Do not give up ice and snow for the king

.He looked at Wang Chuan, and said calmly: "First of all, I am not with Shu Zhan. So I can't bear what you said. Do you know why Shu Zhan doesn't like you? Do you know why everyone doesn't like you? Because You are not alone at all, you have no thoughts of your own, no principles of your own, no brains of your own, like a parasitic appendage. Of course, you have no self-knowledge. You know that even if you die for stretching, he will not treat you You have the slightest bit of love, but you still forcefully post it regardless of shame, shame or impetuosity, so when you talk about cheap, who do you mean? I used to have a little bit of sympathy for you, but now it’s all gone, I know Let me tell you that you can't get stretch, not even one of his fingers, no matter how hard you try, he will never look at you more, you will never get him in your whole life, He may belong to anyone in this world, but it will definitely not be you. Because of him, you are disgusting. It is extremely disgusting. You just hide in your own yy and live your life." Until Yun Bian finished speaking, His whole body was still trembling uncontrollably, although he tried to calm himself so as not to notice it.He felt that it was more difficult for him to say this than to stab himself with a pair of scissors, and the latter was obviously easier.He found it difficult, not only because the other party was the first friend he identified in his life after all, but also because in his so many years of life, he never thought that one day he would say such vicious words, and the way he said these words , made him feel that he was so vicious, and this recognition made him feel hopeless, and his heart was cold.If it weren't for Wang Chuan's pressing step by step, he didn't know that he could be so decisive.But he understands that at this moment, he can't be soft-hearted. If he wants to overwhelm the opponent, he has to stab him at the most painful place, and then repeatedly twist and deepen until the blood is bloody and he falls down.Stretching is definitely Wang Chuan's Achilles' heel.

Sure enough, after hearing what Yun Bian said, Wang Chuan yelled like crazy, and then suddenly rushed towards Yun Bian waving his hands. Yun Bian seemed to know what he was doing, and turned to the opposite side with a slight flash. Flicking to nothing, he turned around again, raised his slap and slapped Yun Bian's face, just in front of Yun Bian, Yun Bian grabbed his wrist firmly and firmly controlled it, Wang Chuan again Stretching out his feet and kicking wildly, Yun Bian had no choice but to lift his knees and slam into Wang Chuan's lower abdomen. Immediately, Wang Chuan cried out in pain and stopped struggling. Yun Bian grabbed his hands and piled him to the opposite side on the wall, completely prohibited.After all, Wang Chuan is only 173cm, while Yunbian has grown to 178cm, and he has an absolute advantage in height. In addition, Wang Chuan usually treats himself as a girl, coquettish and weak, and Yunbian has experienced so much in the past year. Things that require a lot of physical strength have invisibly increased their strength.Yun Bian saw that Wang Chuan really showed pain on his face, so he felt a little soft-hearted, so he let go of him, retreated to his side, and said calmly: "Wang Chuan, I have never had any regrets for you. I can only say that I am very sad and helpless. You should know how many vicious things you have done to me behind your back. I don’t want to mention the incident of being hit by me on purpose and using a recording pen. You If you still have a little bit of conscience, I hope that after we have become strangers, you will not make trouble secretly, otherwise not only will I not let it go, but you will eventually destroy yourself." After Yun Bian finished speaking, he turned and left.

Wang Chuan looked at the back of Yun Bian going away, with a crazy and fierce light in his eyes.

Yun Bian returned to the classroom, his thoughts still stuck in the moment just now.Can't help feeling a lot.Not only for Wang Chuan, but also for himself.People really are constantly changing. You think you haven't changed, but you haven't noticed it yet.When you find out on that day, you are no longer you, not today's you, not yesterday's you, not good you, not bad you, and you don't know what kind of you it is.Seemingly familiar, yet unfamiliar, seemingly close, yet distant.You don't like who you are, and you have to be who you are.Current events urge people to change, to become more tactful, to become sharper, and to become more adaptable to this society where injuries are everywhere.You are afraid of such changes, and try your best to keep the last innocence left, and you are afraid of sticking to the same, worrying that you will become someone else's mermaid sooner or later.You are just so entangled, resisting, submissive, perfunctory, numb, and muddling along.I am like this now, should I?right?Is it worth it?Do not regret later?For the first time in his life, Yun Bian dissected and doubted his own temperament, conduct, and moral education.

After Shu Zhan came back, he saw Yun Bian looking absent-minded, and he didn't say anything after asking for a long time, but simply told Shu Zhan that he and Wang Chuan were just like that, and then everything remained the same.

For the next two days, even though Yunbian seemed to be the same as usual on the surface, he was still polite and aloof to people, and he was still serious about things, but Shu Zhan knew that he spent more time in a daze, more time looking out of the window, from time to time I fell into a fog of confusion and entanglement, feeling dejected.But as soon as Shu Zhan mentioned it, he smiled and changed the subject.Shu Zhan saw it in his eyes and felt pain in his heart. He knew that Yun Bian was in a period of extreme struggle between self-affirmation and denial, acceptance and rejection.He knew that in just a few days, Yunbian's life had undergone earth-shaking and completely different changes.His always calm and unwavering spiritual world is facing drastic changes that are broken, reshaped, or destroyed.First of all, his sudden violent and ruthless kiss must have left an indelible fear and disgust in his heart, even though he never mentioned it again, it was obviously to avoid making himself feel guilty and self-loathing, and secondly, he could not restrain himself. Zhu's affectionate confession made his original strong desire to reject come to nothing again, followed by Wang Chuan's conflict and breakup. Although he didn't elaborate, Shu Zhan could also imagine the intense and out-of-control scene at that time. How could he bid farewell calmly, I am afraid that if he did not completely burst out his resentment and madness in hysteria, he would not give up.And a series of tragic, explosive, and thrilling scenes followed one after another. Before he woke up, he was passive and had to face the next disaster. It is possible to bear or completely accept so many sudden injuries. The most difficult thing for him is that when dealing with these disasters, he has to let go of his dignity, put aside his face, swallow his grievances, and change his life. The way of doing things even violates the morality and principles he has always adhered to.All of these, how can we not confuse him, how can we not make him entangled, how can we not let him fall into deep struggle and fierce self-collision?Moreover, he had to endure it, and had to continue to cry and pretend to be happy.Shu Zhan knows that he needs to vent, he needs to be guided, and he needs to sort out all this as soon as possible, otherwise, in the long run, he doesn't know if Yun Bian will go crazy, but he will definitely go crazy.

Chapter 41

After sending Yun Bian home on Friday night, Shu Zhan told him before leaving that he would come to pick him up early tomorrow morning and let him free up the whole day tomorrow.Shu Zhan spoke seriously and could not be rejected. After speaking, he turned and left.

So the next morning at seven o'clock, when Yun Bian was still washing, he saw the stretching car downstairs.He hurriedly speeded up the preparations, then went downstairs to meet Shu Zhan.

"What's wrong? Where are we going?" Yun Bian asked with a smile.

"Get in the car first." Shu Zhan replied lightly.

Along the way, Shu Zhan didn't say much, just asked Yun Bian, and he would answer, with his usual expression.

When he arrived at the destination, Yun Bian was surprised to find that Shu Zhan had brought him to the amusement park.

"You want to play these?" Shu Zhan asked in surprise.

Shu Zhan just smiled, didn't speak, and directly pulled Yun Bian in.

Although it was the weekend, there seemed to be not many tourists, but all kinds of screams and cheers were heard endlessly, and Yun Bian felt shocked when he heard it.

"Have you ever played with these before?" Shu Zhan asked suddenly.

Yun Bian could only smile and shook his head.Since he was a child, he has never done any strenuous exercise, let alone such a variety of entertainment facilities that can be said to be extremely difficult and thrilling.Looking at those roller coasters, elevators, pirate ships, and three-dimensional space rings, he felt that his legs were weak. If stretching hadn't brought him here, he thought he would never come to such a place alone in his life.

After turning around for a while, Shu Zhan pulled him and came directly to the equipment with the least people, which turned out to be bungee jumping.He looked at Shu Zhan, unable to speak for a moment.

"Do you want to bungee jump?" Yun Bian finally came to his senses.

Shu Zhan just smiled at him, and then said: "It's not me, it's you." Then he pulled Yun Bian to do the routine pre-jump check.

But, of course, he couldn't pull the edge of the cloud.After Shu Zhan said that sentence, he immediately ran back.However, he was still pulled back by Shu Zhan.

"What are you doing, you brought me here just to let me bungee jump?" Yun Bian yelled at Shu Zhan for the first time, expressing his shock and dissatisfaction.

"Yes, because you need it." Shu Zhan said quietly.

"I don't need it at all, I'm going back." Yun Bian walked back.

"Yun'er, do you know how ruthless I am when I see you suffering and bewildered every day, but I can't do anything about it?" Shu Zhan said suddenly, and Yun'er called out grievance, pain and heartache. "I know you have had a hard time this week. You have been suppressed, tangled and confused, and suffering but can't vent. You