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For a long time afterwards, Shen Zhiming would wake up at night to make sure that his sister was indeed in the bedroom, and when he occasionally encountered her in the study, he would also suffer from insomnia until dawn.

This wasn't supposed to be the sleeping state of a 19 and 13 year old.

At that time, Shen Huaiyi had just passed away, and Shen Zhifei was thinking about the future while working to pay off her debts. She thought that she was not too bad, and she would give all the pocket money she had to an old man begging on the side of the road.

Although the old man was later confirmed by many classmates that he cheated students of money at the school gate, Shen Zhifei also comforted himself foolishly. The money helped him the best, and if it didn't help him, he could feel at ease.

Perhaps the worst thing she has done since she was a child was burning ants with a magnifying glass when she was a child. Of course, she also apologized to the ants when she grew up, even though this behavior seemed a bit silly.

She couldn't figure out why.

Why should she be punished for doing nothing bad.

During that time, she really couldn't understand herself.

She wasn't so desperate that she wanted to die, but she just couldn't find her way.

Standing on the bridge, it had just rained, and the water flow under the bridge was still relatively fast. Shen Zhifei threw down the pebbles that he had been holding for a while, and they were swallowed up by the river in the blink of an eye.

Shen Zhifei looked at the place where the stone disappeared, and wondered if she would be like a stone when she fell, disappearing in the blink of an eye.

It's a pity that there are very few people who will feel sad for her.

She tried to climb over the railing, and just as her legs stepped over, she heard rustling sounds around her. She knew that someone was approaching her.

The elder brother of the passer-by was a little worried, but he was limited to getting closer to the little girl, and advised her: "Little girl, don't think too hard."

A gust of wind blew by, and Shen Zhifei swayed along with him, letting go of one hand and combing his hair. Such a bold and desperate behavior caused a burst of embarrassment.

She said: "I don't want to die, I just look at it."

As she said that, she stepped over with the other foot, and she sat on the railing, her feet still swinging. If the situation and the scene were not too thrilling, such an action would appear to be a bit playful.

"sister!"

The boy had just entered the voice-changing period, and his immature voice was a little hoarse, with a broken crying voice, which was wrapped in the wind and sent to Shen Zhifei's ear.

Shen Zhifei blinked, and looked back blankly at the boy who stumbled towards him.

He has suffered from convulsions in the past two years, and he has grown from Xiaodouding to about 1.7 meters in an instant, and several blue veins can be stretched out in the arm holding her around her waist.

Shen Zhifei was dragged down by him, the strength can be described as rude.

She knocked her elbow on the ground, and her head almost hit the concrete floor as well——it was supported by a hand.

Shen Zhiming lay motionless, his eyes were red, as if he was out of anger, his lips were trembling and he couldn't say a word, but he clasped his hands tightly around his sister's waist, as if he was afraid that she would disappear in place as soon as he let go.

The onlookers were chattering, some were trying to persuade her to calm down, and some were just watching.

"What's the matter with the little girl, what can't be overcome at a young age?"

"That's right, living is better than anything else!"

"Nowadays, children are all squeamish, and they will die under a little pressure. I guess they don't have the guts to really jump down."

Shen Zhiming on the ground raised his eyelids sharply, staring at the passer-by in the crowd who said, "Shut the fuck up!"

The two children of the Shen family are soft-tempered, and Xu Shulan and Shen Huaiyi discussed what to do if the two children were bullied in society.

It was the first time for a person who rarely swears to encounter such a fierce person, Shen Zhiming clearly felt Shen Zhifei in his arms tremble, and was startled by such a sudden sound.

Shen Zhifei remembered that she had reminded the kid many times not to swear. Of course, at this moment, she also knew that the situation forced her to change, and she might not be able to bear it.I had no choice but to give up correcting his thoughts at this time.

Shen Zhifei moved his hands, stroked Shen Zhiming's hand, and gently pulled it out, but in the next second, he was restrained even more strongly.

"Let go of me a little bit."

"I don't!" Shen Zhiming choked with sobs, clenched his fingers into knots, his joints turned white due to poor blood flow.

"...I didn't want to jump down."

Shen Zhifei smiled feebly, there was no light in his eyes, but the despair just now was gone, like ashes after all the turmoil had passed.

"Who would believe you!" The child didn't believe it easily, a breath was choked in his throat, and tears fell.

I really don't want to jump down.Shen Zhifei's voice sank, very convincing.

Shen Zhiming still didn't let go, but his strength obviously relaxed a lot.

Shen Zhifei struck while the iron was hot, saying that I still have a younger brother.

I don't know if it's comforting Shen Zhiming or himself, anyway, both of them calmed down a little.

But even though he let go of his sister's waist, Shen Zhiming didn't dare to let go of Shen Zhifei's hand until he finished the negotiation with the police and went home.

The two looked at each other in the crowded kitchen.

Shen Zhifei tried to withdraw his hand: "I want to cook, I can't do it with one hand."

Shen Zhiming grabbed it back and held it, stretched out his other hand: "I'll lend you one."

Shen Zhifei was about to be laughed out of anger, how could a child's brain circuit have twists and turns, and she couldn't keep up with it when she was just an adult.

"I promise you, I won't be overwhelmed, I will stay with you until you grow up, okay?"

"Then I didn't grow up until I was 80." Shen Zhiming frowned, and when some childish words came out of his mouth, his ears turned red.

He just didn't want Shen Zhifei to take advantage of any loopholes.

If Shen Zhifei said that he would grow up tomorrow, and Shen Zhifei would just leave, it wouldn't be considered a breach of appointment, would it?

"Okay." Shen Zhifei really laughed now, and then shook hands that were almost sweating, "Can I cook?"

"Yes." Shen Zhiming let go, but did not intend to leave, but picked up the heavy kitchen knife, tilted his head and asked her: "What kind of vegetables are you cutting? I'll come, you are not allowed to touch the knife."

Shen Zhifei pointed to two dishes, and Shen Zhiming clumsily cut them, almost cutting them several times, Shen Zhifei was terrified.The result was that the two of them were almost half an hour late before eating this unappetizing meal.

For several days afterwards, Shen Zhiming stayed close to each other, and even asked the teacher for leave.

It was the first time he went to the place where Shen Zhifei worked, and he didn't know how his sister used to sing on stage.

That bear is so ugly.

But his sister is so pretty, he can almost imagine her standing under the light without wearing a doll costume, it should be Shen Zhifei who has no burden, just a clean singing.

......

When Shen Zhifei came back from drinking hot water, he saw Shen Zhiming with his head down, without turning his head and making no sound.

"What's wrong?" Shen Zhifei put down the kettle, walked over and saw the child's eyes were red.

The genes of their Shen family are self-contained. Both men and women have raised eyes, not pure peach blossom eyes nor pure phoenix eyes, but more like something in between.

Shen Zhiming rubbed his nose, don't start, "It's okay."

How could Shen Zhifei just believe his nonsense.She pinched Shen Zhiming's ears and tried to pull his face back, but of course she didn't use much strength.

Shen Zhiming didn't resist too much, and confessed honestly the moment he turned around: "I'm afraid she's just like you."

Shen Zhifei didn't react for a while, and his expression was startled.How is she?

Shen Zhiming hated her seemingly amnesiac, how could Shen Zhifei forget about something that almost became a shadow in his life so easily?Dare she not be the one who sat on the railing and almost fell into the river, right?

Shen Zhifei, you have no fucking heart!

Shen Zhiming gritted his teeth and said, "I'm afraid she will seek death just like you!"

"When did I—" Halfway through the sentence, Shen Zhifei seemed to finally remember the incident, pursed his mouth guiltily, and struggled: "I just wanted to calm down, I really didn't want to jump down."

In fact, at that time, her mind was empty, she didn't think about anything, and the movement of sitting up was not controlled by her brain at all. She just wanted to try sitting up at that moment, and she didn't have any thoughts of suicide.

But she told Shen Zhiming countless times about this statement, and he never believed it.

It's not the roundworm in her mind, of course Shen Zhiming wouldn't believe it, he just took it as an excuse for Shen Zhifei to comfort him.

Shen Zhifei looked at his mother whose face was still a little pale on the bed, and said in a low voice, "I kept looking at her a few days ago because I was afraid that she would be overwhelmed."

"But she shouldn't be that kind of person." Shen Zhifei said again, "Father hopes that she will live a good life."

"He will definitely wait for her."

Shen Zhiming didn't know much about the love story of his parents, but Shen Zhifei was very gossip. He figured out their innocent romance when he was in junior high school, and then he was very proud that he was the crystallization of such a pair of lovers' love.

One sentence that Shen Zhifei remembered very clearly was that Shen Huai also said to her with a doting smile: "The thing I am best at is waiting for your mother."

He is six or seven years older than Xu Shulan. When we met, Xu Shulan was just under 16 years old. She was still a little girl. Later, Shen Huai also wanted to go to college. Xu Shulan skipped class and went to the train station to see him off. When they parted, they almost burst into tears.

At that time, the two of them didn't have any outrageous behavior. When Shen Zhifei's grandfather asked about it later, Shen Huaiyi replied with a smile: "She is still young, and many things can be discussed when she grows up."

Yes, he will wait for her, even if the yin and yang are separated.

Like an illusion, Shen Zhifei saw Xu Shulan's fingers tremble, so slight that she could hardly be sure, so she just held her breath and stared at her fingers.

Move again.

Shen Zhifei supported Shen Zhiming's shoulders in an instant, and commanded him almost helplessly: "Press the beeper."

Shen Zhiming gave one command and one action, and quickly pressed the beeper on the bedside.

The doctor came in a hurry with the nurse, and then walked away slowly.

The big rock in Shen Zhifei's heart finally fell to the ground.

Xu Shulan is fine, completely fine.

After the doctors and nurses all left the ward, Shen Zhifei showed a trace of fragility, and with a little cry, he clenched his mother's hand tightly.

"Mom, you scared Ah Ming and me."

"I just... didn't see it clearly." Xu Shulan just woke up, and she was still weak when speaking, but her eyes were filled with tears, and she looked at the pair of children beside the bed.

She is still in this world with his children, and she is still concerned about this world.

"Mom, pay attention next time."

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Comrade Xiaozhang: Another day without a scene.