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"And I love you so, people ask me how.

How I'velived tillnow, ItellthemIdon'tknow..."

Qi Yang's calm and heavy voice flowed out along with the slow accompaniment of the bar musicians. Wen Qing sat on the bar chair and looked at him, feeling a little dazed.

The man on the stage with the microphone in both hands sang affectionately and elegantly, and the noisy bar suddenly became quiet after a burst of cheers.

When Qi Yang sang emotionally, he would always look at Wen Qing, and the deep forbearance and obsession in his eyes made Wen Qing a little bit overwhelmed.

"And you love metoo, your thoughts are just form.

You set my spirit free, I'm happy that you do..."

Wen Qing felt that his eyes were a little sore, and he slowly closed them, covering his face with his hands, his body trembling uncontrollably.

After Qi Yang's song ended, the audience applauded, but Wen Qing was no longer there.

Qi Yang put down the microphone and chased him out.

He stopped Wen Qing at the door.

"Wen Qing..."

Qi Yang went up to grab Wen Qing's wrist, but Wen Qing didn't shake him off.

"Don't you have to go to class? Is it okay to travel to London for so long?" Wen Qing said lightly.

Qi Yang quickly said, "It's all right, I've asked for leave."

In fact, it was Boss Hai who saw that the leading teacher was out of his mind every day, and only thought it was an emotional problem. Besides, the art exams of the senior high school students had basically ended, so he made an exception to let Qi Yang take a two-week vacation with pay, and went back to discuss his personal affairs. Come back when you're done.

"Then go back quickly, there are still students." Wen Qing said.

Qi Yang frowned, thought for a while and said, "I won't go back, I'll go with you."

Wen Qingbie started, "If you don't leave, I will leave. Can you stop pestering me like this? My life has been disturbed because of you."

There was a trace of impatience in Wen Qing's voice, and the tone was also polite, which made Qi Yang feel frightened for a while.

"Wen Qing, don't you want to hear my explanation? I know I'm not qualified to say anything to you... But I want to tell you through this song..." Qi Yang carefully chose his words.

Wen Qing didn't turn his head to look at him, just stood quietly, Qi Yang didn't rush him, and stood with him at the door.

After a long time, Wen Qing spoke slowly.

"...Qi Yang, let's... just forget it, I... am a little tired..."

Qi Yang was stunned.

Although Wen Qing has said these words more than once in the past week, Qi Yang has never been so panicked.

There was a shadow on Wen Qing's face, and he couldn't see his expression clearly, but Qi Yang felt that he could feel Wen Qing's mood at this moment.

Qi Yang felt uncomfortable, and grabbed Wen Qing's shoulders to force Wen Qing to turn his head. Wen Qing looked at him with frowns.

Qi Yang fixedly looked at Wen Qing's eyebrows, this man has been entangled with him for a year, how could he just let go now.

"Wen Qing, why are you trembling?" Qi Yang asked with a strong tone.

Wen Qing felt her body shaking, bit her mouth and did not speak.

"I ask you, why are you shaking? If you don't feel for me, why are you shaking?! If you can really forget me as you wish, why are you shaking?!"

Qi Yang shook Wen Qing's shoulders, staring at him intently.

Qi Yang's words were clear, and there was a trace of imperceptible pain in his tone.

Wen Qing didn't look into his eyes, but closed them.

"Maybe it's because I'm tired of you touching me."

Wen Qing's cool voice pierced Qi Yang's ears, and Qi Yang's hand holding Wen Qing's shoulder loosened.

Wen Qing broke away from him and smiled, "Qi Yang, I'm living a good life now. I have friends and elders. I don't want to think about relationships for the time being. I'm really tired."

Qi Yang looked at him quietly, and after a while, slowly said, "Wen Qing, why are you tired, you are afraid, a coward like me, a coward who dare not even face his own feelings..."

Wen Qing couldn't help laughing.

"Yeah, I'm a coward, I was raised by you to be such a coward, I was made by you to be such a coward who dare not face my own feelings, after all," Wen Qing said with a smile in his voice, but Qi Yang felt that his heart was tightened Tight.

"Isn't it you who turned me into the coward I am now? So, Qi Yang, what right do you have to accuse me of being a coward?"

Qi Yang has nothing to say.

Wen Qing was indeed afraid. He had been alone for so many years, and he really didn't know much about love. He only knew how to reject but didn't know how to accept. It was like this when Mingjin was like that. No matter how good Mingjin treated him, what he got in return was Only a warm and polite smile.

Facing Qi Yang now, he originally thought that this cute man who was sometimes mature and silent, sometimes childish could bring him a love he had never felt before, but when he really let go of his guard and opened his arms to accept him, he He gave him another blow to the head.

Ever since her mother left, Wen Qing has been alone with her younger brother, and she has encountered many people who tried to harm them. Wen Qing has gradually learned to be on guard, and learned to protect herself and her younger brother. This first lesson is Can't be careful.

After Xiao Wen left, he was alone, and Wen Qing was even more so. Friends are friends, but lovers, Wen Qing has never met.

Six years ago, Mingjin taught him how to love someone with all his heart and soul. Before he could accept the love he gave, he committed suicide.

But now he is imitating what Ming Jin taught him before to love Qi Yang lamely, wanting to give him warmth, wanting to give him a home, wanting to give him everything he wants, but in the end he ended up like this.

"Qi Yang, let's all be more mature."

"Wen Qing..."

Qi Yang wanted to say why can't we be together if we are in love with each other?

Why are we struggling with ourselves when the world doesn't stand in our way anymore?

When everyone around us blesses us, why do we bother to embarrass ourselves and others?

Then Qi Yang smiled bitterly.

Why can't human beings invent something that can enter the heart? Do human beings only have the ability to perceive what the other party thinks in their minds with language and body?

This kind of thing can be deceived.

Only sincerity will not lie.

However, the people in front of him can't see their sincerity clearly.

In the past, Wen Qing thought he had seen Qi Yang's sincerity, but in the end he was just being played around. Now he can no longer open his heart like before, and foolishly immerse himself in the beautiful dream that Qi Yang thought he had woven.

Qi Yang wanted to say a lot.

Wen Qing, take a look, take a good look at me, let me show you my heart, please, look, I love you is clearly engraved on it...

Wen Qing told him not to come to him in the future, no matter here or back home.

Two days later, Wen Qing and his party got on the plane back to China and flew back to China.

Before leaving, David was reluctant to leave Wen Qing, saying that he must go to China to play with them when he had time, and he never mentioned anything about his liking for Wen Qing.

Qi Yang also went back by plane after they left.

When I went back to Qi Yang, I went straight to class without taking a break. The first class was Zhang Chi's class. Zhang Chi looked at Qi Yang who was sitting on the side looking out of the window and didn't know what to think, and coughed twice.

Qi Yang looked back at him.

Zhang Chi said, "I finished this song."

"Pull it again." Qi Yang turned his head out of the window again, ignoring Zhang Chi.

Zhang Chi had no choice but to play it again. This time, he made a few wrong syllables and stuttered a few times recklessly.

After Zhang Chi finished pulling, Qi Yang turned to look at him.

Qi Yang said with an expression on his face, "You did it on purpose, what did you pull?"

Zhang Chi pouted, put the piano aside, and sat down to rest.

Qi Yang sighed, rubbed his temples, walked over and sat opposite Zhang Chi.

"Sorry, I've been like this for a while, and I'm in a bad state."

"Is it because of Brother Wen Qing?" Zhang Chi asked.

Qi Yang paused, glanced at Zhang Chi, nodded with a wry smile.

The last time I was with Ming He, if it weren't for Zhang Chi, I probably wouldn't be able to take Wen Qing away.

"Last time... thank you so much..."

Qi Yang always felt that it was awkward to tell a child about this, but he still needed to thank him. He had no chance to see Zhang Chi when he came back last time, and he was not used to talking on the phone, so it dragged on until now.

"It's nothing, as long as you and Wen Qing get along well."

Qi Yang shook his head and smiled, and didn't talk about it again.

"Play this piece again. This time, if you play it with your heart, I will listen to it too."

Zhang Chi nodded and set up the piano.

Back home, Wen Qing was still the same Wen Qing, sleeping when it was time to sleep, and going down to the stall downstairs to eat when it was time to eat, the auntie at the stall saw him and said that he hadn’t been here for a year. .

When there was no Qi Yang before, it must have been several years since he lived here. He and Jingzhou ate in these small shops almost every day, and the owner of the small shop knew them.

The fat aunt at the stall thought that Wen Qing was finally married, had a wife, and someone cooked, so she didn't come here to eat.

Wen Qing just smiled and said no.

Wen Qing was biting something in her mouth, and suddenly remembered that she could cook something now.

He smiled wryly. It's been two or three months, so he probably forgot about it.

It has been more than half a month since Wen Qing and the others returned to China, and these days Qi Yang will continue to bring him meals, but Wen Qing never picks them up, which makes Wen Qing quite annoyed.

As long as Wen Qing has a job, Qi Yang will go to the teahouse to watch him play the piano, Wen Qing can't catch up with Qi Yang who is a guest, he is helpless.

Day after day, Wen Qing almost got used to Qi Yang appearing in his life every day, and even almost believed that Qi Yang never left him.

The company for such a long time before was not casually talked about, Wen Qing would still feel lonely when Qi Yang was not around, but he still didn't want to accept it.

I don't know why, but it's obviously torturing two people like this.

After eating, I went home. I didn't go to work today, so I happened to have a good sleep at home.

He took the bathrobe and went into the bathroom, a little absent-minded while taking a shower.

It's always like this now, when I'm alone, I like to think wildly.

There was steam in the bathroom, and he suddenly remembered what happened when Qi Yang fell on the toilet when he first came to his house, and he couldn't help laughing.

The laughter stopped after a while, and there was still only the sound of rushing water in the bathroom.

Wen Qing didn't hear the phone kept ringing outside at all, and it never stopped rushing since he entered the bathroom.

After taking a bath, he soaked in the bathtub for a while, but he couldn't calm down. He was inexplicably restless, and he wrapped himself in a bathrobe and came out.

His head was groggy, and he probably hadn't adjusted the jet lag yet, so he took a towel and wiped his head twice before going to sleep, without even looking at his mobile phone in the living room.

Wen Qing had a dream, it seemed like it was still a nightmare, anyway, when Wen Qing was woken up by the untiring ringtone of her mobile phone, she was covered in cold sweat, and the weather in March and April still felt a bit cold.

When he rubbed his eyes and walked to the living room, the phone was already hung up. He looked at the wall clock on the wall, and he had only slept for less than half an hour.

He picked up the phone.

The 32 missed calls were all from Xiao Taoer.

Wen Qing woke up immediately, although he didn't know why Xiao Taoer was looking for him so urgently, but it must have something to do with Qi Yang, he was inexplicably nervous, and hurriedly dialed the phone.

The phone rang twice before it was connected. The voice from the other end of the phone was very messy. Xiao Tao'er seemed to have just connected to the phone and hadn't spoken to the phone yet. She was talking quite far away from the receiver.

"Hey, hey, you... this way... push this person in first, bastard!..."

The phone was noisy, and Wen Qing could tell from the chaotic noise that it was a hospital.

"Xiao Taoer? Xiao Taoer? Did you hear me? Xiao Taoer!"

The more Wen Qing shouted, the more flustered she became, her voice trembling.

"Ahhh, Wen Qing! Is it Wen Qing! Wen Qing, ugh... We are in the Central Hospital, Qi Yang had a car accident, come quickly..."

Xiao Taoer's voice was full of tears, Wen Qing's mind went blank, the phone slipped from his hand and fell to the ground, and the back cover was thrown off.

Xiao Taoer's voice in the microphone stopped abruptly.

The final chapter