Salvation equals death

"Two people who love commit suicide is called martyrdom, we call it suicide."

After Dazai poured a mouthful of black mud, Chiyo died almost visibly to the naked eye. She was not a positive and optimistic child. If Oda Saku is a healing type, then she can probably be considered a depression type. .

"I know you have a very powerful healing ability, even bullets can't pierce your skin, so I specially chose this place - the highest place in Yokohama." Dazai clasped Chiyo's five fingers tightly and said with a smile.

"In an instant, you can throw a person into a mass of flesh. It takes 5 to 6 seconds from the jump to the free fall. During this period, I will hold your hand. You cannot use any supernatural powers to save yourself."

Dazai tilted his head slightly, and there was even a bit of innocent innocence on his handsome and delicate face, which made the stars behind him shine brighter and brighter.

"Strong flesh doesn't mean the internal organs are equally strong. It's normal for bones to dislocate or internal organs to rupture under violent tremors, so I want to take a gamble with you."

"If we both survive unfortunately, then I will be with you in the future, and we will linger on each other until we both find the meaning of that illusory existence."

"If one of us dies and the other survives—" Dazai looked away lightly, overlooking the scenery of the Fire Tree Star Bridge from the highest point in Yokohama.

"Then carry on carrying the life of the other party and continue to walk alone in an unbearable and shameful way."

"Are you very experienced?" Chiyo's moon-like hair was blown by the night wind in Yokohama, and the lingering gloom between the girl's eyebrows and eyes blurred her real age. She seemed to be sucked out of all her freshness overnight. The breath is like a white flower that is in full bloom but is on the verge of withering, mournful but sad.

"If I die, I don't need you to bear my life for me, anyway, that kind of thing is meaningless." ——I am just a sacrifice to the world.

"But Dazai, you have to understand that as long as you are alive, good things will always happen."

A person who drowns in the water, at the last second of sinking, does not forget to push the people around him.

"There will be a person in your life who will make you forgive all the painful and rough past."

"For example, the lover you have lost?" Dazai lowered his head slightly, his eyes darkened, and he smiled lowly, "Qian-chan, do you know? I really admire you very much."

"You put your thoughts on your shoulders and write them into your life. Those qualities of bravery, kindness, and kindness, even if you are facing a hopeless rotten person like me, this is the way you miss them."

"You live like the person you love, like a saint, like a hero, except that you don't look like yourself."

Dazai looked down at her with a smile on his face, and Chiyo looked up at him expressionlessly. The next second, Chiyo threw his foot away, kicking Dazai directly.

The sudden sense of weightlessness caused Dazai's kite-colored pupils to shrink suddenly, but at the moment of flying into the air, he still grabbed the nun's arm without hesitation, and pulled her down together.

The strong wind whipped up the hair of the two, and there was a moment of intertwining in the air. They held each other's arms tightly, and fell from the highest peak in Yokohama.

The howling wind blew past their ears, and they fell from the bright star dome into the blurred lights. If the essence of this matter was ignored, the current scene was as beautiful as a watercolor painting that could be used as a game CG.

Chiyo lay on Dazai's chest, listening to his completely out-of-order heartbeat, the boy's iris-colored eyes reflected the stars in the sky, bright and pure, like a baby who just opened his eyes to look at the world.

"Chi-chan—" Dazai smiled sincerely and gently, "I seem to really fall in love with you."

Chiyo took a deep look at him, and the hand holding Dazai's arm suddenly exerted force, and then pulled it hard.

There was a loud "bang", at the very moment, Chiyo was like a most dexterous cat, like dancing the most beautiful ballet, and exchanged positions with Dazai just before landing.

She tucked under Dazai.

……

Blood, blood everywhere.

Just like what Dazai said, the body made of steel is still covered with hot and soft flesh and blood, just like Vera, just like Chiyo, the unparalleled sharp sword, which can be easily broken at any angle.

The girl lying in the pool of blood stared at the stars in the sky out of focus. In this night that was more silent than death, her lips moved slightly, and she sang softly in the pain of ruptured internal organs.

"I once thought about it, because someone said that I was a cold person—I wanted to be loved, so I cried because I finally tasted the warmth of the world."

"I once thought about it too. You smiled so beautifully, but your mind was full of self-killing. After all, it was because the matter of being alive was too deep."

The singing voice like a gossamer echoes in the quiet night, desperate and sad, but full of light.

[…] The system that broke free from the small dark room looked at the scene in front of it silently, and said coldly, 【Give me a reason. 】

There is no reason, Chiyo, who was singing, thought, she just caught a glimpse of herself sleeping in a dream under Dazai's description, she was very scared and desperate, and then... the dream woke up.

The system will never know what kind of meaning it has to Chiyo for what it sees as a love affair that the host just passed the time with.

Chiyo has no sense of belonging, and she has no sense of belonging to any world, even if there are people she loves in those worlds, Chiyo never feels that she has such a luxury as a way home.

A long, long time ago, her sense of belonging was her father, whether it was the hem of the clothes that she couldn't catch after chasing it in the wind and rain, or Alex who always taught her gently and strictly, Chiyo once thought that there was The place where the father is can be called "home".

But later she discovered that "home" is broken and fleeting, and her two fathers finally left her.

This indescribable sense of loneliness and separation melted away in the young man—when he said "sooner or later we will be a family", when she took her to see her most important mother.

She glimpsed the tenderness and longing that could not be concealed in the eyes of the young man. He imagined a beautiful future, in that future, there will be a "home" built by two lonely people, and no one can abandon the other.

Chiyo could see that the boy at that time longed for this future, very longing - he, like her, desperately wanted a place where he could live, where he could sleep soundly for a lifetime.

Kay, holding the jigsaw puzzle, meets Gerda, holding the last piece, and they have "eternity".

But now, the dream woke up.

"Will Gerda, who can't find Kay, throw away the pieces and buy a new jigsaw puzzle that suits her wishes?" —— Dazai drew an extremely cruel but true ending to her dream.

Blood gushed from the corner of her mouth, her body trembled violently, and her chest heaved rapidly. There would never be a moment like this, making her feel that she would completely perish in the next second.

"He will be very happy, I should be happy, yes, I should be happy-but when I think of the future life will be full of ice and snow, and I will never see anything else, I am so scared."

——Gerda, who couldn't find Kay, became the Snow Queen in Kay's eyes.

In the endless years to come, there will be nothing else in the world except Bingxue and you.

【...You are not wrong, I was wrong. 】The system said a word in a deep voice, 【Vera, as before, pull out all the memories about Hong Jiaodong, you don't need him. 】

"No, I'm going to die, I'm going to die." Chiyo struggled to get up from the pool of blood, she tried Dazai's breath with difficulty, the blood on her body fell on Dazai's body drop by drop, the hot blood Glittering golden light.

"Help me." Chiyo let out a chaotic cry for help, not because of the pain in his body, but because of the almost utter despair in his heart, "Who will... help me?"

At the moment of losing consciousness, Chiyo heard the sound of high-heeled shoes running fast, and a woman shouted anxiously: "Are you all right?! Cheer up!"

"Don't die—!"

A golden butterfly flashes away in the dark night.

……

When Chiyo woke up again, she was in the hotel room. There was no one around, and the tattered and bloody clothes on her body had also been changed. .

Holding the note, Chiyo frowned, couldn't help touching her heart, and felt that her heart was empty, as if a piece had been dug out of thin air.

Chiyo left the hotel with the cross on her back, her body was exhausted, and the long-lost drowsiness swept over her. She just wanted to lie down on the cross and sleep forever.

This is a seaside hotel. After walking for a while, Chiyo felt that she might not be able to go home with her physical strength and condition, so she had to walk around to the nearest curry house and gently knocked on the door on the second floor.

"Who?" A vigilant shout came from the room. Through the cat's eyes, Chiyo and the child inside looked at each other with a tired look on their faces, "Eh? Sister Qianqian, why are you here so late? ah?"

"Excuse me, Xingsuke." Chiyo entered the room, nodded slightly, "I'm sorry, I can't walk anymore, can I borrow a place to sleep with you?"

The second floor of the curry house was leased to Odasaku by the boss, and he was used by Oda to house his five children. At this time, the oldest Xingsuke and Shinji opened the door. After looking at each other in blank dismay, they agreed decisively.

"Sister Qianqian, don't be so obsessed with outsiders, our Oda is always in trouble for you to take care of it." Xingsuke shook his head and acted like a little adult, "Then sister Qianqian, you can share a room with Saki."

"No need, I'll just sleep on the floor." Chiyo put the cross on the ground, went inside, and said wearily, "If Sakunosuke comes back, just tell him to carry me back directly."

The two children agreed, and Chiyo closed the cross and passed out. She was really tired and needed a good night's sleep.

What Chiyo didn't know was that she had slept for three full days, and the children were a little uneasy. If it wasn't for Oda's one-way communication to protect the children, they could hardly bear to make Oda feel uncomfortable. called.

The owner of the curry shop took a look, and said with a bright face that this is normal and should not be ignored. There was a high-level Hong Kong gangster sleeping at home. The boss thought about it and closed the curry shop for a while, so as not to disturb her.

The boss came home from vacation, and Odasaku was too busy to see the beginning and the end, so on the third day, a group of ghost-like people in black cloaks broke into the small villa and arrested all the children.

The Mimic members who were ordered to kidnap the child rudely lifted the cross, and saw the nun lying on the cross with a pale face, like a Sleeping Beauty, which was lovable.

The members of Mimic were shocked by the girl who seemed to be lying in the white rose. The overly delicate and holy face of the other party was like a white elf beloved by the gods. They almost subconsciously slowed down their breathing, lest they would disturb the other party.

"Didn't it mean five children, four boys and one girl?"

"...Maybe it's the information lag? The other party adopted another one?"

"It's better to kill by mistake than to let it go. If one is missed, the other party thinks there is still hope. Wouldn't that be a bad thing?"

"That makes sense, but..."

A group of terrorists who knew that they were fighting the blackheads in Hong Kong within a few days of going ashore would naturally not investigate the hot-hot port girl in Yokohama, crying and shouting in Sakile, "You let go of Qianqian "At the time, Chiyo was taken for granted as Oda Sakunosuke's child.

So, they tied up the monster nun whose gene was gradually awakening, and stuffed five children into the carriage full of explosives.