After the humble spare tire set the car overturned

During the few days when Chaoci was hospitalized, Tan Lie was always taking care of him.

At the beginning, he didn't dare to say those words to affect Chaoci's mood, but just talked to him about some relaxing topics every day.Watching him day and night, eating and washing are handled by him.

But even if he wanted to make the atmosphere as relaxed as possible, his heart was getting heavier and heavier.

Every night it was Tan Lie who stood vigil next to Chao Ci's ward, accompanying him.After all, the current situation of Chaoci is really inseparable from people, and it will be too late in case of an accident.Watching the night every day is hard work after all, and Chao Ci also persuaded him that he could let the nurses take care of him, but Tan Lie refused.

The lifeless appearance of the young man lying in the blood will still appear in front of Tan Lie countless times. How dare he hand over the safety of Chaoci to a stranger.

Also because he insisted on vigil, he found that although Chao Ci closed his eyes early every night, he could fall asleep very late.

At the beginning, he still thought about Tan Lie's mood and pretended to be sleeping.But Tan Lie could tell that he hadn't fallen asleep all this time, and his breathing gradually calmed down in the early morning.But at five or six in the morning, he woke up early again.

He barely sleeps for three hours a day, but he doesn't show any sleepy expression during the day, but looks sleepy all the time and rarely speaks.

He also loves to look out the window.

The floor they were on was very high, on the fifteenth floor.Looking down from the window, this height is thrilling enough.

Chaoci seldom got out of bed, and the few times he was seen getting out of bed, he was leaning against the window and looking down.

Every time Tan Lie found out, he felt so nervous and offended that he coaxed and dragged him down.

But this kind of situation was repeated again and again. Once Tan Lie went out to answer the phone, and when he came back, he saw Chaoci lying on the window sill, with half of his body outside the window.

Tan Lie's pupils shrank, his mind suddenly went blank, he rushed up and hugged his back, and carried him back to the bed.

His movements are tense and frightened, so they are not gentle.Chaoci was a little dazed when he fell onto the bed in such a sudden.

"What are you doing?" Tan Yue suppressed his throat, his voice was hoarse and depressed, and it also carried the anger of fear of the future.

"What on earth are you going to do! Do you know how dangerous it is!" He slammed at Chaoci one after another, trying to dispel those thoughts that made him chill all over with a ferocious attitude.

But Chao Ci always looked at him calmly, his pale amber eyes couldn't even see any emotion, calm like a pool of stagnant water.

Tan Lie looked at him like this, gradually his voice became lower and lower, and finally fell silent.

He and such a lifeless Chaoci looked at each other speechlessly.

Yes, how could he not know how dangerous it is?

This is just Tan Lie's own self-deception.

What the doctor said to him that day echoed in his ears again: "We can save him once, but we can't guarantee the second, or even the third time."

Yes, he can pull him back once, twice, three times... But he can't be by his side all the time, how can he stop a person who is determined to die.

He looked into Chaoci's beautiful but lifeless eyes.

The eyes of this tall and strong man were red, and tears could not help but flow from the eyes.

He was originally standing in front of Chaoci.At this time, he slowly squatted down, with red eyes, held Chao Ci's hand, and looked at him in a pleading attitude: "Xiao Ci, you are sick, can I take you to treat it?"

As he spoke, the tears in his eyes became more violent, but Chaoci still looked at him calmly and silently, his beautiful eyes were like inorganic glass beads at this time.

Tan Lie collapsed, he hugged Chaoci and begged him: "Can you live on?"

He didn't care whether he was ashamed or not, and he didn't care about the sight blurred by tears, he just repeated this pleading over and over again.

"Chaoci, please, can you live?"

Chao Ci was hugged by a tall and handsome man, his strong and slender arms tightly clasped Chao Ci's waist, but no one could feel his strength at all.

Only humble begging, over and over again.

His body was trembling, Chaoci could feel it.

The person in his arms was like a lifeless puppet, cold and dead from beginning to end, without any response.

Tan Lie's heart became colder and colder.

Just when he was about to despair, a soft syllable came from his ear: "Okay."

In an instant, Tan Lie's almost withered heart was redeemed by sweets and sweets.

He almost suspected that he had heard it wrong, straightened his back suddenly, and asked Chao Ci face to face again: "Really?"

Chaoci looked at him and didn't speak.

"You really agreed? Did you agree?" He asked over and over again like a fool.

Chaoci laughed suddenly, and said, "If you ask one more question, I'll regret it."

This sentence proved to Tan Lie that what he just heard was not a hallucination.

And such a smiling Chaoci also showed a little anger, which made Tan Lie ecstatic.

He hugged Chaoci again, this time instead of begging in his ear, he kept kissing his forehead and hair, and murmured: "Thank you, Chaoci, thank you..."

Chaoci closed his eyes, and let him kiss gently and lovingly.

In my heart, I said helplessly to the system: [I really can commit suicide, but if I commit suicide now, I will be dragged back 100%. 】

Therefore, he can only give "self" a reason to let "self" try to live.

[Will it be a bit of a violation of the character settings? ] The system couldn't help but ask.

After all, the character design in this world can be said to be terminally ill, Zhao Yi is his only medicine, without this medicine, he will just wither and die.

[Now there is no mechanism to force me to abide by the human settings,] Chao Ci doesn't even bother to talk to the little idiot A11111, [One thought lives, one thought dies.Human beings are so complicated, except for "Chaoci" himself, who can explain clearly?As long as it can be justified, it's not up to me to set up people or something? 】

Human thinking is too complicated. Although the system has intelligence, it is still composed of established procedures. It is difficult to understand this kind of complicated thinking.

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Chao Ci promised Tan Lie to go to treat the illness.

And the process of healing is far more painful than ordinary people imagine.

Chao Ci's condition is very serious, not only psychological treatment, drug treatment, but also some other means.

In Chaoci, treatment is a process of digging up the wound that seems to be perfectly buried but rotten to the bone, and then slowly heals.

Before the treatment, he was still a very normal person on the surface.But one month after the start of treatment, he slowly began to experience various symptoms, such as loss of appetite, dizziness, chest tightness, vomiting...even self-harm.

Everyone knows that self-harm is bad, including "Chaoci" himself, but he can't control it.

It seemed that only such pain could bring him pleasure and pleasure.

Doctors tied him with medical bandages and tied him in front of the bed to prevent further self-harm.

Most of the time Chaoci had no objection, he sat there quietly and let Tan Lie feed him, talk to him, and even tell stories like coaxing a child.

But when he broke out, it was very violent.He was pulling those medical bandages desperately, his wrists were red and swollen, but he still didn't feel it, and tried his best to break free from these restraints.

At this time, Tan Lie could only hug him tightly with red eyes, preventing him from harming him.

At that time, Chaoci, who was affected by the extremely suppressed emotions, no longer possessed reason, and bit and kicked Tan Lie.

The doctor advises Tan Lie to let go of the court speech first.Chao Ci was tied up, even without Tan Lie, he would be fine.

But Tan Lie insisted on accompanying Chao Ci.No matter how Chao Ci kicked and bit him, he didn't show any pain, he just stroked Chao Ci's back and couldn't help comforting him.

This situation will last for about an hour before Chaoci will gradually calm down.

Afterwards, he looked at Tan Lie whose shoulders were covered with bite marks and even oozing blood, just watched without speaking.

Tan Lie also pretended nothing happened, wiped the cold sweat off his forehead for him, and then asked him gently what he would like to eat later.

Chaoci had no appetite here, and for a while it was so serious that he could only rely on infusion.

Tan Lie tried his best, hired countless famous chefs and nutritionists, and finally found that Chaoci was only willing to eat a few bites of dishes made by himself.

Because he is a broken shell.

Chao Ci spent two months in China for treatment.

But although the situation has improved, it is still very serious.Tan Lie wanted to bring Chaoci to Country D for treatment, but he was afraid that Chaoci would be even more uncomfortable if he went to a foreign country.

But after two months of treatment, Tan Lie felt distressed when he saw that he had lost a lot of weight but did not see a good court speech.

In the end, he still couldn't bear to mention it to Chaoci, hoping that he could go to country D with him and receive better treatment there.

In fact, he knew that for Chaoci, the antidote was not hospitals, doctors, or medicine, but Zhao Yi.

But Zhao Yi didn't love him, and this antidote fell into an endless loop.What Chao Ci wanted was Zhao Yi's love, not anything else.Tan Lie can do many things for Chaoci, but this is not included.He can't control other people's emotions.

In fact, even if he got Zhao Yi's love, it would only treat the symptoms but not the root cause.

Chaoci attached his life to Zhao Yi, which was not an antidote for him, but quenched his thirst by drinking poison.Even if Zhao Yi is with him, Chaoci's situation is still on thin ice.Any mistakes would push his mental state to another extreme.

It's like taking drugs.Everyone knows it's wrong, everyone knows that life will never be restored, but compared to painful treatment, it's easier to get poison at your fingertips.

So Tan Lie couldn't and couldn't do it.