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☆, two, 32 years old and 25 years old

August [-]th

I brought a box of lotus root noodles to visit you in the hospital. As soon as I walked in, I was told that I played the erhu by the school river every day in high school.

I am very upset.Nowadays, most people associate the erhu with beggars on the street, but they don't know that it is a purer musical instrument of the Chinese nation than the guzheng and pipa.It is the real national quintessence.

I didn't show any displeasure on my face, and I unpacked the lotus root powder while countering the statement.You stop it aloud: "No, I can't eat now." The voice is small and weak."If you want to get better soon, talk less," the statement said.

In order not to make you feel too bored, Chen and I will take turns telling you some interesting things.You will smile back at our words, but the smile will be very feeble.

I said: "I used to ask Chen Chen what hairstyle is the most handsome, and he actually said Mediterranean." Chen was not happy: "Pedantic old man, this kind of thing can still be remembered to this day." "Who are you talking about old man?"" Say you, old man Zhong.” So we started bickering, but in the end, we all looked at each other and laughed.

You also laughed with us, but unexpectedly coughed after laughing for a while.The statement stood up and patted you on the back while shooing me away.

I took another look at you when I was about to leave.

Why, you've coughed like this, and I still can't see a trace of pain in your eyes.

August 25

After you were hospitalized, Zhang Qi took over your position and became my editor, temporarily.

Today, Zhang Qi gave me the finished book of "Xiyuan" from the publishing house.The editor's name printed on the book is "Xia Han", not "Zhang Qi".

After all, your father is the major shareholder, and the publishing house has to do this.

Zhang Qi had no complaints, he said that it would be fine if he could get his salary.

September 26

Today is the day you are discharged from the hospital. I bought you a bunch of Vajra Bodhi from Lingyin Temple and gave you a lot of knowledge about it.

For example, this string of Buddha beads has a total of [-] beads, counting the main beads (Buddha head) [-].One hundred and eight beads represent one hundred and eight kinds of troubles in the world, implying the elimination of one hundred and eight kinds of troubles, and seeking peace of mind and body.

Bodhizi also has a name that is not well-known by people-Sapinzi.

I put on this string of Sapindus for you, and found that wrapping it three times is too loose, and it slips to the elbow when you lift your hand, but wrapping it four times is a little tight.After a serious illness, you really lost a lot of weight. This string of Sapindus chinensis is too tight for me to wrap it around three times.

When we were talking, you often laughed, very beautifully, but unfortunately your eyes were empty and lifeless.

I said to you, "I noticed that whether you were smiling or frowning angrily, there was no light in your eyes. Where did you hide your truest emotions?" You replied that you didn't know.

October [-]th

You are hospitalized again.This time, he willfully asked to work while sick, which made the publishing house in a dilemma.It is probably because of the fact that "Xi Yuan" is responsible for editing in the name that makes you worry about it.

October [-]

I stand out among many writers by relying on the "Shi Shu" series.

"Biography" is used to explain the writings of scriptures, while "Shu" is used to explain "Biography".Therefore, it is not my arrogance to name it "Shishu".

To put it simply, "History" explains the 24 histories in a storytelling style, which is easier to understand and caters to the taste of the public.But in fact, I didn't follow the 24 history completely.

24 History is not history, and 24 genealogy of surnames.

Compared with monarchs and ministers, I prefer to write about romantic talents, some scientists, and some small people.

In terms of time, I started writing from the Eastern Zhou Dynasty. As for which dynasty I will end with, it depends on my mood.

I started writing "Historical History" at the age of 21. Up to last year, in ten years, I have written a total of 23 books with more than 700 million words.Now there is only one book left, and the Eastern Jin dynasty is about to come to an end.The deadline for submissions is early November this year.Time is running out.Many people advised me to hand over the remaining manuscripts in order to reduce your burden.

I don't know why I don't want to pay.

October [-]

I brought a box of black rice cakes to visit you in the hospital.

You sit on the bed with pillows on your back.A small four-legged table is placed on the bed, and a laptop is placed on the small table.Your hands are still on the keyboard, but I fell asleep with my head tilted.

Chen Chen took the computer away from your hand, handed it to me, put away the small table, then supported you with one hand, and gently pulled away the pillow behind you with the other, and finally helped you lie down carefully, and gave you The quilt is tucked in.

I left before you woke up.

I saw it. On your hand without a needle, you are wearing the Sapindus that I gave you.

I suddenly remembered that a long time ago, I also took care of you as meticulously as I stated.

You had a lot of infusions at that time, and there were needle holes on both hands, and bruises formed around them.I use hot towels to compress your hands every day, but with little effect.

October 27

You sneaked out of the hospital and came directly to my house to urge the manuscript, which surprised me.

I can only go to the study and pretend to work hard.You followed in and sat behind me doing things with a laptop.About three hours later, I turned my head and found that you had fallen asleep leaning against the back of the chair.

I tried to put my laptop back in your briefcase, but it was full of medicine.

I tried to wake you up, but it didn't work because you were already unconscious.

I carried you on my back, Sapindus slipped from your wrist and fell to the ground with a crisp sound.

I was taken aback.

After regaining consciousness, he immediately grabbed Sapindus Sapindus and rushed out.

The lights in the emergency room came on.

I was sitting on a chair in the corridor of the hospital, holding the bunch of Sapinberry in my hand.

I looked up.

The fluorescent lights were so bright that I couldn't keep my eyes open.

At night, I sat by your bed, listening to the regular sound of the instrument, and looking at your pale face under the breathing mask.

I put on the string of Sapindus for you again.

Love is not causal, edge destined to death.

October 28

At noon, you wake up slowly.

November [-]th

Once you can barely sit up by yourself, you start working desperately again.

November 25

The Eastern Jin Dynasty chapter of "Historical Shu" is over.

After the work is done, you are completely relaxed and can feel relieved to get sick.Then the condition suddenly became serious.

November [-]

I brought the completed book of "Shishu" to see you.Your complexion has improved compared to before, but it is still tightly wrapped by the statement.

I handed the book to you, and couldn't help arguing with the statement.We used to be like this too, but the more noisy the relationship, the better.

You opened the book by yourself and smiled slightly.

Both me and the statement fell silent.

"What are you all looking at me for?"

December [-]

A university in Shanghai invited me to give a lecture. I planned to decline, but the publishing house said that I hadn’t shown my face to the public for a long time, and readers couldn’t feel that I had evaporated.

In this way, you can go with the editorial status.

You have just been discharged from the hospital, so it is not advisable to run around.I wanted to ask Zhang Qi to replace you, but seeing that you are very interested in this matter, I let you go.It's a big deal for me to worry more about your job of keeping warm.

December 31

The annual meeting of the publishing house is attended by all employees, executives and most of the writers. It is an important annual gathering.

Idlers like me go to join in the fun every year, and every year we can see your dad making his debut as a major shareholder.This year was special, Xia Yu also appeared.

Your father must have a special purpose for letting Xia Yu show up.I think it's probably your family's rules.

As the saying goes, wealth does not last for three generations, and the reason why the Xia family can prosper for generations is because of an unwritten rule:

Xia's eldest son is not eligible to inherit his father's property.All the wealth of the previous generation will be distributed to the youngest son and youngest daughter.As for the eldest sons, when they reach a certain age, they will be kicked out and start their own businesses outside. When their accumulated wealth exceeds that of their father, they can come back and become the next boss of the Xia family.A considerable number of eldest sons are unsuccessful, but they are also very rich.Among the successful eldest sons, Xia Yu was the youngest. Last year, when he was 30 years old, he completed this task.

Xia Yu is a successful businessman, his brilliance surpasses that of your father.So people gradually forget that your father was once an eldest son who did a good job.

Ten minutes after the banquet started, the highlight of the annual meeting came.

The publisher engraves the employee's name on the signature.The host will draw lots, and whoever is drawn will go on stage to sing a song or read a poem.Most of the editors are tone-deaf, and their poems are recited entirely by their expressions.So this part is very interesting.

This year's host is really lucky, the first one will draw you.In the end, it was your father who rescued him.Father Xia has already expressed his opinion, and it is not easy for you as a son to refuse, so you simply stepped on the stage openly.

"What a beautiful jasmine, what a beautiful jasmine"

This is a Jiangsu folk song that everyone is very familiar with.Singing from your mouth is not only good, but also refreshing.

"Fragrant and beautiful, full of branches, fragrant and sweet, everyone praises"

You have weak lungs and shortness of breath, you need to breathe more frequently, and the whole song is not very coherent.All the gorgeous highs are also underplayed by you with the lows.After all, the body does not allow it.However, your voice is beautiful, with your unique tenderness.

March [-]

The next deadline for "Shishu" is April. The deadline for "West Lake Rain" is also coming soon, in May.

"West Lake Rain" is a Danmei novel written by me under another pen name "Yancheng Yuntong".Named after the essay, my intention is also very obvious.

In fact, my first pot of gold was earned by writing Danmei. "Death" is Liangxiang's debut work, not my own.Over the years, I have been playing the two roles of Liangxiang and Yancheng Yuntong with my heart. Most people don't know that they are actually the same person.

After you spent the Spring Festival in Yiwu, you urged me to write the manuscript as soon as you came back, and I will tell you about "West Lake Rain".Yancheng Yuntong is my secret identity.It's just that there are no secrets between you and me.

March [-]

You came to press again.

This time, I don't intend to procrastinate.I gave you [-] characters first, and made an appointment with you to give the remaining [-] at the West Lake Tea House.

Finally, I don’t forget to remind you: “Why didn’t you wear Sapindus today?” “I lost it.”

I took out Sapindus chinensis and said, "You left me here a week ago." "I didn't take it down when I came to your place last time."

After two or three seconds of silence, I slowly said, "Wrapping it three times is still too loose, wrap it four times."

March [-]

In the teahouse, I pushed you a cup of jasmine tea, but you smiled lightly: "You still remember the annual meeting."

"I didn't mean to make fun of you. I just wondered why you chose this song and what special meaning does it have?" "It's not that complicated. Because I can only sing this song."

"Can't you even sing Little Star?" "No..."

"I've never met a person on Earth who can't sing Little Star." "I should be regarded as a true tone idiot. This "Jasmine Flower" was only learned after listening to my grandmother for nearly ten years."

"Unfortunately, this good voice was wasted." I changed the subject, "Don't you want to try it? Jasmine tea."

"No, just give me a glass of plain water."

June 25

"West Lake Rain" received a good response.My old readers have said that I used to write mostly about national hatred and family hatred, with heavy themes, but this time it seems to be civilian and life-oriented.The two male protagonists met and fell in love with each other in ordinary days, and then they will rely on each other in ordinary days.

The scene when the two male protagonists met for the first time is very similar to that time, the scene where you ran to the West Lake in the rain to press for the manuscript.

You hold the umbrella, turn around and look at me on the other side of the rain curtain.

At this moment, I also wrote it.

August [-]

In the afternoon, I brought a box of Yunpian Cake to the publishing house to find you, only to find that you were revising an appointment I had with a certain magazine with a fever.

After asking, I found out that, let alone taking medicine, you haven't even eaten.

You have always been stubborn, and you will not do other things until you finish editing this article.In desperation, I said to help change.

In fact, the mistakes in this article are all intentional, and it is not difficult to modify them.

After I finished, I said I would take you home, and you agreed.So I squatted down with my back to you.

"What are you doing?" "Back you"

"I think you are very dizzy, and you don't know that you are staggering when you walk." You thought about it for a while, and finally climbed onto my back.

I may have been confused by the scorching sun.When I came downstairs to your house, I realized that the key to your house was in your briefcase, and the briefcase was forgotten by me in the publishing house.

So I carried you to my home, and it was only when I got downstairs that I realized that the elevator was broken, and I lived on the fifteenth floor.

You are very light. I ran around with you on my back and climbed fifteen flights of stairs, but I was not very tired.

I remember when I was 15 years old in the Children's Hospital, I often went out for a walk with you on my back.

I asked, "How old are you?"

"eight years old"

"You should go heavier."

I put you on my bed, twisted a towel and wiped your face and body.You suddenly heard the notification tone of the text message, and after searching, you turned on your mobile phone.

It's a text from your father: "Happy birthday son."

Today is August [-]th, which is also my birthday.

From this point of view, although you and I are not the same year, we were born on the same day and month.

The author has something to say: Author: There are many plots that are similar to "Sapindus".There is no way, for the coherence of the plot, there are still many foreshadowing needs.Probably Chapter 8 (although I don't know when I will be able to write it), from there I will write their later stories_(:з)∠)_

☆, three, 33 years old, 26 years old

September [-]

There is only one day left before the deadline for the "Historical Book", and I left a sentence and ran to Yunnan for tourism-"I will leave tomorrow, so don't miss me. If you are waiting for me on the other side, just tell me your hotel and room. .” The name of the tour group and the itinerary are attached to the article, just to let you catch up.

In the past two years, I have thought a lot.Maybe it's not your dull eyes that make me angry, but your resigned attitude.

September [-]

It has not rained in Yunnan for more than a month.

But the day I first came, there was a heavy thunderstorm.The reason why you only caught up with my schedule today is probably because of the delay due to the thunderstorm.

When I saw you at the foot of Jade Dragon Snow Mountain, your face was pale and your lips were purple.I couldn't help frowning, worried in my heart, but still said in a teasing tone on my face: "I thought you would catch up on the first day. I didn't expect it to take so long. I really overestimated you."

"Where's the manuscript?" "I didn't write it." "Then go back with me and drive it out." "Why should I listen to you." "Because I'm your editor." "Don't be funny, I'm going to Climbing the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain, I bought the oxygen cylinders. What kind of book, I will write it when I am in the mood.”

"Is it interesting?" "What?" "Is it interesting to tease readers and me like this?! What do you think writing a book is doing? What do you think writing a book is for? Is it for fun? To write for yourself Play? Do you think it’s fun to drag the manuscript? Don’t you think it’s fun to play me around? Don’t you think it’s fun to disappoint readers? I’m not a fool, I know that two hundred thousand words is easy for you .But why do you have to make things so bad? What the hell are you thinking?!"

I smiled, and put my hands on your shoulders: "That's right." "What?" You have to learn to fight back against someone like me."

"What did you say..." Before you finished speaking, you began to cover your mouth and cough violently.

A pink liquid flowed from between the fingers and dripped on the snow-white fingers, which was shocking.

"Extreme dyspnea, profuse sweating, coughing, and a large amount of pink frothy sputum, it is acute high altitude pulmonary edema. The patient is in critical condition now, and we advise him to go to a large hospital in the city as soon as possible. Also, please You should be mentally prepared, the patient may not be able to be rescued."

The ambulance drove to the city hospital, and then doctors and nurses pushed you into the emergency room at a speed of [-] meters.The red light was on, and I stood motionless outside the door with the string of Sapindus chinensis.

September 21

You have been in the ICU for two days and have just been transferred to the general ward today.

The manuscript of "Shi Shu" has been handed over to Zhang Qi, and he will be busy with the rest. You just need to rest assured and recuperate.

September 28

I'm afraid you'll be bored while sick, so I'll talk to you to relieve your boredom.When talking about traveling, I said that your body is not suitable for going out, but you slowly said: "But I want to"

It is your simple and extravagant desire to swim between mountains and rivers with a healthy body.

October 21

Back to Hangzhou.

After this trip to the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain, I have decided not to do childish behaviors such as delaying manuscripts, and work with peace of mind without letting you worry about it.

After this time, I finally understand that whether your eyes are dull or your attitude is weak, these are far less important than your physical health.

October [-]

After several autumn rains, the temperature in Hangzhou dropped sharply.Probably because the illness in Yunnan was not fully recovered, you were blown by the cold north wind in Hangzhou, and fell ill again.

November [-]

This time, the illness was so fierce that even the statement was rare to put away the smile on the corner of his mouth.

The intermittent high fever makes you confused, and you can't separate dreams from reality.I was also wronged because of this, saying that I brought you dragon beard candy.This is probably what you dreamed about.

November [-]

I'm going to see you in the hospital.After saying a few words, I got up to pour water for you, but I heard a suppressed coughing sound from behind.As soon as I turned around, I saw you lying on the bed clutching your chest, sweating all over your head.Thinking of you always saying that you have tightness in your chest these two days, my heart skipped a beat.

I quickly rang the bell on the bedside.After a while, Chen led a group of nurses to break in.After briefly looking at the situation, he shouted to the nurse: "It's a primary pneumothorax, prepare for thoracentesis!"

"Please wait for the idlers to get out, we are going to give first aid to the patients."

I was blasted down the hallway.

November [-]

When I saw you again, you were lying in the ICU with full tubes.

Judging from your medical history, you had a pneumothorax in high school, and this time is considered a recurrence.So the statement says, you'd better get an operation.

After your father received the news from the publishing house, he transferred you to another hospital.

March [-]

You stood in front of my house dragging your suitcase, and smiled shyly: "Well... can I stay at your house for a while. I will pay the rent."

I leaned against the door with my arms crossed: "May I ask why?" "I told my father that I wanted to live a truly independent life and wanted to go out and rent a house by myself. Then he agreed, but I found out that The rent is too high…”

"I don't understand one thing. You were so sick last year. It's good that you didn't scare your father into a heart attack. Why is he so relieved to let you come out and be independent?" "Because I have a good tongue." "You Tell me the truth, did you escape?" "No!" "Then let me ask you, do you still go to work in the publishing house?" "Well, they said, it's the same when I work at home."

You are obviously an adult, and you can't even tell lies.However, since it is the fat meat delivered to the door, there is no reason not to want it.I took your box and said, "Come in"

I thought I'd have dinner at Old Wu's next door, but since you're here, I'll spend some money on the restaurant today.

That store is in the night market, which can only be found in old Hangzhou.I have been in Hangzhou for almost ten years, and I still know this kind of thing.The Dongpo pork in this shop is excellent, but it's a pity that you are not used to fatty meat, so you recommend it to me.

Generally speaking, I am in a good mood today. The only unpleasant thing is that I found "Death" when I was helping you pack your luggage.

I hate "Passing" because it's childish.Its naivety is that it is a time-travel novel.I didn't understand it at the time, but now I understand that there is no such thing as time travel in the world.It's over, it's over.

March [-]

Since I went out of the restaurant a few days ago, I have been ordering takeout to survive.You think this is not good, so you say you want to cook by yourself.

This surprised me. I always thought that you were an untouchable young master, but I didn't expect you to be able to do this kind of technical work.

However, after you put the dishes on the table, I began to regret it.

"I understand that you steamed the crucian carp. But why do you even have to steam the small green vegetables?" Xia Han said straightforwardly: "I am weak and have weak lungs, so I avoid oily smoke. Also, the small green vegetables are not steamed, I just steam them Take a little water. And, I have well-seasoned ones."

I took a bite of the fish: "It's tasteless at all." "That's because you eat too much of the usual heavy-tasting food. The taste buds are broken."

Maybe I will get used to it after eating for a long time——Facing this ascetic-like food, I comfort myself like this.

March [-]

Yancheng Yuntong's new work "Mountains in the Illusionary" has been completed.

This book is about the daily life of two immortals.The two spotless exiled immortals will also have the same distress as firewood, rice, oil and salt. There is a contrast and something to watch.More importantly, the relationship between the two ascetic gods has always been vague, which is very suitable for getting started with Danmei.I also put an epilogue to lure you to the bait—"Scented mist, surrounded by auspicious clouds, Penglai Xiandao."

You can't help but read this book, do you really think I don't know?

March 25

You have recently become obsessed with tea art and pestered me to teach you.To be honest, your posture is really well learned, but the tea is... really a waste of tea.You still prefer plain water.

April [-]th

You got up very early today and said you wanted to go out with me.

I went to the West Lake as usual, and used a small bucket to draw a little water from the West Lake, and then dipped a larger brush in the water to write on the floor tiles.

When you get tired from standing aside, you squat down, resting your chin on your hands to watch.

From here, I could just see the soft morning sun shining on Xia Han's flawless face.

The floor tiles in front of me have been filled with writing, so I moved my steps, and you stood up, but your face was pale and your eyes were dizzy because you stood up too hard.I helped you find a park chair and sit down.

While waiting for you to recover, I took a pen and wrote "By the West Lake" directly on the floor tiles at my feet.Only halfway through writing, you asked: "I don't understand what you drew."

After the sun had fully risen, the water disappeared and nothing was left.The floor tiles are as clean as they were before we came.

April [-]

Your cooking skills have improved a lot. Instead of always cooking bland dishes, you cook bland dishes in different ways.

And, I can see that you enjoy the cooking process, humming "Jasmine Flower" while cooking.

April [-]

I gradually discovered that when you eat, you eat very little food, but the rice in the bowl must be finished.Eating seems to be a task for you, just finish the meal, it doesn't matter whether you eat or not.

April [-]

The news of Xia Yu's marriage came suddenly.

At that time, I was practicing calligraphy in the study, and you were sitting on the recliner beside you reading a book.

Xia Yu got married at this time, and even invited you to the wedding, just to create an opportunity for you to reconcile with your father.

"Isn't your sister-in-law looking for it temporarily?" I walked to the recliner, looked into your eyes and squatted down. "No, my brother often takes her home."

We talked for a while, and to my disappointment, there was still no emotion in your eyes.

I got up and went back to my desk.He picked up the pen, but stopped it in the air: "When I first started learning calligraphy," he didn't look up, "my master forced me to practice the word 'love' for a month. I practiced desperately there every day. , writing hundreds of characters for 'love'. Until I got impatient with the practice, I ran to ask the master, "Can I practice another character?" After that, I still can't practice well. Master can only let it go." After speaking, he wrote a word on the paper.

"What then?"

"Come and take a look." I put down my pen, "I still can't write the word 'love' well."

April [-]

Xia Yu's wedding was grand, and you and your father successfully reconciled and returned to work in the publishing house.

April [-]

Since you were seriously ill last year, you need to go to the hospital for review frequently.

I will take you to the hospital today.The statement is teaching a child to sing "The Sea Laughs".I happened to bring a flute with me, so I played the accompaniment for them.

Before I left, I saw "The Passing" you put on the bedside table, and my face sank.

On the way home, you couldn't help asking me: "Are you angry?" "No." I paused, "Don't you think it's naive? "Passing""

"Huh? I think if I continue to write, it will definitely not be bad."

One word from you can easily change me.

April [-]