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"Mom, dad... he's gone..."

As Shen Zhifei's voice fell to the ground, the bedroom was suffocatingly quiet. Shen Zhifei kept his head down, like a child who had done something wrong, without saying a word.

Xu Shulan froze in place for a few seconds, and then felt the almost frozen blood flow slowly all over her body, and the ice balls cut through the blood vessels and bones, so painful that she had to breathe lightly.

Sure enough, she dragged the whole family down.

The worst situation she thought of was that Shen Huaiyi was exhausted, or that he encountered a gentle place that made him sink in these years, the worst was the worst, but she divorced her.

She can accept and understand.

But she didn't dare to think about it, he didn't have that chance at all.

"He..." As soon as Xu Shulan opened her mouth, Xu Shulan found that her voice was almost drowned out by sobs. She slowed down, and said again: "He..."

"He" for a long time, still can't utter a complete sentence, the tears are like a broken faucet, falling down continuously, falling on the floor and breaking open the blossoming water.

Shen Zhifei was in a better mood than her. After all these years had passed, this incident did not make her emotionally collapse.

She seldom shows her emotions. When she was a child, she seldom cried in front of others. She didn't shed tears even to her parents. It seemed that other children were not good at acting like a spoiled child, and her younger brother was more popular with adults than her.

She laughs a lot, and always sits quietly with her eyebrows bent, making everyone think that she is always happy and has no worries or worries.

Right now, even though she felt so sorry for her mother, all she showed was sore eyes and hot eyes.

After being away for too long, the joy brought by the sudden reunion was not enough to wash away the strangeness, so Shen Zhifei activated the silence of the self-protection mechanism.

With red eyes, Shen Zhifei supported Xu Shulan's shoulders to make her sit down, and put his right hand on her back to give her comfort.

"Dad is sick, and he went there not long after you left." Shen Zhifei paused, swallowed the lump in his throat, and continued: "He asked me to take good care of my brother and wait for you to come back, and he will also wait for you. "

wait for her?Xu Shulan twitched the corners of her mouth in despair, with a little self-mockery.

What is she waiting for?

Waiting for her to go together and complaining to her about how childish and ignorant she is, accusing her of ruining the happiness of the family?

Shen Zhifei stared at his mother all the time, clenched his fists nervously.How candid she was when she said it just now, how disturbed she is now.

She understands how dependent her mother is on her father, and how much she cares about him.

Shen Zhifei wasn't sure how much harm this bad news would bring to her mother, but she had already suffered enough to make her own decisions.

It will be of no benefit to anyone if this matter is kept secret, it is better to cut the mess with a sharp knife, and it will be fine after the pain is over.

After all, she is over half a hundred years old, although Xu Shulan is extremely sad, but it is not enough to fight to the death.

In fact, she has no real feeling about this matter. She hasn't seen him again in the past nine years, and she may have adapted to life without him.

It's just that this kind of life has changed from "I can't see him for a while" to "I can't see him again".

Shen Zhifei sent Zhang Yao to WeChat, saying that she might be with her mother for the next two days.It happened that Zhang Yao was also busy with a project, so she was asked not to run away, but to stay with her aunt.

Zhang Yao originally wanted to pick up Xu Shulan with Shen Zhifei, even as a friend, but she really couldn't spare the time recently, and the phone calls with Shen Zhifei were only in a hurry before going to bed at night to barely chat for a few minutes.

In the next few days, Shen Zhifei guarded Xu Shulan almost every step of the way, and even used excuses to recall sleeping with her mother in the master bedroom when she was a child, as if she was afraid that she would not be able to think about what to do.

However, Xu Shulan didn't seem to be abnormal, but she was a little more silent than before, often in a daze, and when she was not in a daze, she was cleaning or tidying the study.

The taste of Xu Shulan's food hasn't changed much, even though he hasn't cooked for many years, it can still whet Shen Zhifei's appetite.

When Shen Zhifei was holding a stack of old newspapers and was about to pile them up on the sundries at the gate, Xu Shulan from the study called her.

This was the first time Xu Shulan called her in the past few days.Shen Zhifei quickly put down the newspaper, turned around and took a few steps to open the bamboo curtain hanging on the study door, "What's wrong, Mom?"

Xu Shulan sat on the leather chair in the study, stepped on the ground, and the leather chair turned around. She looked at Shen Zhifei calmly and said, "Take me to see him."

Shen Zhifei thought she had accepted and adapted so quickly, and nodded, "Okay, I'll clean up and take you there later."

Looking at the back of her daughter who was much thinner than when she was a child, Xu Shulan's eyes suddenly turned red where she couldn't see, and big tears burst out of her eyes.

Just now, she pulled out another book from the bookshelf that had been tidied several times, which was a collection of essays.

Xu Shulan touched the book, and the yellowed and old cover made her feel empty. When she opened the pages, there were still neat sentiments and some underlined sentences on it.

She vaguely saw the appearance of the man sitting at the desk writing, the desk lamp was not too bright, it was a warm yellow light, he turned his head and smiled faintly, his whole body exuded the elegance of the time when we first met.

He would say: "You go to bed early, I will also rest after finishing this piece."

He smokes occasionally, but he doesn't have much addiction. He often exudes a light tobacco scent, which is not unique, but it smells good.

After closing the book, Xu Shulan finally felt a sluggish, sharp pain spreading from his chest when the dusty air flowed through his breath.

She really, completely lost him.

For the rest of my life, I will never see that glamorous man again.

******

On the cold tombstone, the man's smile was frozen many years ago. He was always young, always gentle, and always smiling.

Xu Shulan was very calm, so calm that she squatted down expressionlessly, put down the flowers she was holding all the way, stared at the photo for a few seconds, and said four words slowly,

"I am back."

Shen Zhifei watched worriedly from the side. She felt that something was wrong with her mother, but she also thought that it might be caused by the strangeness after not seeing her for a long time. In order not to make her mother feel alienated, she suppressed the question.

Shen Zhifei thought that she would have a lot to say to her father, so she said, "Mom, I'll wait for you outside."

"No need." Xu Shulan straightened up, "Go back."

He is not here, there is no such person in this world anymore, a cemetery is just a place for thoughts.

Shen Zhifei opened his mouth, but in the end he didn't say anything, and nodded obediently: "Okay, wait for me at the door, and I'll go pick up the car."

As soon as she got in the car, Shen Zhifei's cell phone rang. It was a WeChat message sent to her by Shen Zhiming.

He is the second day of the college entrance examination today, and he should have just left the examination room not long after calculating the time.

Shen Zhifei, who was busy with his mother, did not go to Hanjiang to accompany the exam. Fortunately, Shen Zhiming was relieved. He made Shen Zhifei feel at ease at home, and he will do well in the exam.

Shen Zhiming: "Sister, I've finished the exam."

Shen Zhifei loosened his seat belt and typed: "How do you feel?"

Shen Zhiming: "It's not bad, it should be about the same."

Shen Zhifei smiled: "That's right, when will you come back? I'll give you a welcome banquet."

Shen Zhiming came back quickly: "My classmate asked me to play with him here for two days, and I will go back in two days."

Shen Zhifei was right.

She has been worried that her brother is too closed, and there will be problems in future communication.Although it is rare to go out with classmates like this nowadays, it may not be a bad thing.

He didn't say anything, and Shen Zhifei didn't intend to ask, since they were all grown-ups, and he didn't feel comfortable being too strict with himself.

After replying to his younger brother's WeChat, Shen Zhifei clicked on the top dialog box, pressed the voice button and made a voice while fastening his seat belt, his voice was involuntarily mixed with a soft tone.

"I'm going back now, shall I pick you up for dinner tonight?"

Xu Shulan was going out to get together with old friends at night, and Shen Zhifei was free now, so he wanted to see Zhang Yao quickly.

During this period of time, Zhang Yao's day and night were mostly reversed, and she basically stayed up all night every other day. Shen Zhifei was very distressed, but she didn't have the skills to help her draw design drafts, so she could only remind someone to eat at the meal time every day.

Counting it, it has been three days since I saw Zhang Yao. Shen Zhifei was worried about his mother and at the same time missed her very much, to the extent that he almost lost sleep.

Shen Zhifei first drove Xu Shulan home and changed into a more energetic set of clothes, then sent her to the meeting place around the time, and told her to call himself after finishing, and then drove to see Zhang Yao.

Shen Zhifei who arrived at the place did not go upstairs, but sent a message to Zhang Yao, asking her to come down.

It was already dark, and Shen Zhifei stood under the opposite street lamp, looking down at the shadow of his finger until it overlapped with another shadow.

Shen Zhifei raised his head quickly, the corners of his lips curled up in an instant, and the faint gloom between his brows and eyes disappeared.

In the past few days, her spirit has been tense, and she is actually no more relaxed than Zhang Yao who has been staying up all night, but at this moment, just looking at Zhang Yao, she feels that the fatigue in her body has been swept away.

"Hold one." As he said that, Shen Zhifei not only opened his arms, but also sent them up without waiting for Zhang Yao to hug her. He lazily put his arms around Zhang Yao's neck, put his mouth next to her ear and said, "That's it!" I haven't seen you for a long time, I miss you thinking like this, in the future... what should I do?"

Obviously, I have survived in this way after seeing each other for eight years, but now I can barely survive in just three days.

"From now on, I will always be by my side." Zhang Yao lowered her eyebrows, wrapped her arms around her back docilely, and pressed her cheek against her shoulder, feeling slightly drowsy amidst the cold fragrance.

She didn't sleep last night, and today she only slept for more than three hours during the day, and now her eyes are sore.

There was pressure on her shoulders, Shen Zhifei frowned, and patted her on the back: "Don't sleep here, get in the car first."

Zhang Yao was dragged into the car by Shen Zhifei. Shen Zhifei pushed the co-pilot seat down for her and said, "Go to sleep for a while, and I will call you when we arrive."

Zhang Yao didn't know if she responded to her, she only knew that she fell asleep in a daze as soon as she lay down.

To eat is to eat, and to sleep is also to sleep.

The place Shen Zhifei was going to was not very far from here, but she wanted Zhang Yao to sleep more, so she just parked the car, opened the window for ventilation, and sat quietly watching her sweetheart sleep.

Zhang Yao sleeps very well, her long eyelashes hang down obediently, covering some light, her lips will pout unconsciously, the lip color is a little lighter, and the beautiful lips are like carefully cared pearls in a clam shell, exuding Alluring gloss.

About half an hour later, Shen Zhifei pursed his lips, leaned over to swallow the soft pearl.