[Natsume] When the sun shines

"Where did Xiao Mu go?"

the boy asked me.

Where else?

"It's gone for now." I muttered in a low voice, but found that the boy looked in one direction and frowned.

"There is a female ghost haunting the five o'clock direction." Xiao Hei twitched my shoulder with his tail.

Five o'clock... wait where is five o'clock?

I wanted to follow the boy's gaze, but Xiao Hei twitched my shoulder anxiously, "Not in that direction! He..."

But the facts are irreversible.

"Xiao Mu, you can't see the monster anymore, right?"

The boy's voice was clear and gentle, but for me, the content of this sentence undoubtedly made me fall into the ice cave.

"Ah, haha, how, how come..." I finally understand what it feels like to be really overwhelmed and flustered——

That was the feeling of dying.

If there is a hole that goes straight to the center of the earth, I will jump down in minutes! !

"I've noticed it since I was in the orphanage." The boy's voice was soft, "There's a little mouse monster on the tree over there, but you didn't look there... I thought it was Xiao Mu who didn't pay attention, but later……"

"On the way we came, there were also a few little monsters, but Xiao Mu never looked sideways... But, Xiao Mu before, when he saw such monsters, he would usually sneak a few glances."

The boy's voice was very soft, and his analysis was methodical.

I became anxious for a moment, and blurted out without thinking, "That's because I was peeping at you—"

Xiao Hei: "..."

The fat cat in the backpack writhed a few times as if it was woken up: "..."

I:"……"

Natsume……

Natsume looked at me, under the somewhat cloudy sky, he sighed slightly.

My heart tightened in an instant, and I wished I could slap myself N times. If you don't think about it enough, have you made a mistake——

"I, I was just joking, hehe, haha..."

I laughed.

God you don't play me...God bless me...

"I don't look good."

The young man smiled, and opened his mouth like a joke, quietly dissolving the tension in my heart, but...

No, it's not like that!

I mustered up my courage and grabbed his hand with my claws.

A warm feeling came into my heart, I looked at his eyes that were so clear that they were almost transparent, and said in a low voice, "...No, you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen...There is no one in this world more beautiful than you gone."

In my heart, Natsume is the most beautiful person in the world.

none of them.

"..."

Does this count as a confession?

My voice became lower, I felt like I was about to cry, I held his hand, feeling my heart trembling with fear, "So, so, don't be because of this...don't be because I can't see the monster , don’t want me, okay?”

...If I couldn't see the monster, would you still say to me so gently, "I'll be with you" or something like that?

If I can't see the yokai...

I was so scared and nervous.

Xiao Hei didn't act as a light bulb, so he rushed into the backpack at the right time, and seemed to mutter something inappropriate...Go back and pack it.

"It's ok."

Natsume rubbed my hair, the corners of his eyes were very soft, "I said I will stay with you, I will not break my promise."

I don't know if I relaxed all of a sudden, or my legs went limp all of a sudden, as if out of control, suddenly, shamelessly, cheekily...

He hugged Natsume in his arms.

It's not that I haven't had such close physical contact. When we first met, I even knocked him out for the sake of friendship, and then took the opportunity to hug him.

At that time, I didn't know that I have become so fond of him now.

I used to think before that if I confess, I must not face to face, because I am afraid that my stiff eyebrows and jerky tone will scare away the boy I like.

But now, I really want to say something, let go of the repressed fear in my heart, let go of the low self-esteem that I struggle in my heart, I really want to say something softly to the boy who hugs me...

He didn't break away, just stood quietly on the spot, letting me hug him, he patted my shoulder lightly, and the flower tobacco in his hand bloomed a gentle fragrance behind my back.

"Xia, Natsume." I stuttered.

"Tell me, I'm listening." The boy's gentle and clean voice reached my ears, as if it gave me an unknown power, that power broke through all the scruples in my heart, and the words I wanted to say blurted out at that moment— —

"Natsume, I love you!!!"

I once fantasized that if you must confess, you must be in a quiet place with beautiful flowers and trees and scenery, not cherry blossoms, because it is a kind of depraved splendor, the luxury of twilight, if you want, it must be very beautiful gardenia, not dogtail grass.

...I never thought that it would be not far from the prison, where there is not even a grass under the telephone pole.

What a miserable tragedy.

The boy seemed a little surprised by my confession. He was stunned for a while, then smiled, "Well, I see."

……that's it?

um, i see?

Did you already know it or just now?

I'm going to be a teenager, don't do this!

"So, so..." I feel like I'm all Spartan.

"I thought Xiao Mu would hold it in my heart for a long time." The young man stroked my hair gently, "Sometimes, it's really helpless."

So, so that means...Natsume, he already knew?

"It's so obvious that everyone knows, okay?" Xiao Hei's voice came out of his mind, full of malice.

"But it doesn't matter. I said I would be with you, and I will be with you."

The young man lowered his head slightly, and kissed my forehead, "Sometimes I feel very hard for Xiao Mu... At this time, it should be me instead."

I felt as if I had entered heaven in a trance, and the person in front of me was the angel I dreamed of...he was right in front of my eyes, and said to me, I will be with you, and I will not break my promise.

Besides, was he just... Kissing my forehead?

This is a human comedy like a dream! ! !

After finishing speaking, the boy suddenly seemed to think of something, then smiled, took down the backpack containing the fat cat, and took out a beautiful glass box from a small pocket outside the backpack, I saw...

Hey, isn't that the ugly rabbit I made up! ! !

I went back and rummaged in the grass for a long time but couldn't find it! !Even that nightmare monster named Mizuki Haruka used it to trick me! ! !

But it never occurred to him that the rabbit made of grass with a dog's tail would end up in the hands of the person who should own it.

"When I walked away, I saw you there as if you were struggling, and then I didn't go far, and turned my head to see you throwing this into the grass." The boy seemed to be recalling, the smile on the corner of his lips was a kind of clear Gentle, "Why did you throw it away? In fact, if you look carefully, Xiao Mu is very careful."

"... I regretted throwing it away, and then I went back to look for it." I cheekily buried my head in the boy's arms. Different from the cover of the red scarf and flowers, the boy's body was thin, but it was extraordinarily warm. "But I didn't find it..." And I had a long nightmare because of it.

"Hey, then give it to me." The boy smiled, and put away the glass box again. I felt that my face was so hot that I could burn an egg. "Well, it was originally for you..."

"By the way, I gave it to you. Is there any more?" The boy lowered his head and asked me as if he remembered something.

That pretty grass bunny?

Of course there is! ! !

"I put it in a drawer... maybe a little withered."

It's been such a long time.

The previous bouquet of flowers and tobacco has become an irreparable dried flower, and I carefully put it away. I even felt sad at the time. Would my feelings be like this bouquet of flowers, without the birth of the land, One day it will be too dry to be regenerated.

But now, I don't seem to have to be afraid anymore.

"It's okay, I'll make another one for you."

"Can you teach me?"

"Hmm. Okay."

"I can't see monsters, you don't dislike me?"

"Don't Xiaomu feel happy? I can't see any monsters..." The boy's attitude towards me was a little strange.

"..." I was silent for a while, and then said after a while, "Sometimes... I'm not happy."

How could it be just "sometimes".

For a long time, I was unhappy.

No one can change the loneliness that goes deep into the bone marrow when I dream back at midnight.

"But it's okay... I think this is also an opportunity." Maybe it's because the young man's embrace is too warm. Once I hold it tightly, I don't want to let go, like a lonely traveler looking for a harbor to sleep in. "There is no place to give up. Come here, look, I am not..."

Have you embraced the beauty?

Of course, I dare not say this to my face.

I think I'm very open-minded.Although most of the time I still miss it, but... it is already possible, and for a small part of the time, I am living among human beings.

I have Hayakawa who is gentle and caring about me, my lovely classmate Toru Toru, and this... Natsume boy who seems to have been impressed by my idiot attributes...

Maybe in the future, there will be more and more human partners.

Sometimes, I also understand.

It is impossible for me to live in the world of monsters forever, because no matter what, I am a human being.

I met very good friends and partners in the world of monsters...then let them watch me grow old little by little, and finally my face was dead, it was a kind of sadness to me, and it was also a kind of injustice to them.

So sometimes, when I see Xiao Hei by my side, I feel that maybe one day...

It's not that I'm narcissistic, but I really feel that if one day, after a hundred years, I might become the second knot in this dragon's heart.

Xiao Hei still has the human being who warmed him in his heart. I know that although it no longer has the hostility, it does not have the unattainable highness that belongs to the dragon. I don't know if this is good or bad... But I think it's very happy.

May I live for a hundred years, leaving it with some good memories.

Well, of course, the deduction of the cookie should still be deducted, and you can't be merciful.

"That's right."

"I can't see the monster anymore, so you can point it out to me from now on." I looked up at his delicate chin and blinked, "OK?"

"okay."

"Then let's go back, I want to see the beautiful gardenias in the town."

"okay."

"In winter, you have to watch the snow with me. If you see Snow Girl, you can't be fooled by her... Well, no, you have to tell me whether she is pretty or not."

"okay."

"Is that all you can say?"

"...Xiao Mu wants me to say something?"

I put my arms around his neck, buried my head in his chest, and asked in a muffled voice, "Natsume, do you... like me?"

I want you to say, I like you.

"..."

The boy seemed to be smiling, a little sullen, he reached out and stroked my hair, "Well, I like it."

At that moment, I felt that my world was bright and bright.

The author has something to say: Huh, finally let these two people get together logically (?)...

Do you say that the male god has collapsed...?

In fact, Natsume is not black-bellied at all! ! !At most it's a little... natural black! !

Huayan’s flower language is, with you by my side, I’m not lonely

Give you some tobacco, don't be a bully, okay? (tears

School starts in a few days, so I'm trying my best to catch up with the schedule. Does anyone feel that the confession is rushed?Well, I won't tell you that this is what the outline is designed for (hey

Looking back suddenly, I found the original number of landmines...

Thank you Hewan for the four landmines and one grenade, I never found it, sorry! ! !Spent a T-pan-T

Hui Deng, don't sell your kidneys, sell yourself to me... Thank you Hui Deng for the two mines!

Thank you Mi Nuo for the two mines! !I'm really an idiot, go to the code word T, T, since you love me so much, tomorrow is three o'clock.

☆、Loyal Dog X Story