torture to the end

Shen Chen's family is less warm than Han Jingyu's. His father seems to have never appeared since he can remember, and his mother raised him even if he didn't have to work very hard.

Shen Chen also suspected it before. When he was young, there were single-parent families with no father or mother in his class. Those children were paranoid, extreme, or cowardly. They were extremely unlikable children, but he was only raised by his mother. Big, he is always the most popular in the class, no matter abroad or at home, people always say to him, "I really like your personality."

his character?

Shen Chen thought with some distress.Since he was a child, his mother always told him, Ah Chen, don't fight or cause trouble, and make everyone around you like you. You are the best, and you can do everything best.Shen Chen has indeed done it. He has been so well-behaved since he was a child. He was a good student in the eyes of the teacher when he was a child, and a good teacher among the students now.

The only exception was probably when he was 16 years old. At that time, he and Han Jingyu had been together for seven years. They were best friends. Although Han Jingyu had become more and more silent at that time, he was still being wronged. Sometimes hide behind him, or cry bitterly in his arms.At that time, Han Jingyu was so weak that he couldn't bear to hurt him.

At that time, Han Jingyu had been isolated like all the children from single-parent families, and he never knew how to flatter and subdue him. His face was swollen and swollen by the senior children, and his body was covered with bruises. Facing Shen Chen's Sometimes, I dare not say a word.Shen Chen was the closest person to him at that time, why couldn't he tell?

Shen Chen was a year older than him, and the two were in different classes, so they couldn't get in touch, so Shen Chen just regarded it as a small fight between the lower grades, until one day after school, Shen Chen who didn't wait for Han Jingyu went to him. I looked for him in class, and finally saw him at the door of the classroom.Han Jingyu has been like that since he was a child, he doesn't like to talk, and he always laughs as if he is provoking others, so it is quite normal for him to be beaten by a group of impulsive teenagers.

Han Jingyu still cried at that time, and always cried. He cried most when Shen Chen saw him, not to mention when Shen Chen couldn't see him.

Han Jingyu was grabbed by the hair, and a tall boy slapped him. The boy cursed, "You have such a pretty face, you will be a duck in the future?"

When he was a child, he was always hurt because of this face. When he was young, the boys liked him and bullied him desperately. When he grew up, the girls liked him, and the boys still bullied him.Apart from crying a bit ugly in front of Shen Chen, Han Jingyu was a bit stubborn in front of others, biting his lip tightly, the pain was so severe that his physical tears could not be stopped.

A group of people are bullying him.

At that time, Shen Chen only felt that violent rage suddenly surged in his heart, and his rationality was gone, so, in front of everyone, this top student who was always praised by teachers and liked by girls rushed forward like crazy , fighting, Shen Chen had never fought before today, so in order to protect that bamboo horse that can only cry, he used all kinds of indiscriminate tricks, kicking and biting desperately, and then a group of people were afraid of him , quietly retreated.

Han Jingyu was protected behind him, sitting on the ground and looking up at him.

A piece of Shen Chen's head was broken, and blood flowed down.

"Achen." Han Jingyu called him so affectionately, his heart ached.

Shen Chen's tense body finally relaxed. He turned his head to look at Han Jingyu, then stretched out his hand, showing a warm smile that everyone was very familiar with, "Don't cry."

In front of the unpleasant Han Jingyu, fighting seemed to be a common occurrence.Shen Chen, a good student who never fights, fought countless times because of Han Jingyu when he was 16 years old.His teachers didn't notice his abnormality, until a group of students cried and found the school, and the grown-ups were shocked to find that in this closed school, the good student they were proud of had turned into a bad boy who fought and fought .

But after all, those teachers were still thinking about Shen Chen's performance in the past. They couldn't bear to persuade him to dismiss him, so they found his mother. After a long talk, Shen Chen was temporarily sent back home.

His mother always insisted on not offending others, and her temperament was as gentle as water. Shen Chen had always admired that kind of character, and she didn't think there was anything wrong with it.

As soon as he came back that day, his mother got angry with him for the first time, made him kneel on the ground, and hit him on the back with that thick, thick triangle ruler.

"You said why didn't you study well and fought with others in school! Have you forgotten how I taught you? What should I do if you are like this—" At the end of the talk, his mother had already burst into tears, using Covering his face with his hands, he couldn't cry.

Shen Chen always had a pious respect for his mother who raised him independently. Seeing his mother's tears, he finally made a promise, "Mom, I will never fight again."

Without Shen Chen's protection, Han Jingyu is like a domestic kitten thrown into the wilderness. The days of being bullied in the past have returned, and those people bullied him even more because of Shen Chen's protection of him these days.

In the end, Shen Chen still gave up his promise to his mother.

He just felt uncomfortable seeing Han Jingyu being bullied. That time it was a few seniors, and it didn't matter how serious they were, because Han Jingyu was more outstanding than ordinary adolescent boys with acne, so many girls loved him. Look at him, no matter how unpleasant his personality is, he still has a face that girls like.Among the few senior boys, one was because of the girls.That girl is his girlfriend, but she always loves to watch Han Jingyu.

This useless and cowardly guy with nothing but a face.

The reason for the fight was so incomprehensible. Han Jingyu was pushed down the stairs on the second floor. He had injuries on his hands, face, and legs. He was lying on the ground with blood on his face.The senior boy who did it was afraid that he would die, so he came down to see him.Han Jingyu was lying on the ground, he couldn't stand up because of the pain.

From the friction between the two to the scene when Han Jingyu was pushed down the stairs, Shen Chen at the side could see clearly.Shen Chen always felt that he was the one who protected Han Jingyu when he grew up, so he had the obligation to love and protect him.

He forgot everything and rushed to fight with others.This time he went completely crazy, the blood on the ground stimulated his nerves, two of the four boys were hit by him on the ground with blood on their heads, and the boy who did it was pinched by the neck and pushed by Shen Chen at the end When he got to the window sill, Shen Chen really had the idea of ​​killing someone.Even he couldn't feel what he had done, his mind was full of chaotic anger at that time.

It's not uncommon to see bloody fights between boys, but this kind of killing is still rare. Shen Chen was pulled down by a group of people, and the boy who was strangled by him and was about to suffocate cried and dodged away.

Han Jingyu was also stunned by the beating. When he got up from the ground, he saw Shen Chen being pressed to the ground by a group of people. He thought it was because he was going to be beaten by a group of people. He didn't even care about the pain and blood all over his body. He rushed forward and pushed away the person holding Shen Chen's arm.

"Let him go! Let him go!" Han Jingyu yelled, crying.

Shen Chen, who had been struggling since being suppressed, became quiet because of Han Jingyu's approach. He raised his face very calmly, looked at Han Jingyu who was crying for him, and said helplessly, "Don't cry."

With just one sound, Han Jingyu burst into heart-piercing cries.

This time the fight was too serious, the school decided to abandon Shen Chen, an unstable bomb, and they had already decided to abandon this student.

Shen Chen dropped out of school.

His mother didn't hit him or scold him, but the tears in her eyes never stopped because Shen Chen was persuaded to leave.

At that time, Shen Chen thought, it's okay if he doesn't study.Then he thought of Han Jingyu, he cried so pitifully at that time, now that he knows about this, will he cry even more?

Shen Chen felt a little distressed again.

Shen Chen has a violent tendency, which was induced suddenly.Shen's mother took Shen Chen who suddenly became like this to check, the doctor said so.

People who are prone to violence have no other way to suppress this symptom unless they restrain themselves.

On the day when she got the diagnosis, Shen's mother cried very sadly. The two mother and son were walking on the street. Shen's mother held Shen Chen with one hand, without saying a word, tears flowed silently all the way.

Shen Chen is not a hard-hearted person, he always has a kind of natural dependence on his mother, and he only has deep guilt and self-blame for his mother's appearance.

Those later days were probably the most unforgettable for Shen Chen. The story of his vicious school fight was too far away, and no high school in that area was willing to accept him.One or two, both politely declined.

Shen Chen couldn't see his mother humiliating. When he went to another school with a not so good reputation, he said, "Mom, I don't study anymore."

His mother slapped him hard, and then big drops of tears oozed out, making Shen Chen at a loss what to do.

"What else can you do if you don't study? Your whole life will be ruined!"

Shen Chen suddenly lost the ability to speak.

What I got this time was still rejection. Shen Chen beat people too hard. One student even suffered a concussion. Even bad schools didn't dare to take him in. When facing another rejection, he kept looking out of the window. When Shen Chen heard the plop, his mother knelt down, with an expression Shen Chen had never seen before.

The headmaster looked embarrassed and wanted to leave.

Shen's mother tugged at his trouser legs, and lowered her head to knock down, "He is very good. If Ah Chen doesn't study, he will be ruined... He is still so young, I promise, I swear he won't cause trouble at school , let him study here."

The marble on the ground is covered with tears drop by drop.

After so many days of dropping out of school, Shen Chen cried for the first time, reaching out to help her up, "Mom—"

His mother slapped him backhand, "Don't talk!"

The final outcome is still rejection, obviously Shen Chen has been rejected so many times, Shen Chen should not care about it, but along the way, his heart is heavy because of that fucking kneeling.

After shutting herself up in her room for a few days, Mother Shen came in with an envelope.

Neither of them slept well during this time.

"You go to study abroad, the education there is better than ours." Shen's mother said.

Shen Chen especially wanted to ask, why did you let me go abroad?It is also possible to study in other provinces.Why do you have to go abroad?But he didn't ask in the end.His mother's tears had made it impossible for him to refuse.

That night, the light in his room was on all night.

His mother sat with him, with white hair on her temples, "You go abroad, you have to live well, and mother doesn't have much money for you."

Shen Chen's eyes were numb, his mind was full of chaotic thoughts.

"Mom taught you to be a human being and not to confront others." Shen's mother stroked his hair, "Achen, you have to be good, mom really..." In the end, there were tears again.

Shen Chen couldn't tell what was in his heart.

"Stop fighting, okay, make more friends, don't offend people, listen to what the teacher says, and do what others tell you to do? Did you hear that?"

Shen Chen didn't speak.

Shen's mother looked at Shen Chen with his head down, and felt very sad all of a sudden.

Shen Chen originally lowered his head, all he could think about was, what would Han Jingyu do if he went abroad?He must be bullied again... Without him, who would Han Jingyu cry when he was bullied? . . . that's all he can think of!

boom--

Shen Chen was startled by the voice, and when he looked up, he saw his mother kneeling down, "Mom!"

Shen's mother took his hand, "Just take it as me begging you, Ah Chen, just listen to mother, okay?"

That kind of prayer is the most sincere expectation of a loving mother for her child.

Shen Chen nodded, "En."

There is no one who can understand his children better than a mother. Whatever Shen Chen says since he was a child, he will definitely do it.Mother Shen patted his head, "Good boy."

"Mom, is reading really that important?"

Shen's mother was a little surprised that he would ask this question, but she nodded, "Study hard, and you will have a good future in the future."

Shen Chen nodded, "I see."

Shen Chen took these words as shackles and tied himself up layer by layer.

He is a good boy, so he can't get angry with anyone, he can't get angry, he has to be good, he has to be liked, he has to have many friends...that's what his mother expected, so he worked hard to put that The real self that was about to wake up was pressed back firmly, buried in the darkest and most untouchable place.

It was... what his mother expected.

There was a boy who was crying all the time, and the tears on his face seemed to have never been dry.That was Han Jingyu, from childhood to adulthood, his tears have been falling...

The bedside lamp dimmed.

Shen Chen who was lying on the bed suddenly opened his eyes and looked out of the window, the sky outside the window was still not bright, what appeared in his dream just now was from that previous life again.The previous life... can only be the previous life.He almost forgot.

Shen Chen pressed his eyes, turned over, and fell asleep again.

There was a little dampness on the pillow, which was hidden under the invisible neck by his turning over.