After wearing a sick and weak white moonlight, I collapse every day

Fu Younian drove him back to the hotel where the crew was staying.

Fu Younian didn't speak again along the way, and Yu Xi occasionally had nothing to say and wanted to hear him say something, but Fu Younian didn't make much noise, so Yu Xi didn't bother him to drive again.After getting off the car, Yu Xi went to hold his hand, but Fu Younian didn't avoid him, and held his cold hand in his palm.

Yu Xi went back to the room with Fu Younian. When he was on the set, he often stayed with Fu Younian at night until it was time to go to bed before leaving.

Some time ago, Fu Younian sent the script to someone to review through some internal relations, including some of the samples they had already filmed, so as not to be stuck in the future. After the results were released, they found that there were still many deletions and changes in the content. , I plan to take advantage of these few days to change out the part that has not been filmed first, and the storyboard also needs to be redrawn.

Every time Fu Younian was sitting on the bedside to change the script, Yu Xi would watch beside him, sometimes sleeping next to him for a while.

After returning to the hotel, Yu Xi felt that Fu Younian didn't seem to be very angry with him, as usual, he boiled hot milk for him, mixed half a spoonful of autumn pear cream in it, and gave it to him to drink.

Yu Xi sat on the sofa drinking the glass of milk, saw Fu Younian went to take a shower, opened the notebook to change the lines and the rest of the storyboard, then quickly ran to the bathroom to wash up, and then leaned over to squeeze him.

"Can I sleep here at night?" Yu Xi put a pillow on his lap.

During the few days when he was sick, he lived with Fu Younian, and Yu Xi thought that he would go back and stay by himself later, but he didn't feel used to it.And he wanted to stay with Fu Younian very much today, and he was reluctant to leave.

"It's up to you," Fu Younian pulled the quilt over him, pointed to the notebook, and said, "I can't type anymore."

Yu Xi moved away from his lap, turned around to hug the pillow, and then rubbed against Fu Younian's side, resting her forehead on his waist, reaching out to hook the tie of his nightgown.

Fu Younian had only edited more than 500 words, and he felt that Yu Xi's fingers hooking his clothes became softer and softer, and his breathing became even. He looked down at him, as if he had fallen asleep.

Yu Xi's wrist was still red, Fu Younian put the notebook on the bedside table, lay down and half hugged him, pulled his wrist and kissed him.

The skin there is fair and clean, although it is red, it is also light in color, and there are neither hideous scars nor bloody flesh.

Yu Xi fell into a drowsy sleep, and felt that Fu Younian was holding him, so she pushed away a little of the quilt that was in the middle, and burrowed into Fu Younian's arms, buried her cheek in the hollow of his shoulder, and put her hand on his back to hang him. Only then did he fall asleep peacefully with the warm soles of his feet against his calves.

Fu Younian patted him on the back lightly a few times.

After waking up the next day, Yu Xi was still very sleepy, reached out his hand to touch his sweater, put it on in a daze, and then Fu Younian led him into the car and took him to the set.

In a trance, there is a feeling of being reluctant to go to school but being dragged by parents.

When he arrived at the set, Yu Xi went to wash his face with cold water before putting on makeup, and only then did he wake up completely.

Their filming has been going on for nearly a month. According to the number of episodes, at least one-third of the filming has been completed. According to this progress, it may be more than a week earlier than the estimated time of completion.

During the day, the filming was still done step by step, and at night, a scene in which He Wen took Ji Jia out to play in the middle of the night was moved forward.

It was getting dark earlier and earlier during this time, and it was completely dark before seven o'clock.

Yu Xi went to change his clothes. He basically didn't wear any clothes without holes in this scene. Even the black padded jacket he was wearing now had a few stitches on his elbows.

It looked a bit decadent and dusty, but Yu Xi didn't look sloppy when he put it on. The night wind made the tip of his nose flushed, making his cheeks whiter and more transparent, and his eyes shone brightly under the lamp. , making it almost impossible to notice what he was wearing.

But after the scene was played, when he entered the role, he became the somewhat cowardly He Wen.

Ji Jia transferred from a big city with her father and stepmother. She has a kind of temperament that children from small places don't have, and her grades are very good, which is beyond the imagination of everyone in her class and even the whole school.

So much so that some boys who even planned to mix up their scores in the college entrance examination had an inexplicable respect for the report card at the door of the class.

Ji Jia is a typical good student, serious and self-disciplined, she never even goes out to play, and does homework when she has free time.

Until tonight, listening to her parents arguing next door, full of nasty invective and hysteria, she didn't think she could stay any longer.She always locked the door when she was studying, so she was not worried that someone would come in and find that she was not there, so she stepped on the desk, turned over the window and wanted to go out, but met He Wen who was going to fetch water in the yard.

Her later memories were very vague, and when she regained consciousness, she was already standing with He Wen in the alley where the first snow fell.

He Wen took her hand, both hands were inexplicably wet with sweat, but they never separated.

In the snow-covered alley, running forward aimlessly, the boredom in his heart seemed to be carried away by the cold wind, Ji Jia almost liked the feeling of stepping on the snow.

The long shot gradually zoomed out, and Yu Xi felt that Ye Jingzhe was running out of strength, and the hand held by him was also getting weaker, so she could only hold on for a while.

"It's almost enough to run to the front corner." Yu Xi told her.

Ye Jingzhe had no choice but to bite the bullet and continue running, otherwise if this one was NG, she really couldn't bear to retake it.

Han Cheng's camera was pushed far away, and if they wanted to finish this short shot, they had to have continuity in their performance, so the filming was very tiring, and when they finally heard the loudspeaker behind them telling them to stop, Yu Xi also Feeling a little tired, she let go of Ye Jingzhe and supported her knees to catch her breath for a while.

"Okay, it's been hard work, let's go to dinner and add chicken legs for you." Han Cheng said with a smile.

In order to hurry up, they took this photo without eating at night, and now they are all so hungry that their chests stick to their backs.

Yu Xi lifted the insulation cover of the lunch box, and inside were drunk shrimp, roasted pork belly, baby vegetables with vinegar, and roasted eggplant and crispy pork with salt and pepper on the lower layer.

Ye Jingzhe next to him also took a breath while holding the lunch box, and said, "Director Han won the lottery, right?"

Yu Xi smiled after listening.

But after eating a few pieces of crispy meat, Yu Xi always felt that something was wrong today, but he couldn't remember it.He looked around subconsciously, and when he saw Fu Younian who was having dinner not far away with Han Cheng, he realized that Fu Younian hardly seemed to have come to him today.

Normally, Fu Younian would come over to give him something to eat from time to time, and when he passed by him, he would touch his hair uneasily, which annoyed him, but today he never did.

Yu Xi was a little at a loss, bowed his head and ate a drunken shrimp, and suddenly felt that it was not particularly delicious.

He took out his mobile phone and sent Fu Younian a message.

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"After the filming is finished, we will expedite the post-production. I will submit it for review and then sign up for awards." Han Cheng drank a can of beer and said to Fu Younian, "If you are lucky, you may be able to release "Spring Prisoner" as well." come out."

Fu Younian can't deny it, the current review is based on this standard, and it will take at least two months for them to complete the filming and production, and no one can say what will happen by then.

He picked up some food and saw that his phone lighted up next to it. It was a picture sent by Yu Xi. When he clicked on it and saw the little sea otter, he also found an emoji and sent it.

[. ]: Do you want this little crispy meat? [picture]

[Fu Younian]: I also have them here.

Yu Xi continued to send messages to Fu Younian, Fu Younian has been patiently replying to him, but Yu Xi still felt that something was wrong, he hurriedly finished the meal, Ye Jingzhe only ate one-third of the rice and a little bit of cooking Eggplant, his lunch box is already empty.

"Fish, have you always had such a good appetite?" Ye Jingzhe's almond eyes widened.

The two gradually became acquainted, and sometimes Ye Jingzhe would call him like the rest of the crew.

"It's okay." Yu Xi put away the lunch box a little embarrassedly, and sat beside him to read the script.

He always felt that Fu Younian was still angry with him, although he didn't know what was wrong with him, he felt that the only fault was that he didn't know that Fu Younian would go to him, and Fu Younian was scared in the end.But it's hard to predict, after all, he never told Fu Younian the address of Yu's house.

Fu Younian waited for a while, but Yu Xi didn't send any more messages.

After dinner, there was no immediate filming, the day was full of activity, everyone was already very tired, Han Cheng took the lead and pulled a few people to play Texas Hold'em, and even called Yu Xi and Ye Jingzhe over .

Ye Jingzhe knew a little bit, but Yu Xi had never played before, so he said, "I don't really understand this."

"You'll be fine after playing a few times." The production director is also there, looking up with a smile and saying, "It's not difficult to learn, once you understand the rules, you'll understand after playing a few games."

Yu Xi still wanted to find Fu Younian, but he looked back, but didn't see where Fu Younian went after dinner, so he asked, "Isn't Teacher Fu playing?"

"Him?" Han Cheng poured out the cards and put them on the folding table in front of him, "If you call him over, the people at this table will lose money today."

"It's true. I played it a few times when I was filming "Spring Prisoner". I almost lost my pants," said the cameraman with lingering fear. "Later, Mr. Fu didn't play with us very much. Watch from the side."

Yu Xi sat down at the table.

They don't gamble. There are basins of washed grapes on the table, and they bet on the number of grapes.

Yu Xi propped his elbows on his knees, listening to them explain the rules of Texas Hold'em, he was confused, what is betting and raising, where to start, he didn't understand at all, and in the end he just watched how others played, Followed blindly, losing three games in a row.

The grapes were divided into several small bunches, and Yu Xi didn't even taste the taste.

Yu Xi has no desire to win or lose, but it is quite depressing to keep losing in a game of cards. He restarted the game, looked down at the cards seriously, and when he was about to raise, a hand came over behind him and pressed down. his hand.

"If you don't play like this, why are you still teaching behind your back?" Han Cheng looked at Fu Younian with a smile.

"Is it interesting for you to bully him as a novice?" Fu Younian said lazily, pulled away Yu Xi's fingertips, and glanced at the remaining cards in his hand.

Fu Younian's fingertips were warm, and when he spoke, his breath brushed against the side of his neck, and Yu Xi hid to the side with red ears uncomfortably.

It’s true that Yu Xi was playing for the first time, so everyone acquiesced that Fu Younian would teach him occasionally. Halfway through the game, Yu Xi finally understood the nouns such as flush draw and pot, which was very thrilling. won a hand.

They played a few more rounds, everyone took a rest, and the grapes were not divided seriously, so they just took a few bunches if they wanted to eat.

Yu Xi took the grapes that Ye Jingzhe handed him, thanked him, then turned around and saw that Fu Younian seemed to be at the nanny's car, so he carried the grapes over there.

"Okay, I see. I will discuss with Brother Han and change the lines in the next scene." Fu Younian was on the phone with someone in the car, and when he saw Yu Xi coming up, he picked up the brown paper bag on the side , to make room for him, "I may have to trouble you to take a look at it later."

The tone on the other end of the phone was familiar and warm, and after a few pleasantries, Fu Younian hung up the phone.

There are still a lot of materials that need to be sorted out and handed in for review, and they will be taken over tomorrow morning. Although they have been prepared, Fu Younian still checked it again from the beginning.

Yu Xi took out a small glass bowl from the car to peel grapes, and put a toothpick on the side of the bowl.

Fu Younian didn't pay attention to him at first, but later he realized that he was too quiet, so he looked back, and a grape bowl was placed by his hand.

Yu Xi didn't even eat it, but just sucked the remaining juice in the grape skin. When Fu Younian turned his head, he happened to look up, his fingertips were still peeling the last grape, his eyes were blank and innocent.

"Eat it yourself." Fu Younian told him.

The grape also fell into the bowl, Yu Xi raised his hand to get a tissue, but Fu Younian grabbed his wrist.

"When did it get cut?" Fu Younian looked at the slender wound on his wrist that had been bleeding for a while.

"..." Yu Xi realized that the cuffs of the sweater were all stained with blood, and said, "Forget it, it seems that when I was lying outside Ji Jia's window just now, I was scratched by the window frame."

It's already early winter, and putting a piece of white paper outside can cut your hands, not to mention the rough wood window frames.

Yu Xi only cares about dirty clothes. He is a bit of a clean freak. He usually changes clothes all day when he stays at home, and he doesn't want to get any dust on them. But if it's like this, he can't clean it with wet wipes, so he can only go back to the hotel at night to change.

Fu Younian dipped a clean medical cotton in clean water and wiped off the blood on his wrist. Fortunately, the scratch was not deep, so he put a Band-Aid on him.

Before Fu Younian bought commonly used medicines and equipment for treating wounds, there were three or four boxes of band-aids in it, and within ten days, only the last one was left.Fu Younian took Yu Xi's leg and put it on his lap, and rolled up a little trouser leg. Sure enough, there was still a new injury, so he stuck the last band-aid there.

"...I'm sorry." Yu Xi said lying on his knees.

"Why do you apologize?" Fu Younian asked him.

"I really didn't know you were looking for me." Yu Xi said.

He remembered several sudden illnesses when the original owner was 16 years old. At that time, Yu Xuecheng's overseas career was still in its infancy, and he was too busy to touch the ground. In the end, he was called back to China repeatedly by the old man, which cost hundreds of millions of dollars to a day's delay. Flowing water, he said in a panic: "In the future, if he is not dead, he doesn't need to call me back."

It was said sharply outside the ward, and the original owner heard it clearly. He turned his head and looked out the window of the nursing home, feeling a strong urge to get it over with.

He is not such a sympathetic person. He wants to avenge a person he hardly knows, but he can't help but think of a long time ago.When he was first adopted, his uncle and aunt were very kind to him, making him feel as if he had parents again, but then everything changed, and occasionally he wanted to know, if he really died, what would they do? What a reaction.

But he tried it yesterday, and he found that escaping does not mean everything is done, he was still empty at the moment of the fall; and he also saw Yu Xuecheng's indifferent, only worried about whether he would be implicated, and didn't care about the life or death of the original owner at all.

So he finally realized that some things are not worth redemption and endless remembrance, he can't keep stepping on the boundary line between the past and the present.

The dead person has probably rested in peace now, and even the past has passed away, and there should be a brand new tomorrow in the future.

"So I'm not here, and you can't see anything, so you can torment yourself as you like?" Fu Younian was silent for a moment, then spoke again.

Yu Xi didn't speak.

"Don't you feel pain?" Fu Younian showed him the wound on his own wrist, "Aren't you afraid?"

Yu Xi is really not afraid, he is considered to be relatively sensitive to pain, and the pain is always uncomfortable, but it doesn't matter.He has always been like this. When fighting with people in the orphanage, his hands were covered with blood, and his fingers turned blue from being bitten, and he would not let go. The pain was numb until the end.

Fu Younian didn't speak any more, he was addicted to cigarettes, but he remembered that Yu Xi couldn't smell the smell of cigarettes, so he never smoked again, and now he just ate some grapes to suppress it.

There was another scene in the evening, and the extras were already in place, so Yu Xi got out of the car and went to meet Ye Jingzhe first.

He still didn't understand what Fu Younian was thinking, but Fu Younian seemed determined to let him think this time.Yu Xi couldn't figure it out, so he sent a message to Fu Younian during filming.

Not so much to say, so he searched the emoji package from the Internet and sent it.

Fu Younian's cell phone kept ringing nearby, and Han Cheng joked about him: "Who is it, your girlfriend is urging you to go home?"

Fu Younian didn't want to answer at first, but he couldn't bear it, so he took it up and replied every time, and then he clicked on it to see Yu Xi sent another picture.

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It was a little black cat with its fluffy paws and legs slumped into a cat blanket, and its amber eyes were full of lovelessness.

Fu Younian couldn't help laughing, and then he couldn't stop laughing for some reason, Han Cheng looked puzzled, and tried to go over to see what was said there, but Fu Younian couldn't help avoiding it show him.

[Fu Younian]: Why is Yuyu unhappy?

[. ]: You ignore me and I ignore you.

Yu Xi put down his phone and went to film.

Ye Jingzhe saw the Band-Aid on his wrist and asked him: "How did you do it?"

"Accidentally rowed." Yu Xi said.

"Be careful, why are you always knocking, being photographed by Reuters, and letting fans see it is still worth it," Ye Jingzhe smiled at him, "If it were my grandma, it would be called watching Heartbroken."

She spoke in dialect, and Yu Xi didn't quite understand it, but she also guessed the general meaning, so she smiled along with her.

The last scene of the night was shot very smoothly, and the sky was a bit cloudy at the end.

"It is estimated that it will snow tomorrow," the cameraman said, "This scene is so coincidental, it just hits the season."

Yu Xi also looked up, and it was almost a year before he knew it, and it was still spring when he first came.

Fu Younian and Han Cheng had to re-watch the few scenes filmed today. After watching it, it was estimated that it would be eleven or twelve o'clock, so he asked Yu Xi to go back to the hotel to rest early.

Yu Xi didn't say anything, after receiving the news, she took off her make-up and changed her clothes before leaving.

Everyone on the set was preparing to call it a day. Fu Younian and Han Cheng were still reviewing the film in the temporary rest shed. After the review, they marked down the few paragraphs that needed to be adjusted in the later stage.

When I was about to go back to the hotel, I went out and saw light snow in the early winter on the street outside.

Fu Younian walked to the entrance of the alley alone, and all the cars were parked there.

The warm yellow light illuminated the crystal clear snow under his feet. Fu Younian stopped and took a picture of Yu Xi with his mobile phone. Unfortunately, the snow was so light that he couldn't see it clearly.

When he was about to reach the side of the car, he looked up and saw the person leaning against his car.

"Why haven't you gone back yet?" Fu Younian asked Yu Xi.

Fu Younian was a little worried that this fool had been waiting outside, and wanted to touch his hand to see if it was freezing.

But Yu Xi hid back for a while, and then took out the right hand that had been carried behind his back all the time. In his hand was a bouquet of pure white camellia flowers. fine snow.

"Don't be angry." This is the first time Yu Xi gave flowers to someone, her ears were red and her face was full of awkwardness. Rather than saying it was a gift, it was better to say that she directly stuffed the bouquet of flowers to Fu Younian with force. Strong selling posture.

"I'm not angry." Fu Younian said.

Fu Younian gradually discovered that Yu Xi was really not very good at taking care of himself, but he was earnestly learning to take care of him.

Just like the bowl of crystal clear grapes, each one is complete and sweet.

Yu Xi was always careful about him, but then he lived in a mess, making do with everything. When he was sick, he just took some medicine, and when he stumbled and got hurt during dancing practice, he didn't necessarily care if it hurt, and he didn't care if it didn't hurt.

It's as if I want to spend the past few years enthusiastically and brilliantly, leaving him with a beautiful and warm memory forever, and there will be no future.

Yu Xi stepped on the snow under his feet without speaking.

Fu Younian took his cold hand and put it in his coat pocket, then reached out and stroked his head.

"It's your business that you are not afraid of pain. I don't want you to be hurt. I feel sad when you are injured and sick," Fu Younian said to him, "You don't care about yourself, so can you feel sorry for me?"

Yu Xi didn't know why after hearing his words, his heart suddenly constricted, as if being squeezed by a hand, it hurt and swelled.

He still didn't fully understand what Fu Younian meant, just like he never knew how to love himself, but when he looked into Fu Younian's eyes, it looked deep and gentle in the snowy night, melting the thin snow that fell on his shoulders in early winter, and he was frozen just now. The stiff hands gradually warmed up in Fu Younian's coat pocket.

The slender wound on the wrist under the Band-Aid began to hurt faintly, and it was only after many years that he finally understood the feeling of pain so vividly.

"I know, I won't be like that in the future." Yu Xi whispered with some reluctance to admit his mistake.

But he didn't want Fu Younian to be sad, so for the first time in his life, he had the idea that he wanted to learn to be kinder to himself.

"Go to the car, it's snowing and it's so cold." Fu Younian told him.

Yu Xi grabbed the cuff buttons of Fu Younian's dark gray coat, hugged him through the flowers, his cheeks seemed to be flushed from the cold, "Then can you kiss me?"

After getting off the car and going back to the hotel last night, Fu Younian never kissed him again. He was usually so clingy, Yu Xi didn't want to admit that he wanted to ask for a kiss, but only thought that he wanted to give Fu Younian a step down, so as not to He felt embarrassed.

Fu Younian looked at his snow-stained eyelashes, and didn't want to kiss this annoying man at all, but in the end he bowed his head and gave him a cool kiss, and held his hand in his coat pocket very preciously. .

"Don't say that kind of thing anymore." Yu Xi felt that Fu Younian might have been impulsive last night. After all, no one can live without him. Without him, Fu Younian could find someone better.

That person is definitely not like him who is always reckless, knows no pain, causes trouble for people around him, and is not like him with clumsy fingers, who can't even make the simplest tomato scrambled eggs for him, let alone like him, He let out a sigh of relief sickly, to be able to accompany Fu Younian to go further, to see his stardom, and to see him finally consummated.

Fu Younian also remembered what he said last night. He never thought that he would say that kind of thing, but the moment he said it, he realized that he was serious.

He wanted to tell Yu Xi never to be afraid, whether it was death or others, in this world, he would never leave him.

"I'm serious, I'm not joking." Fu Younian said.

Yu Xi froze for a moment.

Fu Younian suddenly smiled, pinched his cold earlobe, and said, "Maybe no one will peel grapes for me like that again."

He is his one and only little baby.

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