After wearing a sick and weak white moonlight, I collapse every day

At the end of the month, Yu Xi suddenly had a high fever.

He also went home with Fu Younian that day, but Fu Younian didn't let him in because Xueqiu was so excited when he saw Yu Xi that he wanted to jump up, but Yu Xi couldn't bear its weight at all.Yu Xi opened a crack in the door and watched Fu Younian feed the two small animals.

It turned out that I didn't know the reason, and after returning to the hospital, I started to have a fever in the middle of the night, and the high fever directly reached 39 degrees.

Once a person's fever reaches above 38 degrees, the mind actually begins to be dizzy. Yu Xi's body is weak, and he only wakes up for a short period of time before passing out.

This period of time passed quickly, although it was not a strict time limit, but it was indeed less than one month from the six months that Yu Xi's attending doctor said at the beginning.Fu Younian had some hope, but after Yu Xi woke up from the fever, it was almost impossible for him to walk again.

"How long have I been asleep?" Yu Xi woke up and turned his head to see Fu Younian sitting beside his hospital bed.

There seemed to be some heavy weight on his chest, and it was difficult to breathe. The pain from all over his body caused cold sweat on his back, and the bed sheet was soaked.As soon as he opened his mouth, he realized that his voice was unbelievably hoarse, like cutting many gaps with the tip of a small knife. Every time he uttered a sound, blood rushed out along the gaps, filling his throat.

"About two days." Fu Younian held his hand, feeling that Yu Xi had completely lost the strength to hold it back, and his fingertips were as soft as fine cotton, "Honey, let me feed you some water."

Yu Xi blinked.

Fu Younian took the cup of warm water that was left to dry, dipped it with a cotton swab to moisten Yu Xi's lips, and then fed him bit by bit with a spoon.

I didn't dare to drink too much for him all at once. After feeding a small half cup, let him rest for a while before drinking.

The speed at which Yu Xi weakened was almost visible to the naked eye.

When Lu Zhan and Luo Chen came to see, every time they left, they felt that he had lost a little more weight.Although he didn't keep losing weight indefinitely, after all, Fu Younian thought of many ways to make Yu Xi eat more, or at least what he ate would be more nutritious.

But it feels like it is becoming more and more transparent from the entity.

In fact, Yu Xi himself felt the most vividly.

Leukemia, like many other cancers, will bring tumor fever. He often feels that what flows in his blood vessels is not blood, but magma. It made him feel like he was going to be melted.

He also needs to be hospitalized for a long time, and he can't go out with Fu Younian occasionally.

But this time he didn't hold on like before, acting as if nothing had happened.He really thought about it a lot. The physical pain could not be relieved, but he no longer had so much pressure mentally. At least this was conducive to recovery.

Sometimes Fu Younian was afraid that he would be bored, so he told him some embarrassing things he had encountered in filming before, or hugged him and played games for him by himself.

He hadn't touched the game for several months, and Fu Younian was a mediocre player. At most, he could remember the basic operations and game rules. He could win at most once in five or six rounds. He didn't like dogs. He was beaten to death within a few minutes of entering the map, without even touching the good equipment.

Fu Younian pulled Yu Xi into his arms, put the quilt on Yu Xi's lap, and chose a rainforest map.

He is not as keen as Yu Xi, who can hear footsteps from behind or somewhere.

Sometimes they are ambushed and cannot be found.

However, the updated rainforest map has complicated terrain. After being sniped for the third time, Fu Younian heard Yu Xi laughing in his arms, lowered his head and bit his ear, and said, "Why didn't you tell me what you heard? Just look at it." Her husband was beaten to death."

Yu Xi just smiled, leaning her head against him, her cheek against his chest, and heard his clear heartbeat.

"Look at me being bullied, you will be happy." Fu Younian got out of bed to get him something to eat, and when he came back, he lay down beside his bed, buried his nose in his palm, and smelled the faint disinfectant from his fingertips. watery.

Yang Queming came over to see Yu Xi, happened to see it, and shamed Fu Younian and said, "Yo, how old you are, you're still acting like a baby."

Fu Younian glanced back at her, held Yu Xi's hand and kissed it, hooked his finger with the ring on it, and the two hooked back and forth.

"..." Yang Queming looked speechless, "Only Xiaoyu can stand a childish boy like you."

She walked up to Fu Younian, patted him on the shoulder, and whispered something to him.

After hearing this, Fu Younian got up and said to Yu Xi, "I'll go out for a while, and I'll be back soon."

"En." Yu Xi responded.

Fu Younian went out from the ward and saw Yu Yan who was stopped by the bodyguard at the corner of the stairs.

Yu Xi had a high fever again, even if he didn't know the specific treatment, he could tell that it was not a good sign.Old man Yu couldn't hold back anymore, there was a person who could match Yu Xi clearly in front of him, why did they have to go far away and make Yu Xi suffer for so long.

He knew that there was a grudge between Yu Xi and Yu Yan.

Most likely it was Yu Yan who did something that Yu Xi couldn't accept, or the grievances he had accumulated since he was a child, but he didn't regard Yu Yan as his own grandson, and his favor was not as good as the puppy Yu Xi raised.He felt that Yu Yan's thoughts were vicious, and he learned from Lin Baiyi that he was used to pretending, that is, he was suppressed openly and secretly in the past few years, and he was not given a chance to resist, so he could barely keep his own place.

But Yu Xi really liked him as a younger brother since he was a child.

It may be because Yu Yan knows how to please him, or it may be because Yu Yan is his only playmate.

Mr. Yu felt that Yu Xi was soft-hearted, and he was unwilling to force Yu Yan to treat him.

He negotiated an agreement with Yu Yan and asked Yu Yan to go to Yu Xi, saying that he voluntarily donated bone marrow to Yu Xi.

Afterwards, regardless of whether Yu Xi's operation was successful or not, or whether there was any rejection reaction, he was given a company that was completely managed by him, and all profits belonged to him, and he was given Yu's shares.

With these things, not only is there no need to worry about food and clothing, but it is enough to spend the rest of your life recklessly.

Yu Yan agreed without hesitation, but the problem was that Yu Xi didn't see him at all.

He raised his head, saw that it was Fu Younian again, frowned and looked at him impatiently.

During this period of time, he was bumping into walls everywhere in Fu Younian's hands, and he was so angry that he didn't even see Yu Xi's shadow. At most, he could reach the stairs of the inpatient department on this floor. If Yu Xi hadn't rested in the ward, He couldn't even make it this far.

"I want to see my brother, what do you care?" Yu Yan pushed away the arm of the bodyguard who was blocking him.

Fu Younian looked indifferent, and felt that he was a bit noisy, "He needs to rest, so don't bother people who don't matter."

Yu Yan thought he was ridiculous.

He hated Fu Younian even more than Yu Xi's former suitors.

He is the one who grew up with Yu Xi since he was a child. Fu Younian has only known Yu Xi for more than a year, so what right does he have to stop him over and over again.

"Need a rest? So you plan to watch him die?" Yu Yan said mockingly, "You know he doesn't want to see me?"

It was noisy outside the ward.

Yu Xi vaguely heard it, got up and went to the door to have a look.

He found that it was Yu Yan again, feeling quite speechless.

But although he disdained to let Yu Yan save him, there was still one thing he wanted to ask.He had finished his fluid transfusion today and was in good condition, so he asked Fu Younian to let Yu Yan in.

Yu Yan rubbed his sore wrist pinched by the bodyguards, rolled his Adam's apple a few times, and looked at Fu Younian unkindly.

But Yu Xi stood there looking at him, he didn't dare to say anything to Fu Younian, so he walked towards the ward.

"Brother," Yu Yan followed Yu Xi into the ward, and closed the door behind him. With a slight smile, he said casually, "Your vision is much better than before."

Yu Xi looked back at him, frowned and said, "Are you here for the smoker?"

Yu Yan found a chair and sat down indifferently.

"You really don't want to have surgery with me?" Yu Yan asked him, "Then you might not survive this winter. Although it's still early, time passes quickly, and when you regret it, it will be too late."

Yu Yan occasionally feels that Yu Xi is hypocritical.

Just like how Yu Xi treated him well since he was a child.

Of course he is self-aware of himself, and dare not say that he has nothing to do to Yu Xi.

But how innocent Yu Xi can be, he clearly knows why he was kept by Mr. Yu, and he didn't die before he was born.It should be said that fortunately Yu Xi suffered from leukemia. If it was a heart attack or something else, he might have to pay more than just the bone marrow.

Now he pretends to be ignorant.

Yu Xi ignored him, and looked down to see the wound on his arm that was accidentally exposed.In such a sweltering summer, Yu Yan was still wearing long sleeves that were airtight.

"It seems that you had a good time a while ago," Yu Xi said to him, "you have the time to think so much."

Yu Yan's expression froze, and he wanted to pull down his sleeves, but he stopped his hands, and there was no need to try to hide it.

Yu Xi was still wondering who he was hanging out with.

Gu Bozhou has no face to think about Yu Xi anymore, so he won't have any contact with Yu Yan anymore.He Huixing is still far away abroad, and he was detained there for a closed training camp.

Now it seems that it should be Xie Xuan.

Only Xie Xuan would make such a move with Yu Yan.

Yu Xi remembered that in the original book, Xie Xuan had tormented Yu Yan a lot. When he was with Xie Xuan, Yu Yan was wounded all day. , and rescued him.

"It doesn't matter how I live," Yu Yan said, "You know me best, don't you know who I am?"

He had only left Xie Xuan for a few days, and was locked in a dark place, his eyes still not used to such bright light.

He is always ashamed of himself in front of Yu Xi.

When he was very young, he didn't understand that if he was Yu Xi, he might wish that everyone would go and be buried with him, but Yu Xi always just glanced lightly, even with pity in his eyes.Yu Xi always looked at him with pitiful eyes, as if he was something small and lowly, which made him hate him more and more.

"Then don't bother, I don't need your help." Yu Xi was not the original owner, and only had coldness and indifference towards him. "Your brother was killed by you long ago. As for my life or death, it has nothing to do with you."

"You are indeed different from before." Yu Yan came to his senses, since that kidnapping, Yu Xi has changed.

He still wanted to attack Yu Xi again.

But the opportunity is not so easy to find, otherwise he would not have succeeded once in so many years, and Yu Xi is not dead, this is something he can't figure out until now.

Now he is almost too busy to take care of himself, and died at the hands of Xie Xuan and Gu Bozhou.Wanting to start with the crew, Fu Younian always guarded Yu Xi, so that he didn't even have a chance to attack the needles, and the game between the open and the dark was nothing.

He knew he would never have another chance.

It doesn't matter whether Yu Xi will die of illness in the end.

"Actually, you don't need to sue me," Yu Yan suddenly smiled, he propped his elbows on his knees, exposing the shocking injuries, and murmured a little to himself, "You're almost dead, and you still have to take this effort. "

After Yu Xi tried to get rid of Yu Xuecheng's position in the company, grandma naturally noticed Yu Yan.

When Yu Yan fled, the money he brought was stolen from the company before, and the amount was huge, enough for Yu Xi to hold him accountable.

But Mr. Yu suppressed Yu Xi and refused to sue.

Because it's still useful to leave a sad statement.

On the contrary, Yu Xi's illness has become his life-saving talisman, and now no one dares to touch him, it's a bit funny to think about it.

Yu Xi originally wanted him to go to jail, but later he felt that it was not worth it. If he could only live for a few more months, he would rather go to see a few more movies with Fu Younian than waste it on Yu Yan.So he entrusted this matter to Shan Fei. He is not dead, so he will appeal directly in the future, and Yu Yan can't run away even if he is dead.

It was enough for him to eat in prison for more than ten years, and he had nothing after he came out.

"Then do as I please." Yu Xi rolled his eyelashes.

"I want you to die again, and I'm very sad when you die." Yu Yan had an intuition that this was probably the last time he saw Yu Xi.

Yu Xi's smile was a bit nasty, "So, should I thank you?"

The wound on the arm was already painful, but just now it was even more painful when the bodyguards grabbed it outside, and it was about to fester. Yu Yan rubbed his fingertips vigorously, and the wound that hadn’t scabbed yet ruptured, oozing color and hair. deep blood.

After he returned home, many people saw his injuries, but no one cared.

It was the same before, only Yu Xi would take care of him.

He remembered the years when he was five or six years old, when he had a good relationship with Yu Xi, and he felt that his brother was the one he liked the most in the world.

Once he had a high fever in the middle of the night, Lin Baiyi went to a reception and didn't return all night, Aunt Liu asked for leave and went back to her hometown, except for him, only Yu Xi and the temporary nanny were there.

The nurse was in a deep sleep, crying and ringing the bedside bell. No one heard it, or maybe they did, but they ignored him.

He was so uncomfortable that he would die like that, curled up in the quilt and cried secretly.

Then when he was dizzy, he heard the sound of the door being pushed open, and the wheelchair rolled on the ground for a while. He felt Yu Xi's cold hand touch his forehead, and then stuffed it into his mouth. Tablets, and handed him a glass of water.

Yu Xi touched his forehead, like a person who obviously doesn't like small animals, but is touching a kitten or dog that he picked up, stiff and without much emotion, although his movements are very light.

He remembered this matter for a long time inexplicably, because he still couldn't figure it out, and he didn't dare to think about how Yu Xi moved the wheelchair down because he wasn't on the same floor as him.

Even more than ten years have passed, and sometimes he wakes up in the middle of the night, and he is still a little afraid of Yu Xi's silent concern for him back then.

"Why did you agree to see me today?" Yu Yan asked.

Yu Xi raised his eyebrows slightly.

He was just curious about the ending that he didn't have time to hear.

At first, he complained silently in his heart, thinking that this was a bullshit text, and he couldn't bear to listen to it anymore, and he was speechless about all the emotional scenes.But when he came to this place, he felt something strange. Before, he suspected that there was a part of the plot that he hadn't expected at all, but now he is more certain.

He felt that this was more like a newspaper article, that Yu Yan and Gu Bozhou should not be together smoothly.

All this is a well-designed Rashomon.

Everyone has their own ideas on their own standpoint, they stick to their own opinions, make clever excuses, think they are right, or forget their mistakes, and pretend that it never happened. Or if you look at the past in self-deceiving arguments, you will find that it is always difficult to tell the truth from the false.

Just like Gu Bozhou, they always have a reason, saying that they love the original owner so much that they don't change their love.

They also have reasons to say why they did those things to Yu Yan.

Yu Yan is also the same.

When he's the protagonist of his own story, everything he does has a motive, and every motive can be traced to its source, eventually whitewashed through his lens, and the truth can be nuanced.

Yu Xi felt that the last ten chapters were probably used to break this 'truth'.

The beginning is a scene of deep sadomasochism and chasing each other, and the ending may be even more bleak.

"I want to ask you, if you were sure that I was dead, what would you do next?" Yu Xi asked bluntly.

"Let's be with Brother Bozhou." When Yu Yan mentioned Gu Bozhou, his tone was ironic.

"Then you are keen on recycling garbage." Yu Xi poured out a glass of water, sat by the floor-to-ceiling windows and drank slowly.

"Then..." Yu Yan ignored his ridicule, instead, his voice and expression were stained with a smile, "They will all regret it, brother, whoever treats you badly will not end well. I am the same .

"But before that, I thought about living the life of an ordinary person. Why was I born as a spare organ for you? If you don't want it, I'm completely useless.

"You know everything. You know that I gave you a blood transfusion and almost had a heart transplant. What's the point of you being fake now?"

Yu Xi really didn't remember such a thing, his memory came from the original owner, he didn't remember, and of course the original owner didn't know either.

"When?" Yu Xi asked him.

"Did you forget in the first year of high school?" Yu Yan said, "You had an operation and bled a lot. You asked me to pick you up and leave the hospital that day. I went. What happened?"

Yu Xi had an impression of the operation. It was not a major operation, but a small tumor, and there would be no sequelae.But as long as it is an operation, there are risks. The original owner accidentally ran into that risk. He was not discharged from the hospital, but almost lost blood and died in the operating room.

The operation was performed in the early morning, and after waking up, it was already the afternoon of the same day.

He found that Yu Yan didn't go to pick him up. He asked the nurse and the people around him, and they all said that he didn't see Yu Yan coming.Yu Yan would never miss the appointment, the original owner waited for him for a long time, and when the evening passed, it was completely dark and he didn't see anyone, he was finally disappointed.

"You think too much," Yu Xi looked at him indifferently, "You really don't know, is he lying to you, or is he really ignorant?"

Still Rashomon.

It's not that Yu Yan didn't know, he knew very well in his heart that no one would tell Yu Xi this. Yu Xi was in a coma at the time and was about to die, and it was impossible for him to know that he was the one who gave him the blood transfusion.He deceived himself and others like this, hypnotized himself, Yu Xi also felt sorry for him, Yu Xi was not innocent.

So everything he does is logical and self-consistent.

"I found the account where you used to post new songs." Yu Yan said suddenly.

At first he didn't pay attention to it, but later he realized that the tune was very familiar. Yu Xi had been humming that tune since he was a child, at first it was vague and out of tune, and he hummed it to coax him to sleep with him, but then it became clearer and clearer.

When Yu Xi first came here, he read the music score written by the original owner in his free time. It was given to Yu Yan as a birthday gift a long time ago. In fact, the writing is not bad. It is quite talented to be able to write like this at an amateur level.He sorted it out, turned on the voice changer and threw it on the account after singing, and never cared about it again.

"It's just fulfilling a little last wish for others." Yu Xi said.

Yu Xi didn't have anything else to ask, he probably guessed what Yu Yan was going to do, he had to seek death by himself, and he didn't stop him.

After Yu Yan left, Yu Xi felt a little tired.

He slept on the sofa for a while, feeling that someone had put a blanket on his body.

It was almost noon when he woke up again, and Fu Younian was not in the ward, so Yu Xi got up and went to the balcony to look downstairs.

It happened that Fu Younian went to pick up the ordered meal and came back.

Fu Younian returned to the ward, and saw Yu Xi nestled on the sofa, competing with a can of sugar water.

Yu Xi twisted it for a long time, but the lid didn't move at all, so he went to find a knife to pry it.

Fu Younian found that he didn't even have the strength to push away the small pistol that was half the length of his palm.

He walked over, held Yu Xi's hand, and asked him to hand him both the can and the knife.

Yu Xi raised his index finger to show him.

The pale fingertips were slightly stained with blood, which was accidentally scratched by the edge of the can just now.

"Why are you so stupid?" Fu Younian laughed at him.

Then I went to find a cartoon bandage and wrapped it around his fingertips.

After Yu Xi fell ill, he never told him about the pain. Even in his sleep, Fu Younian couldn't hear him talk like this, but recently he occasionally came over to show him some very small wounds.Acting like a baby with him, asking him to wipe it with a paper towel, and then wrap it in a band-aid, those who didn't know it thought how serious the cut was.

Fu Younian unscrewed the can, fed him a small piece of yellow peach with a spoon, and said, "You can only eat a little, and the rest will be discussed after eating."

Yu Xi nodded obediently with Huang Tao in his mouth.

"If you go to see me in the future, you should bring white camellias. I also want beautiful tattoo stickers. I also want to bring canned food. I also like the canned salmon from last time." Yu Xi picked at the button of his jacket with his fingertips. ,tell him.

He knew he didn't have much time left, and he might never wake up after a high fever.

Occasionally, I want to talk to Fu Younian.

It seemed that they had calmed down after the fire on the set, and they would no longer avoid talking about these things, but they didn't feel sad when they mentioned them.

Fu Younian pinched his cheek, bowed his head and kissed him, feeling the sweetness of sugar water, "Smelly."

Yu Xi hooked the hem of his trousers dissatisfied.

Fu Younian was wearing a pair of loose sweatpants today, and he pulled the waistband of the trousers and dragged it to his crotch, revealing a large tattoo.

"You are also stinky." Yu Xi said to him.

Fu Younian lowered his head and glanced at the tattoo on his waist that stretched all the way to his crotch. There was a little smile in his eyes, and he said pointedly: "This is really beautiful."

Yu Xi blushed, lowered her head and kissed the fish tail.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-12-0821:20:12~2020-12-1000:44:14期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels of irrigation nutrient solution: 40 bottles of super nice Taosheng; 5 bottles of figure paddling athletes; 2 bottles of never staying up late;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!