Salvation equals death

Two months later, three little lolis sat in the dressing room with different expressions. The blonde loli covered her face with mournful eyes, and murmured almost collapsed:

"I really never expected it to be really popular."

In just two months, Yokohama's "Port Girl" has successfully become popular in the circle, and has become a rising star in the entertainment industry with a very charismatic personality and an unheard-of extreme background.

Because of his magical painting style and superb singing skills, he can be called the black sheep of the idol team that relies on his face, vitality and love to generate electricity. He won the first place in the team's album sales that month when he debuted, and his income even exceeded the one-month hard work of Shuanghei.

The current members of the "Port Girls" group are as follows: manager Ozaki Hongye, c "star girl" Vera, cute "sick girl" Alice, and "ghost girl" Akutagawa Gin who is set as a group favorite.

With the real extreme as the team background, unlike the "Backstreet Girls" idol team that only occupies one name but the actual persona is still relatively common to the public, "Port Girls" reveals extreme blackness from the inside to the outside.

Among them, the character of Alice is a proud girl from the upper-class nobles in Europe and America. She was trafficked and came to Yokohama, a foreign country. He can poke-explode other people's chrysanthemums in minutes, and his mantra is "If you don't love me, I will kill you." The most low-key one, but the dagger turns slyly, and has a sharp contrast that can kill your account; Chiyo, whose stage name is "Vera", is a nun from a foreign country. She grew up in a church since she was a child. Sacred and solemn, but without hesitation, he can eliminate the cold and delicate existence that he considers to be "dirty".

By the way, these three characters are Osamu Dazai's fine-tuned and modified versions based on the nature of the three lolis.

When these three personalities first came out, the straight men who watched and referenced also had black question marks on their faces and said, "Is it really possible to do things like this?" As soon as the "idol" misfit loli made her debut, she didn't know where she hit the neon otaku, and they all screamed and turned into shaking-M licking dogs, sending out "please kill me" and "come and cut me neck", "clean up my filth" and other violent words.

Regarding this, Nakaya looked at Dazai with perverted eyes for a full month, and always felt that this man was popular with women when he was a man, and that being a woman might be... evil.

The reason Ogai Mori first planned to start an entertainment company was of course not to imitate the Inukane Group, but to clean up the black money he grabbed in the fight against the leader, but he was deeply surprised by the success of "Port Girl".

With the mentality of "I'll just see what I don't do", Mori Ogai, who secretly went to watch the concert in disguise, knelt down the moment a certain nun opened his voice.

I repeat, Chuya and Chiyo are definitely siblings—not only are they similar in poor wine quality, but they are also born with perfect singing and performing skills.

The cold and holy nun bears the cross representing sin and redemption, her smile is also cold, and her anger is also cold, but the alienation and coldness between her brows are lingering and charming.

As soon as the nun opened her voice, the high-pitched voice that seemed to be singing a hymn went straight up to the sky and lingered around the beams. For such a cold and self-reliant person, at the moment when she laughed sickly and madly, almost everyone present felt that a cluster of electric currents flowed freely. The tailbone swept up and hit the scalp directly. At that moment, the bones were crisp and the scalp was numb. Goosebumps appeared on the arms uncontrollably, and even the knees almost gave way to the opponent's kneeling.

Grass, so exciting.

With Chiyo, who used to be the "Nightingale Bird", as the lead singer, the pressure on Alice, who was in charge of the chorus, dropped sharply. She only needs to add the most sickly lyrics at the most critical moment, and the audience can immediately scream.

Akutagawa Gin, who is still quite unfamiliar with singing skills, is responsible for the harmony. The girl's gentle and lovely voice chanted the sick lines quickly like a ghost, adding a bit of eerieness to the maddening song.

Mori Ogai only listened to it once, and has since become a demented fan of "Port Girls". Every day, he has an emoji of "I'm going to die if I don't hear any new songs from Harbor Girls.jpg".

At the very beginning, Chuya was afraid that his sister’s concert would be cold, so he pulled a large number of subordinates to call, but he never expected that his sister had her own fan base, who had heard Chiyo sing in church back then They came to grab seats one after another, but in the end, the group of people that Zhongye brought turned into security guards maintaining the order of the scene. Fortunately, Zhongye still grabbed the front row seats, and held up two call sticks and knocked in a serious manner.

Seeing the younger brother who rarely returned home, Chiyo was happy and almost collapsed. She gently dragged Zhongya onto the stage with a full face. The two siblings sang "セツナの爱 (Instant Love)" together, killing everyone in seconds. the audience.

Of course, it’s not that no one is jealous and imitates their persona, but fakes can’t become real, especially after a fanatical illegitimate fan rushed to the stage with the intention of committing crimes, and was almost sent back to his hometown by a cross, a big syringe, and a dagger at the same time. , the status of the port girl in the entertainment industry is as stable as an old dog, and no one can shake it.

And people who have more or less connections in the inner world also have a deep taboo about this, and they always have an expression of "don't ask, if you ask, you can't say it"-Ni. Ma, she is really. involved. Dark.

With extra income, the port mafia has grown and expanded at a terrifying rate, which has aroused the vigilance of the official organization. In order to delay the progress of the Hong Kong gangsters, it is necessary to move the buried chess pieces.

There is an organization named "Mimic" with a cute name in European countries. This organization in the name of "imitation" is a group of soldiers who were exiled as "traitors" because of improper transactions by superior officers. André Gide", generally speaking, the members of this organization are a group of fanatics, with sad resentment and loyalty to the country, sinking into darkness, and yearning for a glorious death.

This organization fled to Japan and landed in Yokohama. As soon as it landed, it touched Mori Ogai's sensitive nerve.

The side-lying tower does not allow others to sleep soundly, not to mention Mori Ogai regards Yokohama as his wife, how can his wife allow other stinky men to be arrogant?It must be killed in minutes.

Well, in order to protect this city I love so much, I will sacrifice anything.

As a result, Ango Sakaguchi, the head of Hong Kong's intelligence department, disappeared, and no one knew where he had gone, and Hong Kong's gangsters also had a bit of undercurrent and turbulent treachery in the process of fighting with Mimic, revealing a breath of stormy weather.

Not long after, Zhong was also sent to the west for a business trip, and Chiyo was arranged for a lot of entertainment activities. The model worker Zhong didn't think anything was wrong, but Chiyo noticed it.

Chiyo squeezed the center of her brows, her eyes were heavy and tired, and Mori Ogai pushed her and Zhongya away, proving that he judged that the Hong Kong gangsters might not be able to accept or agree with the plan they would implement next.

It was night, and Chiyo rushed back to Yokohama overnight after hastily completing the activity task of the port girl. In the cool night wind, she found Osamu Dazai sitting on the edge of a high-rise building. He was a tall, thin boy in a black suit. The back is straight and slender, and it has a special flavor, the unconscious dignity of a son from a family, and the inimitable childish innocence that belongs only to Osamu Dazai.

Chiyo came back after rushing to three cities overnight, slightly out of breath, she sat down next to Dazai Osamu in silence, overlooking the brilliant lights of Yokohama late at night.

Dazai didn't speak, and Chiyo didn't speak, because until now, she still didn't dare to touch Dazai's bloody heart.

"Qianjiang, do you know?" After a long, long time, the young man's gentle tone suddenly came from the night wind. The moonlight-like quiet and beautiful boy swayed his feet like a child, and every tick he made was child-like and cute. , "As for me, I am the kind of person who was born with everything. My family is rich and powerful, I am not bad-looking, my brain is not bad, and the most important thing is that I am tall... I am the kind of person who will The kind of people who are envied, envied or even resented."

"But, I'm a broken person, probably because my life is too rich and lazy, so I have too much time to think about some illusory things."

"With my parents' smart brain, I rarely live in a muddle. Even if I think I can't see some things, they will always send the truth to me through various clues. " Dazai tilted his body, and the tall and thin man leaned on the nun's thin shoulder like a child. This young man whose blood was stained black had eyes as clear as water, "So as long as I want, I can let Everyone likes me."

"When I was young, my father was going on a business trip. Before leaving, he asked me what gift I wanted. I found that he thought I would want a 'lion', but in fact I didn't want a lion. But in order to please him, I said I wanted Ask for 'Lion'."

"I used to have friends, the kind of friends who can see through at a glance. I know what he is thinking when playing games, but I never let him lose, because I am afraid that if I win, he will stop playing with me. .”

"I think I've been broken since then. The lions and games of childhood have been a curse, and I sometimes ask God if it's a sin not to resist? What's the sin of trusting?" Is there any?"

"I often wonder, what is the meaning of life? I am an ugly monster. Although I want to live like a normal person, this society has always regarded me as a monster."

"I don't want to be a monster, so I worked hard to integrate into this society, but groveling to please human beings made me exhausted, so I thought... I want to die, I must die, and living will only become the source of evil."

"So I couldn't help thinking, if there is a 'crime', there will be a 'punishment', but is the antonym of evil 'good' or 'law'? What crime did I commit to be punished like this? "

Osamu Dazai babbled on broken words, but Chiyo miraculously understood, like a sad soul resonance, she almost shed tears for this.

"Later, I fell in love with a girl. She was pure white, kind, and born with undefended trust in people. Even in the face of an ugly monster like me, she was gentle and treated her with no strange eyes."

"She was like a ray of light in my life—I almost thought she was the opposite of 'sin', the answer I was looking for."

"But." Dazai leaned closer to Chiyo's ear, whispering like a devil, "She was defiled."

"She was tainted by people with ulterior motives because of the purest kindness, because of her defenselessness to others-you said, if 'goodness' is the opposite of 'sin', why should she still suffer What about the 'punishment'?"

"I went crazy, and the light in my heart was extinguished, because I suddenly discovered that 'good' is actually a synonym for 'sin', and I am the same as her. As long as I live, I must be evil."

"Qian-chan, Qian-chan—" The young man turned sideways and hugged the girl tightly, he coquettishly used his tone of voice, his dark robe whistling in the night wind, like a demon trapped in the mud, about to kill her The people around her were dragged into the underworld together.

"Chien-chan, you, me, and Dr. Mori are actually the same kind of people, right? Dr. Mori regards Yokohama as his own light, and you——are thinking of someone I can't touch or erase Bar?"

"Is it called... Jiaodong?" Looking at the pupils of the nun who suddenly shrank, the boy tightened his arms and smiled softly, "Is it a place I can't go back to? Chi-chan is so powerful, relying on those The pitiful memories and the fantasy of 'they are all living happily in another world' can force yourself to live so bravely and hard... Ah, maybe, there is still a trace of hope and hope in your heart that you have not discovered. Hope, do you think you can turn back?"

"No, Chi-chan, love is a matter of sacrificing one's life, and it is never sweet. The so-called happiness is just the faintly shining golden sand sinking at the bottom of the river of sorrow. After experiencing infinite sorrow, it captures the wonder of a hazy light .”

"You can't turn back, because the world will not stop because of a person's departure, no matter how deep the pain and scars will be healed by time - those you love will wipe away their tears and cherish you in their hearts, Then continue to move forward with the ticking of the clock. They will occasionally think of you, miss you with emotion, and then have new lovers, new friends, and new futures... No one will live forever in the past for you, Wei pull."

"You said, if you really go back one day, and he already has a new lover and a new life, will his missing you turn into a complaint, complaining that you reappeared after being absent?"

Chiyo, no, Vera, almost couldn't listen anymore, she raised her hand tremblingly and grabbed Dazai's sleeve, but she couldn't exert any strength as if surrounded by mud, she wanted to cover Dazai's mouth and let him Say no more.

Stop talking, Dazai, stop talking—that is my pillar, my only light in the endless darkness.

Vera opened her mouth, but couldn't speak. She trembled and grabbed her collar, her expression tensed, as if she couldn't breathe.

Dazai smiled at her with all his tenderness.

"Vera, die in love with me, we must die before you and I are about to lose everything."

——Cowards are afraid of happiness, and they will be hurt when they touch cotton.

I have already lost my qualifications to be a human being.

Although I love this world very much, I really want to take off my clothes, and I really want to live a beautiful life, but a Satan like me, a killing stone, a poisonous mushroom, can't even appreciate the flowers in front of me.

He could not help crying, pressed the petals between his lips, chewed them to pieces, and trampled them under his clogs—yes, he was such a shameful and detestable deformed person.

Dazai gently hugged the girl who couldn't breathe, and stood in the cold night wind. Under their feet were the lights of the city and the cliff.