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Putting the half-drunk beer on the table, he leaned against Zuo Yan's side face and continued to listen to the short-haired girl.The surrounding atmosphere froze for a few seconds, but after all, it had nothing to do with him.The guests sighed a few words, and then began to talk on their own, gradually turning noisy.Seeing the surprise, Yu Yue wiped away her tears. She got up and said let's go, let's go upstairs, it's time to eat cake.

Zuo Yan regained his composure and rubbed Si Ji's face.When Yu Yue walked away, he picked up the guitar and the photo, looked into Si Ji's eyes, and said, "Tao Yi'an, you know, the one who liked to pick on me in high school. Of course, I didn't beat him too often."

Not knowing what expression to use to face him, Si Ji dodged his eyes: "...well, I can imagine."

"Every year I come to celebrate his birthday with Yu Yue and the others. His popularity is not bad. After more than ten years, there are only a few of us left."

Holding Si Ji's hand, he walked up the stairs step by step.Zuo Yan said a few words, paused a few words, without much emotion in his tone; probably they had been buried long ago: "Others don't care, but I have to come..."

Facing Si Ji's gaze that turned from doubt to hesitation, Zuo Yan shook his head: "I'll tell you slowly later."

Yu Yue should have called in advance, there was no one else on the second floor except for a few of their classmates.Several people sat around a square table and sang a happy birthday song to a huge mousse cake.Yu Yue skillfully cut the cake, gave the first piece to Si Ji, and said, "Welcome new friends."

Eyes focused on him again.Zuo Yan took it for him, and took a small plastic fork and put it aside.Seeing him staring blankly, Yu Yue coaxed, saying what, do you want Zuo Yan to feed you?A few good-natured laughs sounded from around, Si Ji quickly shook his head, forked a piece of butter and stuffed it into his mouth.

The cool sweetness melts instantly.

Zuo Yan shook his hand on the table, and then let go.

After a while, Yu Yue broke the silence, and everyone chatted one after another.Work, family, or boyfriend and girlfriend.Trivial, mundane, but with constant laughter.No one mentioned Tao Yi'an anymore, and only ate the cake at the end of the chat.At the end of the show, Zuo Yan hugged everyone again. A tall and strong man looked at Si Ji who was standing not far away, and dragged him aside to mutter.Yu Yue leaned on the table and looked at it for a while, then walked to Si Ji's side: "He's very attractive, isn't he?"

Si Ji hummed and laughed.He took out a cigarette and lit it, but his thoughts still couldn't turn around from the unfinished words just now.

"Speaking of which, he and I are still rivals in love." Yu Yue said, "I like Tao Yi'an, and Tao Yi'an likes him."

Si Ji opened his eyes wide in surprise.

"I feel so disgusting." Yu Yue said angrily, as if he could still remember his feelings at that time, "I'm already a beauty, and those who chased me lined up to fight, why did I lose to a man?"

At this time, the others had already gone downstairs, Zuo Yan put his hands in his coat pockets and hurried over.

"I didn't bully him." Yu Yue rolled his eyes at him.Si Ji laughed again, he thought he might look a little silly; he was trying hard not to fall into sentimental emotions. "Hey, Zuo Yan, did you not tell him anything?" Yu Yue observed his expression, and asked suddenly.Si Ji wanted to stop it, but it was too late.

He is sad, but it has nothing to do with jealousy.

He just felt that he was too cruel.

During the day, he was still immersed in the joy of Zuo Yan revealing the past to him, but now he regretted it.Time after time, from his parents to Zuo Ye, he thought it was all.

Yu Yue realized that he had said the wrong thing and walked away quietly.Zuo Yan sighed slightly, stretched out his hand to rub Si Ji's eyelids: "What's the matter, I'm not full, so hungry that I want to cry?"

He also teases himself.Si Ji shook off his hand, thinking about it, he couldn't bear it, and held it again to cover it in his arms.Zuo Yan took advantage of the situation to pull on the padded jacket for him, held his arm, and walked downstairs quickly.

It was very windy outside, Zuo Yan escorted him into the car and drove west.After more than ten minutes, the two stood in an open space.The entire area in front of me should have been a school, with the rusty iron gates wide open, and the crumbling buildings lay in the night, like huge graves.

"The school site has been moved to Xincheng. It was said a few years ago that it would be rebuilt. The government has no money, so it's unfinished."

Zuo Yan led Si Ji inside.Weeds grew on the large bare land, and the white residual snow trembled on the grass stems. "I was studying here at the time. It's a bad school. But you can get in if you find a relationship. It's convenient."

Slowing down, Zuo Yan fixed his eyes on a basketball hoop.It fell sideways on the ground, smashing a big hole in the cement floor. "Tao Yi'an is stupid and has no brains. He was also stupid when he bullied me. He tore up his textbooks, imitated me to speak Mandarin, complained to the teacher, and laughed at me for not having a father."

They fight on this playground.The glare of the sun, the girls' screams, and the teacher's roar were all dragged into the vortex of time.

"I told you a long time ago, I found the dormitory and found him masturbating to my picture, so I fucked him. He was going to be hospitalized, and he was ashamed, so he limped to my house and said he was letting me Treat him."

Speaking of this, Zuo Yan sneered: "At that time, I was going crazy with anger."

"Then you treated him?"

"What are you thinking?" Zuo Yan pulled Si Ji's hand into his pocket, "I don't want to take care of him. He just stays at my house and refuses to leave when he has a fever. My mother is busy and thinks he is just my classmate. Don't care at all."

Zuo Yan wanted to throw him from upstairs, but the window was blocked by the anti-theft net.If he was not given food, he would go to the kitchen to steal at night. "I can't say how shameless he was, and he burned to death in the end. I took advantage of his drowsiness and dragged him outside the house."

"you really……"

"Yu Yue picked him up and sent him to the clinic, and then came to beat me. She was Shamat at that time, with yellow hair and red nails, and it hurt so much to scratch people.

"I don't want to fall in love, so Tao Yi'an continued to trouble me. At that time, life passed so quickly... During the summer vacation of the second year of high school, I worked outside for others. I just served dishes and washed dishes for the stall. When the business was good, the boss was in a good mood. The salary is not bad."

"Ah."

"One night, I was still working as before, but Yu Yue came to me suddenly. She told me that Tao Yi'an died and my mother was in the hospital for rescue."

Zuo Yan's voice stopped abruptly here.He lowered his head and squeezed out a smile, but his eyes were still tender. "He died to save my mother. I must visit him every year... I will come again in the future, so I want you to know."

Si Ji looked at his face, from the twinkling eyes to the slightly trembling lips.For the first time, he felt that his so-called bravery was so ridiculous in front of this person.

And he also lightly said that Zuo Yan is a coward.

I dare not imagine Zuo Yan's mood at that time.I dare not speculate a little.