Do not give up ice and snow for the king

asked, but her panicked eyes were fixed on Yun Bian and her mother.

"Dad," Yun Bian also said with difficulty, "You are seriously injured. The doctor said that in order to save your life, you have to amputate your limbs." After finishing speaking, his head was as heavy as a thousand pieces of gold, and he could no longer lift it up.

"Amputation? Amputation...that is to say, my leg...is gone??" The father laughed back in horror, the laughter was terrifying.

"Dad, don't worry, the doctor said that he will install the prosthesis for you in the future. It will be fine..."

"Prosthesis, haha, haha, prosthesis, hahaha...!"

"Yifan, don't be like this, at least you're still alive, at least our family is still together," the mother cried on the bed in agony.

"Xiaoyi, what do you think is the difference between being alive and being dead? I have become a useless person..." For the first time in 15 years, Yunbian saw fear and despair in his father's eyes.

In the days that followed, the air pressure was low and the soldiers were in chaos.In order to take care of her father wholeheartedly, her mother took a long vacation, and Yun Bian, knowing that her mother could do nothing alone, also took a long vacation.But my father didn't know whether he had accepted the reality, or his heart was ashamed. Except for the hysterical refusal of treatment in the first few days, he was silent and obeyed everything later.Shocking, sad to see.

On Sunday night, while Yunbian was cutting fruit, his father's faint voice came, "Xiaoyun, should I blame you or myself? I know that such weather is prone to accidents, but I heard your gentle words like being coquettish and shameless." How can I let you down when you talk softly, a child who has been so sensible since he was a child and rarely asks, once in a while, how can I refuse?"

Yunbian's hand, which was cutting fruit, trembled, and both the fruit and the knife fell out.He suppressed the tears that were about to rush out of his eyes, tried his best to raise his head back, closed his eyes tightly, and forced the tears into his eyes.From the moment the accident happened, Yun Bian never stopped blaming himself. If he hadn't been self-willed, all these tragedies would not have happened.His self-blame was so deep that he never dared to confess to his parents for so many days.Once his confession is forgiven by his parents, it seems that his guilt can be eliminated, and then he has no burden to continue to repeat the same mistakes.He doesn't allow himself to be forgiven so easily, he wants to carry this guilt, this burden on his body for the rest of his life, and hide it in his heart, reminding himself all the time that self-will has a price to pay, it's destructive, and it's heartbreaking.

"Dad, I was wrong. I will never do it again. Never again." Yun Bian lowered his head, Youyou said firmly.

Father glanced at Yunbian, he lowered his head, trying to suppress something.He knew that it was a surge of sadness and self-blame.

"Xiaoyun, I want to go home tomorrow, I miss him very much." The father looked into the distance with deep eyes.After repeated negotiations and guarantees with the hospital, Yun Bian took another day off and returned home with his mother and father.A home that no one lives in for a month looks empty, gloomy, and tasteless.Open the window, the sun seeps in, the floating fine dust suddenly thins and brightens, jumping, dancing, disillusioned, the end, the inescapable end.

Father sat on the wheel, looked here and touched there, and his expression was as usual, amiable.But Yun Bian felt that his father was always staring at the backs of him and his mother. He didn't need to look, he also knew that his father's eyes must be affectionate and long at this time.But if they were facing each other head-on, my father would immediately look back.After lunch, my father said he wanted to rest, so my mother and Yunbian sat on the balcony to enjoy the cool.From the time when my mother fell in love with my father in college to resolutely marrying my father regardless of my grandfather's objections, from when the two first became parents after marriage to now that Yunbian is almost in his prime.Recalling the past, full of sweet happiness.When it comes to their own happiness, people are always not stingy to talk more.

It was almost three o'clock in the afternoon, and Yun Bian was going to take his father back to the hospital.Knocked on the bedroom door, but no one answered.Mother rushed in directly.Father lay quietly on the bed, his expression was peaceful, and he was sleeping soundly.The mother didn't answer, Yunbian went to check and felt that something was wrong, suddenly found that half of the paper was leaking from under the pillow, Yunbian helped the father up, and suddenly saw that there was an empty bottle under the pillow, and the mother was also frightened and froze in place .Yun Bian held his breath, tremblingly went to check his father's breath, it was cold and lifeless.Yunbian planted directly out, freezing into frost.The mother quickly dialed 120, yelling, and carried Yun Mingyang away.Yun Bian stared blankly at the hysterical mother and the unmoving father. Their silhouettes continued to spread out in front of his eyes, but they did not completely overlap.After rushing to send my father to the hospital, the doctor announced that the rescue was fruitless, and I hope the festival is sad.Yun Yifan's funeral was scheduled for three days later, during these three days, his mother hadn't eaten a single drop of food, and hadn't slept well at night, she just stared blankly at her husband's body, didn't cry, didn't make noise, occasionally giggled.

five.

There are very few relatives in the Yun family, and they have almost no contacts.The mother was emotionally unstable and unable to support herself, so Yun Bian had to arrange the funeral with the help of an uncle.Contact funeral services, prepare for cremation procedures, contact funeral parlors, notify the main manager, arrange vehicles and personnel, enlarge photos, and make portraits.Decorate the mourning hall, purchase tribute, wax, paper, foil, etc., determine the master of ceremonies, contact the hotel, etc.Thousands of complicated things, like a beast that escaped from the cage, invaded aggressively and aggressively. The 15-year-old Yun Bian had to study, be busy at the same time, and take care of his mother at the same time.

Three days, 72 hours, no more than [-] hours of sleep in the cloud, as long as the relevant merchants open, he will immediately start contacting.After running from one house to another, the clothes were wet and sweaty.Good words have been said thousands of times, to accompany smiling faces, to see people's faces.Three days of being muddled, stumbled, and disgusted by people with a dirty face, three days of running countless roads, making countless phone calls, three days of saying countless good things, three days of not eating a good meal, not sleeping well for three days, and finally losing weight A circle of clouds and a circle of blackness are over in the hand.

It was one o'clock in the morning, and finally had a good night's sleep.As soon as he lay down, he fell asleep immediately.Suddenly someone shook him awake vigorously. He opened his scarlet and swollen eyes and asked what was wrong with his mother. The mother didn't speak, but just squatted down, looked up and down, opened her eyes wide for a while, pouted her mouth for a while, It seems to be thinking, and it seems to be dissatisfied.

Yun Bian didn't know why, so the mother walked away quietly and cautiously.But Yun Bian didn't want to sleep anymore.In the past three days, when he opened his eyes, he was thinking about what funerals he should organize today. When he closed his eyes, he was thinking about the funerals that had not yet been arranged. He was extremely busy, and even for a moment, he didn't know what he was busy with.He vaguely knows that his father is gone, but what is the concept of his father's death, how will his life change after his father's death, what impact will his father's death have on himself and on his mother's entire life in the future? Quan didn't know yet, no, he didn't have time to think about it at all.

Now that the dust has settled, he can finally cherish the memory of his father in this cold night.The father is indeed gone, and you will never see him again in this world where you can see everything.He will never smile at you lightly, never touch your head softly, never call you Xiaoyun kindly, and never celebrate your birthday with you again.

The tears fell again, wiped dry, and fell again, over and over again, with tears all over his face. "Dad, Dad, . . . no answer. No more answer.

Using the light, he unfolded the letter left by his father: Xiao Yun, please forgive Dad for saying goodbye to you in this way.I also forgive Dad for leaving you first.Don't blame Dad for being cowardly.It's too uncomfortable, it's too uncomfortable, I really can't bear to spend the rest of my life in the sympathy or ridicule of others, if I can't even go to the bathroom independently, what else can I do to protect you and Xiaoyi?If I can only stay in bed with a disability for the rest of my life, how can I drag you and Xiaoyi all the time?In my life, what I am most proud of is being Xiaoyi's husband and your father.And I am also very glad that I have fulfilled the responsibilities and obligations of a good husband and father. If I am destined to be your burden in the future, then I am willing to continue to fulfill the responsibilities of a father and husband at the last moment of my life. , that is the remaining life.A lifetime doesn't pass in a blink of an eye, especially if you spend your whole life guarding a disabled person, even if you think about it a little bit, you will know that it is extremely difficult.Moreover, I don't want to ruin my image in your hearts all the time.Xiaoyun, one day you will understand that when you have experienced and possessed the most beautiful people in the world, but in the end you have to watch them fade away, this kind of heartbreak is fatal.Xiaoyun, I also want to apologize to you. Please forget what I said that night. Dad is willing to do anything for you.My child, I have always been at ease with you, study hard, live well, work hard, and be a person who is beneficial to society.Finally, take good care of your mom, dad loves you.forever.

The night was cold and the wind was heavy, and I sat withered until dawn.When the first ray of light outside the window penetrated into the screen window, Yunbian knew that it was dawn.At the same time, he also knew that his childhood was, really, over.

From this moment, he will start to think more, and he will also start to bear more. In the past, what his father did for him, in the future, he will have to bear it by himself.After folding the stationery and making the bed, Yun Bian suddenly found that there were two text messages on the phone, one the day before yesterday and the other earlier.The content is simple, one reads: You must be strong, there is no hurdle you cannot overcome.come on.One read: If you want to cry, cry out. After you cry, please remember to live a good life and live your life with your father's expectations.