calm to light

The author has something to say: the meat is here, and I am very entangled. This is the first time I write meat. I am afraid that the writing will not be good, and I am worried that the writing will be too "good".

I have been tangling about things for a week, everyone makes do with the fact that Yazi doesn’t know Qin at all, it’s just unrequited love that can’t be loved, and the description is inappropriate. Please forgive me. I only planned to say it to the Queen Mother, but I didn’t expect it to be heard by another party, which shocked me. I was dazed, and when I came back to my senses, I hurriedly saluted him, lowering my head for fear that the other party would see the embarrassment on my face.However, he didn't seem to give me a chance to hide it, and he stretched out his hand to help me up, "It's stupid, but it's still cute." He said this, the indescribable tenderness in his words made me throb in my heart, and I thought of myself The confession just now made me feel even more ashamed, I just felt that my face was so hot that it was about to burn.

"Why is the emperor here?" The queen mother's question gave me a chance to breathe, but I still lowered my head and didn't see the queen mother's satisfied smile, as if she managed to bring about such a situation.

The emperor let go of my hand, and came to sit next to the queen mother, "My son is rarely free, so I want to see the queen mother. How comfortable is the queen mother recently?"

"Thank you for remembering, the Ai family is fine." The queen mother was very pleased with the emperor's concern, "Although the eyebrows are gone, but there is a Ronger, there is always a caring person around the Ai family, so naturally the body and mind are comfortable."

"Shen Guiren is also thoughtful, knowing that it is inconvenient for me to be with the Queen's mother, so I begged Zhen to pick up Mrs. An." The conversation between the two suddenly mentioned me, and I immediately became tense.

"Mei'er is filial and careful. Now that she is pregnant, the emperor should take care of her." The queen mother thought of the girl who served her so hard, and was rarely satisfied, but what she said made me feel uncomfortable, as if The root punctured my throat, although it was not possible, it was painful. The Queen Mother knew that Mei Zhuang was not pregnant, but she used this to ask the emperor to take care of Mei Zhuang... "That's natural Yes, just now I saw Guiren Shen at the door, my son thought she looked good, and worried that those who were pregnant should be careful, so he asked nobleman Guan who accompanied her to take her back."

"Guan Guiren? Is that the emperor's new sweetheart?" Zhen Huan accompanied Mei Zhuang back, it's okay, so many people will accompany Mei Zhuang to think of ideas and plan carefully, but I'm afraid that I might be among the things they are thinking about. I'm lying, and I'm afraid of my intentions, "Exactly, Mrs. Guan is also rare and docile. My son wants to ask Queen Mother to help me."

"Let her come to see Ai's family after a while. It's the emperor. It's good to have caring people around, but there are still too few. Ai's family heard that there are still some newcomers who have not slept with each other." Originally, the two of them The focus of the conversation was Zhen Huan. I thought I was safe, but I didn't expect the queen mother to suddenly talk about such a sensitive topic. I'm not one of the newcomers who haven't attended bed yet! ?

"Chun Chang is still young, and Mrs. An is still serving the Empress Dowager." It seemed that the Queen Mother would say such a thing, and the emperor responded methodically. When he mentioned me, he even glanced at me, with black eyes There was obvious banter in his eyes, as if he was saying, "You can't help it at last." His expression made me feel humiliated, and it wasn't because I begged the Queen Mother to speak for me, but the anger of being wronged suddenly disappeared. Dissipated, even if the strength of others is not what I asked for, but I did make up my mind to rely on this man in the dragon robe, didn't I?

"Rong'er is filial, but she can't be delayed because of Ai's family. The emperor has somehow mishandled this point." Delay?That's right, I can't put everything aside because of my cowardice, evasion, and self-righteous self-righteousness.

"It's my son who didn't think well and wronged Mr. An Gui." He stretched out his hand and showed the palm with clear texture in front of my eyes. It was the hand of the emperor who wanted to ask for something, and I was calculating while giving. When they were holding each other, they looked at each other firmly, not affectionately, but not counting.

The wide hand that seems to be able to hold everything is a man, and all the beauties in the harem are the net, and I am also a person in the harem from the moment I hand over my hand to him. I can't avoid it from the beginning. Trick, not entirely unbearable.

Feeling the gentle gaze from the other party, I smiled back with the brightest smile I could, but squinted my eyes, trying my best to cover up things that shouldn't be revealed, and things that the rejecter doesn't need to know.

I know he is not my lover, but I am destined to be his woman.

At this moment, I feel the warmth that does not belong to me, and choose a future that is destined to be full of coldness.

Obviously nervous, but also feeling in a trance.We had dinner together in the Empress Dowager's Palace, but in the blink of an eye, I couldn't remember the details of the dinner, what did I eat, what did I talk about?I can't even remember.I also remember that the queen mother sent me to leave with the emperor with a smile, but I couldn't remember what the queen mother said at that time, and what I answered.I don't really know how I got out of Shoukang Palace, and I don't really remember how I got to Qingyan (the emperor's residence) in Kyushu.I didn't really know when the emperor held hands, but I could clearly feel the wetness in my hands and the heartbeat that wanted to be in my ears.This feeling of emptiness like a daydream is really uncomfortable, what's wrong with me?

"You, are you nervous?" The people around you seemed to have discovered something interesting, and there was a rare smile in their tone, but the pure smile made me even more uncomfortable, "If you didn't feel that your palms were sweaty, I would Maybe you can’t see it yet.”

I wanted to withdraw my hand reflexively, but I didn't want to be held tighter by him. When I looked up, I saw him staring at me very seriously, as if he was studying something interesting that couldn't be seen through at a glance, "It's interesting , obviously very nervous, but still can't see anything on the face."

nervous? !It's not like I haven't slept with me before, what's the matter with nervousness?Well, that may not be considered a successful bedtime, but I have experience after all, why is it so abnormal this time.

"I see," the smile on the corner of his mouth widened, and he said to me who was a little stunned, "If you are nervous, your face will be calmer, but it's just that you look a little stunned when it's extremely cold. But this rare stupefied Leng also has a special flavor. Hmm..." As if thinking about something, the man held my hand into Kyushu Qingyan, and at the same time pressed his free hand against his clean chin, saying no like that It's charming.I looked at his profile, and a sentence that I didn't know where I read suddenly appeared in my mind: The person I like has the most beautiful profile in the world.

What do you think about, An Lingrong, the thought just flashed by, and I began to criticize myself, I just want to dedicate myself, I have no intention of losing my heart.Even if this man has a beautiful side face, he will not be the person I like.

"I give you a number," he said again after entering the back room, "Yun." Spreading out my hand, his calloused index finger slowly slid across my palm, writing an invisible but let me I felt the itchy rhyme in my heart, "I like your unique charm." It was obviously a love story, and he said it gently, but I only felt chills in my heart when I heard it, probably because the cold light in his eyes made the words listen It sounds more like a warning. If I lose that difference, the end will be dismal.

"Are you still nervous?" He sat on the soft bed, pulled me into his arms with all his strength, and smelling the manly scent of ambergris on his body, I started to have a heart arrhythmia, " Emperor..." At first, I didn't think about serving the bed at all for a while, but his surprise attack and the repetition of old things made me very nervous again, and even a simple address had a little trembling sound.

"Hehe," feeling my stiffness, he chuckled, "I'm even more nervous~" The rising tone at the end of the sentence made me feel like he was teasing me, "But this time, even if you are scared or nervous, I will I don't plan to let you go." He let go of my waist with one hand, lifted my chin so that I could look directly into his serious eyes, and he could see clearly that he was bound to do so, and he hugged me even harder with the other hand to him.It was very close, so close that I could feel the burning heat of his breath, so close that I could see my stare from his slowly approaching eyes.I don't know whether I was frightened by my appearance or by his closeness, I closed my eyes all of a sudden, and felt the hand caressing my waist more clearly. kiss, but I didn't want him to back away again when he was about to meet, and let go of the restraint on me.

A fleeting sigh, as if it was my illusion for a short time, he seemed to have nothing happened, let me get up as if I was amnesty, and subconsciously kept a distance from him, "Su Peisheng, go get Concubine Shu's Sauvignon Blanc?"

"Your Majesty?" You obviously put on a pair one second...but took the piano the next second, what exactly are you going to do?

"The sauvignon blanc was made by my Ama for his beloved woman." When he said the word "beloved", he showed some sarcasm, but it disappeared into a smile in an instant. "Since I ascended the throne, I have been in It's a pity that no one caressed it for a long time in the palace."

"Your Majesty?" Why did she suddenly think of Xiang Siqin?I thought of the emperor in the dream who returned the beauty to Zhao because of An Lingrong's nervousness and timidity. Is it because of my nervousness that made him lose interest, but because of the Queen Mother, it is not easy to condemn me to go back?Thinking this way, for a moment I hated my tweaking.The shyness has completely dissipated, only the regret of losing the opportunity is left, and the slightly trembling fingertips are cold with disappointment. If today is lost, when will it be?

But not long after the cold feeling, my hand was wrapped by a familiar touch, and then my whole body was pulled by a force, and I sat on the other side of the limp, looking up at him seriously flipping me Hands and fingers touch and feel the calluses in my hand, "Well, with calluses in my hand, can you play the piano?"

Asking this way seems to ask me to play Sauvignon Blanc for him. However, playing the piano is a matter of my previous life. Even if I want to show off, it is inevitable that I will play tricks, which will make people laugh instead.Moreover, the previous life was the previous life, and I learned the piano from my mother, so I don't want to take advantage of it. "The concubine never..." Before he finished speaking, he felt his hand being clenched, and saw his dark eyes, "Don't lie to me."

An Lingrong in this life has never played the qin before. The qin is Lin Rong's skill.Even if I lied, no one would know.But why do I feel that if I lie, he will know and I will be very dangerous.

The sense of crisis scared me, and I blurted out, "I haven't played for a long time, it's really hard to be elegant."

He seemed very satisfied with my answer, and it happened that Su Peisheng also took the piano, so he asked Su Peisheng to put the Sauvignon Blanc on the low table separating us, "It's okay, just play with it as you like."

He said so, and I didn't refuse.Besides, Sauvignon Blanc is indeed a good piano. The warm color of the piano makes my heart itch. Such a good piano must be cared for carefully, so I can't help but touch it.When my fingers touch the familiar and unfamiliar strings, I feel that something will be integrated into the bone marrow, and I will never forget it even after a long time.The moment I touched the strings, I felt like I was back in the musical instrument store opened by my mother. The relaxed atmosphere and the warm golden light shining through the windows.

The posture I sit in is really not suitable for playing, but when I fall into the memory, my head is empty and my fingertips are fluttering, frivolous. It's wonderful.

"What song is this?" It was the first time I created freely, full of confidence, my mother looked at me with a smile, doting on me, "I just learned the basic skills, and I want to create."

"Doesn't it sound good?"

"It sounds good," I remember my mother's smile at that time, proud and relieved, even though I have heard far more beautiful songs than this, I still think my song is very good.However, in the soft voice of memories, I also heard a cold male voice, "I don't want Mrs. An to be so good at the piano, and have his own tune under his fingers."

"Concubine..." Is he angry?Why?I got up in a hurry, I almost couldn't stabilize my body, "The concubine is showing off, don't laugh at the emperor."

The tune is very simple, far less beautiful than the one played by Concubine Shu, which is three feet around the beam.But the brilliance between the player's eyebrows and eyes is not at all inferior to that of Concubine Shu who was favored that day.He had seen Huang Ama whom he respected getting along with the woman he loved, playing the piano just like him and her, but there was no love between them.He disdains the love of his sons and daughters, and the love of emperors. "It's okay, it can still be heard." Stretching out his hand, he looked at the woman who bowed her head in front of him in fear. She was not at all as gentle and charming as before, and a fire arose in his heart. There was anger and other things.

Clasping my hands, I fell into his arms again, this time less ambiguous and more burning.His hands lingered on my waist, and the hot air sprayed into my ears, "You can relax while playing the piano, is my nobleman ready?" Although he was asking me, but he didn't wait for my answer, and began to caress me with his hot hands. My face, I closed my eyes, not looking at his eyes, which were brightened by the fire.His hands are very big, and I can always feel the heat and roughness of his palms on most of my face.His fingertips rested on my eyes, and he stopped moving. I rolled my eyes uneasily, and he breathed heavily when he felt the movement under his fingertips. The hot softness also burned to my lips, close contact, mixed with wet licking, sucking, that was his kiss and my first kiss.

Between his lips and teeth, he murmured in dissatisfaction, "Open your mouth." But I was completely overwhelmed, and lost my mind by the breath that didn't belong to me.No, not quite, at least I obeyed and thought in my heart: finally, here it comes.

There was a pain on my lips, I whispered, my opened eyes were still hazy, and I vaguely saw his eyes that were burning darkly but still cold in the depths, and his powerful arms passed around my knees.I lost my balance, and I fell into his arms all of a sudden. He continued his attack, but I could only grab the front of his chest with my hands and accept it passively.

When was it placed on that kind of slightly cool dragon bed, with the skirts of the clothes open and the hair in a messy bun.A pair of hands roamed around my body, as if patrolling my own territory, unscrupulous.Finally, that hand began to feel dissatisfied with groping through the clothes, and slid into the inside along the half-open collar, climbing up Yufeng through the silky bellyband.

The kneading without warning made me tighten my mouth and bit my tongue that had already crossed the border.I tasted the smell of blood, and he took a heavy breath, left my sharp teeth and came to my neck, pulled out my most fitting moon white underwear with one hand, and left it on the ground indifferently.

The close-fitting clothing was pulled away, and his touch became even closer. The burning palm of his hand seemed to be burning something in my heart.Every time his hand moved down, he lingered for a while, and the pockets became looser when he was fondling. Every time his kiss spread, a cover was opened, and a red flower bloomed.As for me, I was completely controlled by him, and I didn't want to refuse and couldn't resist.

In a daze, I had nothing left, and he had already lost his restraint.His legs were intertwined, his hands rested on my side, and his lips didn't stop for a while, making the blood in my body burn more and more.I was terrified by the intensity of the desire that suddenly surged up in my body, and what he did next made me panic even more.

The legs were separated and bent, completely revealing the privacy in front of the other party. I was afraid because I had no chance to hide. The wet image on my chest seemed to be transferred to the depths of me, itching, like an electric shock Like numbness, I was uneasy because of inexplicable longing.

The scorching heat pressed against me, as if to satisfy me, but it made me even more empty.

"With me here, don't be afraid." I heard him say this in a daze, but I was confused, what are I afraid of?

He put his hands on my knees, straightened up, then ignored me, reversed his patience and gentleness just now, and completely possessed me!

Pain, the pain from there spreads to the limbs, making me breathe evenly.All other feelings disappeared, all the uneasiness and fear were gone, leaving only the tearing pain that made me gnash my teeth, and made me cry meaninglessly, "I...know you are in pain." I don’t feel good, the vicious words made me wronged even more, and the tears flowed even more fiercely. It’s obvious that I’m not feeling well, but I didn’t complain. What is he doing so fiercely? Don't regret it!"

regret what? !I'm not reconciled if I don't cry!After this time, I will never sleep in bed again!There is nothing wonderful about men and women!

And that's just what I was thinking one moment as he made me regret my rare emotional indulgence the next.

No longer forbearing, he actually exerted a strong force, then slowly withdrew, and slowly exerted force again. The simple movement suddenly doubled my pain. "Woo..." My whimper was swallowed by him between his lips before he could fully utter it.I wanted to bite him bitterly but I had no strength at all.

Let him alone, he is the emperor, I am the concubine, as long as he enjoys it, I will bear it no matter how uncomfortable I am!

Fortunately, this pain didn't last forever. I don't know how long it took, but it was replaced by inexplicable pleasure. The body was filled again and again, hit and twitched again and again, it was my night with him.

A sweaty joy/love, I was still panting weakly, he hugged me limply and was still excited, and was enriched again, I whispered sensitively, feeling the power of the emperor and hearing his rough words at the same time , "Remember this pain, remember the feeling I gave you in your body, remember that from the moment I entered you, you are my woman, and you can only be my woman."

I am his woman, the emperor's woman.It can only be his woman, I already knew this, why he... emphasized.