through those heavy years

At that time, I really couldn't understand the ways of the world, and I couldn't control my emotions.I don't know how much burden and harm my uncontrollable emotions will bring to my life.I am an autistic person since I was a child, and I have a serious concept of revenge in my mind.

I stood on a tall building, and these pictures were recalled in my mind. My head, which was originally chaotic and swollen, began to become a little clearer.It's just that my heart is as low as ever, so low that I can't feel any anger, how many years have passed, it is still the same as before.

Luo Feng said: "The contractor said he would deduct half a day's wages, do you think it's true?"

"Isn't it!" I said dumbly.The contractor's words have been spoken, so there is no reason to take them back.For example, he is stingy and harsh, and he looks like the kind of villain who can do what he says.

Luo Feng said: "It's just a scare, and it won't be deducted. He is a sensible person, and he knows that after wages are deducted, we people will fight him desperately. At that time, we will strike and cause trouble or slow down the work, and the loss will be even greater."

"Huh?!" I scratched my head, not knowing how to respond.This is a bit reasonable, but it seems that I slammed into it.No wonder the workers looked calm when they heard about wage deductions.It turned out that I was stupid and didn't hear it.However, if he didn't buckle up, why would he say such a thing? Isn't that slapping his own mouth?

Luo Feng continued: "Also, several times everyone asked you to invite you to dinner as a joke, but you are good enough to seriously agree, and politely drag them to eat, completely unaware that people are perfunctory when they talk, You can do it if you agree to it. How many times can you really eat it? I have deliberately reminded you several times for being stupid. You don’t understand oil and salt at all. Until now, I really believe that you don’t have anything! "

Wow, is this also a thing? !I was shocked.It's true, every time I want to invite Luo Feng to dinner, but Luo Feng won't come, they will ask them to eat.When I saw that they had spoken, I was sorry not to ask.People can have the cheek to ask for food, how can you refuse even more cheeky, although I can be invulnerable if I have a thick skin, but I am thick-skinned depending on the situation, and the meaning is different.

At the beginning, when I invited them to dinner, some of them would be embarrassed and politely excused a few words.Later, when I heard that there was food to eat, I left faster than me.Every five or six people, in a restaurant near the construction site, ate up my overtime pay for several days for one meal, and I was so distressed that I burst into tears.They ate a lot, and then praised me vigorously as a sensible, generous and rich person.I thought to myself that I am not a rich person, it's all because of your thick skins and rough faces!

Luo Feng pointed me behind the scenes for this matter several times, and once he directly told me not to treat me to dinner all the time.I was dumbfounded and couldn't understand, I thought Luo Feng was being stingy, so I didn't take it seriously.Listening to what he said now, thinking about it carefully, I fell into the trap several times without knowing the pain!

I was very angry, and the image of the workers suddenly fell from pure and kind to hypocritical and cunning.Of course, this only shows that I am too easy to fiddle with.

Looking at my expression, Luo Feng felt a little funny, and when he mentioned these things, he felt that he should tell me in more detail.He said: "This person is true and false, false and true. What is true is also false, and what is false is also true. Gradually, a set of subjective surfaces of hypocrisy and deceitfulness are derived to cover up the real greed and greed in the heart. Selfishness. That's why people are all pretentious, you can't be foolish and don't understand the appearance, and then suffer!

"Again, when it comes to inviting guests to dinner, everyone just booed and didn't ask you to really invite them. It's better for you to listen to it as a serious matter, and then invite them to go. Inviting them once or twice is to enhance the friendship between colleagues. There is nothing wrong with it. But I invite you every time. Don’t be silly, people won’t appreciate it. People think you are used to generosity and have money in your family. Or you are a fool who likes to treat guests to dinner. See how many times you have come down, have they invited you to eat? , Did you spend a penny on you? No, it’s not nice of you to spend money, and it’s a joke."

Oh shit!I couldn't help but to be rude.Don't be afraid of the light, but be afraid of the dark.I thought that the workers are much better than the rural people, but now it seems that they are almost the same.I don't want to talk to them anymore.

"It's so fake, a group of people with fake hearts and masks!"

Luo Feng burst out laughing, he stopped being angry, and said: "It's not fake, and it's not fake. As I said, it's a common feature of human beings. You will have it, I will have it, and everyone will have it. For example, when two people meet, I hated the other party in my heart, but because we didn't tear our face apart, and we still have to get along with each other in the future and interests are involved, we will pretend to be very polite on the surface. Well, after wearing the mask for a long time, I found out that I can't take it off anymore. Come down. You need to learn this to live in this society. The workers are innocent, and some jokes are just a reflex in life. If you take these jokes seriously, they will take them seriously Yes. If you don't take it seriously, it's just a joke, and no one will get angry or take it to heart.

"Because the foreman is the boss, he has to establish dignity in front of the employees, so even if it is a false statement, he must speak it out with confidence. A boss will speak up and know the truth, and he knows actuarial calculation best. When it is time to pay wages, he will not deduct Half a day's salary will only praise himself in front of you, making you feel that he has sold you a big favor. So what he said, it was used to scare, and secondly, it played a noble role. Afterwards, it was also ugly. In the front, if you dare to be late next time and get caught, maybe you will be detained. But it will not be detained randomly."

"Oh!" After saying this, I understood.No one has told me the truth yet, so I slowly lowered my head when I was told to listen.

I am a straightforward and serious person.I don't know if it's fake, it's fake, and there are so many beating around the bush.On the fake, I think I may have a long learning career, or even never learn.Fake is smooth, if you polish many "true" water chestnuts smooth in life, it will be fake!Fake is a profound knowledge!Speaking of fake, I'm not totally fake.When I was studying, I could pretend when I wanted to, and I could lie when I wanted to lie.During the class, I can always find all kinds of excuses to ask for leave, to deceive the teacher and grandma.But to get down to business, my kind of fake is not this fake, this fake is completely fake and real, and the fake is so square.My kind of falsehood is based on conditioned reflex, and I can't get up to the grade, I can't rank in the name, and I'm playing tricks.

Luo Feng said: "Buy some fruit tomorrow morning to apologize. I will accompany you to rest for a day."

"Well, okay!" I nodded in agreement.He said that he would take a rest with me for a day, and my mood suddenly soared into the sky.For the first time, he was willing to waste a day's wages just to accompany me.Then I thought of him working hard during the day, staying up most of the night, and coming to the small road just to wait for me.At this moment, I don't know how to describe my true feelings.The sweetness and happiness brought by these episodes suddenly made me feel that no matter how dangerous this sweetness and happiness are mixed, I am willing to give up everything for this night.

The moonlight is hazy, and fireflies are like elves flying around among the trees and grass.Walking side by side with him, I remembered that he seemed to be half a head taller than me when I first came, but now we are almost the same height.He put his right hand around my shoulder and his left took my arm.Even if you put aside the stars and the moon, the chirping of insects and frogs at night, and the fireflies go home, no matter how heavy the wind is and the rain is pouring, you will still feel warm.

Walking on the road, I still couldn't help asking him, "Luo Feng, how long have you been waiting for me?"

"It's only a few hours!" He said nonchalantly.

"Hey", I secretly smiled, and the world was full of joy.In this world, besides grandma, he is the second person who is willing to wait for me.

"Then why are you waiting for me in the middle of the night!"

Luo Feng said: "I'm afraid something will happen to you."

I said disdainfully: "What can happen to a big man!"

Luo Feng said: "Usually, he is dull and silent, and he always feels that he is the type of person who tends to go to extremes when encountering problems."

"Hey!" I stopped, I was just moved by his performance, now since he made a joke of me.I grabbed his head with my backhand, and he laughed and begged me for mercy.We chased and fought, not realizing that it was late at night.

Back in the dormitory, Luo Feng said: "I'll give you a meal, there's roast chicken, eat it!"

There was a strong warm current in my heart, and I said, "Thank you!"

Luo Feng said: "Fool, I still have to say thank you to my brother!"

I said, involuntarily, "Actually, if I didn't miss you, no matter whether I understand the reason or not, I really don't bother to apologize to the fat man!"

He laughed.Laughter is full of joy.Night, indistinctly blended into such laughter.

The next day, Luo Feng took me to the contractor to apologize.I brought a large bag of fruit and put it on the desk in his office. He was smoking a cigarette, with his fat legs up, and he looked completely ignorant.

I made a speech to admit my mistake, saying that you are an elder and I am a junior, no matter what, I should not disrespect you.And, you did not want to deduct our wages.I'm so stupid, I can't understand.Back off and offend you for disappointing me.But you are the most generous and fat, just treat me as a child who doesn't understand the truth, and ask for forgiveness once!

He snorted, then glanced up at me.Then he said a lot of words criticizing and scolding me, and then asked me to admit his mistakes sincerely in front of all the employees and apologize loudly before considering whether to forgive him.

I said yes, groveling enough.Then he talked a lot, about how noble and magnanimous he is, and he doesn't care about children.He also needs to explain that he is not unfilial, prostitution, looking for chickens, having mistresses, or raising mistresses.All of these are false and slanderous.I nodded and said, yes, the workers like to make up things, you are pure, noble, filial to your parents, respect the old and love the young.He nodded with satisfaction, and then asked me to work hard. If I was too lazy to hide, I'm sorry for his forgiveness this time (it really sold my favor).In short, he was so happy in the end that he forgave you after his anger faded away.