Do not give up ice and snow for the king

Ji missed Yunbian, wanted to get closer to Yunbian, and forced himself to stay away from Yunbian, which was his state in the last month of his freshman year.

Li Kai and the rest couldn't figure out why Shu Zhan's face became colder and his temper became more irritable day by day.

eleven

During that winter vacation, Shu Zhan did two things.Think and watch the snow.

Whenever it snows, he must watch it.The scene of looking into the distance in white clothes by the side of the cloud always floats in front of my eyes, and I can't get rid of it.Thinking, not thinking about how to confess, but thinking about how he can save Yun Bian from the troubles of the next few decades.

He has always been far-sighted, and he will definitely get what he wants.The plan after getting it must also be prepared in advance.How to win Yunbian's heart, how to maintain the relationship between the two so that Yunbian will not be hindered by the outside world, how to persuade the parents of both parties, and more importantly, how to deal with and how to deal with various prejudices that may arise.

Regarding Yun Bian, he thought, he had made a plan for his whole life.Although he only has.But the length of love loyalty, who can say that it is judged by age, not by the firmness of will?The firmness of Yun Bian's mind, Shu Zhan knows, is the most certain thing for him.

Time and time again, writing and deleting, deleting and writing, coming and going, all entered the draft box.After getting his number from Yunbian's homeroom teacher, things like this were repeated back and forth.Every time you delete one, Shu Zhan will give a wry smile, Yunbian, my love for you is all in places you can't see, in drafts, in eyes, in heart, in dreams.In the end, I could only simply send four plain greetings for a Happy New Year on New Year's Eve, when all the people are celebrating together.

After returning to school after the year, he knew that Yun Bian's birthday was approaching, and it was a pity that he could not celebrate with him, but he still had to seriously prepare a gift for him.With Yun Bian's personality, he would definitely not accept it if it was too expensive, and he probably wouldn't accept it from a stranger either.

After comprehensive consideration, he chose two mechanical watches with the same price at a moderate price, one for himself to wear.When it was Yun Bian's birthday, it happened to be the weekend.In the end, I could only send it to someone on Monday.When the entrusted person came back, he told him that Yun Bian asked for leave today, and the gift was accepted by him at the front desk.

After the man left, Shu Zhan wondered, he shouldn't ask for leave easily, what happened.After a few days, there was still no one. Shu Zhan felt bad, so he went to ask the classmates in his class, only to learn that Yunbian's father had a serious car accident.

He immediately asked for leave and rushed out of school.But he didn't realize until he was out of school, what did he do when he came out?Not to mention that he didn't know which hospital Yunbian's father was in, there were quite a few hospitals in Yangcheng City, and secondly, so what if he knew, he would really scare people by rushing in like this.

He raised his eyes and looked around in a daze. For the first time in his life, he found himself feeling heavy and powerless.Obviously love you so much, obviously can help you, obviously should be by your side, obviously such a short distance, but lacks an identity.You are by my side, I see you suffering from wind, frost, rain and snow, I see you weeping, I see you trembling, I see the whole world's malice towards you, but I can't do anything, because of you, I It's a stranger, a transparent person, you can't see me, you can't feel my care and distress.

After an unknown amount of time, Shu Zhan came to his senses and sent a text message to Yunbian, telling him that everything will pass and he must be strong.Yes, everything will pass, and everything in the past will be calm and calm.

Later, when he heard that his father's condition was stable, Shu Zhan was indeed relieved. Unexpectedly, he heard the news of his father's death the next day.At that moment, he immediately called his uncle at the police station to help inform Yunbian's home address.There is no need to think about anything, nothing to worry about, he only has one thought, no matter what, he wants to be with him in this most difficult and painful moment.Even as a stranger, he just wanted to tell him, don't be afraid, there is me.

After getting the address, he rushed into the car, increased the size, and drove towards Yunbian's house.As soon as he arrived at the destination, before he got out of the car, he saw the person he missed day and night.

The Yun family came and went, and the atmosphere was bleak.Yun Bian stood at the door of the house, dressed in black filial piety, with a calm look on his face. From time to time, someone was talking to him or discussing something. He would come in and out, look at something with his hand, and answer the phone all the time. Sometimes I would go out in a taxi with an elderly uncle, and when I came back, I would carry a large bag in my arms... I went round and round, coming and going, pointing and drawing, and I couldn't sit idle for a moment.

Shu Zhan didn't leave Yun's house until it was dark. During this day, he didn't see Yun Bian drink a sip of water or sit for a while. One moment nods to apologize, one moment smiles, one moment welcomes a group of people, and one moment sends a group away...

Shu Zhan couldn't stand it anymore, his heart hurt, he stepped on the accelerator, and left quickly, halfway through the drive, he stopped suddenly, his eyes were red, he yelled loudly, he beat the steering wheel hard, punch after punch, blood flowed come down...

In his perception, Yun Bian should be standing in front of his father's spirit, weeping silently.And he used to be by his side, serving tea and water for him.But what he saw today made him shocked and angry, and his heart ached terribly.It turned out that he alone provoked the big and small matters of the funeral. He is a 16-year-old boy. Does he understand those tedious procedures?Does he know how to communicate relevant matters to relevant agencies, units, and businesses? ?How does he appease the grief of the guests coming and going when he still needs to be comforted?There are so many adults present, why didn't any of them open their eyes to see that the boy in front of him is still underage, but under the great grief of losing his father, he had no time to buffer and was forced to immediately support this huge and cumbersome funeral alone, you guys How could he still have the heart to constantly pick and blame him? ?Don't you see that his clothes are wet with sweat, his hair is wet with sweat, his lips are chapped, his eyes are scarlet, and his heart is full of holes?

But he was still so modest, so calm, and so submissive.Thinking of him going on like this for three consecutive days, Shu Zhan wished to strangle his powerless self to death.After all, he still hated himself the most.But in this situation, what else could he do?Not to mention his company, even explaining his presence would make him even more stressed, making him even more flustered, right?

When there were fewer pedestrians on the road, Shu Zhan slowly raised his heavy head, took out his mobile phone and sent a text message to Yunbian, hoping that he can survive this catastrophe, and the most important thing is not to commit suicide and live a good life.

Just when Shu Zhan thought that all the bad luck had left the clouds, even greater misfortune was waiting.

One day after the funeral, because he was worried about Yun Bian, he asked for leave and drove to Yun Bian's house, but he saw Yun Bian and an aunt panic-stricken, half hugging and half pulling a young and beautiful girl with a scary and exaggerated expression. The woman got into a taxi, and Shu Zhan immediately followed her, but the destination turned out to be a hospital.After Yun Bian finished asking the doctor and went back to the ward to accompany his mother, Shu Zhan asked the doctor about the situation. Out of medical ethics, it was inconvenient for the doctor to tell him, so Shu Zhan had to ask Li Kai's second uncle, the director Li of the hospital, to help.After learning that the woman was Yun Bian's mother and hearing about the illness, Shu Zhan was speechless.

What else can he say, every time when he thinks that the tragedy has left the cloud, a bigger tragedy will follow, he really wants to roar and ask God, why is it so unfair, why all the tragedies revolve around Looking at this beautiful man? ?

Fortunately, his mother's condition was not serious. After Shu Zhan asked the hospital to take good care of Yunbian's mother, he left.

One after another, Shu Zhan was deeply awakened. He could no longer take every step at a time, and he could no longer approach Yunbian after thinking of a perfect plan. He could no longer bear being in Yunbian when he needed companionship and support the most, but he was alone by his side. .Always thinking about the future, always thinking about not letting him get hurt, who knows which will come first, tomorrow or the accident, when the person you love is still by your side, you should swim to your love in time, in case tomorrow is ten thousand hectares What about the giant waves?

Finally, Yun Bian returned to school, and Shu Zhan also began to choose the right time.He now knows that if you like someone, you have to do everything possible to have a relationship with him, otherwise, this person may never have anything to do with you in the future.As for whether to confess or not, it depends on the timing.

The time has come this morning.When Yun Bian appeared on the playground, Shu Zhan noticed it right away.When he found out that Yunbian was here to watch basketball, he was so excited that he couldn't contain himself.After the whole fight, he doubled his strength than usual, and even other athletes said that he was too aggressive today.

After the end, when he was so close to Yun Bian for the first time, and his eyes met, his heart ached so much.Fate deceives each other with harshness and pain, but he treats each other with a light smile and humility.He couldn't do anything other than stare at him.His heart was beating like a drum, and his heart was burning, but there was an unknown person beside him.He thought at the time that if Wang Chuan hadn't been there, he wouldn't have known what uncontrollable things he was going to do.Suddenly, I don't know what kind of nerves the boy next to him had, he asked Yun Bian to go first with reproachful words, and he left as expected.While Shu Zhan was angry, he gave the man a sharp look, and then left.After returning to the classroom, Shu Zhan suddenly decided that tonight, he would start to walk into the life of Yunbian.Although the road ahead is full of difficulties and dangers, as long as the direction is right, no matter how rough it is, it is always closer to happiness than staying where it is.

twelve.

Yun Bian was suddenly at a loss for what to say. Looking from his angle, his stretched face, reflected in the moonlight, should have been clear and clear.