adolescence [gl]

Yue Fan persisted until she saw her grandma being pushed into the emergency room before she sat paralyzed on the ground. Her mind went blank, and overwhelming fear wrapped her tightly, suppressing her, making her unable to breathe.

Xue Qi squatted beside her, big drops of tears fell down, she hugged her knees tightly in fear, her body was trembling slightly.

Leaning against the wall, Yue Fan stared at the emergency room without blinking. She expected that a doctor would come out in the next second and tell her that the patient was out of danger, but the closed door had not been opened for a long time.

It's going to be okay, it's going to be okay.

As soon as Yue Fan grabbed Xue Qi's arm and pulled her into his arms, she opened her mouth with difficulty and said, "Don't cry! Don't cry! Don't cry!! Grandma will be fine, it won't be!" She felt cold all over , There was constant sweat on the back, and the upper and lower teeth trembled unconsciously.

Xue Qi stopped crying, Yue Fan's strength was too great, it was not like a usual hug, but more like looking for someone to rely on.She held back her tears, hugged Yuefan with her backhand, and said with a sob: "Yes! It will be fine, we... will buy... new clothes with grandma tomorrow! We will celebrate the New Year together... no ...something happened."

In the empty corridor, two figures embracing each other, even a hug can't match the sadness in their hearts.

The doctor shook his head and told Yue Fan to go see his grandma for the last time. She almost crawled in, her legs were as soft as noodles and she couldn't exert any strength.

When she went in, she looked at the grandma lying on the bed and tears welled up at that moment.

Grandma opened her eyes weakly. She seemed to be ten years older. She moved her dry hands and muttered something.

Yue Fan rushed to the bed like crazy, held her hand, and she choked up and said, "Grandma, what did you say?"

The tears in her eyes had blurred her vision, and she moved closer to the old man's mouth to listen to the old man's words.

Granny Yue's eyes were cloudy, and she whispered softly, "Girl, girl... Yue girl."

Yue Fan's tears washed down her cheeks, she nodded fiercely and said, "I'm here, I'm here."

Granny Yue was so angry that she said, "Girl, grandma doesn't want to die, what will you do if I leave?"

Yue Fan's breathing was stagnant, tears flowed even more fiercely, and she couldn't speak a word.

"But grandma is a burden to live, and life is also a burden..." The old man's voice became smaller and smaller, before the word "excess" came to an abrupt end, and she slowly closed her eyes.

Yue Fan felt that he had no strength to hold that hand in an instant.

Yue Fan looked at the old man's closed eyes, "Grandma, what's wrong with you? Grandma, wake up!"

She cried and lay on the old man's body, "Don't go, what should I do if you leave? Tomorrow you will be 29 and I will take you to buy clothes. We also have a reunion dinner together. The door link I bought hasn't been posted yet. I haven't been with you well, how can you go? I beg you, don't, don't go, stay with me, okay?"

Yue Fan was unable to speak at the end.

Xue Qi stood behind her with a look of disbelief.

The old man closed his eyes tightly, as if he was sleeping peacefully, how did he leave?Grandma was still cooking for her yesterday, and she was still choosing dishes with grandma in the afternoon, why did she leave?

Yue Fan wept wantonly until her voice became hoarse.

Xue Qi cried and called her, "Yuefan, grandma... is gone... really gone."

Yue Fan turned his head to look at her when he heard the voice, her eyes were blank, like an ignorant child, she whispered softly, "Let's go? How is it possible! Grandma can live a long life, she can live a long life... ..."

Yue Fan didn't continue, her voice was choked up, she couldn't lie to herself, grandma really left.

Yue Fan cried sadly, until he cried until he cried, until he cried intermittently and became silent.

Xue Qi had never seen Yue Fan cry like this before, and her heartache was unbearable. She just wanted to go up to hug her, but Yue Fan suddenly stopped crying. She stood up and grabbed Xue Qi, gritted her teeth and asked, "What's going on?" ?”

Xue Qi was frightened, she asked with trembling voice: "What's going on?"

"Grandma is obviously fine? Why did she get sick? What do you think?" Yue Fan's face was a bit hideous, her eyes were red from crying, and she looked very scary.

Xue Qi looked at the old man lying on the hospital bed, closed her eyes in pain, tears streaming down her face, she said: "Yue Fan, I'm sorry..."

Yue Fan's eyes dimmed instantly, as if there was no more light in her world, she let go of the hands that were clasping Xue Qi's shoulders, and slowly knelt down on the ground.

Yue Fan said in an extremely calm tone: "Go away."

Xue Qi stood there in shock, let her?

Yue Fan slowly raised his head to look at her, his eyes were cold, his thin lips parted slightly, and she repeated what she said just now, "Get lost."

Xue Qi's eyes were sore, she took two steps back, Yue Fan's eyes cut her body like a knife.

She called out with difficulty: "Yuefan..."

"I'll let you go!" Yue Fan suddenly roared like a raging lion.

Xue Qi covered her face, her face was wet, she turned and left, she would only irritate Yue Fan here.

Yue Fan woke up from sleep, she reacted for two seconds, got up from the bed and rushed out of the bedroom, before entering her grandmother's room, she stood still in the lobby, the candles on the altar table were still burning, the old man The black and white photos glow with newness.

Yue Fan looked at the smiling face of the old man with dull eyes, opened his mouth and called grandma, her legs were weak and knelt on the ground, she crawled under the altar table and straightened her body.

Today is the first day of the first month of the first lunar month. The heavy snow just fell yesterday, and it was bitingly cold. Yue Fan didn't seem to feel it. He was wearing unlined clothes, his knees seemed to be nailed to the ground, and he kept kneeling there.

The past few days have been like a dream, in a trance, and every time she wakes up from her sleep, her face is full of tears. She always feels that her grandma is not dead.

Grandma had already been buried, the day before the Chinese New Year.

That night she knelt in front of the altar to watch the night. After twelve o'clock, the firecrackers in the neighborhood kept going up and down, so she could only look at the photo of grandma in front of the white candle.

She had already posted the door couplet yesterday, but the original two-person post became one-person post, and the original festive red became white.

Since the old man passed away, Yue Fan has been kneeling on the ground with the door of the house tightly closed, staring at the old man's photo in a daze.

Xue Qi came here before, on the second day of junior high school, she cried and knocked on the door outside.

She said, "Yuefan, can you let me pay homage to grandma?"

She said, "Yuefan, can you open the door?"

She said, "Yuefan, do you really want me?"

Yue Fan remained motionless, as if she hadn't heard, she stared at the photo with an expression on her face, her face was full of gloom.

Xue Qi was still shouting outside: "Yuefan, please meet me."

"Yuefan, I won't leave until you open the door."

"Yuefan..."

Xue Qi sat outside for a whole day, and Yue Fan knelt in the lobby for a whole day.

The sky is getting dark, and it has started to snow outside. It seems that there is a lot of snow this year.

Xue Qi said in a hoarse voice: "I'm leaving Yuefan, can you come out and see me? It's too dark, I'm afraid."

Yue Fan moved and turned to look at the closed door.

"Yuefan, I'm leaving."

Yue Fan stared fixedly at the door, and it took her a while to stand up, but her legs were numb after kneeling for too long, and she couldn't stabilize and fell to the ground again.

She struggled to stand up and went to the door...

From that day on, Xue Qi never saw Yue Fan again.

Xue Qi knelt in front of the old man's grave and said: "Grandma, Yuefan is gone. She hates me, hates me so much, she doesn't want to see me, she left, just left. How can she leave? You are still here , how could she leave?"

Xue Qi started to cry as she spoke, and she said: "Grandma, I'm leaving too. I'm going back to the city. I won't come back often in the future, but I will visit your grave every year."

"Yuefan doesn't want me anymore, and I don't want her either."

"But grandma, what did I do wrong? Why doesn't she want me anymore." Xue Qi choked up crying, out of breath.

She didn't tell the truth that day.

When Yu Jian came to look for Yue Fan, grandma was already suspicious.

Grandma asked: "What's going on with Jianjian and girl?"

At that time, she almost told about Yue Fan's imprisonment, but fortunately, there was a doorman in her mouth, so she mumbled a few words and passed it.

The grandma didn't speak, and asked her to help pour a glass of water, so she had no choice but to go to the kitchen, but as soon as she came out of the kitchen with the glass of water, she saw the old man standing behind the door, covered in cold sweat, and hurried over, fearing that the old man would hear something terrible, But as soon as she passed by, she heard Yue Fan say: "I know, you want to say, I won't go to jail if it's not because of her..."

The old man couldn't stand still for a while, and was supported by her back to the room, but the old man couldn't catch his breath as soon as he sat on the chair, clutching his heart, his pupils constricted...

She lied to Yuefan, but she could only lie to Yuefan.

That sentence came from Yue Fan's mouth. If Yue Fan knew that it was her words that caused the old man's death, Yue Fan would go crazy.

She was in so much pain, she really couldn't bear to make her suffer even more.