I Qinghuan gl

When I woke up, my head hurt, as if someone had slapped me hard, and I was always dizzy.The scene in front of me was doubled, and I was in a daze for a while before fully waking up. I rubbed my eyes and sat up to look around subconsciously.

She was still wearing the same white clothes before, and the quilt was still the same quilt, and nothing changed around her.But my mind is always in a mess, as if there are a few memory gaps, no matter how I try to recall, I can't remember them.My memory is certainly poor, but it shouldn't be so bad.

Could it be because of his age?Thinking about it, I am more than 110 years old, and I have long been an old and stooped old woman in ordinary people. It is reasonable that my memory is getting worse and worse.

"Master, are you awake?"

I followed the sound and saw that Qing Huan was sitting at the table, playing with Liu Yu and Feng Yu Sword in his hand, looking at me expressionlessly.Her expression made me feel very uncomfortable. She has never looked at me like this before. Normally, when she looks at me, she is gentle and happy.

"What happened?" I asked her.

She said lightly: "When I came to look for you earlier, you suddenly covered your stomach in pain, and then vomited blood and passed out. I helped you to bed and rest. You have been in a coma for three days. What's wrong with your body?"

I stopped for a moment, I can't remember what Qing Huan said, but it should be what she said.She didn't know that I had been poisoned by the Underworld Gu before, but why did I get poisoned in front of her?

I coughed twice and responded, "It's okay, there's nothing serious."

"Master, you always lie to me. What's the benefit of lying to me? I'm going back to the Burning Heaven Clan soon. You might as well tell me the truth. Anyway, you won't have the chance to tell me again in the future."

"You...you're going back?" My fingers on the quilt suddenly tightened, and I was a little nervous for a moment, "Why?"

She glanced at me without any emotion in her eyes, and her tone was very calm: "I didn't plan to stay for a long time this time. If I don't go home, where else will I go?"

She is going back.

But she is indeed Wen Jinglei's daughter, if she is leaving, why should I keep her?She is willing to come back to see me this time, and it is the best of humanity not to kill me. It is ridiculous that I am still asking for more things.

But a very despicable thought came to my mind, if I told her that I didn't have many days to live, would she stay with me to finish these two months because of pity on me?

The idea was so shameful that I tried to exploit her sympathy.At the same time, it would also destroy my own dignity, and I would have to humbly show weakness.But I really want to be with her, and no matter how long I live, as long as I live, I want to be with her.

"I... got the Netherworld Gu, there are two months left, can't you stay a little longer?" I lowered my head and lowered my voice.

She frowned, and looked at me with deep meaning in her eyes: "The Netherworld Gu?... You have fallen into the Netherworld Gu. I was worried about how I should face you on the day of revenge. Forgive you, everything is retribution."

retribution?

retribution!

I didn't know what to say for a while.Although I clearly know that this is retribution, but when this word comes out of her mouth, I feel so uncomfortable.I always seem to feel that even if the whole world thinks I'm wrong, even if I think I'm wrong, she won't think so.

Did I trust her too much, or did I trust myself too much?

"Except for... retribution?" I asked rather unwillingly.

"Poor." Qing Huan blurted out almost without thinking.

"Qinghuan, you still hate me, don't you?" I closed my eyes heavily.

She tilted her head to look at me, slowly got up and walked towards me, and stopped in front of me: "My name is not Qinghuan, Qinghuan is just the name you gave me. My name is Wen Yuluo."

I looked at her and continued to ask: "Tell me, do you hate me?"

"Master, I don't want to hate you. You know that I can't hate you at all. There is no point in saying this. I just wait for you to wake up and bid farewell to you. I may not have the chance to meet you again. As an apprentice, I finally say goodbye to you." Kowtow. After that, we have nothing to do with each other."

There was a panic in my heart, as if I was facing an abyss, like walking on thin ice, as if I would die without a place to die because of a detail at any time.

"What did you say? It doesn't matter anymore?" I repeated her words softly.

"Anyway, you... you don't have much time left, and we won't have any relationship anymore." She turned her head and stood, "It's easy to get together and break up, wouldn't it be good to leave some room?"

"...You said before that you want to marry me." My eyes were a little sour, so I had to close them, and I could feel my body trembling slightly.

Qing Huan was silent for a long time, and her voice choked up when she spoke again: "...don't marry."

Having said that, I should give up.

But how can I give up, I even feel that I have lived for more than a hundred years just to wait for her to appear, and she finally appeared, but she refused to be by my side even for the last few days.Fate makes people, everything is fate, all these entanglements are doomed long ago, and separation is also doomed long ago.

Didn't you already know that she would leave, Nan Yang?

"Okay, as I said, I will kowtow to you at the end, and then leave." Qing Huan said hastily, she took two steps back, about to kneel down.

I stepped off the bed in two steps and supported her, not letting her kneel down. The flanks were aching because of the large movements, so I couldn't care about it at this moment.

"What?" She looked at me with red eyes.

"Qing Huan, why do you have to torture each other when you are in love with each other?" My nasal cavity became more and more sour, and the corners of my eyes became hot.

She replied: "You have lived for so long, don't you know that there are more involuntary things in this world besides love between two people?"

I looked at her, she didn't speak anymore, she just bit her lip, as if trying to hold back.

I lowered my eyes, feeling as if I had been immersed in the icy water of winter, and the throbbing pain in my chest was even more painful than the poisonous pain.

Anyway, what is it worth my persistence?

I closed my eyes, knelt down gently in front of her, and just stared at the ground.It's really humble, so humble that my own reason is scolding myself, look at you, you are really shameless.

But I wanted to try everything I could, and I didn't want to look back on this day and regret not doing everything I could to keep her.

"Qinghuan, I love you, no matter who you were in the past, who you will be in the future, whether you are tired of me or not, or whether you still want to grow old with me, I will always love you. In this life, I only love you, love you the most, Apart from you, I have no attachment in this world."

I couldn't see her expression, but she didn't come to help me, I only saw her tightly clenched fists.

I continued to say slowly: "I seldom said nice words of love to you before, because I was too dull and reserved, and it was all my fault. I regret it very much. I regret that there are still many things I didn't have time to do. I want to do a good job for you. A home-cooked meal, I want to have a lively festival with you, I want to hold your hand and walk through the great rivers and mountains, I want to fall asleep in your arms all night, every day, every night, day and night, with You stay together, you can do anything, just be with you. But I don't have time anymore. I don't have time anymore. I just want you to stay with me for the last few days. I don't want to be next to you when I die There's no one there, it's cold."

"If I beg you, would you take back your decision?" I thought, this is the last thing I can do.

Qing Huan took a step back, and suddenly chuckled: "Master, look at your current appearance, are you still worthy of being my master? The cold and desolate Nan Yang who was like a god in the past has long since disappeared. You are just A mortal who will fall into the affair of his children, what else is worthy of my nostalgia? Since you don't give up, I will tell you to give up."

I looked up in surprise, and she lifted the Liuyu she had been holding in her hand, and before I could react, she slammed it hard on the ground in front of me.

An unusually crisp sound of jade shattering exploded in this small room, and the shattered pieces of jade shattered and flew in all directions. One of them bounced off the ground and scratched sharply at my forehead, and then there was a sharp pain in my forehead. , Soon hot, sticky blood flowed down my eyebrows and landed on my eyelashes.

It's ironic that a jade made of my own blood ends up hurting myself.

I couldn't speak anymore, the blood of humiliation was flowing in my flesh and blood.

"After a few years, you will know how ridiculous you are now, Nan Yang." She was still trying to humiliate me.

Why bother, in order to make me give up, can I really do anything?

Why bother.

"Farewell." She dropped a cold sentence, then pushed the door and left without looking back.Her pace was hurried, as if she couldn't wait to get away from me.

I didn't say anything, just watched her leave.After she left, I was a little overwhelmed again, and just stayed where I was.So, that was the last time I saw her just now?I didn't have time to look at her twice, I never said I love her personally before, and the first time I said it was actually the last time we met.

Can I be more dull?

But she is gone, I really will never see her again, why would she have the heart to leave?I have always believed in her love for me, am I still being passionate after all?

Perhaps this is a relationship that cannot be asked for, and I am just reaping the consequences.She was right, everything is retribution.

Hateful, even at this moment, I am still nostalgic for her, even more than ever for the warmth she brought me.

I stood up slowly, clutching my flanks, walked slowly to the table, picked up the candlestick, and squatted down slowly, picking up pieces of broken Liuyu and putting them into my palm.I can't open my right eye from the blood on my forehead, but I don't really want to deal with the wound.

But even if I don't deal with it, the person who will love me is gone.

I touched the piece of Liuyu in my hand, and remembered the words I had carved on it with my own hands.It's a pity that this fate was wrong from the very beginning, everything is tender, but it's just a sweet dream.

I gripped the pieces tightly in my hand and buried my head in my knees.