through those heavy years

He was walking, but suddenly stopped and looked back at me.I walked over and asked him what was wrong.He didn't speak, tears flowed out again, and then wept loudly.

I hugged him and comforted him: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, with Dad here, Dad will always protect you."

He cried for a long time, and finally put his head on my shoulder, sobbing constantly.As if tired, he didn't say anything.

I took him to have breakfast. He was so hungry that he ate a meat bun, a deep-fried dough stick, a bowl of soy milk, and bought a chicken leg, which he quickly ate.He ate happily and felt close to me, so he said softly, "Will you take me to find my mother?"

I smiled softly and said, "I will take you to see your mother."

He was very happy, and said he wanted potato chips.I said yes and bought him potato chips and a hamburger.

Zuo Wanyu's body was cremated and her ashes were kept in the funeral parlor.After a lot of hard work, I finally found a good relationship and got it out with the ticket.I hugged the urn and said to my son, "Mom is here."

He couldn't believe it and was about to cry again.I showed him the photo pasted on the urn and told him that my mother died and was cremated.This is my mother's ashes.

He continued to cry for a long time, blaming his mother, saying: "Mom, don't you want Lele, don't you want Lele?!"

Looking at her son's tears, I want to say that Zuo Wanyu is a great mother, and a great mother will be understood by her son for the rest of her life. She doesn't have to let me bury her identity as a woman, just like Wang Caixia said.

It was only a month later that he began to accept me.The days when we two father and son lived together were very prosperous.

After I came back from my hometown, I changed jobs in several restaurants one after another.Later, because I had some savings, I thought that I would always give others a part-time job without saying anything, and I still had no freedom, which was not a long-term advantage.After careful consideration, he decided to rent a shop and open a restaurant by himself.

Unexpectedly, my restaurant business became better and better, and finally opened several branches and hired many employees one after another.

I went to find Wang Caixia, since the last time we said goodbye, she hasn't done sex again.

Our relationship slowly eased, and finally we got married.We have been close to each other, so we will be firmly combined to build a strong family.There is no difference between us and a normal couple. We have communication and sex life, and we are complete.

The youngest son was pissed about not being able to compete for the pancakes in his elder brother's bowl. He took my hand and asked me to fight for him.I couldn't help but smile in my heart, but on the surface I still had to put on a half-serious and half-humorous look, looked at my youngest son and said, "Lele, you are already ten years old, and you still want to grab something from my brother's bowl. Brother now You are growing up, you need to eat more. You are always competing with your brother for strengths and weaknesses. If your brother is not tall, he has no strength to protect you. You must know that Dad did not let you Kong Rong give up pears. I'm tolerant, please help, are you okay?!"

Hearing what I said, the youngest son stuck out his tongue and made a face, which made me and the eldest son laugh.

After a while, Wang Caixia came.She had just returned from a facelift at the beauty shop, and her face suddenly looked much younger.She didn't like to do these hypocritical cosmetic techniques, but people said that a wife is the face of her husband, and she has to support her husband when she goes out, so she followed the crowd.In recent years, Wang Caixia has made great changes in her overall image, such as her clothing. She has gradually become noble and generous, elegant and calm, with a friendly smile.She is getting more refined and more intellectual.She loves her two sons very much, and she is also very caring and considerate to me.Many people are envious of the life of our family. I also feel unspeakable satisfaction and gratitude in my heart, and a happy smile appears on my face unconsciously.

"Xiaodong!" A familiar and friendly voice seemed to come to my ears after traveling through a long time.The whole body trembled as if a high-voltage current was swimming through it.The voice is more memorable than the appearance.Turning around slowly, it was indeed her.

She has long been a mother, holding a girl about eleven or twelve years old by her hand, who is as gentle and quiet as her, pure and pleasant.As always, she was dressed in a clean and fresh manner, with a noble and friendly temperament, just like a lotus flower blooming in a pond.In just over ten years, there were fine wrinkles at the corners of her eyes that could not escape.But the wrinkles on her face still have a unique charm.

"Teacher Zhou!" I called her teacher without emotion.Unexpectedly, after more than ten years, in the vast sea of ​​people, I could still meet Mr. Zhou.She is a warm part of my heart.

"Is it really you, Xiaodong!" Teacher Zhou approached me excitedly, and reached out to touch my face.

With tears pooling in my eyes, I couldn't help but nodded vigorously.

"Okay, okay, I feel at ease to see you again." Teacher Zhou cried, tears of joy sliding down her cheeks.Over the years, Teacher Zhou has always remembered me.And has been deeply concerned about me in my heart.

"Are you okay, Teacher Zhou!" At this moment, tears are mixed with warmth, we have deep emotions to vent, and tears have been waiting for several years.

"I'm fine, I'm fine, but you, you have experienced a lot." She wiped away her tears, with a smile on the corner of her eyes, and continued, "However, it's all in the past, so we won't talk about the past. Now, seeing you Live well, it is really good.”

We sat down in the private room and had a lot to talk about.I introduced my wife and children to Teacher Zhou.She looked at them with sincere admiration and admiration.Teacher Zhou told me briefly about how she married and had children, and finally moved to the city to work.She is a woman worthy of happiness, her husband loves her very much, and her daughter is also beautiful and sensible.

Teacher Zhou asked about my work, and I told her that I run several restaurants now.

Teacher Zhou was not surprised, just nodded with a smile, and said: "I once said that you will be a promising boy in the future. Sure enough, you did not disappoint your grandma, and you did not disappoint my vision. After going through hell, you will have the power to create heaven."

"Well, misfortune is the best university!" Tears flowed intermittently, my grandma, I did what you said - there will be a day when people in the village will look up.Grandma, thank you.

Teacher Zhou and I chatted for a long time, and finally we had to get up and say goodbye.I insisted on sending Teacher Zhou back, but Teacher Zhou said that her husband would come to pick her up.

Walking to the entrance of the restaurant, Teacher Zhou looked at the huge signboard above the restaurant——Zhou Xiaofang, turned to look at me, and said with a smile, "It has the same last name as me!"

I smiled and nodded, this is grandma's name.

Teacher Zhou is about to go far away, but her back is still so slender.I hastened to stop her.Said to her from a distance: "Mr. Zhou, thank you!"

Teacher Zhou looked back at me with a bright smile on his face.She said, "Xiaodong, you have matured."

"Yeah!" I nodded, because of you—the angels sent to me from heaven.Now, I can only say thank you to you. This thank you has been late for more than ten years and cannot be postponed any longer.

"Then, I don't think about it anymore." Teacher Zhou said happily.We all already have our own happiness.

My life is flashy, like a dream that walks on thin ice.Overcoming thorns and thorns along the way, the lingering thing is my eternal salvation!

Now, life is really peaceful, only the fat man, the vast crowd, without a trace, is my constant regret.

Luo Feng wrote it before he died, and asked Wang Caixia to give me a letter:

Xiaodong:

How are you doing these days?

I hate to say this, but now I have to.Maybe the power plant is separated, we can never see each other again, I miss you very much!

Neither of us had a good farewell, and the unhappy ending is the most regrettable thing in my life.But it's not my fault, it's all your fault for being an asshole.

Do you still remember the day when I was hospitalized for a month after I was injured by a smash?You work tirelessly every day, take good care of me, shed tears for me, get angry and sad for me, and worry about me like a monkey.

That is my most precious memory. Since then, I have regarded you as the third important person in my life in my heart.Because apart from my parents, no one has shed tears for me, and no one has ever been so anxious for me.From you, I deeply feel a kind of love that I have never had before.

You are very special and very lonely.When I was a child, I saw a kind of dead loneliness from you, as if you wanted to be independent from the world and not eat the smoke and fire of the world.You and I should have had similar childhood circumstances, but I can't live like you, keeping strangers close and suffocating.As a kid I thought it was cool, but as an adult I thought it was dangerous.People can't live their whole life independently from the world, they need to contact with the outside world, and they need to understand the principles of being a human being and the laws of survival.

I'm afraid you haven't been able to understand this.When we were working together, you were innocent, autistic, unwilling to talk to other people, and had an indifferent attitude towards everything.I am worried about you, so I try to enlighten you and take the initiative to chat with you.Slowly, I discovered that you are actually a very interesting person, a very smart person.It's not that you can't accept it, it's just that it's slower.Later, it was also confirmed that you love to talk, but unfortunately you only talk to me normally, and you suddenly become eloquent.

Ha ha, on the one hand, it is a good thing, but there are still many problems.You always have some factors that you can't let go of in your heart, and it is difficult to integrate into the outside world.You are also very irritable. Since you can kill when you get angry, you don't care about the consequences.

Then you did come close to killing someone.In fact, after that incident happened, I realized that the first thing I was afraid of was whether you would lose your life because of it.You don't know that you are no less important to me than I am to you.

It is a matter of life and death.I hope you will recognize the consequences no matter what you do in the future.

You know, when I came back to Murakami on the first day, I went to visit your grandma.Grandma is happier seeing me this time than when she saw me last time.She misses you so much and knows that I will bring her back news of her grandson, so she looks forward to it with excitement.I told my grandma that Xiaodong is very good, able to endure hardships, very smart and sensible.I believe it won't be long before he will come back to visit grandma.After listening to my words, grandma burst into tears of joy.The old man is looking forward to your return home and has prayed countless times in his heart.She has long since stopped blaming, and only misses you deeply.

And Xiaodong is not a heartless person.On the contrary, Xiaodong is the most affectionate.So I believe that Xiaodong has already gone home without reading my letter.I also hope that Xiaodong will be alone so that he can respect himself.

Finally, I would like to say that love may not be that important.We are people living in the real society, and we bear the sustenance and expectations of many relatives.We can't be too selfish, too capricious.We have to learn to choose to regress and learn to be family members.So I'm married, and you're going to get married too!

Luo Feng's own handwriting