If the fleeting year has not come

Doomed to be a restless night, I don't know how to explain the so-called gap in Suzi's mouth.No one can change and choose their own birth. I used to think that because the family conditions are good, it will be a favorable condition for us to be better together.

The feeling of being at a loss covers the whole body from the bottom of my heart, watching the performance on stage silently, the me ten years ago is the same as now, or the suppressed feelings are more firm and intense.But the people around me are different. Maybe she thinks more realistically than me, but I live in an ideal country.

At the end of the concert, I was in an absent-minded state, following the crowd towards the hotel, not even noticing when Suzi left me.

Lying limply on the bed, staring at the ceiling empty-handedly, I don't know whether I want to cry without tears or whether I can't laugh or cry.Originally thought that the plot should be reconciled, but it suddenly became awkward, and the gradually clear form was once again clouded.

If I don’t understand something, I will give up decisively, maybe Su Zi will have new ideas tomorrow, I deceive myself like this.Qiang braced himself up, sorted out what he saw and heard at the concert today, packed his things and prepared to go back to school.

A piece of beige-colored letterhead in the backpack attracted my attention. I feel that this is a very thoughtful arrangement. Could it be a small surprise for Mifensi on the [-]th anniversary of my debut.

Carefully opened the envelope, the neatly folded rectangular letter paper was densely packed with words, and there were nicks on the back. It should be a handwritten manuscript rather than a uniformly printed thank-you letter. It is a great blessing.

When I opened the letter paper, the familiar font came into view, which was exactly the same as the words on some small notes in my collection, and it was actually written by Su Zi.

This made me even more confused about her intentions. On the one hand, she used absurd but irrefutable reasons as if she was rejecting me, and on the other hand, she pretended to be late, but actually entered the venue early just to give me a letter.

The outer packaging is my favorite beige color, isn't verbal rejection not enough, and cruel tenderness is added.

I am also not certain.

Even with the last tenderness, I began to read the contents of the letter.

After reading word by word for a long time, I feel a little subtle.

It's just an ordinary letter, without too much fancy rhetoric, which probably explains some of Suzi's recent behaviors.

The sudden disappearance in the second half of the summer vacation, as I guessed, was to sort out my mood.Because I felt that the progress was a bit amazing, I was terrified for a long time afterwards.

Then I went back to school and wanted to find me, but I heard rumors about me and Gu Yiyan. At the bonfire party, I witnessed with my own eyes that the relationship between Gu Yiyan and me is not as simple as ordinary friends.

Later, I heard that I was seriously ill because of Gu Yiyan, so I took the initiative to find Gu Yiyan, thinking that he could give me the so-called happiness that she couldn't give me.Especially after finding out that Gu Yiyan and I had taken off the pair of earrings that matched her on our first date, I was even more sure that my relationship with Gu Yiyan was extraordinary.

However, I was still unwilling, especially after seeing me, so I deliberately came up with a stage play to confront Gu Yiyan and ask me to cut my hair.Unexpectedly, I did it obediently, as if she didn't have a place in my heart.

So taking advantage of the power outage in the teaching building, I wanted to use my sympathy to persuade Gu Yiyan, but the facts proved that she succeeded, and I accidentally discovered that her status in my heart was much higher than I imagined.

What gave Gu Yiyan a fatal blow was the rehearsal of the last scene of the stage play. Su Zi had long since discovered that Gu Yiyan was waiting for me sitting in an imperceptible place in the small theater, so she took the initiative to seduce me to kiss her, but I restrained myself, Just a kiss on the cheek.

In the end, he had no choice but to find Gu Yiyan who was hiding in the dark for a showdown after everyone left, and had a rather romantic French tongue kiss in front of Gu Yiyan, and finally won the right to qualify.

That's all there is to the letter, forgive me for describing in such crude terms a script that could be called a family drama of the year.And the meaning of the letter is probably just like this, explaining what happened in just over a month from beginning to end.

And then there is no more then.

Only five words were written at the end of the letter, and that was all.

There was no apology or hint about the future. The whole content was like a drama, with Su Zi himself as the director and the lead actor. Gu Yiyan and I cooperated throughout the process and enjoyed it.

I don't know how I feel, whether I am disappointed or secretly happy.

The trust that Su Zi gave me was only a little bit, which was pitifully small. Of course, my misbehavior may have caused her misunderstanding, but these are not important.Fortunately, in the end she gave in to her heart and started to attack me.

But until today, when we met not long ago, she still didn't say anything, but simply expressed that we are not people in the same world, and the gap between us is not the Milky Way, but her heart that cannot be crossed.

Not because there are no flowers, but because of the helpless difference between tulips and weeds.

If her pressure is only this, and not the so-called worldly eyes or lack of feeling, I think I can slowly change.

Perhaps it was because of the unhealthy values ​​that I inadvertently revealed before, which caused great pressure on her.Of course, it's also possible that when I didn't think of it, her head full of all kinds of bloody brains had already defined the matter of being with me as being desperate for money.

Surreptitiously inquired about Su Zi’s return flight information, she had already checked in online, and chose to go back tomorrow just like me, on the same flight as me.

Call Aunt Ye for help, hoping to choose a seat next to Suzi.Auntie Ye didn’t ask me why I had to buy a new ticket all of a sudden, but told me that if the seat next to her is currently unavailable, it shouldn’t be a big problem.

This is the first time I discovered the benefits of privilege.

In fact, I have known for a long time that rich people do have some privileges at certain times, but I have never paid attention to them and never thought about using them.Now I feel that there is nothing wrong with using privileges behind the scenes to do harmless things at certain delicate times.

Expecting what kind of expression she will show tomorrow, I hugged the pillow and fell asleep.

A good night's sleep, I arrived at the airport two hours early, and I squatted near the security checkpoint with Grandpa Ken in my arms, waiting for someone.

Four or ten minutes before take-off, the familiar figure rushed to the security check channel, and there was no one who was so stuck in time.

Suzi's outfit was similar to yesterday's, with a T-shirt and a coat, and her tall figure was easily recognizable.I guess it wasn't long after I got up, my hair was swaying in the wind and my eyes were a little swollen, I followed closely behind her.

"Hi, what a coincidence." Greeting pretending to be relaxed, my smile must not be nutritious.

"The first-class aisle is next door." Su Zi pointed to the checkpoint next to it with a red carpet and few kittens.

"That kind of luxury is not suitable for me." I showed the ticket in my hand, "It's rare to go back on the same flight, the meeting is fate, don't be so cold."

"Really." Su Zi glanced at me dubiously, but didn't say anything.

Silently followed Su Zi through the security check, and we walked to the boarding gate together.

"Did you have lunch?" I asked.Judging by her messy appearance, she must have almost overslept and hurried over.

"Not in time." Suzi shook her head.

"Here you are." Sending up Grandpa Ken in his hand like offering a treasure, he is as considerate as me, and he always buys double portions for lunch, "It's a bit cold, throw it away and waste it, can you help me eat it?"

"Who wants you to buy so much?" Su Zi said with disgust, and took Grandpa Ken from my hand.

"Because I'm a good boy who is thrifty and thrifty." Niu Tau's answer was not right. If she said that she bought it specially for her, she would definitely say that I was scheming. After all, I did it secretly by myself.

"Really." Suzi's tone was still cold.

"Oh, by the way, I saw yesterday's letter." I started the topic, probably this matter can arouse her interest.

"Uh..." Su Zi choked for a moment, his attention was successfully attracted, "Have you finished reading?"

"Well, it's over." I nodded.Thinking about how to start the topic, "Did you write the script and write it on top, treating life as a drama?"

Originally, I just wanted to find a random topic, but what I said was vaguely reproachful. Maybe although I have forgiven her, there is still dissatisfaction in my heart.

"I don't know." This time Suzi's answer was honest, but the meaning was still unclear.

"So you did so much just to prove that I like you, not someone else?" I thought about confessing my love [-] times in my heart, but I didn't expect to say it in such a strange atmosphere.It seems very logical, but it lacks some warmth.

"You hang out with Li Zhiyang after you haven't contacted for a while, and then hang out with Gu Yiyan who came out of nowhere, how do you want me to believe you?" Su Zi's words were probably affected by my emotions There is also the meaning of blame.

"It's all just rumors, why don't you just ask me directly." It's rare for me to open up the topic, and I don't feel bad about it.

"That's right." With a slight sneer, Su Zi put the lunch aside, "Even if I went to the United States for medical treatment, I was the last to know about it. People are clearly across the street from me, and they have to hide. Is it what you call asking you directly? How do I know if you are willing to see me, or have other hidden secrets. "

"But..." I suddenly felt speechless.

The previous matter was revealed again, and it exploded at once like a long-standing grievance.But my original intentions were good. I wanted to surprise her and be responsible for my own future, but I didn't expect to give her a sense of security.

It seems that I have always thought that this is the case. I am always talking to myself and doing what I think is right. It seems that I have considered a lot for her, but I don’t know what she wants.