through those heavy years

From the parents of my brother in the same village, I got the phone number where I can contact him.On the streets of the city, facing the public phone in the public kiosk, I was an idiot for a long time, and after asking someone else stupidly, I boldly stuffed a one-yuan coin, and pressed the number in a strange way and dialed it.After several people took over, they finally found him.Secretly frightened in my heart, the phone call is really difficult to handle.When he received my call, he could hear the surprise in his tone.Fortunately, he didn't reject me, and didn't ask too much. He told me the address without hesitation, and took the trouble to point out where there is a bus in the city that can go directly to the destination. For the last train, you can rest in the waiting hall of the railway station, free of charge.

He was a very earnest man, and his voice sounded particularly mellow and reliable.I feel that I have found the right person, and I feel more at ease in my heart, and I believe that when I get along with each other in the future, I will not fight at every turn.I clearly know that my hands and feet are not very obedient, so I tell myself that if I need to ask others for help, I have to restrain my edge (with such awareness, I feel that I am not a child anymore and can integrate into society).

According to his description, he quickly found the bus to his work place.I didn’t have time to appreciate more of the city’s features (for fear of missing the last bus), so I turned left and right for a bumpy journey before getting off at an inaccessible place.It turned out that he worked on a construction site in the suburbs, and the daily work he did was moving steel bars, chain hoists, doing odd jobs, and other small and labor-intensive small jobs.It costs more than 900 yuan a day, including food and housing, and the monthly payment.If it rains, or encounters special circumstances, resulting in no work for a day, then there will be no wages for that day.So it means that more than [-] yuan a month needs to be done on the construction site every day to get enough.If there is an evening shift, after working hard, the monthly salary may be able to exceed [-].

I am used to hard work in the countryside, and I never feel that there is anything more tiring than farm work.Sweat gushes out from every pore of the body like spring water.At the end of the day, my shoulders are bruised and my waist and legs are sore.Standing up straight suddenly, the brain lacks oxygen, like the sun dazzles the eyes, and there is a momentary darkness in front of my eyes.Pat your head and shake your head to see the light.

Hearing people talk about earning more than 900 yuan a month, but sending 900 to [-] yuan home to repair and build a house in four years, what a glorious and passionate thing.But the more than [-] yuan per month was obtained with a mixture of blood and sweat, so I felt that no matter how glorious and passionate I was, I would be numb.

Of course, it's not that you have to complain at the beginning, and it's not that you can't suffer.We are from the countryside, and we are not afraid of hardships or hardships.Here I just want to explain that people who work outside to earn money are not as glamorous as they have heard, and how much suffering they have suffered in it can only be experienced by those who come out and try it.So reading is even more important.

After the first day of work, I felt exhausted and shaky on the road.When it was time for dinner, my stomach was already so hungry that my chest was pressed against my back.In front of the simple tin house canteen on the construction site, there were lined up with unkempt and sweaty workers.Those who got their meals ahead of time sat on the side of the mound, gobbling it up like a war, as if they were afraid that others would snatch it away.Those who were still in the queue looked up from time to time to count how many people were in front of them, and the cooing sounds in their stomachs joined together to play a natural symphony.Finally it was my turn, and I was really hungry. When I was hungry, I was shocked by the large amount of food I had. I didn't expect that I ate two bowls that day.Sure enough, the physical exertion of heavy work is huge.

My brother from the same village patted me on the shoulder.Forgot to introduce, his name is Luo Feng, he came out to work hard at the age of 17, and now he is 21 years old.On the day I got off the bus, it was less than 05:30. I was surprised that he would walk two kilometers and come to the side of the road to meet me. Although we are in the same village, but without any communication or even complete strangers, he Being able to put down the work at hand and come out to pick me up, I feel very touched and appreciated in my heart, and I decided that if he feels bad about hitting me one day, he will never fight back.

When I saw him, I didn't recognize him at first sight, until he waved to me, I was stunned and smiled at him blankly.In my memory, his youthful appearance is very vague, he seems to be very handsome, and at the same time he feels a little naive.I haven't seen him for four years, and the years of growing up have made him look like an adult now.The body is thin, tall and strong, full of strength.A pair of eyes gleamed black, like bright stars inlaid in the night sky.The facial features are clear and tough, and the face is handsome and resolute.The skin is slightly darker, showing maturity and masculine charm.He is indeed outstanding, and like his voice, it feels solid and friendly.I just subconsciously think about how such a sunny, handsome and outstanding person can do a small job in a dusty corner of the city.But presumably fate itself is not determined by appearance, so there is nothing to discuss.On the contrary, I thought that being able to work with such a person to earn money in the future should be a non-boring and joyful thing, and I couldn't help feeling kinder in my heart.

I fell in love with Luo Feng at first sight, and right now he is looking at me with a bright smile on his face.I have never seen such a smiling face, and once I saw it, I couldn't forget it.Because it is so dazzling and shining.His eyes were full of concern and he asked how my day was going.I smiled at him, thinking it was no big deal, I was still young even if I was a little bit tired.What's more, I come from the countryside, my body has been tempered for a long time, and I basically accept the hard and tiring work without any burden!

His thick palm then patted me on the shoulder, his smile still bright.He said, "Are you still not very talkative?"

kindness? !I was surprised by his question, except that he didn't say a word when he picked me up to the construction site and dormitory after getting off the car, and basically had no time to contact him.I don't think that half an hour of getting along will make him think that I still don't like to talk.So I looked at him unexpectedly, and secretly speculated in my heart.

He was still smiling, showing his white teeth, and said teasingly, "When I was young, I heard people from Murakami say that you are a loner and don't deal with anyone. I wonder if there has been any change over the years?"

I replied with a smile, thinking it was the only reason.Those people in the village can't escape their big mouths about any trivial matter.But I really don't like to talk (disclaimer, I don't want to be humble).I grew up without a single friend.People in the village called me, and they walked over without paying attention (of course, no one dared to call me, except for meeting my grandma on the road).When I was in elementary school, the teacher asked me to answer questions, stood up, and looked at the teacher like a dumb person.The teacher said no, I kept silent.The teacher asked if he was uncomfortable, but he remained silent.The teacher is impatient, and if I don't speak, I'm going to hit him, so I just keep silent.Then a loud slap was slapped on the face, still silent (if the teacher slaps again, I will fight with him when I grow up a little bit. But I didn’t grow up a bit, and once I couldn’t hold back went crazy).In the last five years of elementary school, for two years, my classmates and teachers didn't see me speak, and they even thought I was really dumb.Of course, I will speak later, but all of them are "dirty".

"Why don't you like to talk, you can't be..." Luo Feng also had a little guess about this, but he knew I wasn't, so he was a little embarrassed.I knew he just wanted to say, you can't be a big tongue, so he didn't dare to speak.I want to declare that my tongue is very good, and the sounds I make are perfectly round.Before going out, he quarreled with grandma in authentic native dialect with a loud voice, and every word he spoke was sharp and piercing.

I am not talkative because of my environment (swearing should not be classified as talkative, right?!).It's like developing a habit in your body.Like a person who has been tired all year round, if he suddenly starts talking seriously, he will definitely be physically overwhelmed, and he will be pampered.So I don't like to talk, I just don't want to talk.I don't want to talk to strangers, I don't want to talk to hypocritical people, and I don't want to talk to people I hate.My reluctance to talk affects making friends.Of course, no one is willing to make friends with me. Even if there are one or two people who want to become friends with me, if I am willing to speak, the words will get stuck in my throat for a while, and I will not be able to do it. Enough expressions to react, leading to a bad break up.However, it is not hopeless.When the contact time between the two is longer, I will naturally answer a sentence or two.Although it is not a valuable thing to hope that someone like me will answer, but it is more comfortable than cursing someone as soon as I open my mouth.

Luo Feng seemed to have changed a lot.Follow him all the way to the construction site and even the dormitory, and you can always meet some old and young people who greet him cordially.His bright smile hangs on his face from time to time, which is pleasing to the eye.He also became fond of joking, talking about dirty jokes, without blushing, not shy, and with a hearty demeanor of a big man.It feels like a kind of maturity, like the ears of wheat harvested in autumn, exuding golden light, which is impressive.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he was a little embarrassed, and still smiled and said: "I don't like talking too much. An idiom is 'disaster comes from the mouth'. It can be seen that talking too much is not good. But sometimes talking can also relieve emotions. , It makes people feel happy, and it can be seen that you can’t stop talking. There are rules and regulations in speaking. I don’t know where I read it, but I think it makes sense. The elders in the family also said that you must speak carefully, and you can’t just say what you want , Then it’s no different from a mad dog barking. This speed is a rule, as long as people learn to grasp the speed, talking will become a fun thing, don’t you think?”

Hearing this, I nodded approvingly.When I was studying, a teacher also told me about talking. She said that talking is a wonderful thing, and people who can talk are needed in this society.It's just that she couldn't talk about the degree of certainty like Luo Feng did.

I smiled, trying to appear as relaxed and cheerful as possible.I know what Luo Feng meant by saying this, trying to comfort me a bit.He knew that I was studying in the town middle school, and that I came to this city suddenly to look for him two months before the college entrance examination. There must have been some changes in my life.Fortunately, he didn't ask any more questions, but instead came to comfort me, which made me feel more fond of him.

There are many changes in a person's life.These unexpected things can always suppress people out of breath.But the pain is gone, the past is gone, and now we are facing a new environment, we have to have a new start.I believe that I can hold back the haze of the past and start to raise my eyebrows and laugh.Because when facing Luo Feng, the mood will be unconsciously relaxed, which should be an unexpected gain.I take this as a good sign.

Luo Feng stroked my hair, with a never-fading smile on his face, he said: "Okay, take your time, it will get better and you will get used to it. Although I am a little thin now, it won't take long , will become thick and strong."

Needless to say.Considering the amount of food for dinner, it is inevitable to grow strong.And for the future life, there is no discomfort at present.Because I am lucky to meet such a caring big brother, no matter how strange the place is, it seems to be full of warmth.It's just that I didn't expect that I could recognize and quickly accept someone in my heart, and I was even eager to accept someone.