crossing the dangerous bridge

"Aren't you going home this summer?" Lin Jianxi frowned slightly, puzzled: "Why don't you want to come back? Did you fall in love there, or did you fail at school?"

The high-definition camera can faithfully convey Lin Jianxi's every move to the screen synchronously, but it is still separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, no matter how clear the image is, it cannot be touched.

Jiang Yu held down the front camera with his thumb, and in Lin Jianxi's doubts, "Why is it suddenly dark on your side?", he stretched out his hand, across the screen, and touched his eyes carefully, just as he had imagined, Gently and gently caress from the corners of the eyes to the lips.

The mobile phone screen is still too small, no matter how serious it is, it is only a few seconds.

He let go of his fingers and replied, "The light flickered just now."

"Will the light flash for so long..." Lin Jianxi was a little puzzled, but he didn't think too much, and his attention quickly returned to the fact that he still didn't go home this year: "So why don't you want to go home? I didn't abuse you."

"..." Jiang Yu paused, and replied, "It's not your problem, brother."

"What's the problem?"

"I found an internship, which is very rare, and I don't want to lose it." Jiang Yu's tone was very natural, as if he hadn't rehearsed it thousands of times in his mind in advance.

"What are you doing?" Lin Jianxi muttered unhappily, and then said, "Then I'll go see you?"

"It's rainy here in summer," Jiang Yu said, "There are a lot of bugs."

Lin Jianxi: "..."

Jiang Yu got up, casually went to the garden to catch a worm, and came back, shaking it in front of the camera: "Look, I didn't lie to you."

Suddenly seeing a colorful caterpillar, the young master's scalp tingled, and he put the phone on the table with a "bang", and said angrily, "Jiang Yu, are your wings stiff?"

Jiang Yu looked at the darkened picture, and his throat moved slightly: "No."

The video chat hangs up.

A certain young master was angry.

"..."

How to coax him now, Jiang Yu leaned against the back of the chair, rubbed his eyes, his mind was empty, he couldn't think of what to do.

After a while, he opened the webpage, flipped through it for a long time, ordered two little duck ornaments, and filled in the address of the Lin family.

His answer was not correct, but he was not lying either. He did have an internship, and it was a rare opportunity in the eyes of outsiders, although this opportunity came by chance.

It was not long ago, his birthday. In order to create the illusion that he was serious about his birthday, he invited his classmates home for the first time, decorated the living room with ribbons and balloons carefully, cooked the dishes seriously, and finally video-videoed with his brother seriously.

He carefully created a picture of joy and harmony, just to tell his brother that he is no longer that lonely kid, so don't worry about him anymore.

However, as soon as the video was hung up, he faced the hilarious voices all over the room, and suddenly felt tired, so tired that he couldn't even maintain the smile on his face.

It seems that without that person, all the excitement has turned into suffering.

After finally leaving, Jiang Yu finished seeing off the last classmate and left. He stood by the side of the road for a while, then turned into a convenience store, bought a box of cigarettes with less scary packaging, and took a taxi to the beach.

The night wind brought the salty smell of the sea, he took a deep breath, and lit his first cigarette amidst the sound of the surging waves.

Maybe it was nicotine, or maybe it was the sea, his chaotic thoughts gradually calmed down to the point where there were no waves.

He seldom allows himself to miss that person wantonly. For this reason, he finds himself many, many things to do every day, for fear that if he relaxes, his brain will uncontrollably think about his brother, but today is his birthday. It shouldn't matter.

He remembered that when he was celebrating his birthday at home before going abroad, his family members knew his character well, so he wouldn’t make a big fuss. At most, he would invite the two children from the neighbor’s house over, and after blowing out the candles, his elder brother would give him a hug and laugh. He said to him, congratulations to my brother for being one year older.

He doesn't like the word "brother", but he also misses Lin Jianxi's embrace.

It was this gentleness that caught his minions and strangled his throat, so he didn't dare to be reckless or speak.

The smoke burned to the end at some point, Jiang Yu got up and was about to go back, when a sports car roared and galloped towards him, the sharp sound of the brakes woke up the bird on the branch.

He didn't stop, and within a few steps, he heard the sound of someone jumping into the sea.

He stopped, turned his eyes, and saw a woman walking into the sea, and was washed back by the waves, back and forth several times, the woman's movements became smaller and smaller.

She probably wanted to die, but she didn't think about whether she wanted to die or not, and she was hesitant in the way she wanted to die. Otherwise, with the speed of her car just now, and the steering wheel was slightly off, she could welcome the sound of the explosion that came to an end.

Seeing that the woman was about to drift into the sea with the current, Jiang Yu stopped watching and jumped into the sea to fish her back to the shore.

On the shore, he let go of his hand, and the woman fell into the beach, crying out: "Damn, it hurts."

Jiang Yu was indifferent, turned around and wanted to leave, but she grabbed her clothes: "Wait...don't go, do you have any cigarettes?"

He took out the cigarette case soaked in water, "It's gone now."

"Then can you chat with me?"

"No."

"I have money, you tell me a word, I will give you a hundred dollars."

"I'm not short of money."

Jiang Yu was a little annoyed, he just didn't want this woman to die in the sea, and he never thought that he would be responsible for the psychological counseling after rescue, but the woman suddenly grabbed his clothes and begged, "Please, I'm about to die I broke down and I couldn't hold on."

Jiang Yu thought of his brother, what would he do if he were here?

Surely he would listen to her.

But what if the begging person is replaced by himself?Will the elder brother still have pity on him?

He finally said: "What do you want to say, say it."

The woman was stunned for a while, as if thinking about where to start. Jiang Yu didn't urge her, but just sat down and stared at the sea in front of her.

He was distracted, but women don't need him to concentrate, they just treat him as a breathing statue, pouring out all their dissatisfaction on their own.

She talked about it from childhood to adulthood, saying that her strict father will always have higher demands. She has worked very hard but no matter how hard she tried, she could not get his approval. Talking about the precarious love under high pressure, when she said something about it, the night became darker.

Surprisingly quiet all around, only the sound of the waves constantly churning.

Jiang Yu asked, "Do you have anything else to say?"

The woman shook her head blankly: "No more."

"I'm leaving."

"Wait," the woman asked, "Why are you here?"

Jiang Yu didn't answer.

"You look very young," the woman sighed, "It's so pitiful, you are so young that you are trapped by love."

Jiang Yu: "..."

"You saved me, I should thank you." The woman cut her hair and continued: "Do you want to forget the pain with an interesting work life? I will offer you a job opportunity, how about it, as long as you are full."

Jiang Yu: "..."

How did this woman turn from a miserable person with no love to a capitalist who is only interested in profit?

But he was bewitched by the words "forget the pain", and he did not refuse by mistake: "Yes."

The woman's name is Meila, and she is the only daughter of the boss of a well-known company. The job she offered to Jiang Yu was to be an assistant to the big boss. Judging from the short contact time of a week, Jiang Yu confirmed one thing. The misery is not an act, her father is really sick.

The big boss is condescending, condescending, and has deep-rooted class discrimination. In his eyes, those whose assets are not as good as his are trash. His company is a charity organization. Everyone who works in his company should be grateful to him and look down on young people. And Jiang Yu, by coincidence, gathered all the traits that he looked down upon--young, poor, and a relationship with his daughter to get into the company.

On the first day of the internship, Jiang Yu was harassed so much that he had nothing to do with it. He suspected that Mei La didn't want to repay her kindness, but revenge.

But he didn't retreat either. He gradually learned a lot from the endless troubles and ridicules, and it seemed that he really forgot the pain of not getting what he wanted.

However, in the rare time he has free time, he video-videos with his brother as usual, and all his efforts come to naught with just one sentence from the other party.

In the video, Lin Jianxi bent his eyes and said with a sigh: "My brother has grown up."

Jiang Yu's hard-forged copper skin and iron bones disappeared in an instant. He tried his best to hold the armrest of the chair so that he didn't lose control.

grown up?Maybe, when he was a child, he wanted to grow up, wanted to be with his brother all the time, wanted to protect his brother, now that he has finally grown up, he is taller and stronger than his brother, and he has the ability to protect his brother, but when he was a child Would he have thought, would he become a monster when he grew up?

He lowered his head in the name of picking up things, and replied softly: "Yes."

Time passed silently. One year later, the big boss was still defiant, and even the tone of announcing that he had passed the assessment was like grace, "You still have many shortcomings, but you can stay."

Jiang Yu shook his head: "Sorry, I refuse."

The boss was a little surprised, "Why?"

"Because you are not a boss worth working for." Jiang Yu replied calmly: "I also want to thank you, you let me know that some people's success is not based on brains, but on luck."

This sentence was to repay this year's cynicism. After replying, Jiang Yu left the office, not caring how angry the big boss was.

He had time again, and he finally learned to accept his fate after a long time. Missing became his instinct, and the instinct was irresistible. It flowed in every detail of his body, and even dreams were the background sound of missing.

Life became calm again. He spent a lot of time studying every day, went to the sea to watch the sea, or went to the bar to order a glass of wine, and sat until closing time.

He had thought many times about when he would go back, it might be at his brother's engagement banquet, or it might be something else, but he never thought that his brother would experience the same pain as him.

Hearing that Lin Zhiming and Zhao Yunqi had an accident, he couldn't care about anything else and returned home overnight.

After three years of separation, the Lin family's villa didn't seem to have changed at all. He hurried upstairs and found Lin Jianxi in the study. The moment he saw him hiding under the desk, he shook and nearly fell to his knees.

"Brother..." He tremblingly pulled Lin Jianxi out and hugged him tightly: "I'm back, brother..."

He heard Lin Jianxi's cry, which was enough to break his heart.

He hugged Lin Jianxi tightly, hating himself for not being able to become an indestructible barrier, covering the person in his arms, and protecting him from wind, frost and sword.

My brother said he was the only one left.

He replied, you and me.

I am Jiang Yu, your younger brother.

After the funeral, Lin Jianxi fell ill and remained in a daze, as if trying to escape.

Jiang Yu took care of him every step of the way, waiting for him to wake up.

He is not in a hurry, if escaping can save his brother from suffering, he can wait. He also knows that his brother will get better, it just takes a little time.

Lin Jianxi is so brave and powerful, he won't keep avoiding it.

At night, he stayed beside his brother, holding his hand, and suddenly remembered that when he was a child, the two of them sat together watching the animal world, and what appeared on the TV was a vast wilderness. In autumn, the weeds withered and became vulnerable Yellow, yellow is hope in the wheat field, but when it comes to another land, it becomes a criminal who assists the evil.

Carnivorous beasts lurk in the golden weeds. Two docile deer don't know that death is imminent. They are still leaning together and rubbing each other affectionately. The wild grass sways, and the wild beast rushes out of the grass, swiftly chasing the panicked deer, biting it. Slit the throat of one of them.

As the blood spilled, Jiang Yu covered his eyes in fear, and when he let go of his hand, there was only a single deer left on the screen, surrounded by the seemingly endless wilderness.

The deer watched the sunset for a long time, the camera gradually lengthened, the screen suddenly jumped to black, the subtitles rolled, and a story ended again.

More than ten years later, he finally understands that this is what it means to depend on each other for life, clinging to each other on the cold blade of death, surrounded by nothingness, only each other is of the same kind.

And his elder brother will depend on him for life.

Lin Jianxi gradually got better, and at the same time took over the burden of the Lin family.

He has just graduated, and the Lin family company is so big, there are too many things to learn, and he is busy day and night every day. If it weren't for Jiang Yu watching, he wouldn't even have time to eat.

Jiang Yu thanked that mean boss for the first time, otherwise he could only watch his brother desperately, anxious and helpless.

After Mr. Xiao Lin took power stably, Jiang Yu bought a house, carefully decorated it, and secretly hid the treasures in his box.

Naturally, he would not tell the truth to his brother, but just such fantasies were enough to comfort his long-awaited, thirsty soul.

Occasionally, Jiang Yu would feel that it would be fine for the two of them to go on like this forever, as long as he was the most important person in his brother's heart, he didn't care if other people would live in.

But his fantasy was shattered, and his brother knew his secret and began to avoid him.

Although he hid so quietly that outsiders couldn't feel it, how could Jiang Yu, who grew up with him, not feel it?

How can you avoid me?

I could give everything for you, why are you avoiding me?

The desire suppressed in his heart was about to move, Jiang Yu became more and more irritable, and every time Lin Jianxi hid his touch, the chains that held the beast would loosen a bit.

But Lin Jianxi didn't know that the harmless younger brother in his eyes was actually a mad dog who had been plotting against him for a long time.

The secret was discovered, but that person refused to give him the same love. Jiang Yu seemed to have returned to the time when he first arrived at the Lin family. His anxiety and nervousness had reached the limit, and he was extremely worried about gains and losses. nightmare.

He can't maintain his calmness for a long time at all. He can barely suppress it in the company, but when he gets home, he will show his original shape. Even if Lin Jianxi says he won't abandon him, it's useless. He wants his brother to love him.

The moment Gu Xing asked that sentence, Jiang Yu also heard the sound of the chain breaking.

He was completely insane.

He forcibly pressed Lin Jianxi on the bed, forced him to bear it, and bit him all over his body in pain and joy. Young master Lin was delicate and precious, and it was the first time he felt so much pain in his body.

Jiang Yu was sober, but after it was over, he realized that his sobriety was not enough for him to face the mess everywhere, and he could neither forgive himself for hurting Lin Jianxi, nor let him go.

When he was strangled by his brother, he really wanted to die in his hands.

He was always not smart enough in front of this person, and he had only learned to wait for so long, waiting for him to turn around, waiting for him to reach out to him.

So now, is it possible to be willful for a while, and also to avoid it once?

He didn't want to care about anything, he made a mistake on his elder brother, and it was his elder brother who should punish him, if he didn't get his love, then it would be a kind of luck to die at his hands.

But the god of luck never favored him, Lin Jianxi let go of his hand.

The two fell into a difficult situation. Lin Jianxi wanted to leave, but Jiang Yu refused to let him go. Every day of being forced to be together was torture. My brother no longer smiled at him, spoke softly to him, and never let him go. To see him.

He was completely treated as air, no matter how hard he tried, all he got was silence.

He has already gone on the wrong path, and no matter how hard he tries, he will only make more mistakes. Jiang Yu does not understand, but he is still clumsily trying to find a future where he can glimpse the light in the intertwined dead end.

This is the only person he loves in this life, how could he want to give up.

Jiang Yu was so paranoid that he lost his mind, almost crazy, but no matter how crazy he was, when Lin Jianxi talked to him again, he finally decided to let go.

He is deeply attached to the tenderness given by this person, even if he no longer gives it now.

He is a light that illuminates the way, and he should not be confined to a square inch, and should not be silent like him.

He begged his brother to go to Lover's Bridge with him. In fact, he didn't believe in the story of Lover's Bridge at all. He just needed something to support him. In the future, if there is a future, he always needs a little fantasy to support him to live.

After going down the mountain, my brother asked him to buy cotton candy.

He shouldn't have listened to his brother.

The moment he saw Lin Jianxi fell to the ground, he couldn't hear anything.

He seemed to have lost all perception, he couldn't hear or see, he only had that person in his eyes, and the blood that seemed to spread to the horizon.

"There was a car accident!"

"Sin! Call 120!"

"beated!"

"Don't squeeze together, give way! There's no such thing as a car accident, and I'm not afraid to go back and have nightmares!"

It is probably the nature of human beings to watch other people's bustle. No matter how much someone tells them not to watch, the crowded tourists still form an impenetrable circle.

Jiang Yu stumbled through the crowd, trying to get to his brother.

"Go away, go away, go away..."

The person who was roughly pushed aside by him turned his head in displeasure, saw his distraught appearance, and swallowed back the words he was about to utter.

It seems that this person called "brother" just now, right?

That's really pitiful, watching my brother get into a car accident.

While watching the scene of birth and death, the tourists shook their heads and sighed, it's so pitiful, the person who got into the car accident is still so young.

These strangers who meet by chance will not know that the person who fell down is the life of the person who tried his best to get over it, his brother, and his lover.

The crowded crowd suddenly emptied, and Jiang Yu finally walked to Lin Jianxi's side.

His strength was emptied in an instant, and he fell to his knees unbearably. His outstretched hand trembled so much that one wondered if he could hold a piece of paper. He didn't dare to hug him rashly, but only dared to hold his hand tightly. .

"Brother." He shouted hoarsely, and carefully put his hand under Lin Jianxi's nose, but he didn't feel breathing.

Jiang Yu's expression went blank for a moment.

A few seconds later, as if he remembered something, he hurriedly put his ear on Lin Jianxi's heart.

No, there is nothing there.

No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't hear a little echo.

Without breathing and heartbeat, people will die, right?

Jiang Yu forgot everything.

"Brother," Jiang Yu seemed to have made a sound, but he didn't seem to. He lowered his head and put his face on Lin Jianxi's blood-stained side face, feeling that his soul would be frozen by the cold blood: " elder brother……"

Ten minutes ago, he smiled at him and said to go back with him.

"You lied to me..." In extreme pain, every word Jiang Yu uttered was smeared with blood, as if forcefully pulled out from his lungs: "You lied to me again...you liar , when did you make people feel at ease..."

He made a mistake again. He knew that Lin Jianxi's "rest assured" was never reliable, so why did he leave him alone?Why is it about Lin Jianxi, he either missed it or made a mistake?

"Brother," Jiang Yu could no longer make a sound, his fingers trembling violently: "Please, don't leave me..."

The ambulance arrived quickly, and the nurse unfolded the stretcher. They were not surprised to see Jiang Yu's distraught appearance. They had seen many family members in car accidents like this. Save time.

Fortunately for them, this person has not completely collapsed, and he knows how to cooperate with the doctor to carry him into a stretcher.

There was emergency medical equipment in the ambulance. The doctor put on an oxygen mask for Lin Jianxi, checked his injured parts, and frowned.

The doctor sighed in his heart. Based on his profound experience, he could naturally see the extent of the injured young man's injury. Judging from the injured part, it was impossible to recover.

When they arrived at the hospital, the nurse hurriedly carried him into the operating room. Jiang Yu leaned against the wall as if he was exhausted, staring at the red light that symbolized the operation.

It seems that a long time has passed, a little girl suddenly appeared in front of him, looked at him timidly, and handed him a pack of tissues: "Big brother, here."

Jiang Yu seemed to have never heard of it.

The little girl was even more frightened, but she still tried her best to muster up the courage, and shouted again: "Big brother, your face is stained."

His face was covered with blood and washed with tears, and it was already dirty.

"...that brother saved me." The little girl said sadly, "I will wait here for my brother to come out."

Jiang Yu then lowered his head and glanced at her.

He took the little girl's paper and said hoarsely, "That's my brother."

It's his elder brother, no one can call him that anymore, it's just his elder brother.

But his brother's life and death are unknown now because he saved others.

Jiang Yu didn't want to see this girl, but he didn't have the strength to drive her away, but slowly fell to the ground along the wall, holding his head in vain.

He didn't know, there was only blank silence in his eyes, as if he could leave with the people in the operating room at any time.

The operating room door opened.

The doctor said regretfully, "I'm sorry."

Jiang Yu turned his head in a daze, not understanding what he was saying at all, but the door opened, so he can go see his brother now.

They had been separated for a long time, and he had missed him a long time ago.

"Brother." Jiang Yu was finally able to hug him: "I'll take you home, okay? You come home with me, and we will never be separated again."

The doctor saw that his emotional state was not right, so he quickly called someone to hold him down, not allowing him to take him away, "What are you doing! The dead will be sent to the morgue, where do you want to take him!"

Jiang Yu hugged Lin Jianxi tightly, not letting anyone break them up, but no matter how hard he tried, his hands were still broken.

He watched Lin Jianxi being snatched away from his arms bit by bit, like a child whose treasure was snatched away, and kept begging: "Don't... don't snatch my brother..."

Don't pull him so hard, don't hurt him.

His arms were empty, and the last trace of cold breath was gone.

Jiang Yu got up from the ground and followed them desperately.

He knew what the morgue was, and he couldn't let his brother go in alone. It was so cold there, and his brother would be scared.

But he was stopped again.

He stood outside the door helplessly, like a wandering ghost.

"Young man, my condolences, my condolences." The doctor patted him on the shoulder, speaking earnestly.

Jiang Yu sat outside the door, waiting for the door to open.

He refused to leave no matter what, even if he was taken out, he would still come back. After some time, grandpa came.

"Xiao Yu..." Grandpa called him, but couldn't say anything else. Jiang Yu suddenly raised his head, saw the old man's vicissitudes of face, and replied in a daze, "Grandpa, brother doesn't want me anymore..."

The old man has lost his son and daughter-in-law, and has been hit. He is no longer as energetic as in previous years. Now he doesn't even have a grandson. It looks like a completely withered tree, "Xiao Yu, come home with grandpa, go home Wait for brother..."

Jiang Yu thought about it slowly, then slowly stood up, before he could stand up completely, he fell down again.

He stayed outside for several days and nights without eating or resting, his body had already reached its limit.

Grandpa contacted the driver at home and took him back to the Lin family.

Jiang Yu could feel his body moving, but he couldn't wake up consciously, and was still sinking to a deeper place.

He had a dream.

In the dream, both he and his elder brother were still young, and Lin Jianxi climbed a big tree at some point. He rarely climbed trees because he was afraid of insects on the tree, but in the dream, he was suddenly not afraid anymore.

The tree was tall, and he climbed high too.

Jiang Yu raised his head and called out to him in fear: "Brother, come down."

Lin Jianxi shook his head, sat on the branch, and swayed his legs briskly: "Brother, can you climb up too?"

Jiang Yu stretched out his short arms and said aggrievedly, "I can't climb up."

"Then I'll come down to find you, can you catch me?" Lin Jianxi stood up, Jiang Yu was even more frightened, and opened his eyes wide in panic: "Brother, what are you going to do?"

Lin Jianxi stretched out his arms, jumped forward, and said cheerfully, "I'm going to fly!"

"Brother!" Jiang Yu hurriedly reached out to catch him, but before he could catch him, Lin Jianxi suddenly turned into a wisp of wind and disappeared into the air.

Jiang Yu suddenly opened his eyes.

The tree in the dream receded quickly, and he realized that he was at home, on his brother's bed.

He felt cold, unprecedentedly cold, and the surroundings seemed to have turned into wilderness. In the cold winter, heavy snow covered all living and withered life, and in front of him, there was only a pile of burnt bonfires.

Lin Jianxi is the fire that won't let him freeze to death in the vast snowy night.

But the fire went out.

Jiang Yu hugged his head, and a low, hoarse cry came from his throat, as the beast was in a desperate situation.

He didn't dare to close his eyes anymore, waiting for Lin Jianxi to come home, he sat on the sofa and watched the clock turn bit by bit.

Yuncheng didn't know when it started to rain, and the heavy rain continued until late at night.

When the rain stopped, Jiang Yu heard a slight noise, he hurried out to look, but there was nothing outside.

He saw nothing, he saw nothing.

After a long time, he turned around slowly and continued to sit on the sofa, waiting for someone to come back.

From before to now, he has been waiting for that person for a long time.

My brother doesn't like to wait, so he certainly doesn't know what it's like to wait.

Waiting is, you know that he will not come back, but you still can't help holding a trace of vain fantasy, listening to the sound of the wind is him, the sound of rain is him, and the fallen leaves are also him.

And he never came back.

How can it rain overnight, and see the vastness of water in the sky.

The author has something to say: the last sentence comes from Su Shi