[Natsume] When the sun shines

One day, I will invite my favorite boy to eat the most delicious meal in the world, whether it is steak red wine or street food, whether it is elegant and soothing music or noisy crowd on the street——

As long as he is by my side, even the most unpalatable hard steamed buns, I can also taste the taste of happiness like heaven.

It was a black-bone chicken noodle restaurant, probably because it was close to the outskirts of the city, the business here was rather cold, there were not many people, but the tables and everything were cleaned very clean.

Xiao Hei shamelessly wanted to grab a bowl of black chicken noodles, but——

"Non-human beings are not allowed to serve." I maliciously grabbed Xiao Hei's tail and pulled it off Natsume's shoulders, "If you eat too much, I will deduct two-thirds of your cookies."

"How can you be so cruel..." Xiao Hei accused me with blood all over his face, I stared at him expressionlessly, and slowly tightened the hand holding my tail as if threatening.

"Oh! I won't be serving...you have to pack black chicken noodle dishes for me."

"Natsume, I want it too!" The fat cat who seemed to be sleeping obviously also smelled the scent of black chicken noodles, and began to struggle in the backpack. Natsume rubbed the corners of his eyebrows helplessly, "Okay, there are all of them..."

"... a group of foodies." I muttered.

I hate the noodles that Natsume invited me to eat...it's unforgivable, I must take care of Xiao Hei when I go back!

Two bowls of fragrant black-bone chicken noodles were served, and I immediately heard my Wu Zang Temple "gulu".For a moment, I felt that my face was so hot that I could burn eggs.

...What a, what a shame! !In front of the male god... unexpectedly... go and let me die.

A feeling of wanting to cry without tears burned from my heart to my cheeks. I lowered my head silently, but hugged the bouquet in my arms tightly. The five-pointed flowers bloomed softly and brightly, just like the beautiful eyebrows of a teenager.

"Eat if you're hungry."

The boy seemed to be smiling. He carefully handed the chopsticks to me. His slender fingers were as beautiful as a work of art. I coughed dryly and raised my head pretending not to care. After taking the chopsticks... Er Zhishi lowered his head and gnawed the noodles silently.

The boy stretched out his hand and brushed my hair aside, a little blaming, "What are you doing with your head so low, my hair fell into the bowl."

"Yes, I'm sorry!" I immediately raised my head, but I felt a little sad when I saw the boy frowning slightly.

I seem to have been poisoned by a poison called Natsume, and I am deeply trapped, but there is no cure.I can only indulge in fantasies and extravagant hopes, about him - even a little smile and warmth can make me happy for a long time, the same...

If I frowned a little bit, I would also feel sad for a long time.

How can my favorite person frown because of me?

I squeezed the wooden chopsticks in my hand, pursed my lips, and then stretched out the other hand nervously like a crime, like a teenager often strokes my hair, and gently touched the tip of his brow, Some clumsily said, "Don't...don't frown."

Don't frown because of me, that way, I will be sad for a long time.

This time, finally, there was no such wretched sense of guilt as if he was taking advantage, but only the guilt and sadness in his heart——

If you frown because of me, then give me time and let me calm you down slowly, okay?

The boy seemed to be taken aback.

It took a long time to laugh, "What are you talking about, eat noodles."

"...Mmm." I lowered my head, stirred the noodles with black wooden chopsticks, and then slowly sipped.

The noodles are delicious, smooth and smooth, with a feeling of...happiness and happiness.

Thank you for being by my side and by my side.

Even if it's just a bowl of noodles, with you in front of me, I feel as good as eating truffles.

wait for me, okay?stay with me, okay?Just like that, grow up bit by bit, slowly, let nature take its course...Together, okay?

My teenager couldn't hear my inner voice, and I didn't say another word until I packed up and left.

Because, I don't know what I should say, now... It seems that saying anything is superfluous.

And so came the first prison.

In fact, my luck is still very good.After inquiring in the waiting room, I knew that Kitano Jun was here.

"I want to meet her, can I?"

"Who are you?" the policeman in police uniform asked me with a serious expression.

"I……"

I felt cold sweat breaking out from my palms, who am I... am I, who is her?

This is really a serious question, and I can't say something about a familiar stranger like I said to the old man... The police uncle has always been a very serious existence in my heart.

"Yes, it's my sister." After a long while, I said, "Ask her... Just say, a man named Bei Yemu... came to see her."

Kitano Mu is really a name so far away that I will soon forget it.

It seemed that after some complicated procedures, I finally saw the familiar face in the thick glass wall.

Ten years of prison life is obviously more likely to make people grow old. When the woman sat behind the glass wall and stared at me with silent eyes, I could hardly recognize this strange middle-aged woman as the young and lovely woman back then. girl.

Ten years of time is enough to make a person's youth grow old, and it is also enough to turn a child into a teenager.

"...Why?" After a while, I asked.

She didn't answer, just looked at me and smiled, the curve of her lips vaguely carried the shadow of that year, "You have grown up."

I am silent.

It was a long time before I spoke, with a slightly difficult voice, "At that time... did you do it on purpose?"

That year, there was a little girl who sold a beautiful rose in a flower shop for a beautiful bouquet of baby's breath.

That year, a 20-year-old young girl promised her to watch fireworks with her all night during the Chinese New Year.

But in the end, all this is just a floating dream, a ridiculous lie.

"Grow up and get smarter."

The young girl who was 20 years old back then has become the woman in prison clothes in front of her. There are thin epilogues spreading out from the corners of her eyes, which are the knife marks of time and years.She looked at me, and the light of memories slowly flowed out of her dark blue eyes, as if she was sighing, "It's so good, those days."

I clenched my fists and gritted my teeth, "I'm asking you, did you do it on purpose back then!"

My voice was very soft, the boy was waiting outside, but did not come in. When I came in, he only said one sentence——

"Sometimes, you need to face it bravely like Xiao Mu."

I don't know if it's my emotion or my encouragement.

"Ah, it's a long story." The woman slowly rolled her eyes. She no longer had the liveliness and vitality of the past, and her speech became slow and gentle. "When I saw you back then, I felt like I saw my sister."

I didn't speak, just looked at her silently, listening to her slowly like listening to a story told by a monster to me.

"The year I was abducted, I was six years old." She said slowly, as if telling a story, "The memory of that time is still very clear... I remember I had a younger sister who didn't like to talk and was very silent. At that time , even when I was young, I like to make her laugh."

"Later, I was trafficked...Maybe because I was a little smarter and smarter, those people took me as a key person to train."

"Of course... because my age is the time to remember things, and they are also very wary of me." Jun Kitano thought for a while, "Later, I worked with them for many years... until I went to the orphanage."

"You don't regret it later?" I asked.

"Ever since I lied to my first child, I knew that I couldn't go back." The woman seemed to smile bitterly, then looked at me with calm eyes, "Then that day, I saw you under that wind chime ...It's very similar to the expression on the face."

"Your sister?"

"...Well, although I can't remember clearly, and I can't remember my sister's face clearly at that time, but I just feel that the feeling on your body is very similar to that of my sister." The woman smiled after she finished speaking, her lips The curvature of the side is a little gentle, as if recalling some good things, "That feeling of silence and loneliness... My sister experienced an accident when she was a child, she was frightened, and became a little autistic, but still Well...she should be as old as you now."

"Have you looked for her?"

"No, my sister, I don't have the face to see her anymore." The woman shook her head, with a bitter smile on her lips. After a while, she looked at me and said, "Although I know there may be no way to get your forgiveness...but I don't regret it."

"It's really an indescribable feeling. Watching a little girl go around selling a bouquet of flowers is for me." The woman smiled bitterly, "Since I've gone nowhere, That was the first time anyone was willing to treat me that well."

"..."

"At that time, they were already eyeing you, and they wanted me to strike that night." The woman put her chin on her hands, and bent her eyes, "Then, it's what you saw."

I stared at her fixedly, "You did it on purpose."

To be in the room on purpose, to be heard by me, and to... let me escape.

"I don't know anything." The woman smiled nastyly, "Ah, speaking of which, I don't regret what I did to you at all."

What else can I say?What else can I say?

Maybe I guessed the truth a long time ago, but I have been unwilling to believe it.

That kind of paranoid, inferiority complex, stubborn.

At that time, I was just thinking in a trance, how could anyone be willing to bother me so much?It is clear that no one in this world loves me, some only use and betray me.

That deep-seated... inferiority complex.

It wasn't until now that I realized that I had always felt inferior.

I slowly raised my hand. The gray bear glove was as cute as a girl back then. I whispered, "This glove is pretty. But I lost the previous one."

"Ah, that's a pity." The woman looked at me, smiled and shed tears. She looked at the gloves and wiped the corners of her eyes with her hands. "It's really nostalgic."

... In this way, do you mean telling her, I forgive you?

"...how many years?" I asked her.

"Not too long." She chuckled, "After I go out, I must live a good life. Well, find a better job..."

"Hurry up, the time is almost up." A police supervisor urged.

The woman looked at me, "Time is so fast, it seems like a blink of an eye."

Yeah, just the blink of an eye.

When the woman left, the last words she said to me were——

"Xiao Mu, I wish you happiness."

When I went out the door, my boy was leaning against the wall, holding a bouquet of flowers in his arms. The pentagonal flowers were blooming brightly and softly, and against the boy's clear eyes, she was pure beauty.

"Come out?" He said casually.

"Hmm...it feels pretty good."

Maybe Kitano's blessing has already come to me, at least now, my heart is full of happiness.

Jun Kitano, thank you.

Also, I wish you happiness too.

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