Loving you is an unrepentant journey

"Why are you crying? What do you look like? You know how to talk about love like a woman? I feel upset when I see your cowardly appearance." The old man frowned and looked at him, but his eyes were not as deep and sharp as before.

"Really, is it cowardly to hope that my father can love me? A man shouldn't talk about love? Didn't grandpa love you before?" Yi Qian wiped his face with a tissue, his eyes were red and painful Looking at him intently, "Or you never loved me at all, you never loved me at all, so you never cared about me, in your eyes, I am not a person with my own thoughts, right? ? Dad, I came back to City Z with Lu Feng last night. We drove for nearly twelve hours. We didn’t even have breakfast when we came back, so we went home and waited for you. Do you think we should do this? , and don’t care if I’m working hard, or if I’m feeling bad. So you hold your meetings as usual, and when you have time, you summon me and treat me like any of your business matters. I don’t Not a living person with feelings, right? I am the one thing in front of you, and the only difference between you and any of your unimportant subordinates who work for you is that I am your son, we are related by blood, you You can't fire me, the reason for not firing me is because it will affect the reputation of the Yi family, right?"

The old man said, "If you weren't my son, I wouldn't bother to say anything to you."

Yi Qian pursed his lips and gritted his teeth, the tears that had just been wiped away flowed out again, "Do you know why I like men?"

The old man stared at him, snorted and said, "That's because you have been spoiled since you were a child. You are weak and unresponsible. You don't know how to take care of your own life and responsibilities. You actually want to rely on other men. You still want me to say What?"

Yi Qian said: "Really, so you feel that I am gay and shameful, because you think that I like men because I am weak and unresponsible and want to rely on other men?"

"What do you think?" The old man became annoyed again when he thought of this.

Yi Qian said: "Have you ever loved your mother? Have you ever had feelings for your grandparents?"

The old man never said love, so he kept his face sullen and didn't respond.

"Have you never been vulnerable? Have you never thought that your mother's gentleness has comforted you? Did you never think that the place where your grandparents are around can make you feel safe when you were a child? Did you never think that you will feel more comfortable when you return home?" Are you at ease?" Yi Qian murmured and asked him.

The old man said: "You were born in a good time, Yi Qian. At that time, it was difficult for our family to even have enough to eat. When your grandfather was criticized, no one sympathized with us. He would only reject us and throw stones at us. Only self-improvement is the right way. Yi Qian, you always talk to me, love, I don’t understand you, but I really don’t want to see you so weak. You haven’t suffered the real pain, so you grow up to 28 , Nine years old, still childish, even think that love is everything, Yi Qian, it's not that I don't understand you, it's that you look like this, anyone who looks at it thinks it is childish and unreliable."

Yi Qian looked at him blankly, and said, "I can't go through your suffering again, the times are different now, and you understand it yourself. But I really can't be with women unless I spend my whole life But sex life, of course, I can become a monk, but I will feel sorry for Lu Feng, and I have already promised that no matter what happens, I will be with him. A gentleman's promise is more important than Mount Tai. Besides, I don't want to make him suffer. Dad, I know I have no right to argue with you, and I can't convince you, but I really beg you..."

Yi Qian got up and walked to the side, then suddenly knelt down and kowtowed to the old man, "I beg you, don't place me in such a childish position, I'm already 28 or [-] years old, I want to be with Lu Feng well Live, we will go on forever, really. I really can't meet your requirements of me, but I will be a good person, except wanting to be with Lu Feng, think about it, am I really that bad ? I can't be as good as you and big brother, but I really have a good life..."

The old man was overwhelmed by his behavior, annoyed at his stubbornness and unrepentance, and distressed because he was his own son after all, but he sat there with a deep expression on his face, without saying a word for a while.

When the old man was angry at him, it was not right to let him go, the door was suddenly pushed open, and mother Yi stood at the door, seeing the situation in the room, looked at the old man with worry and distress.

The door of the study room is a thick mahogany door. If the door is not opened, the sound from the inside cannot be heard from the outside, but it is still difficult to hear the movement from the outside.

No matter what Yi Zhou says, he can even degrade Lu Feng into the dust. He can say that Lu Feng is not worthy of Yi Qian in any way, but it is impossible for Lu Feng to feel resentful and shrink back because of his self-esteem. .

He thought of what Yi Qian said, no matter what happened to them, they couldn't change their minds. Although people's hearts would never change just because of promises, no matter whether there was a promise or not, he couldn't let Yi Qian down.

He raised his head, looked at Yi Zhou, with a smile on his face, and said, "Brother, I know that in my current situation, everything I say seems insincere, but I can't let Yi Qian down, as long as he needs me , I’m here, unless he doesn’t need me anymore.”

Lu Feng has always been calm and composed. He has a resolute and peaceful temperament that is neither humble nor overbearing. His eyes are clean, clear and firm. Apart from his poor background, in fact, even a person in power like Yi Zhou who has seen many, many people I have to admit that Lu Feng is a really outstanding person.

It can even be said that maybe it is precisely because he was born at the bottom, has this advantage in appearance, and has suffered so many blows, and can still have this excellence, which is even more commendable.

Of course, if this kind of person has any bad intentions in the end, it is hard to guard against.

Yi Zhou sneered and said: "You are talking nicely now, but in the future you may always live in the words of being taken care of by Yi Qian, and there may be people behind you who say that you rely on male sex to rise to the top, or that any achievements you have achieved You all rely on the Yi family, and everything you get comes from Yi Qian, don't you have no self-esteem at all, can you bear these words?"

Lu Feng is now sure that Yi Zhou is really deliberately making things difficult for him, or testing him.

Lu Feng was silent for a long time - when a person is in the worst situation, as long as he can survive, he has to work hard, and he has no energy to care about other people's gossip.When the living environment of human beings was the worst, at that time, they could pay the price of their lives for a fruit. Before survival, people were just animals, and their self-esteem was nothing. Therefore, in those very poor places, people's lives were basically There is no such word as "self-esteem"; but at Yi Zhou's level, he is rich and powerful, so he can say whatever he wants. He said that Lu Feng and Yi Qian are only together because of Yi Qian's good looks, good personality, rich and powerful Family background but no feelings, or even if he has feelings, but his feelings are contaminated with these, it is not purely untrue, and Lu Feng has no way to refute Yi Zhou, so what Yi Zhou said is what he said to Lu Feng. Lu Feng has Feng's "self-esteem", but if he doesn't give it, Lu Feng doesn't have it.

Lu Feng thinks that the "self-esteem" defined by Yi Zhou is only in other people's minds, and what they say is what "self-esteem" is.

And is he going to hurt Yi Qian for this thing?

Yi Zhou thought that Lu Fengfeng was angry, but unexpectedly, after Lu Feng lowered his eyes and remained silent for a while, he suddenly said: "My self-esteem is mine, not given by others. How can I control what they like to say. Yi Qian is so good, I don't want to He suffers. If I was the kind of person who would have negative emotions because of other people's words, and would blame my cowardice on the person I like, then I would not want to stay with Yi Qian. , I really don't deserve it."

Yi Zhou thought that Yi Qian really had some discernment. If Lu Feng's words were just acting, then there might be no truth in the world; or if he could think of these to act, then he must have liked Yi Qian wholeheartedly. Only after he has made up his mind can he really have this kind of experience, then Yi Qian really has no choice.

Besides, if Lu Feng really did something wrong to Yi Qian in the future, the Yi family could crush him to death without any effort, so the test of Lu Feng ended here.

Yi Zhou almost wanted to stand up, shake hands with Lu Feng, and say: In order to test you, I was really a bad guy to the end.

But he just patted the armrest of the sofa with a deep expression, and said, "I remember what you said, and I hope you can remember it yourself. If you really feel sorry for Yi Qian in the future, don't blame me for bullying Revenge on you."

Lu Feng looked at him in surprise, and then he laughed, his eyes brightened and his dimples revealed, "Brother, thank you. Time will tell everything."

Yi Zhou stood up and didn't answer him, but came over and patted his arm lightly, then walked out of the study and said, "Let's go, I don't know what Yi Qian is doing, is the old man back yet?"

Lu Feng was overjoyed, he really wanted to hug Yi Qian and kiss him, telling him that his elder brother did not object to them being together.

Both Yi Zhou's study room and the old man's study room are upstairs, separated by a tea room. As soon as Yi Zhou came out of the study room, he saw Yi's mother standing at the door of the old man's study room. They all looked weak.

Yi Zhou walked over and asked softly, "Dad is back?"

Mother Yi glanced at him, then at Lu Feng, and Lu Feng called her nervously: "Auntie."

Yi's mother smiled at him reluctantly, and said: "The old man asked Xiao Qian to go in and talk. I saw him like that, and he wanted to curse again."

Yi Zhou said, "How long have you been in?"

Mother Yi said, "It's been more than 20 minutes."

Yi Zhou was surprised: "It's been so long, why didn't you type it out?"

Yi's mother said to him dissatisfied: "How can this fight?"

Yi Zhou was about to reach out to open the door, "Let's go in and have a look, nothing will happen."

Yi's mother pushed him, she was anxious, and said to Yi Zhou: "You stand over, I'll go in and take a look, otherwise the old man may be even more angry when he sees you."