After wearing a sick and weak white moonlight, I collapse every day

The closer it was to New Year's Day, Yu Xi became more and more restless, and he didn't even think about going out to play, especially the night before going home, he tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep.

"I knew I wouldn't have told you in advance," Fu Younian covered his eyes, trying to make him sleep, "Don't be afraid, I told them that I will take you there."

Fu Younian told him about the situation at home, and told him that the person he met while playing games was probably his cousin.

Yu Xi had heard some bits and pieces from Fu Le, and with the words of Fu Younian, he almost understood what was going on.

"My uncle may not accept my sexuality yet," Fu You received a phone call from home the day before yesterday, and the other party agreed to bring Yu Xi over there, but his tone was still not satisfied, "Don't take anything he says to heart, it's not for you of."

Fu Younian lowered his head, cupped Yu Xi's face and kissed him.

"...What about the others?" Yu Xi asked.

"My aunt should like you very much," Fu Younian smiled, "She also asked me to see your photos and praised you for your good looks."

Yu Xi was still listless, listless and unable to sleep, leaning against his arms without making a sound.

"If you don't want to talk to Fu Le, just leave him alone. I don't know if Fu Ying is at home, but she won't make things difficult for you anyway." Fu Younian told him.

The more Yu Xi thought about it, the more he felt that he might be kicked out tomorrow, and only Fu Younian would like him if his mind was broken.

He stroked Fu Younian's head affectionately.

It was very difficult for Yu Xi to go shopping with Fu Younian blatantly in broad daylight. The probability of being recognized was basically 100%, so he bought something online and planned to take it with him when he went to Fu Younian's house.

On the day I came home from the ski resort, I received a wave of express delivery.

Fu Younian didn't care what he bought, and only gave some advice when Yu Xi came to ask him with his mobile phone.

"Is this too little?" Yu Xi was nervous and anxious, hugging Snowball was about to bald it, Xueqiu made a weak protest, Yu Xi finally touched its tail and let go.But he was so nervous, Fu Younian was still watching the script indifferently, and Yu Xi kicked him unbearably.

"I think a few things are enough. My uncle has no other hobbies. He just drinks tea and plays chess." Fu Younian sat down on the carpet with him, resting his chin on his shoulders. Some supplements."

Yu Xi tidied up everything according to what he said, but she was still very disturbed when she saw it.

"If you drive me out, I won't go next time." Yu Xi bowed his head and said.

Fu Younian didn't understand why he persisted in thinking that he would be driven away, so he jokingly said, "Then you don't want me anymore?"

"..." Yu Xi glanced back at him, and said in a solemn tone, "You should marry someone else."

Fu Younian: "..."

Fu Younian reached out to touch his back, hooked off the hem of his trousers, pulled him into his arms and made him cry.

As soon as we arrived on New Year's Day, a long string of little red lanterns were hung up on the street, and occasionally we could hear the sound of firecrackers, especially at Uncle Fu Younian's house. The neighborhood is old and the people who live there are old neighbors who have lived there for decades. , moved out of the alley together.There has long been no real estate in this place, and no one cares about setting off firecrackers everywhere. There are wet red firecrackers everywhere in the snow.

In fact, the environment is really not good. There are several cramped and old buildings, the corridors are full of debris, and the light bulbs are on and off.

Fu Younian was a little worried at first whether Yu Xi would mind, after all he knew that Yu Xi's family was no longer just rich, but a real wealthy family, many people in the circle wanted to be among the upper class, and no one wanted to get in touch with the Yu family.

But after thinking about it, he realized that his worries were really unnecessary. He clearly knew what kind of person Yu Xi was.

"Do you really want to go up?" Yu Xi looked back at the building, so nervous that his palms were sweating.

"You can wait a few minutes before going up." Fu Younian raised his eyebrows and smiled, but he was not in a hurry.

In the morning, Yu Xi almost wanted to come over in a suit, but was hugged by Fu Younian and put on a down jacket that he usually wears.

Standing next to the car now, seeing the fluffy and thick white down jacket on my body with the fluffy edges through the window glass, I feel like a fat snowman or a polar bear who weighs several hundred pounds.He also felt that his face was too pale, his lips were also pale, and he looked very sick.

"It's so red from the cold, even the tip of the nose is red." After hearing what he said, Fu Younian lowered his head and pinched his cheek.

Even Yu Xi's lips were reddish from the cold. Although his cheeks were very white, it was not that unhealthy paleness. It was just his natural skin color. Especially in winter, it looked so white that it was transparent. Fu Younian didn't see where he was sick. Yes, I just think it's cute.

Fu Younian put the down jacket hat on his head, pulled the brim of the hat to cover his face, lowered his head to kiss his lips, and sucked a few more times, making those two lips red and slightly hot.

"Is this okay?" Fu Younian asked him.

Yu Xi was so angry that he wanted to hit someone every day, and he didn't want to talk to him anymore, so he went upstairs to get his things in the trunk.

Fu Younian wanted to help him get it, but Yu Xi refused to give it to him.

"I want to take it up by myself to look more sincere." Yu Xi said.

Fu Younian had no choice but to follow behind him empty-handed.

But Yu Xi's confidence only supported him to walk to the door, and when he was about to knock on the door, he didn't dare to knock, so he dragged Fu Younian to knock.

"It really did." Fu Younian whispered to him.

Yu Xi nodded nervously.

Fu Younian raised his hand and waved it by the door, couldn't help laughing a few times, Yu Xi felt that he was really annoying, so he took his hand and knocked on the door.

It was Fu Younian's aunt who came to open the door, she was stunned for a few seconds when she saw Yu Xi, and then pulled them in.

"Hello, Auntie." Yu Xi put all the things in his hand on the cabinet by the door.

"Hey, come in and sit down," my aunt gave Fu Younian a push, "Take you...my partner to sit on the sofa."

There seemed to be no one else at home, so Yu Xi sat on the sofa cautiously and looked around for a while.

It looked like a house with three bedrooms and one living room. The kitchen was connected to the living room with a sliding door in between.The home decorations and furniture such as sofas and coffee tables are all old and warm, with a yellowish smell of time.

There was an owl wall clock hanging on the wall as soon as he entered the door. Yu Xi remembered that his uncle's house also had exactly the same clock, and it seemed to be very popular at that time.

There was a light cough from the study room, with dissatisfaction of being neglected, Fu Younian smiled, and asked his aunt, "Did uncle go out to play chess with others?"

"No, that old thing," the aunt said in a distasteful tone, then changed her smiling face, and stuffed a box of yogurt into Yu Xi's hand, "Sister went to work, Lele was still at school, they both came back at night, Let's have lunch first."

"Thank you." Yu Xi stretched out his hand to take it, holding it without daring to drink.

Maybe because she noticed Yu Xi's restraint, my aunt put on her apron and went to work in the kitchen, leaving the two of them in the living room.

Fu Younian took the box of yogurt in Yu Xi's hand and put a straw on him, reached out and touched his face, and said, "I'll go to the study to see my uncle first, you sit here for a while, I'll be out soon .”

Yu Xi nodded.

The yogurt was warmed in advance, and Yu Xi drank half a box.

He found that Fu Younian's aunt was different from what he had imagined, and also different from his aunt. The hand that was holding his wrist just now was slightly callused, but it was very warm.

Fu Younian didn't know what he said to his uncle when he went to the study, but he did come out after a short while.

"I stewed coke chicken wings and a piece of fish at noon, and fried a few other vegetables, and made dumplings in the evening. If there is anything you want to eat, tell my aunt, and I will buy it later." My aunt came out of the kitchen, wiped her hands and smiled. Tell Yu Xi.

"It's already a lot," Fu Younian closed the study door, and said after hearing, "He's not picky about food, he can eat anything."

Yu Xi secretly pinched the back of Fu Younian's hand, and Fu Younian just rubbed his hair.

Fu Younian's uncle hadn't come out of the study. Yu Xi felt that his uncle might not like him very much, but he didn't know what to do, so he couldn't help looking at the closed study door.

It was almost noon, and the food was on the table, and my aunt went to the study to call someone.

"Stop pretending to look at your few books, and read every day if you know a few words," the aunt closed the book in front of him, "don't even say to help me, and don't entertain anyone."

"You called me here, but I didn't agree." Fu Younian's uncle still couldn't accept that Fu Younian brought a boy back.

"That kid looks really good-looking," my aunt said while sitting on the sofa, "You should go and see him first."

"No matter how good-looking he is, he's still a man." The uncle sighed.

Of the two children left by his brother, one died of illness, and the remaining one may not plan to have children in the future, which always makes him a little unbearable.

"It's fine if he likes it or not, you are in charge of the world."

"Then what should we do in the future? Are they going to adopt them?"

"You haven't raised enough children?" said the aunt. "You haven't raised any children in this life. Let them go."

Fu Younian's uncle bowed his head and said nothing for a long time, and then he argued, "I just heard you ask, that child is only 21 years old, which is too young."

"He turned 22 after his birthday a few days ago," my aunt couldn't stand him anymore, she got up and went out, "Do you like to eat or not, it's annoying."

But in the end he went out to have a sullen meal.

Occasionally looked at Yu Xi a few times during the meal, and felt that he looked quite obedient.

I watched TV for a while at noon, and it just happened that the last episode of the escape variety show was broadcast recently. At that time, they also recorded a blessing, which was broadcast on New Year's Day.Yu Xi always felt a little embarrassed watching himself on TV, but Fu Younian's aunt kept pulling him to watch.

After watching that episode, his cheeks and the tips of his ears were red. Fu Younian followed him and bit his ears while he was going to the bathroom.

Fu Ying is busy with the evaluation of professional titles in the school, as well as her thesis, which she plans to submit in the next year, so she is quite busy during this time.

She didn't hear Fu Younian say who his boyfriend was, but she was stunned when she saw Yu Xi when she entered the door.

A few days ago, she was watching Yu Xi's hip-hop competition and voted for him several times.

On the show, Yu Xi generally dresses coldly and low-key, doesn’t talk much, and rarely smiles, and the occasional scenes with a little smile in his eyes are captured by fans and go crazy, but seeing real people doesn’t seem to be so There is a sense of distance, and it looks a little shy.

"...Sister." Yu Xi helped her hang up the scarf.

Fu Ying was also a little embarrassed and smiled at him.

Fu Younian still didn't talk to Fu Ying very much, they had always been like this, and the people around them were used to it, Fu Ying went to the study to continue writing her thesis, and only came out to help make dumplings when she was making dinner.

In the evening, Fu Younian borrowed the kitchen to make sweet chestnut soup and chicken breast with mushroom cream for Yu Xi.

"There's no more brown sugar. Xiaoying is going to buy a pack for mom." My aunt said in the kitchen.

Yu Xi quickly said: "I'll go."

It's just that he can't do anything, and he can't make dumplings. It doesn't feel good to sit here and wait for dinner.

"Take your phone," Fu Younian was still looking at the fire, unable to accompany him, with a little smile, he lowered his head and whispered to him, "Call my brother if you get lost."

Yu Xi was very disdainful, but still took the phone.

The convenience store is just a few tens of meters away from the community. Yu Xi was wearing a mask and a down jacket with a big fluffy hat, walking on the street like an Eskimo. He went to buy a bag of brown sugar, and it was already dark when he returned. Walking into the community, I heard someone fighting near the abandoned fitness equipment.

That area is full of messy bushes and low pine trees, covered with thick snow, and under the street lamps, we can see that there are disorderly footprints on the snow.

"Is that the child of the old Fu's family?" Several aunts looked at it and pointed, "Why don't you go up and tell him, before he breaks it."

Yu Xi heard what they said, but didn't think much about it. The one who was beaten was wearing a high school uniform, and Fu Le was about to graduate from junior college.

He didn't want to be nosy, so he lifted his feet and walked towards the entrance of the corridor, and heard the dull sound of fists hitting his body again. The two people who did it looked like they were drunk. He took out his phone and wanted to call the police.

As a result, one of them seemed to have sensed something, and stopped to look in Yu Xi's direction.

Yu Xi was unprepared, and was intentionally stumbled over by the other party, slapped his shoulder, and the phone slid out and fell to the ground, frowning immediately.

Some time ago, his mobile phone was broken, and Fu Younian bought it for him less than half a month ago.

Yu Xi grabbed the man's back collar to make him turn around, raised his hand into a fist and threw it directly at the man's chin, before the man got up, kicked him in the stomach again, and kicked him to the ground again.

The high school student was still being beaten on the snow, Yu Xi simply didn't call the police, and went over to grab the person who started with a cold face.

"Who the hell is dragging me?" The little bastard spit out the smoke in his mouth, turned his head angrily, and was dazzled by those cold and delicate eyes, and the bridge of his nose felt a sharp pain in the next second, which was sore and numb. He couldn't make a sound.

Yu Xi let go, took the money he had spent on repairing the screen from their wallets, then patted the ashes on his hands, turned around and picked up the bag of brown sugar that fell on the ground and his phone with a broken screen.

"Brother, why haven't I seen you in this area, thank you, thank you very much." The high school student also followed Yu Xi towards the residential building.

The screen of the phone went black, and I don't know where it was broken. Yu Xi's face was not very good-looking.

In winter, the ground is frozen hard, especially at night, and the mobile phone will be useless if it is dropped.

"I'm sorry, or I'll compensate you for this phone, and then I'll ask them for money when I'm free."

Yu Xi didn't want to talk to him, and hurried to take the brown sugar back, so he put on his hat and walked away without saying a word.

In the end, the man actually followed him upstairs, Yu Xi stopped and turned around: "Don't follow me."

"I'm not with you, I live here too," the man said.

Yu Xi was skeptical, and stopped at the door of Uncle Fu Younian's house, and found that the man also stopped, and his heart was filled with anger.The other party also seemed to find that he was in a bad mood, so he didn't dare to speak any more, took out the key and reached out to open the door.

"..." Yu Xi was stunned for a moment.

When he looked up and saw Fu Younian, the man grabbed Yu Xi and said, "Brother, are you my brother's boyfriend? Let me tell you, you don't look like you live here."

Fu Le was covered in slush, and his school uniform was filthy. When Fu Ying came out and saw him, she slapped him on the back of the head and scolded him in a low voice: "Who are you fighting with again? You know it every day." Fighting and picking things up, I really admire you."

Yu Xi was shot by an arrow suddenly, guilty of not daring to speak, he changed his slippers to find Fu Younian, and told Fu Younian what happened just now.

"He hit me first, and the phone broke." Yu Xi reached out to hug him, and tiptoed into his arms.

Fu Younian glanced at him and said nothing.

Yu Xi was anxious, fearing that Fu Younian would be angry with him, so he showed him the phone with a black screen, but there was no response at all when he poked it, and he couldn't even turn it on, "I'm wrong brother, I won't fight with others. "

"Are you injured yourself?" Fu Younian asked him.

Yu Xi raised his hand to show him that it wasn't scratched at all. The two gangsters looked like they were just kicking and beating randomly, and it was impossible for them to beat him.

"But you didn't mean that Fu Le was in college, why is he wearing a high school uniform?" Yu Xi was still a little breathless when he thought of the fake high school student.

Fu Le was beaten outside, and was beaten up by his father again when he came back. He was so wronged. He heard Yu Xi talking to Fu Younian at the door of the kitchen. It’s for performances.”

"..." Yu Xi found that no matter whether he was in the game or outside, he was speechless towards Fu Le.

At dinner in the evening, Fu Le was still complaining that he was stopped and beaten for no reason. He hadn't seen those two people for many years, and they didn't have much grudges before. It was only because he was drunk that he didn't like his actions. He was not wrong at all.

On this point, Fu Le has been frank since he was a child, and has never made up nonsense.

During the day, the atmosphere at home was always dull, and people only said a few words occasionally. After Fu Le came back, it suddenly became lively. People around him made various jokes about him, and he didn't mind.

He even ran to serve Yu Xi a bowl of dumpling soup.

When Fu Younian was making dumplings, he secretly made a mark on one of the dumpling wrappers where the coins were placed. When his aunt saw it, he smiled a little embarrassedly. The aunt didn't say anything, and patted him on the shoulder with a smile. back.When I fished it out, I happened to see it again, so I put it in Yu Xi's bowl.

Yu Xi bit something hard inside, a little dazed, and pulled it away to show him, Fu Younian patted his head.

After dinner, Fu Younian called Fu Le over on the balcony.

After so many years, Fu Le could barely remember how long Fu Younian hadn't spoken to him.

"Brother?" Fu Le stood hesitantly at the balcony door.

"What's the name of the person who beat you?" Fu Younian asked him while holding the phone.

Fuller said the name.

The person on the other side of the phone heard it, so Fu Younian raised his hand to hang up, and then returned the money that Fu Le had stuffed into Yu Xi's pocket privately just now, but Yu Xi didn't want it, "He said he didn't need you."

Fu Le just heard Fu Ying talk about Fu Ruzhuo's suicide a few days ago, and he was stunned when he heard it. It was indeed Fu Ying who did something wrong. He shouldn't have said such hurtful things outside Fu Ruzhuo's ward, and he even complained about it. Fu Younian has been around for more than ten years.

"I'm sorry, brother." Fu Le said to Fu Younian when they went out.

Fu Younian is not completely indifferent, but it has been too long, there is no need to say anything, and what he once felt bitter about, is now as light as a feather, instead of spending time minding the past, he would rather Take Yuxi out to play for a few more days.

"Forget it." Fu Younian said after a moment of silence.

When it was time for supper at night, my aunt cooked a pot of glutinous glutinous rice balls, and each of them got a bowl for them.

A handful of sweet-scented osmanthus is sprinkled on the sweet and glutinous soup.

After serving the table, everyone was stunned. Ever since Fu Ruzhuo died, Fu Younian left home, and they haven't seen each other for so many years.

Fu Ying's eyes turned red all of a sudden, and she turned her head to eat while holding the bowl.

"Little Xi, have a taste." The aunt sat down beside her and handed Yu Xi a small spoon.

Yu Xi took it and picked one up. The small glutinous rice balls were stuffed with red bean paste and melted in the mouth. He pursed his lips and whispered, "It's delicious."

My aunt carried her back and wiped away her tears.

In the night outside, someone was setting off fireworks not far away, and there was a sound outside the window. The Lantern Festival party was so lively on the TV, it seemed that the time had suddenly gone back to more than ten years ago. When she came back from get off work every day, she could see those children gathered together Do your homework on the not-so-spacious coffee table.

But her hair is almost white now.

Seeing her get up and go to the kitchen, Fu Younian patted Yu Xi's shoulder lightly, told him to continue eating, and then followed.

"What are you doing here? Leave him alone." My aunt said back to him.

Fu Younian brought her some tissues.

If his parents passed away, his uncle and aunt did not take him and Fu Ruzhuo in. The only way for them to go was the orphanage. It is completely unimaginable what life would be like there, but he has not thanked him for so many years. A thank you seems flimsy.

Fu Younian gently put his arms around her shoulders, seeing the wrinkles in the corners of her eyes, the eyes that looked cloudy after shedding too many tears, smiled, and said in a low voice, "Mom."

One word was enough to make tears burst, she covered her mouth and almost cried out, raised her hand and pushed Fu Younian out of the kitchen.

Yu Xi was a little nervous, he lowered his head and took a bite of the glutinous rice balls, but Fu Younian hadn't come out yet.

It's already past 10:30, and there is still a bedroom reserved for Fu Younian, but it might be a bit crowded for two people to sleep.

Fu Younian went over to take a look, it was wider than a single bed, he lowered his head and asked Yu Xi, Yu Xi had no objection, so he went over to spread the quilt with him.

Yu Xi went to take a shower, then ran back to the room, wet into Fu Younian's arms.

"I need to wipe my hair." Yu Xi took his hand to touch the ends of his hair that was still dripping.

Fu Younian took the towel from him.

"Does your aunt like me too?" Yu Xi asked Fu Younian in a low voice as the towel hung from his head, covering his eyes.

"No, she likes you that much." Fu Younian said.

Yu Xi didn't quite believe it, he was a little frustrated, and felt that he couldn't satisfy Fu Younian's family.

Fu Younian took away the towel, lowered his head and kissed Yu Xi's forehead, and said, "I'm sorry, she may have thought of you as my younger brother."

"Why?" Yu Xi turned around and hooked his neck, "Do you and I look alike?"

Fu Younian shook his head, "My brother looks more like my uncle. You two are about the same age. If he was alive, he would be 21 this year."

Yu Xi still doesn't quite know why Fu Younian's younger brother committed suicide. He doesn't dare to ask, but Fu Younian doesn't mind.

"I was still in school, and I was going to be filming, so I didn't have time to accompany him in the hospital every day because of my salary," Fu Younian said, "When I went to see him at night, I always heard him crying for pain. My legs hurt, I felt hot all over my body, I was easily infected with other diseases, I couldn’t eat after chemotherapy, I vomited when I drank water, and I was dehydrated because of the bone piercing pain..."

Fu Ruzhuo probably lived in pain and torment in those few years. People around him died every now and then. There was no bone marrow that could be transplanted, and there was no hope.

No one knew how much he wished to have the tubes off his body, even if he was out in the sun for a day.

Many patients will experience such depression and depression. Whether it is a chronic disease or a severe terminal illness, it is not only the disease that can kill people, but also the person himself.

Even Fu Younian didn't understand, he had no time to take care of his emotions, his only thought was to make money, if Fu Ruzhuo hadn't committed suicide and continued to wait for treatment, Fu Younian didn't know what he would do for money in the end.

Yu Xi once heard Luo Chen persuade Fu Younian to break up with him.

At that time, he didn't understand why, but he didn't ask, and returned home as if nothing had happened. Only now did he suddenly understand that in Luo Chen's eyes, he was also the kind of patient who might lose control of his emotions.

"I'll find an opportunity to mention it to them a little bit." Fu Younian hugged Yu Xi and lightly pecked his lips.

"It's okay." Yu Xi blushed a little, Fu Younian always liked to kiss him like this, "They treat you so well, if they take me as... it's okay to feel comforted."

After finishing speaking, Yu Xi rubbed Fu Younian's brow bone with his fingertips, "Anyway, it's enough that you like me."

Fu Younian turned over and pushed him down on the bed, pressed his waist against him, the wire bed under him creaked with the movement, Yu Xi kicked him away by kicking his shoulders, his ears were slightly hot, and he was clutching the waist of his trousers Don't let go, and scolded him in a low voice: "I will be heard later, shameless."

Fu Younian didn't really think about what to do with him here, he just teased him, laughed for a long time after listening, and wanted to hold his hand.

Yu Xi refused to let go until he died, but unfortunately the bed was too small and there was no place to hide, so he was finally pulled over by his ankles.

Fu Younian lowered his head to kiss him, feeling that he couldn't kiss enough, even the curl of his eyelashes was cute.

He didn't live in this room with Fu Ruzhuo when he was a child. Fu Ruzhuo's belongings were all sorted out and put in the basement. He opened the door and entered once by chance, only to find out that it might have been specially arranged for him after he left home. It's all from high school.

Textbooks, globes, clean school uniform coats hanging in the closet... even the curtains and bed sheets were the style he liked at that time.

At that time, he felt emotion and embarrassment, but he didn't feel that this place was like home.

It wasn't until today that he suddenly felt a little bit at home.

Most of this feeling seems to come from Yu Xi.

"It's so strange," Fu Younian stroked Yu Xi's cheeks and soft earlobes, and looked at his amber pupils reflecting his own outline. This is not a deceptive love sentence, because even he himself doesn't quite understand it. "Being by your side is like coming home."

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-11-1321:57:46~2020-11-1422:26:32期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Sparrow 2;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 24 bottles of Sparrrow;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!