After wearing a sick and weak white moonlight, I collapse every day

Fu Younian didn't know how he turned off the projector, took out the CD, put it away, and drove to the hospital again.

It was still dark when he got to the hospital.

The corridor was empty, except for the nurse who occasionally passed by during rounds, he was the only one.He went to the operating room where Yu Xi was going to have surgery, and walked back to the ward in silence. He saw that Yu Xi was sleeping soundly, and his face was still as pale as ever.

Even though it was midsummer, the temperature was not too low even at night.

But for some reason, it was so cold in the hospital, it was so cold that Fu Younian felt that he might never forget it for the rest of his life.

He was wearing earphones, sitting alone on a bench in the hospital corridor, watching the dramas and recorded variety shows that he and Yu Xi had filmed together that he had saved before.Occasionally he would feel that he and Yu Xi had been together for a long time, but when he looked back, he realized that it was only less than two years.

They just had time to participate in one of the few shoots together.

Only this little thing remains.

His star-like eyes, shy smile, the songs he sang, the words he said, the cold hand that once held him.

Yang Queming arrived at the hospital at 06:30 in the morning.

She went upstairs, and before she reached Yu Xi's ward, she saw Fu Younian from a distance.When he approached and lowered his head, he realized that his eyes were red, and the screen of the mobile phone was covered with wet tears. He didn't hold back all of a sudden, and almost cried directly.

But in the end, I endured it, turned my head and wiped the corners of my eyes slightly, and said to him: "Didn't you stay up all night last night? Go wash your face, my mother and the others will come over later."

"En." Fu Younian responded, his voice was already hoarse, even though he didn't say a word all night, he didn't make any sound.

He got up to go to the bathroom and rinsed his face with cold water.

The operation usually only takes about four hours, which is not very long, as long as there are no accidents.

But what was difficult was the period of preoperative preparation. Yu Xi underwent nine days of high-dose chemotherapy, and then entered the sterile laminar flow ward. Fortunately, these were over.

Fu Younian really wanted to pull his fingertips before he entered the operating room, but he couldn't, he could only watch Yu Xi enter the operating room from a distance, the door closed in front of him, and the operating light went off immediately. lights up.

After the operation, even if it is successful, the family members will not be allowed to contact, and they will be sent directly to the intensive care unit.

Although leukemia itself is not contagious, the patient's immune system is riddled with holes. It is necessary to prevent Yu Xi from being infected, causing complications or allergies.

So if successful, it just takes a while to get close.

But if something goes wrong with the operation, this will probably be the last time we see each other.

Mr. Yu also came to accompany Yu Xi for the operation.

In fact, the family didn't let him come at first. After all, the temperature outside the operating room was very low, and he had to wait for several hours, maybe even longer. The old man's body couldn't bear it.But he still insisted on coming, and no one could stop him.

Fu Younian was standing against the wall, when he heard the sound of crutches, he went to help him.

It was rare for old man Yu not to criticize him as soon as they met. After sitting down on the bench in the corridor, he took his own blanket from Fu Younian, put it on his lap, and sighed very low.

Yu Xi really entered the operating room, but Fu Younian completely calmed down.

He actually wanted to tell Yu Xi that he was not as brave as Yu Xi thought.

I can't live on my own.

Long before Yu Xi had a high fever, he went to order a cemetery and a pair of urns on the night when he was notified of critical illness for the first time.He could no longer think about the days when Yu Xi was not by his side, he would want to send him a lot of messages, make a lot of phone calls, and couldn't stand never getting a reply.

He would suddenly wonder if Yu Xi would be bullied somewhere he didn't know, just like when he met him in the corner on that rainy day.

There is also a small whale that glows at night hanging on the fingertips.

But Yu Xi suddenly cut off his planned escape route.

He no longer has expectations, and Yu Xi paved him with continuous expectations for the next few decades, so that he could not leave, and then in a long enough time, he was forced to learn to forget.Just like a tattoo will always fade one day, no matter how deep a scar is, it can heal.

Yang Queming looked back at Fu Younian, wondering if he was crying again, but no, he just stood there silently, over an hour passed without moving at all.

A doctor came out in a hurry, but he was separated from the family members waiting outside by a door.

Fu Younian only saw that her gloves were covered with bright red and glaring blood.

Fu Younian didn't know how long he had been waiting, time seemed to freeze, he saw a nurse coming out with something, she said a few words, Fu Ying turned her head and tears filled her eyes.Only then did Fu Younian recover from the humming in his ears.

"Heavy gastrointestinal bleeding, still being rescued, who will sign the critical illness notice?" The nurse looked at Mr. Shang Yu, hesitated, and handed the pen to Fu Younian.

Fu Younian took the pen, bowed his head and signed his name in the blank space.

His handwriting was clear and signed quickly.

I wanted to return the pen to the nurse, but I couldn't hold it steady and accidentally dropped it on the ground.

When I bent over to pick it up, I realized that I couldn't stand up. It may have been because I stood there for several hours. My legs were numb, and there was a dull pain spreading from the ankle to the top.

The nurse didn't want any more, and hurriedly took the things and left.

The operation went smoothly at the beginning, and even the operation that was supposed to be completed in four and a half hours ended early.Just when he was about to be sent to the intensive care unit, postoperative complications suddenly appeared, the digestive tract began to bleed, and his body indexes dropped rapidly.

So the operation was extended for more than an hour.

The longer I waited until the end, the more I felt that even my breathing began to stagnate.

The operating light finally dimmed, and a doctor came out, so Fu Younian stood up and asked, "How is it?"

He didn't even dare to listen to that answer.

"The operation went relatively smoothly, don't worry too much," the doctor said, "There was an accident in the middle, the bleeding symptoms have been controlled, and the patient is still in a coma, it will be good if he can wake up tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, and then continue with the later stage of rehabilitation. .”

"Can I go and have a look?" Fu Younian asked again.

"You can't go in, you can take a look outside," the doctor continued, "but it's best not to visit first, lest the patient's emotions become unstable."

Fu Younian went over to look through the window glass, Yu Xi was indeed still awake, his cheeks were already very thin, and wearing an oxygen mask, it seemed that most of his face was covered, Fu Younian could barely see His eyes, the bit of skin exposed was white to transparent, with a weak texture.

"Would you like to take a rest?" Luo Chen followed him and said, "Go to Yu Xi's former ward and rest for a while, Sister Yang and I will stay here, if he wakes up, I will call you. "

Fu Younian shook his head, and his gaze stayed on Yu Xi for a few minutes before turning around and saying, "I'm not sleepy."

Luo Chen also had nothing to do with him.

Yu Xi's operation started in the morning, and it was already past two o'clock in the afternoon after being sent to the intensive care unit, and they hadn't eaten yet.

Old man Yu couldn't hold on anymore. Hearing that Yu Xi was safe for the time being, he went back to rest first.

The rest of the people don't have to stay here, except for the three of them, only Lu Zhan is still there.

Luo Chen went downstairs to buy some lunch boxes.

Fu Younian took it, but still had no appetite.

After reluctantly eating a little, she got up and went over to see if Yu Xi was awake.

The doctor explained that it is good to wake up the day after tomorrow, if not, it is actually a new round of danger.Fu Younian didn't dare to expect too early, he had practiced countless times, barely prepared for Yu Xi to leave him during the operation, but he couldn't accept the disappointment of his full expectations, that made him feel more uncomfortable than losing directly.

He has been guarding the corridor.

Occasionally, when he was sleepy, he leaned against the back of the chair and took a nap. When he was hungry, he asked Li Yao to bring him some food. After a few bites, he put it down again to maintain his strength.

Yu Xi didn't wake up at the time the doctor said.

Fu Younian waited for three full days, but Yu Xi didn't show any sign of waking up. He heard the nurse said that he woke up once in the middle, but the time was very short, and before his eyes were in focus, he became unconscious and fell into a coma again. .

But fortunately, I have survived the initial dangerous period, and so far there has been no rejection.

When he was in high school, Fu Younian saw someone in the next ward doing a bone marrow transplant.The process was much smoother than Yu Xi's operation, and the time was shorter, it didn't take so long, and no other symptoms appeared in the first two days after the operation.

His family members thought everything was fine, and even the doctor was actually a little relieved. Although he needed more careful care in the later stage, at least he got through a dead end.

Who would have known that on the third night, there was a sudden severe rejection reaction, abnormal liver function, coupled with the onset of his own old disease, he stopped breathing in the early morning.

In the evening, Luo Chen saw that Fu Younian was not planning to leave, so he stayed with him for a while.

"I heard from Zhang Feiran that he wants to participate in the Berlin Film Festival with that film?" Luo Chen asked him something casually.

"Well," Fu Younian said, "the film came out a while ago, and it should premiere abroad."

"It's fine if you can go there," Luo Chen said to him, "The next film festival will be in March next year anyway, if you have time, bring him there to play."

"He said he wanted to go to Murmansk." Fu Younian suddenly remembered what Yu Xi said to him when he took Yu Xi to watch a nighttime fireworks show.

Murmansk is a year-round ice-free port.

There is a tram that runs all the way along the snow field, which can go to the commanding heights of the city.

Yu Xi once wanted to die there.

He has never been there, but he has seen many videos. Looking down from a bird's eye view, the whole city is brightly lit, as if looking down on the vast and boundless galaxy in a place deeper and farther than the night sky.And there is also the extremely gorgeous aurora. Many people think that the cold green aurora that meanders endlessly and finally disappears in the thick night points to the direction where the soul should leave.

But he didn't buy the ticket in the end.

She gave up everything she had ever thought about, endured a whole body of illness, and stayed with Fu Younian through this period of time.

Or maybe die in a pale and faded ward, with tubes all over your body.

Luo Chen didn't know where Fu Younian got so much energy, he couldn't stand it any longer. At around twelve o'clock, he got up and went upstairs to the nursing ward where Fu Younian lived before, planning to sleep for a few hours, otherwise Shaking while sitting.

The nurses in the department here stopped trying to persuade Fu Younian to leave, knowing that he would not leave, so they ignored him.

Fu Younian covered his coat, lay down on the bench, closed his eyes and rested for more than half an hour.

In the middle of the night, the hospital was extremely silent.

Fu Younian felt that he might have had a dream. In the dream, Yu Xi squeezed his wrists. Those hands were no longer as cold as before day after day, and finally had a normal temperature. against his skin.

He woke up in an instant.

After getting up and talking to the nurse on duty, he went outside Yu Xi's ward and looked through the window.

Yu Xi's ward is the one closest to the window, so he can see it clearly.

Yu Xi still didn't wake up.

Fu Younian waited for more than ten minutes. He was used to repeated expectations and disappointments, so he was about to leave and come back after a while.

Just when he was about to turn around, he didn't take a step.

He couldn't explain why, and looked back subconsciously.

Suddenly, he found that Yu Xi opened his eyes at some point, and looked at him through the glass, and after meeting his gaze, there was a little smile in his eyes.

Fu Younian saw that the corners of his eyes were suddenly wet, and tears slid down the side of his ears.

He raised his hand and touched it, only to realize that he had already burst into tears.

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