After wearing a sick and weak white moonlight, I collapse every day

Yu Xi glanced at Fu Younian with disgust.

Yu Xi didn't have dinner with the crew, and a teammate who danced with him asked him out to discuss the choreography and song selection for the final.The final was postponed to March [-]th, but the variety show will broadcast an episode every week, with Easter eggs interspersed in the middle, most of which are contestants' lottery battles, and there are also entertainment-oriented competitions that do not involve overall scores and ranking.

On Thursday morning, Yu Xi had to go and record a new Easter egg show.

"Shall I take you there?" Fu Younian followed Yu Xi to the locker room and stood by the door.

"It's very close," Yu Xi said, "I can drive there in ten minutes, and I should be able to return to the studio before 08:30 in the evening."

"Well," Fu Younian took his cashmere scarf, raised his hand to put it on for him, there were people coming and going here, and he didn't know when someone would push the door in, so he whispered, "Baby, drive carefully. "

Yu Xi's ears were a little warm, and he lowered his head and buried half of his face under the scarf.

Then he put his hand in the fluffy pocket of his coat, and touched the back of Fu Younian's hand through the layer of fabric.

Fu Younian pinched his fingertips childishly, looked down at Yu Xi's flushed cheeks, was inexplicably so cute, couldn't help but hugged him slightly, turned his head and kissed his hair.

Maybe his rebellious period came a bit late.

The more people around him don't want him to be with Yu Xi, and the more they try to persuade him time and again, thinking that they are not suitable, saying that he will regret it in the future, the more Fu Younian wants to hold Yu Xi like this now, and even start to hug Yu Xi. Thinking about the longer term.

Why can't they grow old?

Could it be that every one of his relatives and lovers will leave him early?

Fu Younian didn't believe it.

Yu Xi and his teammate made an appointment at a Japanese-style izakaya. After the teammate had not arrived, he sent a message to tell him that there was a traffic jam on the road. The traffic was really inconvenient due to snow recently. Yu Xi first ordered a bowl of tonkotsu ramen and ate a few bites Fill your belly.

He never cared about what time to eat before. When he was busy, he would simply buy instant noodles or bread, or he would not eat at all.

It was only after being with Fu Younian that he gradually developed the habit of eating on time.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," the teammate called Solo, hurried upstairs and pushed open the door of the cubicle, and apologized to Yu Xi, "It's too congested tonight, I went out more than 40 minutes early, and I was stuck on the way .”

"It's okay." Yu Xi wasn't in a hurry either, seeing him sit down, he handed him the menu.

The final was divided into two parts: qi dance and solo dance. Each team of qi dance consisted of five members. Yu Xi was familiar with solo dance.

And later found that Solo seems to be his relative, or the original owner's relative.

Yu Xi remembered that the original owner's mother's surname was Shan, but he hadn't contacted anyone from his grandfather's side since he arrived here.

No one in the Yu family told the original owner that Lin Baiyi was not his biological mother, so he misunderstood for many years.

Since he has always regarded Lin Baiyi as his biological mother, and Lin Baiyi cared about him at least on the surface, he has always been very fond of Lin Baiyi. When he was a child, he had some conflicts with his grandfather because of this. years old to discover the truth.

But at that time, he had already started to live in a nursing home for a long time. In order to have a good environment for recuperation, the doctor did not recommend frequent visits to disturb the rest of the patients, so he had almost no chance to get along with his grandfather.

After all, Solo should be his cousin.

However, this estranged relationship is actually quite embarrassing. After all, I have seen him once or twice in the past twenty years, and they all met when I can't remember. For Yu Xi, he has never seen a solo flight at all, so No one mentioned it afterward.

"I recorded a few demos, and asked Xia Zi and the others to arrange a few paragraphs." Shan Fei took out his mobile phone from his bag, pulled out the video and handed it to Yu Xi. It’s B, I thought about adding a lock dance in the middle, you are better at this, let’s see how you can arrange it?”

Yu Xi took it.

The two of them didn't have much time. After a hasty meal, Yu Xi took a tablet and simply drew a moving map with him. If there are new ideas that come to mind, he will note them next to him and plan to send them to the group at night, so that other teammates can have a reference .

Shan Fei was still studying with his head down, Yu Xi went out to answer the phone when he heard the phone ringing.

"Uncle?" Yu Xi was a little surprised that Fu Younian's uncle would call him, and when he heard the voice from the microphone, he immediately became nervous.

"Didn't disturb your filming, did you?" The phone said hesitantly, "I heard from Assistant You Nian that it's about [-] o'clock in the evening for a break."

"No," Yu Xi felt a little cold, shrunk his hands into the sleeves of his down jacket, and stood in a place where no one was in the corridor, "I'm having dinner with my friends outside, what do you want?"

"It's nothing serious," Fu Younian's uncle said in a gentle tone. "It looked like you had a cold a while ago. I don't know if it's alright? It just so happens that I have an old friend here who is a Chinese medicine practitioner, and he is especially good at treating these headaches and brain fever."

"It's ready," Yu Xi didn't expect the other party to call for such a simple reason, and felt relieved, "Thank you."

Yu Xi didn't get much care from his uncles and aunts, even if it was just a word of care, they always cared about how much money he sent back to the family, and they wanted him to be popular so that he could be a continuous money-making machine. Concerned about whether he would also be tired, but Fu Younian's family seemed more lively in comparison.

He has never had a home, and all his cognition comes from Fu Younian, only to realize that "going home" can be a word with warmth in every stroke.

"That's good. It's not spring yet. Pay attention to your health. Don't worry about minor illnesses. I'd rather go to the hospital a few more times. The weather is bad during this time." Fu Younian's uncle gave another order before hanging up the phone. .

Yu Xi didn't know that he had called Fu Younian before, nor did he know what he asked Fu Younian about, so he didn't hear the temptation and advice in the words, and only regarded it as pure concern.

"Thank you." Yu Xi was still a little happy.

Through the microphone, everyone on the other side could feel his tone rising slightly at the end. Maybe it was because he was getting older, and he sounded a bit childish. Finally, he was silent for a long while, but he couldn't bear it, so he didn't say any more.

Flying solo, I still have to catch the [-]:[-] p.m. flight, so I have already left.

Yu Xi went back and ate the remaining pieces of after-dinner snacks, planning to go to the bathroom before returning to the set.

It was stuffy in the private room, he thought it would be better if he went out to blow some air, but his mind was still a little dizzy and his breath was slightly hot.

Yu Xi touched his forehead with the back of his hand, but he didn't seem to have a fever.

He went to the sink and turned on the warm water, wanting to lower his head and rinse his face.

It may be because I was already dizzy, so it was even more uncomfortable to lie down like this. The blood seemed to flow back from my body to my chest, and then poured to the top of my head, and my breathing was not smooth. Every time I inhaled, my chest rose and fell more violently than usual.

He didn't stay long, and raised his head after rushing for dozens of seconds.

When I was about to turn off the water, my eyes fell on my fingertips, only to see the blood stains on them, which were particularly glaring against the pale skin.

The blood was still dripping slowly, Yu Xi supported the sink, and found that the person in the mirror was so thin that even the eye sockets looked a little deeper than before, the chin was very thin, the collarbone was clear and distinct, almost abrupt, and the chest covered Only a very thin layer of muscle.

But the color of her lips was red, and she looked almost beautiful. I don't know if it was because she just rushed over her face, or if she was stained with the blood from her nose.

"Are you okay?" A waiter came in to throw out the trash, and when he saw it, he hurried over to ask.

Yu Xi shook his head strenuously, then stretched out his hand to turn on the water, and flushed his face.

It took about seven or eight minutes before the nosebleed stopped. Yu Xi took the clean face towel handed to him by the waiter and said softly, "Thank you."

When he walked outside the restaurant, the night wind blew by. He was a little awake, but his heart was still surprisingly calm.

Driving back to the set, Yu Xi stayed in the car for more than ten minutes before the shooting time.

He huddled in the back seat under a blanket, checked the doctor's visit time in the internal medicine department, and then hung up on a Thursday afternoon, just in time to go over after recording the variety show.

I took my temperature and it was 37 degrees, which is fine.

Yu Xi fell asleep for a while, but he couldn't fall asleep when he closed his eyes, so he searched the Internet and took a few casual glances.

Nosebleed...persistent low-grade fever.

Yu Xi held the phone in a daze, the cold light from the screen made his cheeks paler.

It wasn't until someone knocked lightly on the car window a few times that Yu Xi sat up.He opened the car door, and a warm roasted sweet potato was stuffed in his hand, and the sweet smell wafted into his nostrils.

"Why didn't you go in when you came back?" Fu Younian waited for him on the set for a long time. He felt that the roasted sweet potatoes were getting cold, and thought that there were too many people using microwave ovens every day. She wanted to go out and call him, but saw Yu Xi's car parked outside the set.

"Sleepy, sleeping." Yu Xi sat forward, resting his forehead on Fu Younian's arm.

Fu Younian reached out and rubbed his hair, and tore off a bit of the charred skin on the outside of the roasted sweet potato, and said, "Taste a bite, and eat the rest if you feel hungry at night."

"Delicious." Yu Xi took a bite.

Fu Younian smiled.

"Brother," Yu Xi held Fu Younian's hand, and rubbed his warm cheek against his palm, "Your uncle called me just now."

Fu Younian frowned lightly, but Yu Xi didn't notice.

"What did he tell you?" Fu Younian asked.

"It's nothing." Yu Xi raised his head and smiled at him, his eyes were bright under the lights at night, and his tone was a little happy, "It's cold and you should pay attention to your body, doesn't he hate me so much?"

Fu Younian didn't think he was pretending, so he probably didn't hear it, after all, people usually don't think so much.

Fu Younian said to him exaggeratedly: "It's so nice, then he must like you very much. How about it, can you marry me now?"

Yu Xi heard that Fu Younian was making fun of him, and kicked his calf hard.

"Don't make trouble." Fu Younian pulled him out of the car, took him by the hand and walked to the set.

Yu Xi didn't have a severe fever, and the temperature in his palms didn't change much, just slightly sweaty, but he had been wearing gloves in the car just now, so Fu Younian didn't notice anything wrong.

In the evening, it was mainly for Jiang Chao's scenes, and Yu Xi occasionally went to play for Fu Younian, and most of the time he was waiting by the side.

Jiang Chao started going to Song Xigu's massage shop all day long.

He basically didn't speak, just sat on the other side of the sofa, looking at Song Xigu quietly.

Sometimes Song Xigu didn't even hear that he was coming.

He is still taking medicine, but that medicine may not be able to last his life, at most it is just pain relief.His internal organs were all shattered by the pain, and his gastric juices were churning. He couldn't eat for many days, and it hurt even to drink water.

"Looking forward to our next visit." Song Xigu touched the opened receipt and handed it to the customer who had just finished the massage.

This is the last customer in the store today. He heard the alarm clock reminding him that it was already 07:30 in the evening, so he packed his things and prepared to go home from get off work.

Jiang Chao watched him go out, got up and followed behind him.

On the way home they passed the high school they had attended nearly a decade earlier.

Now is the time for evening self-study and get out of class.

The crowds were bustling.

Jiang Chao stood under the streetlight not far away, watching Song Xigu huddling with the crowd and waiting for the streetlight.

He stood there like a thin and silent shadow, his facial features became more profound and straight under the illness, and the suppressed emotions in his eyes almost overwhelmed him.

He didn't know how many times he had stood on the spot under his feet. He waited for Song Xigu to come out every night during his third year of high school.

An audio-visual store behind him was playing a song, which seemed to be a new song that had just been released. When Jiang Chao didn't leave his job, he often heard the nurses at the consultation desk on that floor listening to it every morning.

"The long alley that can't be walked is so long.

The endless playground turned out to be so small

……

The old place at the school gate is waiting for the embankment

......"

Jiang Chao looked up and saw Song Xigu's back going farther and farther away, his eyes gradually turned red, that busy street was not just an intersection on the map, it suddenly seemed to separate them into two people who would never be able to see each other touch the world.

He didn't dare to ask him, do you remember me?

After all he was going to die.

Fu Younian is a little inclined towards immersive acting, unlike Yu Xi who comes out of the play very quickly, and is less likely to be affected by the content of the play.

Especially the person who acted with him in this movie, he really likes it.

Just now he saw Yu Xi's frail figure squeezed into the crowd, the ground was covered with wet ice and snow, his blind stick slipped instantly when it fell on it, and he felt unspeakably uncomfortable, not the usual sour and jealous feeling. It is bitter and swollen.

After finishing work at night, Yu Xi and Fu Younian walked outside for a while before returning to the hotel.

The nights are not very cold these past few days. It may be that the deep winter has indeed passed, and spring is not far away.

The streets were covered with snow, and Yu Xi's shoes were wet, making his feet a little cold.

"I'll carry you?" Fu Younian looked back.

Yu Xi didn't refuse, she rubbed into his arms, and pulled him to bend down a little.

Fu Younian carried him on his back, and then Yu Xi put his arms around his neck, lying on his back, his warm breath swept over his ears, making it itchy.

"Fu Younian, what's that?" Yu Xi poked out a fingertip from his cuff, and pointed to the building that looked like a lighthouse in the distance.

Fu Younian was not very satisfied, "He called me by my first and last name."

"You talk about Yu Xi Yu Xi every day, and I didn't say anything." Yu Xi patted the back of his head gently.

"Then we are married now, can't you call me something else?" Fu Younian said.

"Who is married to you?" Yu Xi didn't want him to carry her on her back anymore, and struggled to jump off, but was hooked by Fu Younian's legs, unable to move at all.

"You've met my parents before." Fu Younian blushed without heartbeat, and just talked nonsense, "round up is marriage."

"Bah." Yu Xi whispered.

Fu Younian was so flustered by him that he couldn't hold him, his winter clothes were too thick, and his down jacket was very smooth, so he was afraid that he would drop Yu Xi, so he let him down first.

"What will happen if you bark once?" Fu Younian took his hand and put it in his coat pocket.

Yu Xi knew what he wanted to call himself, but he pursed his lips and refused to say it.

"But I called my brother." Yu Xi said.

"Can it be the same?" Fu Younian squeezed his palm.

"It's the same here." Yu Xi shook his hand away.

"Okay," Fu Younian decided to let him go, "If you call me brother or Mr. Fu, I will treat you as husband."

Yu Xi really didn't understand why there was such a brazen person, he blushed and gave him a look, then walked back to the hotel with big strides.

On Wednesday they went to a university in the city to shoot exterior scenes.

It is the plot of Jiang Yan who sneaks back to China to find Song Xigu when he was studying in university abroad.

It happened to be the school where Fu Ying worked.

During the winter vacation, students could not stay in school, and it was not the start time, so only the faculty and staff who occasionally went to deal with it were there. The campus was covered with snow, and it looked very deserted.

Yu Xi and the others were filming under the teaching building, and Fu Ying stood by and watched for a few minutes.

In fact, Yu Xi didn't have many roles today, only two or three fleeting shots, but filming is like this, if there is only one scene, you have to go, and you have to wait by the side if you don't get it.It’s okay for actors who are already famous or popular. If they are group performers, they may wait there for seven or eight hours all day, and finally appear on the scene for a few minutes or even seconds, and it is very likely that they will be cut in the later stage.

Fu Ying didn't ask Yu Xi to go over at first, because she didn't know that Fang was inconvenient, and it was Yu Xi who turned her head and saw her, so she walked over.

Fu Ying's personality is not very good at communication, so she chose to work in the school. Compared with other things, the more important thing is to get along with the students, so that she will not be so stressed.

She didn't know what to say to Yu Xi, so she shared a pack of hot soy milk with Yu Xi. She had brought it to him and Fu Younian on the way, but she realized that it might not be necessary on the way. Something, but it's all here, so just take a look.

Yu Xi held the bag of hot soy milk to warm his hands, and when he saw Fu Ying leaving, he took a sip and drank it, feeling a sense of warmth in his stomach.

His gums were bleeding a bit, and when he went to throw away the plastic bag of soy milk, he saw a faint blood stain on the edge.

After filming the last scene of the afternoon here, Yu Xi didn't follow the crew, he went directly to the variety show crew to prepare for tomorrow's egg battle.

The program group provides the contestants with a special dance room for practice, there is a small practice room for one person, and there is also a larger venue for each group.

Yu Xi went directly to the solo practice room, and danced the dance that he had rehearsed with Solo some time ago.

In the evening, when he was about to go to dinner, he saw Fu Younian sent him a message.

[Fu Younian]: [picture] [picture]

Looks like it was at a charity dinner.

[Fu Younian]: Has the little one eaten?What are you going to have for dinner?

Yu Xi sent him a moving picture.

It's a fish throwing salt on itself with its backhand.

[. ]: I eat myself.

[Fu Younian]: (...)

Yu Xi smiled for a long time, put down his phone and went to find his teammates to go out for dinner.

He barely ate at night, just to avoid stomach ache, he reluctantly picked up some food, and then drank some hot noodle soup.

Tomorrow morning will be this round of recording.

At five or six o'clock in the morning, we set off from the hotel to the stadium.

Yu Xi went over to draw lots first. There were five rounds of battle in total, and the opponents were all different.

These few episodes require the visibility of dance choreography. Dance is often an interpretation of a story, and hip-hop is the same. Actions can also be used to represent a certain symbolic meaning, and a complete world will be presented to the audience while the dance is completed.

The more touching, the stronger the visual impact and the more shocking the effect.

Yu Xi’s last issue was mainly lock dance, but this issue has changed to jazz. This is his best field, and he is almost at his fingertips. Every movement has long been formed into muscle memory, and it is also engraved in the deepest part of his mind.

In the first few rounds of battle, Yu Xi only had a slight shortness of breath. After the fourth round, he gradually lost his strength and began to feel dizzy.

He didn't stop, and still insisted on finishing the last round.

By the time he got off the field, his back was drenched in cold sweat.

The bones all over the body were clamoring, and the red light ordering to stop flashed.

When Fu Younian called, the trembling of his fingertips hadn't stopped, and it took more than ten seconds before he pressed the connect button with difficulty.

"Is it over?" Fu Younian asked him, "Shall I pick you up?"

"No, I have to go out in the afternoon," Yu Xi lied, "I'm going to my grandma, and I'll go back to the set in the evening."

Fu Younian didn't suspect that Yu Xi would go to grandma's place about twice a month, so it's been a long time.

"Well, then I'll go back to the set first, and I'll wait for you tonight." Fu Younian said.

"Okay." Yu Xi responded.

Yu Xi rested in the lounge of the program group for half an hour, thinking that he had made an appointment to go to the hospital in the afternoon, and it was almost time, so he opened his eyes.When I got up again, I was dizzy and almost lost my footing, but luckily I held onto the back of the sofa.

He went to the private bathroom and locked the door behind him.

Yu Xi dare not tell Fu Younian now, he has an intuition that this time is different from the past.

How many days has it been?

He suddenly couldn't remember.

He stood silently in front of the sink, and the thin stream of water completely covered his feeble heartbeat and breathing. The water was mixed with a light pink color, which was diluted blood, continuously dripping into the drain.Occasionally, a few drops didn't have time to wash off, and fell on the porcelain white sink, dripping bloody flowers.

Yu Xi thought about it, but suddenly couldn't hold back a smile.

He thought that on the set that day, he was overwhelmed by the desire he had grown up, and thought that he was shooting sex scenes with Fu Younian in front of so many people, so his blood surged up.

Yu Xi thought of many ways to leave, whether he could choose actively, or passively wait for his fate, but they were all before meeting Fu Younian.

If it is really what he guessed, maybe there is nothing wrong with it.

He has no regrets now.

He has a home, and finally realizes the feeling of being cared for by his relatives.He has people he likes, and the people he likes also like him. He has done what he wanted to do in his previous life but didn't finish it. He has gone to many places, and all the unsatisfactory things have been fulfilled.

But he might not be able to give Fu Younian a complete satisfaction.

Only this matter, every time I think about it, every tiny blood vessel in my heart hurts.

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Note: Quoted song "Sorrow" Lin Youjia

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