[Natsume] When the sun shines

Xiao Hei drove me and didn't go back directly.

In the long night sky, countless stars are shimmering, and the gentle moonlight streams down, making the gentle town under the feet even more hazy.

The night wind at high altitude is very cool, especially in early winter, but I don't feel cold at all.

"...Where do you want to go?"

Xiao Hei's voice was deep and mellow, and he unexpectedly heard some gentleness.

Where are you going?

What a profound proposition.

When life is only three days long, where else can I go?

"...that's great." I thought for a while, and then said slowly, "I suddenly know that I want to go to many places...that's great."

The small black and golden scale shimmered under the moonlight, it didn't speak, it just hovered over the small town again and again.

"It's the first time I know that I have so many nostalgia." I stroked my hair that was blown by the night wind, and unconsciously thought of the smile on the boy's lips and the tenderness of his fingertips when he stroked my hair. .

...Really, a lot...nostalgia.

"I want to go to the world's highest mountain to look up at the sky, I want to go to the world's most beautiful flower sea to listen to the leaves singing, I want to go to the world's most vast sea to watch the tides..."

What I want most is to have him by my side.

"..."

Xiao Hei stopped silently above the night sky, and said for a while, "I'll take you there."

I was startled.

"What regrets, I will take you to Consummation." Xiao Hei's voice was very quiet.That deep and mellow voice sounded like a different kind of gentleness.

I touched its dragon horn, which was as hard as its stubborn heart, and I smiled slowly, "Even if I saw the highest mountain in the world, the most beautiful sea of ​​flowers, and the widest ocean... so what? Woolen cloth?"

It is a kind of loneliness after all without the company of the person you love the most.

Night Breeze's lonely tone blew in his ears, and Xiao Hei stood silently in the night sky without saying a word.

"Thank you, Xiao Hei." I bent the corners of my eyes, stretched comfortably on its head, and lay down on its head, looking up at the boundless stars above my head with impunity, "Thank you, I am willing to help you I do so much. Haha, I didn’t expect that there would be no regrets in this life. Well, tomorrow I’ll take you to buy Nanachiya’s cookies, and I’ll do it secretly so Hayakawa can’t find out. Well, then in the last three days I have to go to bed early and get up early... It's a pity that I haven't learned cross-stitch yet, otherwise I will definitely show my hand to Natsume, and I will also have multi-track... Well, remember to return the poetry collection to her, I haven't read it much, haha, sure enough I still don't have any talent for learning, so I can't forget... forgetting will be troublesome."

I looked at the night sky and laughed and laughed.

Then unconsciously, the eyes began to blur.The warm liquid slid down from the corner of my eyes, and I heard my voice become a little choked up, "Ah, and those little monsters... It's a pity that it's too late to say goodbye."

Xiao Hei didn't say a word.

"Xiao Hei." I suddenly called it.

"how?"

I opened my eyes and looked at the sky above my head, "What should I do... I suddenly regretted it."

Obviously yesterday, he said so confidently that he wants Natsume to teach me how to weave rabbits, see gardenias, and see the snow girl when it snows...

But what to do, there is no time.

"What do you regret?" Xiao Hei paused, then moved his tail slightly, and continued to hover over the small town.

"I regret confessing to Natsume." I looked at the sky, "I regret it, I'm about to die."

I don't want to live endlessly, to be a lonely monster to survive the vicissitudes of the world, and I don't want to be a short-lived ghost who only lives for three days.

However, it is so difficult now to be a human being who lives a hundred years and dies at the age of one hundred.

"Life is safe and secure..." I muttered to myself, and then I couldn't help laughing, "Ah, so, it's really greed."

Whether it is long life or short life.

No matter which one it is, it will cause endless harm to those around you.

It's just a way of short life, fast, accurate and ruthless, if you hurt others, it will only hurt a little at the beginning, but... just like time is passing by, it will always pass, right?

If I die, Hayakawa...will be sad.

My boy, too, will be sad.

I... the one who died was me, and I am also very sad now.

However, longevity is obviously more terrifying than short-lived.

Watching the boy I love grow old, but I am still young forever, what kind of harm is this?

Both of them will suffer and struggle. My boy, he should have the happiness of an ordinary person, living warmly and freely.

Watching Hayakawa slowly grow old... I can't bear it.

As if I had figured everything out at once, I quietly looked at the sky and muttered to myself, "After thinking about it, it's better to be a short-lived ghost."

"I've never seen someone like you." Xiao Hei sighed, "So, have you decided where to go?"

My mouth hurts from laughing, "Go home. I want to go home."

"……you sure?"

"Ah."

Xiao Hei stopped talking, and flicked his tail beautifully, as if turning into a golden arc in the night sky. In the blink of an eye, I saw my home.

That little house is my home.

With the most gentle hostess in the world, she can make delicious bread, donuts, and bean sprouts polenta that looks good but tastes bad... She has a pair of beautiful amber eyes, She always cares about my emotions, and when she feels that I am sad, she will comfort me clumsily. She doesn't like to say nice things to me, but she bought me a beautiful pot of Chlorophytum, and what she wants to say to me, All when I didn't know, I confide in Chlorophytum...

This is my shelter in the world, although only here, only for a year and a half.But I think the days here are more beautiful than most of the scenery I have seen in my life.

I watched quietly for a while, and let Xiao Hei drive me to the yard.

I suddenly found that there were a few familiar trees planted in the corner of the yard, but they didn't bloom.But I recognized it at a glance, it was a gardenia tree.

I walked over in a daze, squatted under those flower trees, touched the soil where their roots were buried, there was a kind of moisture that had not been watered for a long time——

yes she?

I seem to have thought about... planting beautiful gardenias in the yard, and when the autumn wind blows, there will be gardenias all over the garden.

"... Ha ha." I laughed, laughed, and cried again.

How can you do this.

I can't help but wonder what to do if I live forever.How to become a monster.

I closed my eyes silently, Xiao Hei turned into a little black snake again, and returned to my shoulder.

"...Let's go, let's go see the scenery."

After going out, Xiao Hei was on his shoulder the whole time, very silent.

"Tell me, don't look so lonely." I smiled, "I thought I could accompany you for 100 years, but in the end I stayed with you for a season."

"Ah, having said that, you can be relieved in this way, I am really a narcissistic child."

I said to myself, the cotton slippers felt soft and soft when I stepped on the ground, as if there was wind, "Well, have you thought about what to do next?"

"..." Xiao Hei was silent for a long time, and finally said, as if he couldn't bear it anymore, "I'm sorry."

"What do you say to apologize?" I paused, stopped at the door of a house, and looked at the persimmon tree inside the door. There were no persimmons, no leaves, and the door was carefully swept clean—— This is Natsume's house.

"You became like this, in fact, most of the reasons are because of me." Xiao Hei's voice was full of guilt, "...the hostility in my body didn't disappear naturally...but was taken away by you."

"……Um?"

Hearing this, I was taken aback.

"You used my dragon spell, and the hostility on your body resonated with mine, and then you assimilated the hostility on my body." Xiao Hei seemed helpless, "That's why..."

The fundamental reason why I suddenly lost control and even died so quickly.

Hearing this, I sighed slightly.He looked up at the persimmon tree that had begun to hibernate, "What's the problem with this kind of thing. I should be, thank you."

If it weren't for you, how could I have met that gentle young man, how could I have gained courage so easily, and... learn to love.

"Xiao Hei, actually, I feel that after meeting you, my life is warmer than ever before." I hugged Xiao Hei in my arms, the corners of my eyes slightly curved, "Thank you for letting me meet Natsume. "

"This kind of thing is nothing to be proud of, okay..." Xiao Hei turned his head away.

Maybe I didn't meet Natsume and understand his warmth, maybe I'm still that awkward child who can't find love.

But, now, I feel... as if I've grown up.

Maybe death is not all a bad thing, it can clearly let you understand the value of life and the meaning of happiness.

So I don't blame Xiao Hei at all.Instead, I am grateful.

I stepped on the cotton slippers on the ground, soft and soft. I slowly left the house with the persimmon tree and walked forward bit by bit. There was no focus and no end. I wanted to use my feet to measure the beauty of this gentle town. Every piece of land, and then grateful for everything here.

I walked for a long time with Xiao Hei in my arms, until a white belly floated in the sky.

"Let's go back."

Xiao Hei climbed onto my shoulder along my arm, and said softly, "...The Qiqian House is not open yet. Go home and go to rest?"

"No." I shook my head, then smiled, "Today is class day."

The early winter morning was very cold, my hair was covered with frost, and my breath was filled with warm mist. The thin pajamas were draped over my body, and Xiao Hei's demon power warmed my body, so that I didn't shiver from the cold. I walked slowly home—

To my surprise, at the door of the house, a woman stood there holding a broom for a long time. There seemed to be thin white mist on her black hair. She looked at me with an inexplicable emotion in her amber eyes.

——It seems to be angry.

"Where did you go?" Her voice was as soft as ever, but with a touch of coldness.

I was suddenly at a loss.

A girl sneaking out in the middle of the night...not coming home at night seems to be a very serious matter.

"I……"

The author has something to say: Well, the little abuser is happy.

For the homepage, I decided to use my life to update_(:з」∠)_

The order of the episodes is: Natsume, Xiao Mu's past life, Mizuki Haruka, Natori, Xiao Hei, Hayakawa Ryu.

Suddenly found that I have to write a lot =口=

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