Actually I like you very much

Xiang Wan was not in a hurry to ask Jiang Xunxing to answer. He had to admit that now was not the best time to say such a thing. After he finished speaking, he stopped asking, and the two returned to the hotel in silence.

Before falling asleep, Xiang Wan received a message from Jiang Xunxing.

Jiang Xunxing: Aren't you straight?

Xiang Wan: I kissed you, but you still think I'm straight?

Jiang Xunxing: ...

Jiang Xunxing didn't know how to answer Xiang Wan's question.

The kiss outside the battle room awakened Jiang Xunxing's sanity at that time and pulled him out of the state of grief. However, too many things happened later, and Jiang Xunxing had no way to sort out the meaning of that kiss.

He didn't deny that he had feelings for Xiang Wan, but he couldn't think about it now.

Not long after six o'clock was sent, Xiang Wan's call came.

Jiang Xunxing: "..."

Just two doors away, what is this man calling?

A voice came from the receiver, lazily: "Xun Xun."

Jiang Xunxing's tone was light: "What's the matter?"

"I want to talk to you, but I dare not go to your room." Xiang Wan said, "After all, our relationship is not the same now."

Jiang Xunxing: "What?"

Xiang Wan said bluntly, "I'm chasing you."

Jiang Xunxing: "..."

Xiang Wan was well versed in the art of speaking, which always made Jiang Xunxing at a loss for what to say.

Jiang Xunxing: "Didn't you ask for my opinion just now?"

Xiang Wan immediately replied, "You didn't reject me."

Jiang Xunxing: "..."

A deep low laugh fell from the other side of the receiver.

Xiang Wan said: "I know you may not be able to accept it for a while, but we have a long time, take your time."

"Why?" Since Xiang Wan brought up this topic, Jiang Xunxing no longer shy away from it, and asked, "Why did you kiss me that day?"

"I'm bent." Xiang Wan said.

"..." Jiang Xunxing pondered for a moment, "You look like the captain."

"So what?" Xiang Wan didn't sound like he cared at all, "You didn't think of me as him."

"Ok?"

"You never call me Captain, you only call me Xiang Wan."

"..." Jiang Xunxing, "Why did Gao Yu tell you?"

Jiang Xunxing knew about Gao Yu, so Jiang Xunxing would not be surprised if he only told about him, but Gao Yu would not tell other people about Sikong.

Hearing this question, Xiang Wan, who had always been relaxed, fell silent, and then slowly said after a while, "I asked him."

"Before he told me, he asked me if he could save you."

"I said yes."

The sound passed the earpiece, so close that it seemed to be rubbing against the ears.

After a short pause, Xiang Wan continued, "Maybe he doesn't hate you as much as you think."

"..." Jiang Xunxing slightly groaned, and did not comment on this matter, and said lightly, "I'm sleepy."

"Go to bed early." Xiang Wan coaxed softly, "Good night."

Jiang Xunxing hung up the phone.

The phone screen switched back to the WeChat page before answering the call. He turned off the screen, leaned back, and looked straight ahead.

Xiang Wan said that he would save him.

A&S originally planned to leave City C on the third day after the game, but Jiang Xunxing asked for leave and stayed for two more days to have dinner with Pamir and the others.

The atmosphere at the dinner table was a little awkward because of the previous incident.

Jiang Xunxing took the initiative to say, "I'm sorry, it's because of me."

"No." Pamir waved his hand, worried, "A Xun, are you... all right?"

Jiang Xunxing said truthfully, "I don't know either."

Jiang Xunxing's mental state before the SAT was clear to everyone. In the years when he was still in the SAT, Sikong would take him to see a psychologist once a week. It was precisely because of this that they agreed to keep his condition a secret from Jiang Xunxing in Sikong. requirements.

"A Xun." Coco said, "You can do it."

"That's right!" Dawei also said, "We've already beaten HQ, what's wrong?!"

"That's because you are too weak." Jiang Xunxing sandwiched a rib.

"..."

"........."

Pamir, Coco, and Dawei slapped the table, rolled up their sleeves, and gave Jiang Xunxing a crazy meal.

"What did you say?!"

"Again, who is too weak?!"

"The guts I gave you?!"

Jiang Xunxing let them rub, and didn't fight back or dodge. When they got angry and prepared to stop, he added: "I'm serious, Xiang Wan is very strong, you can't beat him."

The two sentences turned upside down. This meal was destined not to be delicious and not to drink. The three of them didn't give Jiang Xunxing any chance to move his chopsticks. Empty, the three of them ate themselves to the brim.

Before leaving, Pamir put his arms around Jiang Xunxing's shoulders and said, "I haven't dared to contact you for the past two years, and I will keep in touch in the future!"

Coco: "ER will fight TRY in two days, I don't want ER to qualify."

Dawei: "Isn't it good to qualify? Look at their faces, it's better to ask the SAT members to rub with their own hands!! Ah Xun, help us avenge the past!!!"

ER team.

The first time Sikong lost his temper was because of this disgusting team, and the saddest period of SAT was also because of this team.

Jiang Xunxing clenched his fingertips tightly, letting his nails sink into his palms, and tried his best to restrain the irritability and anxiety that surged up in his heart when he remembered the past.

"Got it." Jiang Xunxing didn't let them see it.

After seeing off the three of Pamir, Jiang Xunxing went to a psychological clinic.

Before he was admitted to University A, he still kept going once a week. Later, the doctor diagnosed that his illness was basically stable, and he could change from once a week to once a month, and he recommended his classmates in Jiangcheng.

Before joining A&S, Jiang Xunxing went there for the last time and explained his current situation in detail. After a detailed assessment, the doctor there told him that he didn't have to come back until the next attack.

If possible, Jiang Xunxing hopes that he will never get sick again.

The doctor still remembered Jiang Xunxing.

This meeting was also arranged by the doctor on his own initiative, so the meeting between him and Jiang Xunxing this time was not in the identity of a doctor and a patient, but just a pair of old friends who hadn't seen each other for a long time.

Under the guidance of the doctor, Jiang Xunxing told the doctor what happened after he went to Jiangcheng. Sikong, including Xiang Wan's confession to him two days ago.

"Is it uncomfortable?" The doctor asked Jiang Xunxing.

"Yeah." Jiang Xunxing nodded, "It's okay when you don't think about it, but as long as you think about the captain, it's not normal."

When Pamir mentioned the ER team earlier, he clearly felt his uncontrollable emotions and state.

"Very good, knowing that you may be abnormal means that at least you are normal in terms of perception." The doctor joked.

"Ah."

The doctor asked: "What about when he confessed to you? What do you think?"

"I don't know." Jiang Xunxing said.

"People's feelings can be roughly divided into three types." The doctor said, "I hate it, I don't know it, and I don't know it. It's not the first one, but at least you can tell that you don't hate him."

Jiang Xunxing heard that the doctor wanted him to relax, but he chose to point it out mercilessly: "You are talking nonsense, doctor."

The doctor smiled. It is not difficult to see that Jiang Xunxing's mental state can be maintained because there is someone "hanging" him all the time.

Ordinary people may have a nervous breakdown when they learn of the death of a friend or anyone with whom they have a close relationship, not to mention Jiang Xunxing, who has already been injured and is relatively fragile.

Someone has been by his side to help him, or Jiang Xunxing has long been with a certain person at a certain moment, and he regards him as an indispensable part of supporting himself.

Guessing from the content of the conversation, it could only be Xiang Wan that he had been mentioning.

Maybe Jiang Xunxing didn't realize it himself. The doctor kept silently recording the conversation. On the one hand, he wanted to investigate Jiang Xunxing's condition, and on the other hand... out of his own gossip.

They chatted for an hour and a half, and the name Xiang Wan appeared 67 times, far more than any other words.

The doctor remembered that when he saw Jiang Xunxing for the first time, he was accompanied by that gentle and gentle young man. During the treatment, Jiang Xunxing was taken aside for a psychological evaluation test. When he entered an unfamiliar environment, Jiang Xunxing showed anxiety and restlessness. After being calmed down patiently by the young man, he calmed down.

During the subsequent treatment, the young man looked at him from afar, with slightly curved eyes and extremely gentle eyes.

"The relationship between the brothers is really good." The assistant sighed after seeing this scene, "I really hope he can get better soon."

Sikong has a gentle personality, and he always likes to wear a clean white shirt. The nurses in the consulting room like to chat with him. He is very polite to everyone, but he only gives Jiang Xunxing his softest eyes.

Maybe they're more than just brothers.The doctor thought so at the time.

Later, Sikong fell ill. After the diagnosis, he came to ask the doctor about Jiang Xunxing's mental state. The doctor advised him not to tell Jiang Xunxing for now.

Later, Jiang Xunxing was the only one who came to the clinic.

After that, Jiang Xunxing cooperated with the treatment like never before, and almost opened his heart to accept psychological guidance, even the drug treatment that he had been resisting before. Before that, Jiang Xunxing always thought that after taking the medicine, he would really Not exactly a normal person - he was desperately trying to heal himself.

During the few months when Jiang Xunxing went to Jiangcheng to go to college, the doctor would contact his classmates and learned that Jiang Xunxing's mental state had become close to normal. He thought, maybe it was because Jiang Xunxing kept mentioning Xiang Wan. the emergence of.

If it was Sikong's gentleness that brought Jiang Xunxing out of that gloomy corner, then the Xiang Wan who kept mentioning was the one who could make him stand under the sky.

"I should like him." Jiang Xunxing didn't hide anything from the doctor, which is also the conclusion he came to before Sikong happened, "but not now."

"I have to wait until I really come out to tell him, it will take a long time..."

"It won't be long." The doctor poured a glass of water for Jiang Xunxing, put it in front of him, and smiled slightly, "Ah Xun, I hope you can know."

"You like him more than you think."

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