The years when I jumped in the yin and yang worlds repeatedly

Yu Siwen was still young, so he couldn't remember exactly how long he had died, but he knew that when he died, his elder brother Yu Siyuan was only in high school.

According to Yu Siwen, Yu Siyuan didn't like him since he was a child. Every time he wanted to play with Yu Siyuan, Yu Siyuan would impatiently let him go away.Yu Siyuan would be upset when his parents bought him something, and would always break his toys.

At home, the person Yu Siwen wants to be close to the most is Yu Siyuan, and the person Yu Siwen fears the most is also Yu Siyuan.

Yu Siwen's death was just a casual push from Yu Siyuan's daily impatience towards Yu Siwen, but they happened to be standing on the stairs at that time.The stairs in Yu's house were steep, and Yu Siwen fell down the stairs with that force, hitting the back of his head on the hard steps, and then rolled all the way down, never getting up.

"Brother didn't do it on purpose..."

Yu Siwen said in a low voice, he was still too young to understand what death meant, and he also complained to Yu Siyuan, but it was not serious, and said: "I was disobedient first and made my brother angry."

Hearing these words, the corners of Xun Lan's mouth curled into a straight line, his complexion was abnormally pale.

In summer, when the temperature is over 30, he only feels cold.

Qi Nian didn't know what Xun Lan heard, but he could only see that he was suffering, put his palm on Xun Lan's arm, and squeezed.

Xun Lan said: "I'm fine..."

He just remembered something bad.

Becoming a ghost and following people is always because there is something in my heart that I can't let go of.What Yu Siwen couldn't let go of was his long-standing doubt, why his brother hated him so much, even though his parents said that they were the closest relatives in the world.

Xun Lan didn't know how to comfort this little Douding, after all, he had been troubled by this problem for a long time.

Most people are not close by blood. If they live under the same roof for a long time, they will definitely become close to each other.

These words sound a bit esoteric to Yu Siwen, Xun Lan felt pity for Yu Siwen in his heart, and asked, "Do you have any other wishes?"

"I want others to know that I am my brother's younger brother, the child of my parents." Yu Siwen thought for a while, and said sadly, "My brother has always told others that his parents have only one child, but my parents don't explain it. Hide my photos and toys, they were all thrown away by my brother when they moved..."

"This may cause some trouble to your brother and the others." Xun Lan said.

Yu Siwen worried: "Will it become like me?"

"No..." Xun Lan said.

Yu Siwen showed a reassuring expression, "It's fine if I don't become like me. In fact, I'm still a little angry. Although my brother didn't push me downstairs on purpose, he kept telling his parents that I fell down by myself." , the teacher said that if you do something wrong, you will be punished, and my brother should do the same."

Xun Lan said: "Okay, brother Xun will help you."

The rest was almost over in the afternoon, and the guests continued to go out to record the program.

Seeing that Qi Nian was still enthusiastic, Yu Siyuan became less emotional when facing Xun Lan.Xun Lan didn't mind his indifference towards him, after all, his attitude towards Yu Siyuan was the same.

When going out, I met several children in the house playing on the road, and one of the children suddenly fell while running, just in front of Yu Siyuan.

As soon as the other guests moved, Yu Siyuan had already lifted the child up from the ground, gently patted the dust off his pants, then touched the child's head, and said with a smile, "Run slower, don't fall again."

The child smiled shyly and ran away with the other friends.

Yu Siwen said aggrievedly from the side: "My brother likes other children and doesn't like me."

Xun Lan said lightly, "Yu Siyuan, you like children very much."

Yu Siyuan glanced at Xun Lan in surprise, probably not expecting that Xun Lan would take the initiative to talk to him, he nodded with a smile: "Yes, I have liked children more since I was a child, and I always feel that it is a pity that my parents didn't give me any advice. I have a brother and sister."

Hearing what he said, Qi Nian couldn't help but glance at him.

Xun Lan had no expression on his face.

A few female guests who didn't know the inside story smiled, and He Yingzhen said, "Then you should be a good father in the future."

Yu Siyuan just smiled shyly, and glanced at Qi Nian.

This glance was noticed by Xun Lan, and Mei Feng frowned immediately.

In the afternoon, Xun Lan's task was to find teachers. There were four teachers in total: collecting dyes, making dyes, dyeing cloth, and making garments.

It took more than an hour to find the teacher, and then followed the first teacher to collect dyes without stopping. After the collection was almost done, the recording of the day was over.

On the second day, the guests learned how to make dyes with the second teacher in the morning, and learned how to dye cloth with the third teacher in the afternoon.

In the afternoon, Xun Lan took a wooden stick and stirred the cloth strips in the bar according to the teacher's instructions, so as to avoid uneven dyeing.

For sun protection, he wore long-sleeved trousers, but the sleeves were a little slippery, and they kept falling down after being picked up. Xun Lan picked them up again and again.

Qi Nian asked the staff for two short ropes, walked up to Xun Lan and said, "Give me your hand."

When the other guests looked up, they saw Xun Lan stop moving, and naturally passed his arm towards Qi Nian. Ren Qinian helped him roll up his sleeves again, and then tied the sleeves to his arms with a rope.

He Yingzhen and Li Man looked at each other, tacit understanding.

There was a fascinated smile on the corner of Jiang Yixue's mouth, and the movement of stirring the cloth was much more vigorous than before.

Only Yu Siyuan's eyes darkened.

The night in the village is cooler than in the city.

Sitting on the balcony on the second floor at night, you only need to turn on the fan to the smallest gear, and it will be cool enough.

Xun Lan didn't blow his hair after washing, and sat down on the deck chair on the balcony covered in steam. He rested his head on the edge of the chair, facing the direction where the wind came out. Looking up from this direction, he could just see the night sky outside the eaves.

Qi Nian was talking with other people downstairs, Xun Lan couldn't hear a few words, and Qi Nian's voice disappeared.

He probably came up, there was the sound of feet stepping on the wooden steps outside, the door was knocked twice, and Qi Nian called him from outside: "Lan Lan..."

Xun Lan lay there without moving, and responded, "Enter..."

Qi Nian came in with a stack of sliced ​​watermelons and put them on the small table beside Xun Lan, "Are you hungry?"

Xun Lan couldn't use a small fan to record programs during the day, and was almost dumbfounded by the heat. He had no appetite at night and only ate a little.

It was getting cooler now, and Xun Lan had some appetite, but he was lazy and didn't want to get up when he lay down, so he only raised one arm to eat watermelon with a fork.

Then, because he was eating while lying down, he choked on a mouthful of watermelon before he finished eating it, and he was embarrassed instead.

Xun Lan got up and coughed for a while.

Qi Nian patted him on the back, and suddenly said, "Lan Lan, are you upset because of Yu Siyuan?"

In the past two days, Xun Lan's mind was heavy and he was obviously in a bad mood.

Just when Xun Lan stopped coughing, he paused and said, "Not all of them, I just think of someone because of him."

Crumpled up the paper towel in his hand and threw it into the trash can next to him, Xun Lan said, "That man is my blood brother, and he hates me very much."

Xun Lan's older brother, Xun Cheng, is in poor health and suffers from heart disease. Since he was a child, he has been unable to run around freely. He is like a fragile glass doll, and is carefully cared for by adults.

Xun Lan was born when Xun Cheng was six years old. In fact, Xun Lan didn't know much about what happened before the age of five. He only knew that he was like Yu Siwen when he was a child. Dare to approach the mood.

Also like Yu Siyuan, every time he tried to approach him, Xun Cheng always showed an unbearable look, and his eyes coldly told him to go away.

At that time, Xun Lan was trembling around Xun Cheng, he was always thinking like Yu Siwen, why did my brother hate me so much, did I make him angry again?

Later Xun Lan understood that he was not angry with Xun Cheng, but that Xun Cheng had always hated him so much.I hate the way his parents put their eyes on him because of his birth. I hate a child who is also a parent, but he has a healthy body that can run, jump, play and laugh wantonly.

In Xun Cheng, what Xun Lan felt besides disgust was the ubiquitous cold violence.

When the two were alone, Xun Cheng would never talk to Xun Lan, nor would he respond to any of Xun Lan's topics.

Xun Cheng would also intentionally tear up his own books, lying to his parents that Xun Lan did it; Xun Lan's puppy smashes the toy car he bought with his own savings; he even gets sick every year on Xun Lan's birthday, tossing so much that everyone abandons Xun Lan and only revolves around him.

He also blamed Xun Lan for being too noisy for the occasional physical discomfort.

Xun Cheng regards Xun Lan as an outsider, constantly trying to expel him from this family and from his parents.

And what Xun Lan heard the most when he was a child was: brother is not in good health, Lan Lan, you have to be good, don't make noise.Occasionally when he gets emotional, his parents will tell him impatiently that his brother is enough for them to worry about, Xun Lan, can you understand something.

When Xun Lan finally couldn't take it any longer and started to confront Xun Cheng tit for tat, all he got was his parents scolding him to make him more sensible. My brother's body is already in that state, so why can't he let him be more.

Even if he and Xun Cheng were kidnapped by drug dealers back then, they asked to save Xun Cheng first, and he escaped death and was seriously injured and lay on the bed, they would only shed a few tears at the first time, and then circled around Xun Cheng again.

When he was depressed and hopeless due to temporary blindness, they would only come to the ward to see him for two or three days, and as long as Xun Cheng coughed, they would be so nervous that they would stay by the bedside.

Xun Lan finally realized that in the eyes of his parents, Xun Cheng was always the only one.

So after that time, Xun Lan was no longer so stubborn.He moved out of the house, stopped contacting those people, and learned things everywhere, learning like crazy, not allowing himself a little free time to think about those messy things, forcing himself to reconcile with the world.

And what if there is no reconciliation?Do you want to completely become a distorted person, and then be driven into a lunatic by those emotions?