you are the one I love.

Cheng Xueyan stayed at home alone, not just doing nothing, waiting for Gu Siyan to come back, but using the time after that to roll up her sleeves and clean the house.

Gu Siyan originally said that it would be fine to ask a cleaning lady to clean it, or go to Gu’s house and ask Mama Wu to help her with cleaning, but at that time Cheng Xueyan clearly said no, the reason was that she didn’t tell Gu Siyan, and Gu Siyan listened to everything Cheng Xueyan's opinion was not to hire a cleaner.

Although the Cheng family used to have a maid to do the cleaning, but now she doesn't want to do that, because she doesn't think it's necessary at all.In this place, this home, yes, in Cheng Xueyan's heart, this is "home", her and Gu Siyan's home, since Gu Siyan has carefully arranged every corner of this house for her, she naturally hopes to make a living for her. The home of the two of them, for Gu Siyan, do some things.

After cleaning, she looked around, nodded with satisfaction, and seemed to think that she had done a good job.Just thinking about this, I went to check the time again, it was already past three o'clock, and I was still thinking why Gu Siyan hadn't come back yet, and she clearly agreed that she would come back early.

I found her mobile phone on the coffee table next to the sofa, and was hesitating whether to call Gu Siyan, but she said no, she felt that she would be bored if she waited any longer, and said to call, she felt, Why did she act as if she was deliberately waiting for her to come back, not wanting to make Gu Siyan feel that she was always waiting for her to come home.

While he was struggling, the phone in his hand rang.

"Manager Cheng? I'm Mo Yao"

"Yeah, what's the matter?"

"There is something... after thinking about it, I think it would be better to tell you."

"Xiaoya...Pan Xiaoya said that something happened in the resort today. A worker drowned at the beach. After Mr. Gu saw it... his expression was very strange."

"Where is Siyan now?"

"After Mr. Gu explained what happened to the drowning worker, he left without saying anything."

"...I see. Thanks for letting me know."

After listening to the content of the call, Cheng Xueyan thanked her and hung up the phone.

I was a little irritable before, but somehow calmed down.

Cheng Xueyan then called Gu Siyan, both of them were automatically hung up.However, Cheng Xueyan was not affected by Gu Siyan's failure to answer the phone, but quietly changed her clothes and went out to buy vegetables and cook.All the while it was quiet.On the contrary, it is much calmer than before.

Cheng Xueyan prepared a meal for two and finished it quietly by herself.Then sit in the living room, turn on the TV, and watch the TV programs on the TV calmly.

Until midnight... Gu Siyan came back.

It's not that Gu Siyan didn't answer the phone, it's that she didn't hear it at all. The phone was put on silent in the car, and the battery had already run out.Gu Siyan was just wandering around, and then went to "happy hour".

In fact, Gu Siyan didn't drink a lot, but she was sad and had nowhere to go, so she refilled her glass of whiskey one after another.When I got home, it was already a bit late.

After hearing the sound of a key guarding the door, after the door rang, she got up and went to the entrance.

His face was flushed and he smelled of alcohol.

What Cheng Xueyan saw was Gu Siyan like this.

In her impression, she has never... seen Gu Siyan like this.Distressed do not know what to do.So he helped Gu Siyan who was a little dizzy, let Gu Siyan lean on her body, helped her to her bedroom, let her lie on the bed, then went to the living room and poured hot water for Gu Siyan to drink, looked at Gu Siyan A little drunk and unconscious.Cheng Xueyan asked Gu Siyan to lie down.

I was going to go to the hot towel in the bathroom to wipe her off, but found that she was already asleep.

Looking at Gu Siyan's red face, Cheng Xueyan gently stroked it, feeling sorry for her, and didn't know how to help her, she knew that something must have happened to make Gu Siyan sad, not just a worker Drowning is so simple, there must be some reason that touched Gu Siyan and made her...become what she is now.

So, Cheng Xueyan had no choice but to sigh softly, then covered Gu Siyan with a quilt, went to the bathroom to rub the towel with hot water, and then came out to wipe Gu Siyan.Looking at Gu Siyan's red face and her tightly frowning brows, Cheng Xueyan felt that her heart was going to be mixed together.

Worried about leaving Gu Siyan alone, she chose to lie on the bed and sleep beside Gu Siyan.

"I really like her."

"Say it again." The person in the picture flushed with anger, and anger appeared on his face, "You are a girl, and she is also a girl. How can you be together."

"We are serious, Dad, listen to me..."

"shut up"

"If you are so obsessed with obsession, then we will sever the relationship between father and daughter. I, Gu Chengyang, do not have a daughter like you!"

"Siyan... listen to what mother said..."

"...How did this happen...Grandpa..."

"You are late, Cheng Yang and Yan Xi have already left."

"Grandpa...I..."

"Snapped"

"Let me tell you, you never want to be with that girl in your life."

The pain of the past, the fragments of memories, are like an old slide show, playing in Gu Siyan's mind, entangled her tightly, the past that flashed in her mind is the last thing she wants to think about, and the thing she wants the most Things to let go.

Being deeply trapped in those pains, Gu Siyan just kept repeating "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." in her mouth, and woke up Cheng Xueyan who was sleeping beside her.

"...What's wrong with you...Siyan, Siyan" Because she was a little worried about Gu Siyan's condition, Cheng Xueyan didn't sleep very deeply, and she heard Gu Siyan's muttering as if she was in a dream, so she woke up with a jerk, Looking at Gu Siyan's painful face, he wondered if she was having a nightmare.I dreamed of something bad, so I tried to wake her up.

Gu Siyan, who was awakened by Cheng Xueyan's slap, just looked at Cheng Xueyan's face in front of her with a dazed expression, as if she was still sleeping in the nightmare just now and did not realize where she was and who was beside her.

"...Xue...yan, Xueyan?" Gu Siyan gradually regained some reason.

"I'm here." Cheng Xueyan caressed Gu Siyan's back, as if hoping to make her feel better in this way.

"What's wrong with you? Did something happen? Please, Director Mo said today that Ms. Pan saw that you were not in a good condition at the resort. Are you..." Hesitant, I didn't want to ask such a question at this time It's a matter, but if you don't ask now... tomorrow... I don't know what kind of reasons Gu Siyan will use to prevaricate her.

But he didn't want to be interrupted by Gu Siyan before he finished his question.

"I'm fine." Gu Siyan regained her usual calmness, "It's just... just having a nightmare." That's... Gu Siyan has always been unwilling to face it, and at this moment... I don't want Cheng Xueyan to know it, which will only increase my worries.

"... "

"Well...then let's go to sleep." Cheng Xueyan looked at Gu Siyan for a while before opening her mouth again. The reason why she didn't continue to ask was because she saw that Gu Siyan was hiding something and she didn't want to talk about it, and she didn't want to be in this situation again. Press down to ask Gu Siyan.

Gu Siyan nodded and said nothing.

Cheng Xueyan held Gu Siyan in her arms, hoping, trying to tell Gu Siyan in this way that she is not alone.Cheng Xueyan wanted to let Gu Siyan know that she was by her side right now, within reach of her.

This hug is very strong.

She didn't know whether her thoughts had been conveyed to Gu Siyan, but she couldn't bear it no matter what, seeing Gu Siyan's painful expression, it was...a pain she had never seen before.

Until... a few days later, Cheng Xueyan had the answer.

After that night, when Cheng Xueyan woke up the next morning, Gu Siyan had already disappeared.

At that moment, there was a clear feeling of loss in her heart.It's just that Cheng Xueyan told herself not to care, she deliberately ignored this sense of loss.don't think about it, don't think about anything

But still failed...in exchange for Gu Siyan's words.

Since that day, Cheng Xueyan has not seen Gu Siyan's face for several days.If it wasn't for the fact that breakfast was placed on the dining table at home every morning, Cheng Xueyan would even feel that Gu Siyan had never come back.

They didn't see each other.

When Cheng Xueyan woke up in the morning, Gu Siyan had already left, and at night when Cheng Xueyan fell asleep, Gu Siyan hadn't come back yet.

Cheng Xueyan felt that she was hallucinating herself?

It's just that Cheng Xueyan couldn't ignore the traces of disappointment and grievance that were gradually becoming more and more obvious in her heart.

Already... there is no way to lie to myself anymore.

She loves Gu Siyan, but it's not love without dignity and principle.

If Gu Siyan never speaks to her again, will she continue to wait like this?

People's hearts are fleshy, waiting for Gu Siyan for ten years.Finally waited for her to come back.But still did not wait for an explanation from her.She could convince herself to accept any excuse, but she didn't even have one.

These days, why hasn't she understood Gu Siyan's attitude, she is obviously avoiding her on purpose, avoiding her.

She chased all the way, but Gu Siyan hid all the way.

Can this kind of love, this kind of them, continue?Is there any point in continuing?

If her hard work can be exchanged for a little bit of Gu Siyan's response, even if it's just a little bit, it will be meaningful to Cheng Xueyan.

Almost, just a little bit, when Gu Siyan said to her, "Give me a little more time", Cheng Xueyan almost felt that she was going to succeed, but she didn't expect...after all...no.

Yes, no.

Gu Siyan flinched.