dating depression

The sweet time always passes quickly, the young couple is still loving each other, and school is about to start there, Zhou Qiao still wants to send him away even though he is desperate.The airport is full of people who are reluctant to say goodbye, but it doesn't show how hard they are to part.

"Have you brought all your things? I feel a little worried that I can't accompany you there."

Zhou Qiao pulled the suitcase: "You are too. No matter where you go, you have to bring several books. They take up a lot of space and are heavy. It's just as easy as going out."

"You don't understand, paper books look and feel." Fang Moxin insisted.

When they were packing their luggage, the two had an argument over this topic. Zhou Qiao thought it would be good to just bring a PAD. It was simple and convenient to search for anything he wanted to see. Mo Xin insisted on putting a book in the suitcase. big guy.

"I don't understand you nerds, you always refuse to keep pace with the times, and you still insist that you are nostalgic."

"That's what it is. In fact, some e-books are pirated, and the property rights must be supported. And playing with PAD all the time is not good for your eyes."

"Excessive words, I don't believe that holding a book in your arms in the middle of the night can make your eyes any better?"

"Zhou Qiao, do you have to quarrel when I go out? You see people say that sweetness and honey are inseparable." Mo Xin was very helpless, this issue has been debated for a long time.

And Zhou Qiao seems to be very happy to quarrel with him, as if he has discovered a new world, and he doesn't want to quarrel with him anymore, so why don't he give up, can't he make love for a while?There is no atmosphere of parting at all, this person is eager to leave quickly, right?

"Oh, I don't want to part with you, and I don't want the atmosphere to be too much. You said that it's not appropriate for us two old men to be tired and crooked here. I just want to quarrel with you, and listen to your words. In a word. Do you want to drink water?" Zhou Qiao held a bottle of water, expressing his innocence.

"Give it to me." Fang Moxin took it and took a few sips and said, "Didn't it be agreed that you will come to see me when you are free, and if I have time on weekends, I will come back to see you."

"Well, that's what I said, but I have only been together for a few days and will go to another place. I still feel that I am very hard and very pitiful." Zhou Qiao looked at Mo Xin pitifully.

"Isn't everyone saying on the Internet that a different place is the only criterion for testing true love? Why don't we take this opportunity to test it out." Fang Moxin joked.

"It's all nonsense on the Internet. How many of them really know what true love is? They are all young children. There is a poem that says, 'You don't know sorrow when you are young, so you can express sorrow for new words', When they understand it, they will know that if two people really love each other, there is no problem even if they are in different places.”

"Stop talking nonsense, I'm leaving. You..." Fang Moxin wanted to say a few heartfelt words before parting, but the atmosphere was made so happy by Zhou Qiao, so he had no choice but to say: "You work hard."

"Oh, it's all work. If it wasn't for work, I would have sent you there. If you can't go there, you can stay in a hotel first, and you have to clean up the room." Zhou Qiao was worried: "There is no one to take care of it, I feel sorry for you. "

"Your heart doesn't hurt."

"You should talk sweetly." Zhou Qiao couldn't laugh or cry.

The two were gossiping, and Fang Moxin boarded the plane without waiting too long.I don't know what other couples in love feel like when they are about to break up, but Mo Xin feels that he doesn't feel sad or reluctant at all, as if he just wants to go out and see Zhou Qiao when he turns around and comes back.So in fact, those hard-to-break, painful tears, parting stations and so on are really artificially exaggerated.When the general environment does not change, in fact, parting can sometimes be very peaceful, even very warm.

Of course, this kind of calm only lasted until the moment Fang Moxin put away his luggage, sat on the seat, turned on his phone and was about to turn it off.

He received a text message from Zhou Qiao.

In fact, if he doesn't open it, he can still be very calm, which is a pity.

"Moxin, my dear wife, I really hate you leaving me. If possible, I want to be by your side all the time. I can take care of you, help you carry your luggage, and take your favorite big guy. It doesn't matter how many books you want. I can help you carry Carrying luggage, sharing the weight, if possible, I want you to stay by my side all the time. Unfortunately, reality does not allow, daughter-in-law, let’s make an agreement. Whether you send me or I send you in the future, we must be happy. Okay So, don’t be unhappy, our agreement starts from this moment. Take care of yourself and don’t make me worry anymore.”

Seeing so many words in front of him, Fang Moxin was a little stunned. Zhou Qiao is good at talking about love, he knows it.But he didn't say anything today, and kept interrupting himself, but he didn't expect to send a text message in the end.Moxin knew that he really didn't want to go to Ningcheng anymore, so he was always a little depressed, a little depressed, and secretly took antidepressant drugs, fearing that his emotions would not be controlled.But he never showed it in front of Zhou Qiao. After all, this is a hole he dug for himself, and he has to fill it in himself.

He didn't expect him to see it, he didn't expose himself, and sent himself away in this way. Fang Moxin admitted that this way is really good.

When Fang Moxin came out of the airport with his luggage, it was already dark outside. He stopped a taxi and went to the address. He saw rows of neon lights on the road. It was a completely different street with a completely different accent. The taste of parting.

Fang Moxin has been very independent and strong since he was a child, and he has traveled far and wide, and he has always been alone.He really never had that feeling, the book said it was called caring.He felt uneasy, as if he had lost something important, and he couldn't leave without concern. He really knew that this was a bondage of feelings. It was great to have feelings and bondage.

As soon as he walked to the door with the suitcase, the phone rang. Fang Moxin put down the suitcase with a smile and picked up the phone. He knew it was Zhou Qiao.

"Hello, Moxin, are you here?" Zhou Qiao on the other end of the phone didn't know where he was, it was very noisy and he couldn't hear clearly.

"Well, I just arrived. Are you outside? It's a messy feeling." Fang Moxin leaned against the door with his phone in his hands, and didn't intend to open the door to go in.

"It's good when you arrive. There is a dinner in the evening. I will call you when I have time." Zhou Qiao walked to a slightly remote place and continued: "Businessmen always talk about things at the wine table, and they have become a habit, so they don't have a good time. We talked in the office."

"Then you're going to drink again? Don't drink too much, drink well. Are you driving? Don't drive back by yourself, call a driver instead."

"I know. What about you? Take a shower and rest now." Zhou Qiao was talking as if he heard footsteps: "Where are you? Aren't you in your room? Why does it seem...you didn't go to the hotel?"

Fang Moxin thought that if he didn't tell him, he would not think about this problem again. Who knew that when the upstairs residents went downstairs when they made a phone call, the footsteps in the empty corridor were particularly obvious.He kept thinking that Zhou Qiao must not hear it, but he was heard anyway.

He didn't want to stay in a hotel, although it was cleaner and more comfortable, but he had nothing to do, just tidy up the room, at least it felt familiar here, the hotel was always deserted.

"Well, I didn't go. I have nothing to do anyway. I'll just clean it up later. It's nothing." Fang Moxin was a little guilty, and he didn't really want to hide it from him.

"Okay, I didn't mean to blame you, but I didn't want you to clean up the room and even have no time to rest. I know, you can go in the room quickly. Are you afraid that I will find you so you didn't open the door and stood there all the time?" Outside?"

"No, I just came here and stopped to talk to you." Fang Moxin opened the door with the key and said, "Okay, I'm coming in. I'll clean up later. Aren't you at the dinner party? Come out It’s not good for too long, I won’t tell you anymore, hurry up and go.”

"Well, then you go to bed early. Good night"

"Good night."

After hanging up the phone, Fang Moxin looked around, he left in a hurry and didn't pack his things, now there is a layer of dust everywhere, there is not even a place to sit.When I opened the refrigerator, all the food I bought when I left was still in it, but I couldn't ask for it anymore, so I took it out little by little and put it in a garbage bag, preparing to dispose of the garbage in the refrigerator first.

The room is not big, the key is that there are so many people living there for so many days, it is really dirty everywhere, it takes a long time to clean up, but it has to be cleaned up.After thinking about it, he thought he should sort out the place where he should sleep first, otherwise how would he rest at night.After struggling to clean up until midnight, it was finally done. Lying on the clean sheets, Mo Xin felt that he was really tired, and he didn't have to worry about insomnia anymore. He couldn't even open his eyes now.

Fang Moxin slept soundly and dreamlessly all night. This was the first day they separated. He thought he would suffer from insomnia, but in the end he slept soundly because his body was too exhausted.

Zhou Qiao was not so lucky. After the dinner, there was a continuation. He felt that he was a little drunk, so he didn't want to go. It was already past three o'clock in the middle of the night.

Looking at the moon at midnight, Zhou Qiao thought about going to see his Moxin, but when he got there, he suddenly remembered that Moxin was in Ningcheng now, and he was no longer at home.Zhou Qiao leaned against the door, thought for a while, and finally opened the door and walked in. Mo Xin should be asleep, I don't know if he slept soundly.

Zhou Qiao lay dazed on Fang Moxin's bed, drowsy, and then suddenly got up again.He walked unsteadily to another room, muttering, "Don't be disliked by Mo Xin because of the smell of alcohol all over his body." Then he fell asleep on his own bed in peace.

This is the first day in different places after they confirmed their relationship, and it's not what they imagined.Fang Moxin thought he would be sad and unable to sleep, but he didn't.Zhou Qiao thought he could get used to it, but he didn't either.

Life is not what we imagined, it has been changing quietly all the time, whether it is getting better or worse, we cannot stop it, all we can do is to cherish each other and the present moment.Because maybe everything will be different tomorrow?