If the fleeting year has not come

I was really a heartless person when I was young and ignorant. Because of the arrival of Suzi, I almost forgot why I came to the countryside.

Due to my limited mobility, I almost spent the next few days pretending to be dead in bed.Lying still or not doing too much strenuous exercise, it will not be particularly painful. Although it is a rib fracture, it is only such a small opening. It is said that the ribs have a particularly strong self-repairing ability, which is much better than hurting hands and feet.

Things like feeding are completely in charge of Su Zi, as well as rehabilitation exercise like taking a walk every day. This strange process is not necessary at all, but there is a privilege that does not expire. Will be idle, and took Suzi to walk around the village.

I always felt that life should go on without shame and impatience, but there happened a recurrence of the embarrassing cancer that I had been cured for many years.The weather in July, even if you don't go out in the air-conditioned room, you are still no match for the power of nature. Not taking a bath for three days is already the limit.However, in order to perfectly portray the patient with fractured ribs as a high paraplegic, I will die soon, and I basically lost the ability to move independently, let alone take a bath.

So on the third day, when I couldn't bear it anymore, I vaguely suggested that I could complete the vast project of taking a bath by myself. Aunt Ye and my mother firmly opposed it and said that I was very busy, so the heavy responsibility of taking a bath for me fell on Suzi.I want to petition God, I really don't need such a seemingly divine assist, but the pig team is not friendly.

No matter how much I resisted in my heart, I finally appeared in the bathroom with Suzi at the same time. It was a sunny afternoon, but such sunshine could not penetrate my broken heart. How should I restrain myself from trying to push people into The urge to play a wall of love in the corner.Obviously you are helping me take a bath, but what do you mean by stripping yourself naked?

"Don't move your head, the soapy water is going to get into your ears." Su Zi stood directly in front of me, holding the shower head towards my head.

Don't move around and let me see. This is the front of Hongguoguo. Should I look at the top or the bottom or the middle? I'm too insecure to do it with my eyes closed.

"Okay, stand still, and I'll soap you." After the hair washing process, Su Zi put down the shower and replaced it with a small piece of soap.

At this time, my heart can no longer be described as a collapse. How can a normal human being bear such a private thing as rubbing soap, and a disguised skin-to-skin date?

"I'll do it myself..." I tried my best to restrain my thirsty voice and keep calm.

"Why can't you eat and change clothes by yourself if you can wipe it by yourself? What if it hurts the wound." Su Zi rubbed soap on me in disapproval. Such strange memories.

These words are so reasonable that I was speechless. Molesting underage girls is wrong, you know, dear, looking at Suzi's serious face, she didn't seem to realize what a weird thing she was doing.I could only look up at the ceiling and try my best to ignore the hot feeling on my body following her fingers as if by magic.

"I can't take care of myself now, what do you think I will do when I get old?" I sighed half-truthfully.

"I thought the same way a while ago. Those square dances seem so difficult. I'm sure I won't be able to integrate into the world of square dance aunts." Suzi seemed to find a bosom friend who agreed with me.

Are you thinking too little or too much? I really want to knock open her brain to see if it’s filled with a puddle of heat or a pile of shit. I didn’t think she spoke so incoherently before, and I always felt that she was special. Reliable and trustworthy.

"The water is very hot, my face is so red." Su Zi touched my head, "But you are weak now, it is better to use warm water."

It’s hot, okay, it has nothing to do with the water temperature, okay, you can restrain your hands a little and don’t touch around, I shouted in my heart, and I could only shake my head innocently on the surface.

Warm water sprinkled on my body gave rise to strange heat. I stared at the skylight without squinting. I always felt that the exhaust window was not opened enough. What sauna to go to.

The torment that lasted for an unknown amount of time was finally over. I put on fresh clothes with a sense of relief, and secretly made a decision in my heart. Before I go back, no one will let me go into the bathroom again. I would rather dry it with salt and use it as a salted fish.

"You go out first?" Su Zi looked at me standing by the door and didn't intend to leave, so she said awkwardly.

Now I know that I am shy and embarrassed, why didn't you blush when you tossed me just now, I complained, although she really just took a bath in a very ordinary way when she was tossing me, obviously I was thinking too much.

I stared at each other with big eyes and small eyes for half a minute, and I decided to go out to take a breath. I am still young, and I don't understand anything that cannot be described below the neck. After all, the weather is so dry, the rain that just fell last night has stopped today.

Such a peaceful and peaceful day lasted for nearly a week, and the things I deliberately avoided still came as scheduled.After grandma's first seven days, it was the day of the funeral, and it was the last time I saw grandma in my life.

The sky is slightly cool, Venus is still looking at the earth with nostalgia in the air, our group has already stood in front of the mourning hall, kowtowed and offered incense one by one, no matter what we say or what we keep in our hearts, it is the last time we meet.Su Zi and I knelt side by side in front of the incense case, and I said silently in my heart, you see, this is the person I have identified for the rest of my life.

I bent down to kowtow, and the pain from my ribs reminded me that this was reality, and there was no such thing as being woken up by my grandma to go to school at one o’clock, only to find that it was just a real dream.Tears fell uncontrollably, as if to make up for the amount of the previous few days, and wet the ground in front of the futon.

The original ice coffin was replaced by a wooden coffin. The lid was tied with a rope and hung on a pole. The custom in the countryside is to bury the coffin in the ancestral grave after going around the town.

The father walked in front of the team with the photo of the deceased, and the mother stared at the coffin in a daze, and followed behind mechanically.She definitely couldn't say that I won't have a mother from now on. Looking at her expression, with obvious helplessness in her daze, she is an orphan who lost her mother.

There was no loud noise, and the entire funeral procession walked silently with their heads bowed. I silently followed my mother's right hand, taking her hand for the first time so long ago.Mother turned her head to look at me slowly, held my hand firmly, and said nothing.

Su Zi has been quietly following me, walking with a serious face, she should know that it is useless to say anything at this time, it will only appear hypocritical to stand and talk without back pain, so she just accompanied me silently.

After making a small circle around the town and returning to the entrance of the village, Suzi suddenly exclaimed in a low voice when he was about to go to Zushan.A big black and brown wolfhound appeared out of nowhere, neither barking nor making noise, as if sensing something, got into the line and followed the crowd.

"Even dogs know how to repay kindness." The mother's slightly hoarse voice came, choking again, "It's the Qiuqiu raised by your grandmother when you were a child, and it still remembers after so many years after sending it here."

In my memory, Qiuqiu is a not-so-small native dog, and it’s fun to look alive with its ears erect.Later, because my parents divorced and my grandmother wanted to take care of it, I didn’t have time to take care of it, so I sent it to the countryside to watch my home. I didn’t see it when I came back this time, and thought it was gone. Unexpectedly, it popped up again at this moment, and it was here to see my grandmother. let's go.

"Can I take it home?" I asked softly.Although it has grown much larger than I imagined, it is also one of the few thoughts left by grandma, and it is so affectionate and righteous, there is no reason not to take it back.

"Where can I raise it in late autumn? It's only a purebred German Shepherd. It needs to be fed and walked around every day." Aunt Ye reminded friendlyly, "Why don't I take it home, anyway, the yard is big enough for it to run around and cook for one more person. That's all."

"I want to raise..." I could only insist weakly.I still live in Wanqiu’s house. Even if I go back to live in the house bought by my father, it’s impossible for me to support a dog by myself. Besides, I still have to go to school, and studying hard is one of the promises I made with my grandma.

This conversation ended without a problem, and the dog will definitely be taken back. As for who will raise it, it is another matter.

Before he knew it, he had already walked to the foot of the Zu Mountain. The Feng Shui master in Taoist robes took a compass and gestured a few times. In fact, the village patriarch had the final say on where to be buried. He was just acting to make people feel at ease.The tomb was dug a few days ago, and the geographical location is unknown. Anyway, it rained a few days ago and did not cause water accumulation.

Mr. Feng Shui chanted again, saying that the auspicious time had come for the burial.I don't understand why this is also said to have an auspicious time, and it's not something good to celebrate.The men carrying the coffin heard this and slowly lowered the coffin into the grave.

Scattering yellow paper all over the sky, there was a sense of desolation in a lonely grave thousands of miles away. Mr. Feng Shui took the lead in lighting incense and offering sacrifices.The others offered incense one by one, and finally only our family and a dog were left in front of the grave, lying on the ground and weeping silently.It turns out that dogs, like people, can cry.

At three poles in the sun, Mr. Feng Shui began to urge us to go down the mountain. He said that noon is not good for future generations, and relatives followed him down the mountain in a bustling manner.

"Come with me." I said to the dog lying on the ground and refusing to move.

It seemed to understand my words, looked up at me, looked at each other with teary eyes, I knelt down and touched its head.

"Qiuqiu, come home with me." I repeated.

When I called its name, Qiuqiu stood up, as if wanting to confirm something, and sniffed it a few times around me.Looking back at the grave reluctantly, he looked up to the sky and howled, his voice was full of sadness, echoing in the mountains.Staggering behind me, we went down the mountain together.