave you?" Bai Shen asked.

"...That's what I thought." Lu Xun said.

Bai Shen was silent, and the two looked at each other wordlessly for a while. Bai Shen shook off his hand, turned his back to Lu Xun, and fell asleep on the edge of the bed.

Bai Shen was angry, which Lu Xun did not expect, after all, he was never angry.

Lu Xun reached out and tugged at the corner of his clothes, and called him cautiously, "Bai Shen."

"Get out." Bai Shen replied briefly, and he could hear the anger in every word.

Lu Xun was silent for a while, retracted his hand and moved away from him, and fell asleep on the other side of the bed.

After about 10 minutes, Lu Xun guessed that his anger had subsided a little, so he reached out and tugged at the corner of his clothes again.

Bai Shen didn't respond, Lu Xun sighed, he wasn't angry, but his mother was sound asleep.

Lu Xun leaned closer to him until he pressed against his back.He wrapped Bai Shen in his arms and buried his head on his neck, like a child who is acting coquettishly wanting to suckle.

Bai Shen suddenly opened his eyes, and his deep voice broke the silence: "Are you wrong?"

Lu Xun rubbed his head behind him and nodded.

"Speak." Bai Shen said.

"I was wrong." Lu Xun said obediently.

"Where is it wrong?" Bai Shen asked.

"The fault is..." Lu Xun thought for a while, "I made you angry."

"No," Bai Shen clicked his tongue, "I said, as long as you are still you, I will always like you. Do you understand what that means? I like you, including your shortcomings, your flaws, what you think No, I can accept it, understand?"

"Oh." Lu Xun responded.

Bai sighed deeply and stopped talking.

Lu Xun grabbed the cloth on Bai Shen's stomach with his hands, tugged endlessly, and said aggrievedly, "If you don't talk, I'm afraid."

"..." Bai Shen was speechless, "I'm sleepy."

"Then you sleep." Lu Xun hesitated and let go of his hand, staring at the back of his head from behind.

"Are you crying?" Bai Shen asked.

"No. Teacher Bai, I'm a man..." Lu Xun nodded very firmly in the middle of speaking, "I'm crying."

Bai smiled deeply: "Then come and hug Dad Bai."

Lu Xun pulled him hard, turned him over forcibly, and threw himself into his arms.

Bai Shen stroked him along his fur, and patted his back lightly when he was done: "Good boy."

Lu Xun hid in his arms like a wounded kitten. After a while, a muffled voice came: "I dreamed that you were gone."

Bai Shen's hand paused, then continued to pat him lightly.

"You couldn't take it anymore, so you left," Lu Xun said, "You don't want me anymore."

Bai Shen didn't speak, he couldn't think of what to say.

"If Ranran is here, at least you will stay for a while longer, right?" Lu Xun said, having difficulty controlling his emotions, he grabbed Bai Shen's T-shirt, "At least you will think about what to do with Ranran, you will be by my side Stay a little longer, even a few more days..."

"Stop talking," Bai Shen frowned, and pressed him into his arms, not bothering to care if he would be so stuffy that he couldn't breathe, "Good boy, don't talk."

Lu Xun shut his mouth obediently.Bai Shen's hand got into Lu Xun's T-shirt from behind, he lowered his head and asked softly, "Are you afraid of pain?"

"Now...now?" Lu Xun asked stammeringly, "If you really want to..."

"Should you wash your brain?" Bai Shen sighed, "What do you think about all day long. I mean, endure the pain and wash the tattoo on your back."

"... Oh," Lu Xun cleared his throat in embarrassment, and said again in a louder voice, "Oh!"

"Let's write something else together," Bai Shen said, "text each other's name."

"You write about a deer, and I write about a cloud." Lu Xun said.

Bai smiled deeply: "Okay."