through those heavy years

Sleep in the dormitory at night.This is the first time in my life that I live a collective life.Most of the old friends have met each other, but when they greeted me, I didn’t even give me a smile. Deep in my heart, I didn’t like being in contact with so many men, so I could only persuade and encourage myself to take it easy in the future. Habit.The old friends saw that my expression was a bit conflicted, but fortunately they didn't think too much, and their personality was quite straightforward, so they made a few jokes and let it go.It makes me feel that getting along is easier than I imagined.

The life of the workers is quite simple to say the least.They go to the construction site during the day, and play in the dormitory when they don't have to work overtime at night.It is a man's nature to love to play, and it is also a characteristic of most men to love to brag.Therefore, workers are often divided into two categories, one group gathers to play cards together, and the other group gathers around to drink a little wine, brag and gossip.What they like to talk about most is the contractor I went to interview when I was working.The contractor was a big fat man, with a gold necklace as thick as beans hanging around his neck. His facial features were sandwiched in the fat breasts, and he looked as round as a ball. He belonged to a non-human being as ugly as he wanted.He saw that I was thin and weak, and he was a little reluctant to accept it.It was Luo Feng who said a few good words from the sidelines and made a promise before slowly nodding in agreement.My first impression of the contractor, apart from being fat and ugly, is that he is rich.Everything related to character was later learned from the chats of the workers.This is the first time I have seen that when so many people gather together to talk about a person's badness, they can say that a person is so worthless, dirty, and extremely cheap.Even you are thinking, is this still a person, not as good as a beast!

I have to believe that some men's mouths are sometimes more powerful than women with vicious tongues.Although at first I had a relationship with the contractor, but my heart has already begun to hate him extremely.I feel that once I see him, it is a kind of desecration to the eyes!

Listening to people speak ill of others can also be tiresome to listen to too much.Fortunately, our dormitory has an elegant side compared to other dormitories, that is, those who love to play cards and brag have gone to other dormitories, and the remaining three or five are quietly reading.This seems to be a bit against the environment for those who work on the construction site, but the fact is that rude Chinese characters also have a knowledge-hungry side.I have no special desire for reading, and I don't repel too much!

Luo Feng is one of the reading team.After I finished drying the clothes at night, he was already lying on the bed with a book in a flesh-coloured cover, reading it with ecstasy.I stood in the middle of the dormitory and wanted to ask him what books he was reading, but I couldn't open my mouth.I was still curious, so I secretly looked at the cover to see what the title of the book was, but Luo Feng was so defensive that he blocked the title of the book with his fingers.

Luo Feng turned the pages of the book and found that I was looking at him.Immediately put down the book, smiled and said to me: "You're done, why don't you read some books. The nights without overtime work are long, and if you don't do anything, you'll be bored and flustered!"

"Yeah, this is spiritual food, it can replenish energy!" Lao Liu, who was sleeping on the opposite bunk, agreed. He is a middle-aged man who is nearly 50 years old. He wears glasses and looks elegant. For those who don't know, look at him I always feel that I am a university professor, and I don't think of it as a small worker who moves steel and concrete.

I heard that Lao Liu was born at an untimely time. During the first period, his family was a landlord, and he suffered a lot from the landlord's father since he was a child.At that time, he was 27 or [-] years old, and was forced by the Red Guards to parade along the street behind the landlord's father, wearing a tall hat, kneeling on cinder blocks, hanging a sign to apologize, and being humiliated by carrying a bucket of excrement and urine.He saw the Red Guards as if he saw the Japanese devils, so that there is still a shadow in his mind, and he would get nervous whenever he saw someone with a red nylon ring on his arm.Lao Liu himself is also a little nervous to us. When he is alone, he always talks about it, making it difficult for people to understand what he is saying.Lao Liu was [-] years old when China resumed the college entrance examination.It's a pity that he has been abandoned for more than ten years, and he has no energy to study, and his whole person has completely sunk.Now, reading is just one of his hobbies, as he said, it has become his spiritual food.

As Lao Liu spoke, he moved his hand and turned the pages of the book.I saw clearly that what Lao Liu was reading was Lu Xun's collection of essays "Crossing Blossoms in the Morning".I watched it later and couldn't tell what it tasted like.I feel that there is not much resonance in the soul, and it is boring, as if I have never seen it.

Luo Feng said: "I don't like reading books, but Uncle Liu insisted on letting me read them. I think it's better to just read. Anyway, it's better to be idle than to be bored."

He seemed to be speaking to me, trying to hide something.Old Liu spat, he seemed to like the younger generation to call him Uncle Liu, not Lao Liu, so he liked Luo Feng very much.

"You're smart, boy. If you can persist in reading the book, how can you get mixed up with us, what a pity!"

Hearing this, my heart skipped a beat, and my face turned slightly pale.Luo Feng was the same, he suppressed his smile and remained silent, his eyes were fixed on the book and seemed to be drifting into the distance in a daze.Uncle Liu knew that what he said was wrong, maybe because he thought that he was also a person who couldn't help himself, so he became worried.

In this silence, I know that Luo Feng and I have the same thoughts.This is an era that begins to rise steadily after the excitement, and passionate young people are struggling for their own destiny in school.We have reluctantly embarked on another path.

Not to mention how promising you will be after reading, but not finishing the book will be a regret in your life.Luo Feng must have failed to complete his studies for the same reasons as me.In his heart, he didn't know if he had any regrets.In my heart, I already knew that regrets are useless!

Accompanied by this melancholy, I couldn't fall asleep after ten o'clock in the evening.There are many thoughts and feelings in my heart.Looking at the old friends, it seems that the snores sounded one after another very early on.For a while, I felt that they were middle-aged, carefree, able to eat and sleep, which was a kind of happiness.

The night sky is shining with stars.Lying on the bed and opening your eyes, you can look out the window and see the sky.I like the brilliance of the night sky and the chirping of frogs and insects in the night.When I was in the countryside, looking at the twinkling stars in the sky and listening to the endless chirping in the wild, I felt that I was not alone or sad.Countless nights I stared at the night sky in a daze, and then tried to imagine my future.What will I be like in the future is always unrealistic. Only the future me knows the future.But I am sure that at some point in the future, I will leave my hometown, leave such night sky and voices, and live outside.When I was able to gain a foothold outside, I took my grandma to live with me, and then I thought I would never return to this village.Yes, I am not contradicting.I like the scenery of my hometown, the breath of my hometown, and the bright moon of my hometown.But I want to say that I don't like the people in my hometown and the rustic atmosphere of my hometown.They are short-sighted, bullying the good and fearing the evil, hypocritical and greedy, and stalking dogs.Let my days in my hometown be full of smog, and all that is left behind are memories that I can't bear to look back on.I even thought a little bit angrily, if I can earn a lot of money in the future, I will definitely not spend a penny on the construction of my hometown after returning home, even if it is building a road, building a temple, digging a pond, building As for the bridge, don't expect me to donate money for the convenience of these hometown people.Of course, having said that, I am not studying now, and people in my hometown will definitely not be successful if they see people who have not studied, so don’t think that you will earn a lot of money. At this moment, they are talking about you happily What about the accident, are you still thinking about getting rich and not donating money?Hehe, I felt a small smile because of my ignorance.

O melancholy sigh!Does reading and not reading really divide people into heaven and hell?I think as long as you are not stupid and have the spirit to endure hardships and stand hard work, in this society full of opportunities, you will not be too miserable.Every road leads to the number one scholar, and all roads lead to Rome. These sentences seen in textbooks more or less tell people that the college entrance examination is not the only green channel!

Of course, one can not study, but one cannot not study.Learning is the nutrition on the road of growth, and growth will become stronger day by day.

At that time, I always comforted myself like this, because I had a heart that did not dare to give up learning.

After thinking so much, the night is already very deep.The cool wind blows, and the gloomy mood is blown away with this wind.Suddenly, after working hard all day, I felt more pain all over my body as the night went on.At this time, the arms were too heavy to lift, and when the legs moved even slightly, it felt like thousands of ants were biting.It was really the first time I experienced the pain of soreness and swelling of limbs under heavy work.Thinking that tomorrow will still be the same workload as before, I don't know if my body can handle it, and I don't know when my body will be able to get used to such heavy work.

Discomfort made me brace myself.The double bed on the upper and lower bunks shook slightly, accompanied by the sound of metal rubbing against each other, which was still ear-piercing amidst the vast snoring.

I moved my neck and rubbed my legs.Luo Feng's voice suddenly came from the lower bunk, which startled me slightly.

"Can't you sleep? Why did you sigh just now?"

It turned out that he hadn't fallen asleep, and I didn't know how to interface.

"I'm not used to the loud snoring, and my body is sore and swollen, so I can't sleep!"

He said directly, with a strong concern in his voice.

He is used to my silence, and by the moonlight, he got up wearing a pair of briefs to pour water from a thermos bottle, then took out a red towel from his bag, rubbed it in hot water and wrung it dry.Walked over, resting his arm on my bed, with the other hand holding the towel in the gesture of handing it to me.The eyes are full of concern, and the corners of the mouth are a little mischievous.

I was stunned, I just felt that the picture was full of beauty.His profile was beautiful and dazzling under the moonlight, as if he wanted to make an angel's light shine in the dark night.I was touched by his tenderness and felt that my heart of perennial iron and stone was about to melt.So much so that such a night is so unique that it will never be forgotten.

Luo Feng said: "Here, apply a hot towel to your legs, it can relieve the soreness."

I took the towel by hand, and he continued: "When I first came here, I was younger than you. On the first day I pulled a car to work, it was still raining heavily. I was pulling the car in the heavy rain, and unfortunately The rear wheels got stuck in the mud and couldn’t be pulled out. At that time, the car was full of oxygen tanks. I couldn’t leave them on the road. Oxygen tanks were carried to the third floor one by one. You must know that the road was slippery in the heavy rain, and I was thin at the time, not as strong as my arms now. And the place where the car crashed was not less than one kilometer from the third floor of the power plant. I To move a truck full of oxygen tanks up there, it’s lucky that I didn’t fall down on the road, and at the end of the day, I won’t be dead or half disabled.”

He spoke calmly, but I was dumbfounded when I heard it.I know the weight of the oxygen tanks, and carrying them up to the third floor in the rain is a heart-wrenching exhaustion.Hearing what he said, it was as if he was actually there, and his whole body ached gradually and deeply.

Looking at him, his expression was difficult to calm down, and he couldn't help asking: "Is there no one to help, what happened next?"

"Haha, you're talking, your voice is nice, why don't you like to talk!" Seeing that I was willing to speak, he became happy and joked mischievously.I'm a little embarrassed, we're talking about his days of suffering, but he pays attention to whether I can talk.It is true that suffering often passes by us, and we have learned not to be afraid to face suffering, and let all suffering become a distant scenery, not to hold on to it.

He said relaxedly: "In rainy weather, other workers are unwilling to work and rest in the dormitory. But I am different. I paid all the money I had left on my body for the fare, and I borrowed the money to buy toothpaste and toothbrushes. So more than 30 yuan is precious to me, even if I risk my life, I will not let it go. But the next day I really caught a cold, headache, dizziness, nausea, waist and knee weakness, compared to you, maybe I also feel uncomfortable several times. But I really don’t want my life. I can’t stand up and I have to go to work. I gritted my teeth to make myself look normal. I worked hard to complete the day’s workload. They really didn’t see that I was a sick person at all, and even broke out in sweat all day, and the cold was cured on the contrary!”

After he finished speaking, he opened his mouth and smiled, and the moonlight shining beautifully on his face was extraordinarily soft, and he also felt very kind.This is the second day I met Luo Feng, and he showed his deep care and love for me.Let my frozen heart completely melt and feel the warmth.The words he spoke to me from the bottom of his heart have a particularly deep meaning in my heart.It makes me feel that there is no harmony between me and him.That's what I am, an emotional extremist.Often to recognize a person is to be treated as a close relative.

Suddenly very willing to want to talk to him more.It's just that he saw that it was not early and thought I was tired, so he smiled and said go to bed early.Then he yawned shirtless and lay back on his bed.

"Well, have a good dream!" I said softly, his steady breathing came from under the bed, our bodies are indeed exhausted!

Tonight's night is particularly bright, and the misty white light shines on my heart, which is very clear.Grandma, everything is fine with me.With a slight smile, the wind blows across his face, and at some point, he falls into a deep sleep!

The next day, the legs that had been wrapped with hot towels were not as sore and swollen as they were at night.Walking on the way to work, my mental outlook is active and healthy. Yesterday's fatigue has become more and more hard and unyielding.Calm down, what I want to think about is to earn my daily wages so that I can buy some warm clothes for my grandma in my hometown, plaster for knee arthritis, and some delicious food that I have never seen in my hometown. food.

Grandma and money have the same burden and emotion for me.Just like eating and chewing, it has become my mission to blend together naturally since childhood.Being able to buy things for grandma with the money I earned with my own hands is the happiest thing in my life for me.But for grandma, in her lifelong expectation, it is her greatest joy to be admitted to university and return home with good clothes.She doesn't need any material filial piety, as long as she can see me grow into a talent.But in her eyes, if you don't pass the college entrance examination and don't go to university, you don't become a talent.So I let her life's expectations come to naught, and no matter what I did, it didn't help.

However, unable to turn back, the matter is a foregone conclusion.The pain that doesn't help, let time heal the scars.And I want to accept it with a calm attitude, devote myself to a new life with a positive and healthy side, and start a new journey.

After the first day, I felt like I did it.Because of Luo Feng, in a strange place, I felt a new life, a sense of freedom and joy.Thank you for your love, there is always no vacancy in my heart.And because of love, I have never dared to lose the joy of life!