Do not give up ice and snow for the king

Be indifferent, not sullen or angry, and act calm.Love has always been exclusive and absolutely private, and it is precisely because of the selfishness and possessiveness towards love that it has a more intense and mysterious characteristic than other emotions. There has never been a humble love in the world.I will not be with you, in other words, I will be with others.If after hearing such words, the clouds are calm and the water is calm, then there is only one possibility, no love or superficial love.Thinking of this, Shu Zhan jumped up, grabbed the mobile phone in the distance, and quickly ran towards his car.Until the car had left the seaside for a long time, Shu Zhan's mind was still stuck in the moment of epiphany just now, until now his scalp is still numb and he is not fully recovered.It turned out that it was just such a simple and easy-to-understand thing?Just a trivial thing?An optional thing?Why did I have the most tormented, entangled and grief-stricken night in so many years?Yes, he had to admit that this was indeed an extremely insignificant matter, something he had already understood in his heart, but this trivial matter brought incalculable and catastrophic harm to everyone around him .I did my own crimes, and I should have been tortured this night as punishment, but what about that classmate?Where is the cloud?Thinking of Yun Bian at this moment, he wished he could take all the punishments in the world to himself. What did he do, what did he do? He actually had the urge to beat Yun Bian with his own hands at that moment. He would take good care of his hands, and at that moment it almost became the most direct weapon for him to suffer damage. Fortunately, he didn't make a real move, otherwise he would chop off these hands without hesitation now, but let Yun Bian What should be more concerned and sad is the look in his eyes when I left, right?He has always known that he is ruthless, but from the day he saw Yunbian for the first time, he told himself that all his affectionate, doting, delicate, smiling, and gentle things can make others feel his feelings at a glance. The kind and loving eyes, in this life, he will only give Yunbian to one person.For such a long time, he has always used this as the principle of treating Yun Bian, no matter what his mood is, he will only have those kinds of eyes in front of him, and, for such a long time, he has indeed done it.But tonight, he gave Yun Bian his most desperate, regretful, and hateful vicious and cold eyes in so many years, his favorite Yun Bian, who he most wanted to hold in the palm of his hand, protect him in his heart, and place him forever Ah, the most modest and polite Yun Bian, who is a gentleman, was almost beaten in full view, and then dumped with such a gaze, Yun Bian, what should he, what should he think, how should he bear the pain he had never experienced before? What about his deep hostility and malice?Besides, the origin of this malice is unknown, and the person who committed it was still a very important friend of his own?

thirty

When Shu Zhan was heartbroken, the cell phone rang suddenly.When he saw that it was still at the edge of the cloud, his distress and self-blame rose to the extreme.It was almost two o'clock, and he had to get up for school before five o'clock, and he stayed up late because he was worried about himself.Doesn't he complain and blame himself for losing his temper with him for no reason?Don't mind disappointing yourself and embarrassing him in front of everyone?Wouldn't you be sad, sad, wronged, and disappointed because you were blamed for being innocent?How could he still be like this, don't care?Shu Zhan speeded up the car and drove towards Yunbian's house.But when he accelerated, overtook, and came downstairs to Yunbian's house in half the usual time, he suddenly didn't know what to do next or what to say.A heart eager to redeem sins, but I don't know where to start.He got out of the car, stood in the rain, raised his head, looked in that direction, his face was wet.The beeping sound of the phone rang again, and Shu Zhan picked it up, but the two of them lost their voice, only the sound of electric current and the faint sound of breathing, running back and forth.After a long time, Shu Zhan spoke softly, I'm downstairs at your house.

After hanging up the phone, he suddenly wished that Yun Bian could wash up, change his clothes, get dressed, get his mood in order, and then come slowly and generously like a gentleman, so that he can have some free time Time to get ready to meet.Just when he was still looking up, he suddenly heard all kinds of footsteps, without rhythm, hitting the floor, and then saw the edge of the cloud that he wanted to see most but dared not see at this time, wearing pajamas and house slippers , with slightly disheveled hair, rushed into the rain.He saw his impulsive and urgent figure, he heard the sound of him splashing the rain, he felt his anxious beating heart, and he stood in front of him in such an unusual and embarrassed manner.Looking at him, there was no resentment, no scolding, no questioning, or even speaking, just looking at him, as if to say, you are here.

Later, Yun Bian really felt the deep coldness, so he said, "Let's go up first, I'm a little cold." Then he let go of Shu Zhan and walked upstairs, Shu Zhan walked behind with his head down, a few steps away .After returning to Yunbian's house, he immediately found his clean clothes for Shu Zhan, told him to take a bath first, then changed his soaked pajamas, made another pot of hot tea, poured out a cup, and left it to dry.It was nearly three o'clock in the morning.

Yun Bian's clothes are worn on Shu Zhan, although they look small, they are just right.Yun Bian brought him the teacup, signaling him to drink it immediately to warm up, and Shu Zhan followed suit.Yun Bian went in to take a shower, and when he came out, he found that Shu Zhan was sitting in his room, thinking about something.

"I hear your nasal voice is very strong, do you have a cold?" Yun Bian said.

"It's okay." Shu Zhan still lowered his head, looking like a child who has done something wrong.

"I don't have cold medicine at home. It's best to go to the doctor at dawn," Yun Bian said, and after a moment of silence, he tentatively asked, "You, what happened last night, can you tell me, did I offend you? "

Shu Zhan suddenly raised his head, looking at the edge of the cloud in pain.Now the time is not ripe, he is not sure that Yun Bian can accept him, he still needs to wait, he said to himself, but what happened last night happened because of this, if he wants to explain what happened last night, he has to Confess your mind.

"I'm sorry, it's my fault. I shouldn't lose my temper with you. It has nothing to do with you." Shu Zhan could only say vaguely.

"Really, but I feel that it does have something to do with me. If you really have any opinion on me, as long as you say it, I will seriously consider it. I hope you don't misunderstand me." Yun Bian said.

"It's not your problem, I promise, there won't be a second time." Shu Zhan said.

"The way you looked yesterday was really scary." Yun Bian said with a smile.

"I will never treat you like this in the future. I'm really sorry that I caused you to suffer an unreasonable disaster." When Shu Zhan remembered the look in his eyes at that time, he wanted to strangle himself to death.Still, it scared him.

"I believe you have your reasons for doing things, but I hope that when you have something on your mind in the future, you can tell me, aren't we friends? It's too hard for you to carry it alone." Yun Bian said.

Shu Zhan nodded and said nothing.

"Okay, it's getting late, I'm going to get up in less than two hours, hurry up and sleep for a while, I'll get you a quilt, the guest room is not put up, it's a bit cold today." Yun Bian said and prepared to go Help him get the quilt.

But Shu Zhan grabbed him, looked at him and said, "Can I sleep here?"

Yun Bian was surprised, then smiled and said: "If you like this place, you can sleep here. I'll go to the guest room."

But Shu Zhan held on to him, the pain in his scarlet and swollen eyes still remained, and he looked very fragile: "You sleep here too, with me, just for two hours, okay?"

It's only less than two hours, so there's really no need to go through a lot of trouble to vacate a room, and both of them are men, so there's no problem, and his pitiful appearance really makes Yun Bian couldn't bear to refuse.

Yun Bian nodded in agreement. The 1.5-meter bed is really small for two people over 178cm. After Yunbian got into the bed, he had to lie on his side so that he could stretch and turn over at will.Because of Shu Zhan's insistence, the two covered each other with the same blanket.Gradually, Yun Bian felt Shu Zhan's breath blowing on his neck, he slowly turned around suspiciously, who knows, almost bumped into Shu Zhan's face, and was immediately embarrassed.

"Don't you look crowded?" Yun Bian asked, actually he wanted to ask, don't you feel hot.

"Exactly." Shu Zhan said with a smile.Smiled for the first time in one night.

"I still feel a bit crowded, I'd better get up and read a book, anyway, I'm going to school soon." After finishing speaking, she was about to get up.

Shu Zhan took his arm and let him lie down: "You haven't slept all night, and tomorrow is a full day of class, how do you deal with it, you must sleep for a while." , so be it.” Shu Zhan pulled Yun Bian towards him as he spoke, then stretched out his left arm and took Yun Bian’s head over so that it rested on his arm, while his face was completely imprisoned by him. On the chest, one side of Yun Bian's body is also pressed on Shu Zhan.What, the intimacy is extremely ambiguous.Yun Bian's face turned red all at once, and his body became inexplicably hot. He wanted to avoid it, but was pressed tightly by stretching. This feeling of powerlessness that he couldn't get rid of made him feel particularly ashamed, so he turned his face Redder, body hotter.

"Are you hot?" Shu Zhan asked, not knowing whether it was intentional or not.

"You strangle me too tightly, I'm not used to it." Yun Bian could only tell the truth.

"But I'm cold." Shu Zhan said, and deliberately lengthened the ending.Acting like a baby is obvious.

Seeing such a tall figure, stretching with a cold expression on his face, now he actually acted softly, Yun Bian was beyond shocked and speechless.And Shu Zhan turned his face, sticking to the hair beside the cloud