[Natsume] When the sun shines

The destination of the trip is City S.

The place with my saddest memories.

There I met Gu Gu's sad mother, I met Kitano Jun, the woman who hurt me the most, I met the old Wutong demon who was silent but guarded me for a long time, and I met Wu Yue with eyes as bright as the moon.

In fact, it is not without joy.It's just that compared to the bloody betrayal, this joy is too small.

"Little Mu?"

Natsume sat beside me and called out, "What's wrong with you?"

We are now on the bus to S City, and it will take a long time to go.

This is a long time, maybe just three or four hours.

The road that he wandered like an ascetic back then seems so short now.

I sat by the window and watched the scenery fly by in a daze. The street trees were not affected by winter, and they bloomed with green halos under the sunlight. Hearing his words, I suddenly came back to my senses, "It's okay ..."

"I miss spring again." Xiao Hei muttered in my backpack.

I put my hand into the bag calmly, grabbed its tail calmly - pinch!

"Aw! Hayakawa Mu, you bad woman!!"

It barks.

"Don't think too much." Natsume leaned on the back of the chair, looking at the carriage above her head, "If you're tired, take it as a refreshment."

Relax?

This is indeed a good idea, but I don't think I will be in such a good mood to relax in that sadly nonchalant...

I sighed slightly, stretched out my hand and rubbed the corners of my eyebrows, "Then take it as a relaxation..."

The boy turned his head to look at me, his transparent eyes reflected my face, he stretched out his hand, and touched the center of my brow——

"Don't frown, it won't look good."

The gentle hand was as warm as the sun, and I froze in place, my face turned red in an instant.

I turned my head away in embarrassment, pulled the red scarf around my neck, and thanked Hayakawa for her care for the first time, "Well, then, then I won't frown..."

I'm thinking about something messy, it's such a good opportunity...the person I like is by my side, why do I have to think about those bad things?

As if some heavy burden had been lifted, I breathed a sigh of relief, rubbed my face, and tried my best to keep my face from burning so much. After a while, I turned around and asked, "...When you arrive at your destination, where are you going?"

He looked at me sideways, with a warm smile in his eyes, "Wherever Xiao Mu wants to go, I will accompany you there."

Really say so...

"...I don't have any salary for you."

Even though I thought so, my heart was beating non-stop. This is... what those monsters said, the feeling of falling in love?

What a mess.

I silently lifted the scarf up again, for fear that it would not cover my entire face.

"Tsk tsk, it's really nasty." Xiao Hei muttered.

I haven't let go of the hand holding its tail. Hearing this, I tightened my hand without changing my face—pinch! !

"Aww!!! Hayakawa Mu, you goddamn woman, let go of your claws!!"

"..." Natsume looked at my bag, "Xiao Mu..."

"It's okay, it drank too much yesterday, and it hasn't sobered up yet." I withdrew the criminal hand without changing my face, buried my face in the warm scarf, and said.

"cut."

The bag held in Natsume's arms let out a muffled groan, "It deserves it."

"What did you say, fat cat?!"

"Chang Chong, who do you call a fat cat?!"

The bags of both of them began to struggle violently, and Natsume subconsciously hugged the bags tightly, "Mr. Cat, don't come out. Fat cats are not allowed on the bus."

"I am not a fat cat!!!"

The package struggled more violently.

I quietly put my hand into my bag, and the mouth under the scarf showed canine teeth, "Don't dare to move... pinch!"

"Come and pinch, you can't pinch~"

Xiao Hei's voice was very rumbling, I felt in my bag, but I did not touch Xiao Hei's tail.

I narrowed my eyes and touched up—

"If I can't pinch the tail, I will pinch seven inches."

"Awwhhhh-Mu Hayakawa, you bastard woman!!! Oh, it hurts! Don't pinch! I was wrong, don't pinch, it hurts--"

This thing is lying on top of the backpack and lurking, so I can't touch it?Do not make jokes.

After the two live treasures were settled, the bus whistle sounded, "Passengers in City S, please get off..."

So soon?

Natsume and I looked at each other.

Maybe a long distance, as long as one very pleasant thing happens, you will feel that this distance has become infinitely shorter.

It's amazing.

I took a deep breath, pulled the scarf around my neck with one hand, and struggled to fumble for Natsume's hand with the other, "... get out of the car."

—Young man, I want to hold your hand.

It's very natural to hold it, just like you held my hand back then.

But the uneasiness in my heart prevented me from being completely natural after all.

In the end, I became timid, and silently carried the bag on my shoulder with that hand, and was about to get out of the car.I was sitting inside, but Natsume outside didn't move.

"……What's wrong?"

I asked him.

He was silent for a while, then turned his face to look at me, the sun shone from the car window, and slid past my side gently, the light and shadow were hazy, I couldn't understand the unknown expression in those transparent eyes, he Holding the backpack containing Fat Cat, he stood up slowly.

I discovered for the first time that he was taller than me.

"Let's go."

He said, and then put the backpack in place, the long woolen windbreaker set off his slender figure, and the hand on the side was slender and powerful, with well-defined joints.

- I want to hold your hand.

For ever.

Like an indelible impulse, I took a step forward, and a strong man stretched out his paws tragically... and grabbed his hand.

"Little Mu?"

He looked at me, the hazy light in the car was reflected in his transparent eyes, there was no beginning and no end.

"I, my hands are a little cold, um, I will lend you your hands to warm them up."

Enough of this scumbag excuse!

"Ah."

He didn't say much, but the halo reflected in those transparent eyes seemed to be a lot more.

Soft warmth.

With a little force, he held my hand instead, and then pulled me out of the car.

The sky in City S was gloomy as usual, the sun could not penetrate the cloudy clouds, and he could only breathe in the clouds and mist. As soon as he got out of the car, the cold air rushed over his face. The temperature here was much colder than that in the small town.

I shivered.

The hand being held was full of warmth, as if it would be contagious, and it began to slowly soak into the whole body. The boy's hand tightened, and then he let go. He picked up the light blue coat hanging on my arm, and helped me put it on. Take the backpack off your shoulders and put it on for me.

"Put on, it's cold in here."

His voice is very soft, that kind of thin gentleness.

This was prepared by Hayakawa for me, but he put it on my shoulders.

I uncomfortably tugged at the clothes on my shoulders, a warm feeling slowly began to rise, I lowered my head, the thick scarf made my voice muffled, "Just wear it like this, it will be uncomfortable to wear it so thick .”

He sighed, "Put it on if it's cold."

I reached out to get my bag back, but he didn't return it to me. There were two bags on my thin right shoulder, but his left hand held me again——

The kind of warmth that cannot be described in words directly infiltrated my heart.

Thanks to the little monster who showed me the way, let me come to the warm town, thanks to Hayakawa, took me to a paradise, thanks to Xiao Hei, let me know you.

"Go get a pair of gloves, your hands are getting cold," he said.

My heart tightened, "No, there's no rush, let's go to the flower shop first..."

I'm afraid, if I wear gloves, I won't be able to hold your hand openly.

"Go buy gloves first."

He shook his head, and dragged me into a small shop very close to the station.

This seems to be a jewelry store, with wooden floors, walls made of glass, and wooden shelves criss-crossing on the walls to form a beautiful grid. There are many beautiful accessories on it, and there are hazy dark lights above the head, giving the whole shop a sense of tranquility. There was an inexplicable atmosphere.The female boss was sitting behind the cash register, fiddling with her nails, with tiny gold dots of nail polish on them, shining beautifully under the dim light.

On the other side of the shelf, there are many beautiful gloves.

"This is beautiful."

The boy picked up a white rabbit glove and looked at me sideways. I avoided his gaze and looked at the glove. It was a furry rabbit with red eyes, and it was a short-fingered glove.

"Well, it is very beautiful."

My gaze began to wander around, and then the next moment, my eyes froze on a pair of gloves.

It's a gray bear glove, the silly bear's eyes meet mine, this style...

Ten years ago, a girl put black bear gloves on my hands.

I put it in a very hidden and important place in my warehouse house, and I never wore it once, because at that time, as long as I saw it, I would feel warm all over my body.

When I left the orphanage, I was too embarrassed, too hasty, and I was so wrapped up that I forgot everything, leaving only sad memories.

"This is also very nice."

The boy followed my gaze and saw the gray bear glove, and said softly.

Yeah, it looks great.

Looking at it now, besides sadness, there is also a complicated feeling in my heart.Before I knew it, the years passed so quickly, and ten years passed in the blink of an eye.

"Take it as a gift from me." The boy took off the gray bear gloves and helped me put them on.The fluff inside the glove rubbed against the palm, and the warmth was rippling, like the gentle smile of a boy, and also like the soft dark blue eyes of that girl back then.

There is a long wool rope between the two gloves, which softens the heart.

Gray bear, very nice.

Since I accepted it so frankly, does it mean that I have actually let it go?

No hatred, never thought of hating this city, this world.

"Thank you, I will also give Natsume gloves on Natsume's birthday." I said seriously.

——Or, instead of putting it down, it's just because this glove was a gift from Natsume?

When I left, I glanced at the rabbit gloves that Natsume had put back on the shelf, and remained silent.

"Xiao Mu's hand has become warmer."

To my surprise, Natsume held my hand again, with eyebrows curved, "Now, it's you who warms me up."

The author has something to say: Every time I write about Natsume, I always think about his smile.

...I have written all the manuscripts here, please wait for Sajia's return to TAT in more than ten days

☆、Translation X Indus