self-deprecating

When Han Zizhou arrived, there were still a few minutes before the end of evening self-study. He didn't go to the classroom, but went back to the dormitory.

When Gu Ze came back, he must be surprised to see him as soon as he opened the door.

He can still hug Gu Ze well, and then kiss him again.

He took out the key and opened the dormitory door.The curtains are drawn to let in the light from the street lights outside the window.

The dormitory has heating, but Han Zizhou still feels a little cold.

The kind of cold that is not popular.

There are several tutorial books stacked on Gu Ze's desk, and the cups on the bed are neatly stacked.

Han Zizhou turned on the light.The dormitory is still a little cold under the incandescent lamp.

Faintly heard the get out of class bell coming from the teaching building.Han Zizhou stood in the dormitory, waiting for Gu Ze to push the door in, and smiled at him.

There were sounds from the dormitory building, noisy footsteps, playing and joking.Han Zizhou thought, should he rush up and hug Gu Ze as soon as he pushes the door open?

Yao Jie and Duan Yuelin walked towards the dormitory together, but they faintly saw light shining through the crack of the door next door.

Yao Jie thought for a while, thought it was Gu Ze who came back to get something, and pushed open the door with his schoolbag on his back:

"Brother Ze..."

"Gu Ze..."

Yao Jie looked at Han Zizhou in the dormitory, "Brother Zhou, are you back today?"

"Well," Han Zizhou nodded, "Where's Gu Ze?"

"Well... Brother Ze is not at school..." Yao Jie said with some embarrassment.

Although it was Gu Ze who told them to hide Han Zizhou, but Yao Jie did. Seeing Han Zizhou inevitably felt a little guilty.

"Not at school, where is he then?" Han Zizhou frowned and asked eagerly.

"in hospital."

Han Zizhou came out of school, hailed a taxi and rushed to the Central Hospital.

"Aunt Gu is sick, Brother Ze is in the hospital..."

"It's not that we don't want to tell you, it's Brother Ze who doesn't want us to tell, he's afraid it will affect your game..."

"I haven't been back for more than a week..."

……

Yao Jie's words were still ringing in his ears. Han Zizhou was very eager to see Gu Ze.

He didn't know how Gu Ze managed to handle so many things by himself, and still pretended to be very happy to encourage him to take the exam.

After entering the hospital, he found Gu Lan's ward at the nurse's desk. Han Zizhou ran to the front of the ward and saw the book thrown on the bench.

He picked up the book, it was Gu Ze's.

There was no one in the ward.

Han Zizhou anxiously stopped the nurse to ask.

"The patient in this bed had a sudden heart failure just now and was sent to the emergency room."

Han Zizhou hurried to the emergency room.The pace was urgent, the rhythm was flustered, his heart was beating too fast, and he seemed to be out of breath.

Then, he saw Gu Ze.

Gu Ze sat on the bench opposite the emergency room, staring blankly at the door of the emergency room, with the scarf he gave him around his neck.The light in the corridor cast shadows on his face.

It's cold.

This light is too cold.

Han Zizhou looked at Gu Ze.

It must be because of the lighting, otherwise why Gu Ze looked so lifeless.

He stood a few steps away, "Gu Ze."

Gu Ze didn't respond, but kept the same posture, staring blankly at the door.

"Gu Ze."

Gu Ze reacted this time and turned to look at him.

Did not speak, just looked at him.

It seemed that it took a long time to react, Gu Ze moved his lips, "Brother Zhou."

Han Zizhou stepped forward and squatted in front of Gu Ze.

"I'm back, I'm late."

Gu Ze looked at him, his eyes were a little distracted.

Han Zizhou hugged Gu Ze distressedly, and held him in his arms.

"Is it cold? I won't be cold if I hold you."

Gu Ze buried his head on his shoulder, arched his body forward, and curled up.

Han Zizhou's eyes were red and his voice was hoarse, "I won't be cold if I hold you."

This curled-up look is a sign of insecurity.

Han Zizhou hugged Gu Ze, this was the first time he saw Gu Ze like this.

Gu Ze is willful and bright. Even when there are many difficulties, Gu Ze is also optimistic.

The current Gu Ze is silent and quiet, like an ancient well, without waves or life.

He felt Gu Ze trembling, and Gu Ze's suppressed crying spread in his ears.

"Brother Zhou..." Gu Ze called his name in a crying voice, as if strangling his throat, making it difficult for him to breathe.

Han Zizhou hugged him and squeezed his arms tightly, as if this could convey warmth to him.

I don't know how long it took.

Gu Ze regained his composure, and Han Zizhou let go of Gu Ze's arm.

"Gu Ze, are you planning to keep it a secret from me?"

Gu Ze looked at him with red eyes, "No, you will know as soon as you come back, I can't hide it from you."

"So you hide it when you can?" Han Zizhou's tone was filled with anger.

He was angry that Gu Ze didn't tell him anything, and he was even more angry that he couldn't accompany Gu Ze.

But the coincidences and coincidences in the world are always random, so there are many beautiful accidents, and there are also many heartbreaking accidents.

The timing is just a coincidence, and the outbreak is just a coincidence.

Gu Ze asked him to get up, stop squatting, but his legs were numb from the time, so he couldn't stand up.

Gu Ze pulled him to stand up, and the two of them sat silently on the bench and waited.

Han Zizhou held Gu Ze's hand.Even if it's just waiting, he still hopes to be with Gu Ze.

The red light in the emergency room went off, and Gu Lan was pushed out.

The face wearing the oxygen mask seemed even paler and haggard.

"The family members of the patient," the doctor took off the mask, "temporarily returned to normal, but we still need to continue to observe. The previous operation was successful, but something went wrong, and we need to continue to observe."

Gu Ze nodded, "Thank you for your hard work."

The doctor waved his hand, "We should."

Gu Lan entered the CCU, but Gu Ze couldn't go in to accompany her, so he could only stand outside and watch through the glass.

Han Zizhou looked at the time, it was already early morning.

"Gu Ze."

"Ah."

"rest for a bit."

Gu Ze nodded obediently, and then sat on a bench not far away.

Han Zizhou raised his hand to cover Gu Ze's eyes, letting Gu Ze lean on himself, "Close your eyes."

"I don't want to sleep, I can't sleep."

Han Zizhou ignored Gu Ze's struggle, "If you can't sleep, just close your eyes."

Holding Gu Ze in his arms, Han Zizhou rubbed the top of Gu Ze's head, "Have a good rest."

Gu Ze could only lean on Han Zizhou with his eyes closed.

Maybe it's been too long since I've relaxed my body and mind, or I haven't had a good rest for too long.Gu Ze said that he couldn't fall asleep, but his breath smelled of Han Zizhou, which inexplicably made him feel at ease.

He fell asleep in a daze, although he frowned and looked worried.

It was already dawn when Gu Ze woke up.

He slept for five hours, and Han Zizhou watched over him for five hours.

Gu Ze has obviously lost a lot of weight, his eyes are dark blue, and some stubble has appeared on his chin.

Han Zizhou asked Gu Ze to wash up and buy breakfast by himself.

There are [-] in his WeChat account, which he directly credited to Gu Lan's medical card.As long as you live in the hospital, you spend money like running water every day.He was worried about telling Gu Ze directly, but Gu Ze didn't want it.

Although Gu Ze's family conditions are not good, between the two of them, Gu Ze never relied on him.They just fell in love with each other at ordinary ages, even a paper flower is enough to be happy.

Visits were allowed in the morning, and Gu Ze changed into protective clothing and entered the ward.

Gu Lan didn't wake up, but fell asleep quietly.

Gu Ze sat beside her and watched her until the visiting time was over.

Han Zizhou silently stood outside.

Riemann called at noon.

"Son, are you at school? Teacher Jiang said you didn't go to school? Where are you?"

Han Zizhou found a secluded place before saying, "I'm in the hospital."

"What? The hospital? What's wrong with you? What happened?"

"No, it's Gu Ze, Aunt Gu is sick."

Ms. Li was obviously a little shocked. After hanging up the phone, she couldn't help thinking that the relationship between her son and Gu Ze was really good, and she stayed with Gu Ze in the hospital all night.

He quickly changed his clothes and went out to visit the hospital.

Gu Lan was in the CCU, so Riemann didn't go in to disturb him, but just looked at Gu Ze.

"Ozawa has worked hard these past few days. If you have any questions, tell Auntie. If we can help, we will try our best to help you."

Gu Ze nodded and thanked him.

Riemann pulled his son, "What do you think? Stay here with Ozawa?"

"Well, I want to be here with him." Han Zizhou didn't hesitate.

"After entering the CCU, there is only one visiting time a day, and waiting here is not an option. And there is not even a bed for an escort, how can you two accompany me?" Riemann frowned.

"Mom, I just want to guard him." Han Zizhou smiled at Riemann.

Riemann sighed.

Han Zizhou: "Okay, okay, don't worry about me, don't you still have things to do these two days?"

"Compared to those things, you are my son, of course you are more important." Riemann said and sighed again.

"Mom." Han Zizhou was also a little helpless.

"Forget it, forget it," Ms. Li was really soft-hearted, "Call me if you need anything."

"Thank you mom." Han Zizhou smiled.

After sending Riemann away, Gu Ze sat on the bench and waited for him.

"Brother Zhou, did you send money to the card?" Gu Ze asked while holding up the medical card in his hand.

"I went to pay the bill today and found that there was a lot more in it. Is it from you?" Gu Ze asked again.

Han Zizhou nodded helplessly, "It's me."

"How many hits?"

"Twenty thousand."

Gu Ze nodded, and wrote in the memo on his phone, "Brother Zhou, I will pay you back later."

"Ah."

He needed the money because Gu Lan was still lying in it.

Han Zizhou took Gu Ze's hand, "Gu Ze, I want to help you, because you are sad, I am sad, I don't want you to be sad.

You rely on me a little bit more, just a little bit, that's all.I will be with you, I will always be by your side.

You are my Zeze. "

Han Zizhou's forehead was pressed against Gu Ze's, and Gu Ze seemed to see Han Zizhou's sincere tears.

Put the unfallen in the eye sockets.

Riemann walked downstairs, and remembered that Gu Ze's mother had entered the hospital, and she must be in need of money. He wanted to hand over the card to Han Zizhou, and hand it in directly from the card if necessary.

She thinks Xiao Ze is a good boy and very strong, she wants to help him, and her son has a very good relationship with Gu Ze.

Unexpectedly, when he came out of the stairs, he saw his son's forehead touching Gu Ze's, and his hands were still holding Gu Ze's cheek intimately.

very intimate.

Not ordinary intimacy.

Riemann hid subconsciously.

It seems that something is about to come out, but I dare not confirm it.

Riemann's heart beat a little flustered, she hurried downstairs and drove home.

The author has something to say: Brother Zhou finally has a role to play.

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