torture to the end

Han Jingyu hasn't been back for almost a month, and as expected, he hasn't called a single phone call from home, as if he was born to fend for himself.

Han Jingyu and Shen Chen have not been in touch for almost a week. Every time they meet at school, one of them will always choose to avoid it, which makes Han Jingyu very depressed.If he was a lovable child, then someone would naturally come to comfort him now, but unfortunately, he is violent and sensitive, and everyone sees him as a manic patient, let alone comfort him.

This is what he deserves.

It's been more than a week since He Wei went, and no one knew where he was going, so Han Jingyu just thought that this person disappeared from his sight.There is nothing wrong with living in a dormitory alone.

But he will be afraid of loneliness after all. During the long time when even Shen Chen chooses to avoid, he still wants to go home to gain some warmth from his family like a child.That dog was very close to him, and what he loved the most was chasing after him. When Han Jingyu took care of it, he turned over on his stomach, showing a look of seeking to be petted.On the day Han Jingyu returned home, he still didn't bring the dog with him. He put the bone biscuits in the cabinet next to the table so that the dog could eat them anytime.

Then he closed the door and left, the dog was clung to the door, barking pitifully.

Han Jingyu pretended not to hear, locked the door and left.His home is not very far away, but it is very remote. If he takes a bus, he has to transfer five times, and after getting off the bus for the fifth time, he has to walk for another half an hour to get there.But these are nothing. On the bus near the university, there are the most students. Those young and lovely female students come from various schools. They don't know what kind of person Han Jingyu is. They only see this boy with a very Handsome face, leaning against the window with a somewhat indifferent appearance, girls always like such boys.

Many girls who looked at him reluctantly got off the bus, because Han Jingyu's home was too far away. At the last stop, there were only three people on the bus, an elderly couple and Han Jingyu. They were very old, and they stood up tremblingly after the bus stopped for a long time. The old man wearing old-fashioned black cotton shoes helped his wife get off the bus. It is difficult to say the same.Standing behind them, Han Jingyu watched the old woman stretch out one foot and step on it tentatively. The person next to her supported her arm, as if she was afraid that she would fall.

The sky was getting dark, so dark that even the expression on Han Jingyu's face could not be seen, he took a step forward, grabbed the other arm of the old woman, and helped her out of the car.After getting off the car, before the couple had time to see his face clearly, Han Jingyu had already walked into the deep alley.

The sky was full of red clouds burned by the setting sun. When Han Jingyu walked to the door of the house, the big iron gate outside was still open. There was a western dining table in the window of the yard. On the western dining table was a thin-necked vase with with a fresh lily.That was never before.Standing at the door, Han Jingyu suddenly lost the courage to go in.

It's best if he doesn't come back.

When Han Jingyu was about to leave, he saw a girl walking to the western dining table. The girl was wearing a long white dress and her hair was tied loosely with a rubber band. She walked to the western dining table, holding a kettle in her hand. It seemed that someone was calling her, and she turned her head and said something with a smile.

Han Jingyu was stunned for a moment, and rushed in almost without thinking.

This is like a very quiet residence, the door is open, and the flowers in the flower pots outside are in flower buds, curling up their petals under the dismal sunset.There is still noise flying in the air.

The girl didn't seem to expect that someone would rush in from outside. She only heard the sound of the flower pot being kicked over, and then a boy in dark clothes rushed in. His eyes stared at her fiercely, as if staring at a person. Like outsiders who invade their own territory.

"You..." The girl was frightened by his fierce gaze, her hands and feet were a little cold.

Han Jingyu rushed up, the girl took a step back in fright, the glass jug in her hand fell to the ground, and the broken pieces splashed together with the water droplets.

"Jing Yu!" The woman standing on the stairs hurried down, fearing that Han Jingyu would go crazy at this moment, she tightly hugged Han Jingyu's waist to prevent him from taking a step forward.

Han Jingyu, who looked ferocious as if he was going to kill someone, was strangely appeased, maybe he wasn't appeased, he was just trying to restrain himself, "Mom... who is she?"

The woman who was asked was stunned for a moment, and Han Jingyu didn't struggle anymore, just lowered his head.

The girl looked at him with a pitiful look, so she said timidly, "Well, don't be so angry, I don't mean anything malicious, I'm here to visit Aunt Han's house...that's it." The girl's expression was a little bit Embarrassed, and somewhat unable to bear to mention my previous weak appearance, "Something happened to my family. Auntie Han has been giving me money to study all these years, so I want to spend more time with Auntie Han. After all...she is alone at home."

The arms around Han Jingyu were shaking.

The girl continued to say, "Your name is Aunt Han...Mom? Aunt Han." The girl's eyes fell on the face of the black woman with her lips biting, "He is—"

This question cannot be answered, and Han Jingyu has always wanted to ask this question, what is he in this family?But he still didn't wait any longer, he was afraid of the answer so he could only answer by himself, "I am the same as you."

Han Jingyu smiled slightly, and the almost burning light in his eyes dimmed.

The girl said 'oh', "Auntie Han is really worried when she is alone at home. So do you think I'm a thief?"

Han Jingyu gave an 'hmm'.

He broke free from the woman's wrapped arms, turned his head and curled his lips under the other's terrified gaze, "I'm sorry, Mom, I haven't been back for so long... That's why you miss me so much."

No one misses you at all.She's just afraid of you hurting another person.But he insisted on deceiving himself!

The woman also saw Han Jingyu's restraint at the moment, she didn't want to stay here, so she could only shirk and say, "Jingyu, you and Siya sit here for a while—I'll go, I'll cook. Hmm? "

Han Jingyu responded, "Okay."

The girl named Siya looked at the woman rushing to the kitchen in a hurry, and bumped into the chair next to the western dining table. She immediately smiled apologetically and explained, "Oh, it's because I saw it. So excited to see you all come.”

Siya also smiled, "Aunt Han, go get busy, I'll talk to him for a while."

Han Jingyu looked harmless at the moment, so Siya also ignored the deep panic and anxiety in Auntie Han's eyes.

"Sit down." Siya was as natural as greeting foreign guests in her own home.

Han Jingyu pulled out his chair and sat down.

Siya cleaned up the debris on the ground, then poured a glass of water and handed it to Han Jingyu.

Han Jingyu took the water glass, put it in the palms of both hands, stared at the water in a daze.

Siya is supposed to be a very lively girl, she looks really good when she smiles, it is genuinely innocent, different from those hypocritical smiles, "Are you still studying now?"

Han Jingyu was very quiet, even a little abnormally quiet, "Well, it's still there."

"Oh, no wonder I haven't seen you before."

Han Jingyu's breath paused, he raised his head, the shadows in his eyes were buried in the shadow cast by the setting sun, "How long have you been here?"

"Two years, right? I'm also studying, and I only come here during the holidays, but during this time, Auntie Han called me and asked me to accompany her..." Siya sighed and turned her head After taking a look, seeing Aunt Han who was still busy in the kitchen, she turned her head and said to Han Jingyu in a low voice, "Aunt Han is really miserable all by herself, her husband and son are both dead, it's so difficult to be alone and still help us to study .”

"The husband and... the son are dead."

"That's right, didn't Aunt Han tell you?" Siya was a little surprised.

Han Jingyu only felt that his chest was getting cold at this moment, and the coldness made him feel that his whole body was about to crack open, and blood was gurgling from the crack.

"Why do you call Aunt Han's mother?" Siya was still a little surprised.

Han Jingyu stared at the water glass in front of him, "Let's kiss this way."

"Oh, Auntie Han must be very kind to you." Siya smiled, and there was a bit of bitterness in that smile, "Auntie Han was also very kind to me. After my parents divorced, no one cared about me anymore. Auntie Han helped me pay for my studies.”

wow——

Han Jingyu stood up suddenly, and the sound of the chair being dragged back startled the woman who was still cutting vegetables in the kitchen. The woman was cutting vegetables absent-mindedly, when she heard the movement in the living room, she cut her finger in shock, but Even if she hurt her finger, she still yelled out immediately, "Jing Yu!"

So terrified, so fearful... Han Jingyu was forced to cry from his wide eyes.

"I'll go to the toilet."

Siya watched Han Jingyu enter the bathroom, closing the door lightly, and the lock cylinder snapped into place with a 'click'.

The bathroom is very dark, because it is adjacent to the opposite residential building, and no light can come through the closed windows. The light control switch in the bathroom is outside. Han Jingyu no longer wants to stand in a place that is too bright, so he stands at the door In the darkness, I looked at my unclear face in the mirror, and then reached out to touch my cheek. There was not a single tear on it, only the corners of my eyes were still slightly moist.

He thought that if he saw himself in the mirror, he must be very scary now.Like when he was called a monster when he was a kid.

He didn't know how long he stood in the bathroom, standing in such darkness, he didn't even dare to turn on the light, he was afraid, afraid of seeing his hideous face.

After a while, Siya came to knock on the door. She thought he was not feeling well, so she asked very considerately, "Are you not feeling well?"

Han Jingyu's voice was trembling, he tried his best to suppress his frightening side, "Well, I'm a little motion sick."

"Oh, I have some motion sickness medicine here." Siya said.

Han Jingyu opened the door and walked out. Siya only felt that the young man in front of her had her head down very low, the corners of her eyes were slightly red, and she looked pitiful.

Siya poured him a glass of warm water, and then handed him the medicine, "It will be better after drinking."

The two sat on the western dining table, Han Jingyu drank the medicine with his head raised.

Then there is silence.A talkative girl like Siya didn't know how to speak when she met Han Jingyu.She only felt that this young man had an aura of rejection all over his body, making it difficult for people to get close to him.

When the food was served, Siya, like the owner of the house, brought out the dishes one by one and put them on the table.

The unhappy woman wiped her hands on the apron and sat down.

The three of them were silent together, not like a family at all.

Siya was the first to react, "Aunt Han, why didn't you take the chopsticks?"

The woman quickly stood up, "Ah, I forgot, I'm getting older..."

Siya took a step faster than her, "I'll go, Aunt Han, you've been busy for a long time."

Siya entered the kitchen, and the atmosphere between the two became even weirder.The woman's heart seemed to be grasped and rubbed by a hand, which only made her panic and bored.

"Aunt Han, where did you put your chopsticks?" Siya in the kitchen suddenly asked.

The expression on the woman's face relaxed unconsciously, "It's not in the original place yet."

"Okay, I get it now."

so familiar.

Han Jingyu smiled lightly.

The woman's heart was tensed again because of that laughter. She looked at Han Jingyu and her expression at the moment, but Han Jingyu's face was so flat that there was no expression at all. At this moment, it seemed that you couldn't see his happiness or anger.

The chopsticks were taken out, and even the bowl was filled with rice. Siya sat down and took the lead to pick up the food for the woman.

Then Han Jingyu moved, and the woman quietly breathed a sigh of relief, and began to eat without taste.

Siya took a bite, and immediately frowned, as if acting like a baby, "Aunt Han, how much salt did you put? It's so salty——"

"Ah?" The woman was taken aback, took a sip by herself, then picked up the plate, "Then I'll pour it out."

Han Jingyu's chopsticks came in at this moment, and he took a bite, "It's delicious."

The woman put the plate down again.

"How is Mom's life recently?" Han Jingyu asked while eating, trying to integrate himself into it.

"It's okay." The woman replied thoughtfully.

Han Jingyu said without raising his head, "Mom is still the same card? I paid some money to go in, and Mom can buy whatever she wants. After all, Mom has always been two people."

The woman froze when she stretched out her chopsticks.

Siya didn't feel it at all, "Aren't you still studying? Reading is making money, it's amazing."

"College students are all part-time and part-study students. You don't rely on your mother alone, do you?" There were thorns in his words, and Siya's face turned pale all of a sudden.

The woman didn't want to see Siya being wronged, but she didn't dare to refute Han Jingyu, so she smoothed things over and said, "Jingyu, you are different from Siya, she is a girl."

At the end, Han Jingyu just said 'hmm'.

Siya felt that Han Jingyu was not easy to get along with, and she was not as warm as before. She sat with a woman, and from time to time the two of them would whisper a word or two. It seemed that they were really intimate like mother and daughter. Han Jingyu quietly Eating, as if isolated in another world.

Siya opened a bottle of wine and poured a glass for all three of them. The woman didn't have much capacity for alcohol, so she became slurred after drinking two glasses.There are some things that she can't say on weekdays, and she can't help saying them at this moment.

"Jing Yu."

Han Jingyu had already put down his chopsticks, he looked at the woman holding half a glass of wine, "Mom."

"Jingyu, when I picked you up in the hospital, you were still young, that damn Zhang Li told me to leave you alone, I insisted on bringing you back." The woman's hand holding the cup was trembling, the inside She had already drank half of the wine, and she felt her whole body trembling violently. She couldn't help but raised her head and drank all the wine in the glass again. Then she looked at Han Jingyu, "You were beautiful when you were young. I thought you were a girl, thinking about letting you marry my son in the future... how nice it is."

Si Ya was a little dazed.She didn't expect Han Jingyu to have such a background.

"At that time, I really treated you with all my heart and soul. The neighbors joked that you were my own..." The woman smiled first, and tears rolled down her blushing cheeks, "I Why did I keep you at that time? I never thought that such a beautiful child... actually. Haha, Jingyu."

She grabbed Han Jingyu's hands on the table, Han Jingyu's hands were beautiful, one by one, really like girls' hands, such hands should be on the black and white keys.

"Now that I think about it, you must have been thrown away on purpose...why didn't that bitch just throw you off the stairs and fell to your death...don't let me pick you up, if I didn't pick you up, I Son, my husband...will definitely not die yet!" The woman's expression was a little crazy, and the smell of alcohol was full of resentment, "At that time, the fortune teller said, I don't believe you are a disaster, so my husband Dead, my son is dead... They were all killed by you! It's all you..."

"Mom, am I not your son?"

"You? I picked you up! My son died a long time ago, you are a monster, you are crazy!" The woman stretched out her hand to pinch his neck, but Han Jingyu swung it away.

The woman was pushed and sat on the ground, and Siya watched Han Jingyu stand up in horror.

The tears in Han Jingyu's eyes fell drop by drop, his fist was clenched with blood, "...I know."

The tears came one after another, never stopping.

"It turns out that it would be best for me to die."

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PS: Han Jingyu has never killed or harmed anyone

So, the death of Aunt Han's husband and son really had nothing to do with him...