through those heavy years

Just after dawn, grandma was sitting in the main room of the uncle's house begging for money.My uncle’s house is located above the back door of my house (when they built their house, my parents gave them thousands of dollars, and never said they would pay it back), I stood up from the bed, and through the corner of the window, I could see The scene in their main room was clearly seen.Because I have always hated them, so in order not to get up early in the morning and see their disgusting figures affect my mood, I used incense burning yellow paper to paste the windows one by one.Now, tearing off a corner of the yellow paper, grandma sat there silently, like an orphan who had been left behind by time for a long time.

I got up and went to my uncle's house.After yesterday's incident, this time I won't say anything willful in front of grandma.I just want to be with grandma, despite being ridiculed, despite being ridiculed, just be with grandma.

The sun had already risen to the top of the tree, and my uncle and aunt came out of the room with fluffy hair, and saw grandma and me with disgusted expressions on their faces.This is a lazy and fussy woman, she speaks indiscriminately, and the cowardly uncle is very afraid of her.In the past, my uncle was not such a person who did not recognize his relatives. Since he married his uncle and aunt, his nature has been completely exposed, and it has become worse.

The uncle and aunt looked at me and said impatiently: "Get up, don't sit there, the chair you just cleaned."

With a wary look, grandma pulled me to her side, and wrapped her arms around me.I am not afraid of uncles and aunts at all, and in my eyes, there is no one who is afraid.I glared at my uncle and aunt, she agitated the muscles on her cheeks and chuckled lightly.

Grandma said: "The child's parents left early. You are the closest people to him in the world. Now that school is starting, you have the responsibility to bear some tuition fees for him!"

Hearing this, the uncle and aunt spoke contemptuously in a high-pitched voice, "Mom, I'm not talking about you. You take your son too seriously. Your son goes out to work and is so tired that he can't straighten up every day. I haven’t come back for breakfast yet. First, he needs to provide you with three meals a day, and second, he has to support our family of four. Every day, we don’t have enough to eat and wear warm clothes, and we have to tighten our belts to live. How can you say that there is no money left for others? Go to school. I said Mom, the palms and backs of the hands are full of flesh, I have never seen such a eccentric mother like you. There is only one son left, do you want to die and be buried with him!"

Grandma died of three children, and she was most afraid of hearing the word Kesi.People in the village said that she has a strong yang energy and a hard life, and that she is a long-lived person, and she will continue to kill other relatives when she lives in this world, and even her grandfather left so early.They said that my life is also hard, and the combination of the two of them is so evil that it may bring disaster to the village.I don't know on what basis this is imposed on people, and I didn't see where the evil spirit rushed to the sky.Originally, he hated the people in the village to the core, but now he is still chewing his tongue in a mess, and his heart is sobbing with hatred.Grandma believed it.When she cried, she would speak in the same tone as the villagers, saying that her fate was hard and that she had killed her relatives.She said she would go down to eighteen levels of hell to atone for her sins.She burns some yellow paper every day, chanting scriptures and praying.

Tears welled up in her eyes, and she caressed my face with dry hands.I patted her on the back to comfort her, and grandma's sad eyes were full of disgust for herself.

Grandma choked up and said, "Help!"

The uncle and aunt said angrily: "Mom, you come to me every day, crying and crying, helping and helping! If we don't help, in the eyes of the neighbors in the village, it seems that your son and I are ungrateful people." Actually, you don’t know, your grandson, Wang Xiaodong, is the most ungrateful. We raise him and let him study, and he knows to stick something on my door every day to cause damage. If I return the money for him Reading, isn't this raising a white-eyed wolf, waiting for revenge?"

After my uncle and aunt finished speaking, I looked at me, and I glared at her with wide eyes.She said: "Look at it, you're acting like you want to eat people again, you don't know how to respect your elders, you have no education at all!"

I wanted to break free from grandma's embrace, and ran up to kill this bitter and vengeful woman.But grandma held me down, and I didn't dare to try to break free.Grandma covered my eyes with her hands. I knew her intention was, don't look at it. This is family affection, the most naked family affection, and this kind of family affection makes people feel dirty!

Grandma said: "The child is still young. When he grows up, he will be sensible and know your kindness!"

The uncle and aunt said impatiently: "That's all, I don't care for any kindness." Then she took out two one-hundred sheets, threw them on the ground, and said, "Let's go. I spend every day crying at my place. Sooner or later Let's die!"

The uncle and aunt dropped the money and went into the house.Grandma stretched out her trembling hand and picked up the money.Walking on the road, he said to me: "Only when a person can bear the humiliation can there be moments of gold shining. This is not a shameful thing, and being able to ask for money is a successful thing!"

I want to say, yes!But in my heart, this is a painful and unbearable thing.I don't even know how many more times this will happen.

After my parents died, my uncle and his family had to provide three meals a day because my grandma was unable to work and I was still young.But they felt their conscience, what did my grandma and I eat.They didn't allow me and grandma to go to their table. My uncle and aunt poured some leftovers with a bad smell into a big basin every day like feeding pigs, and served them to us.Grandma felt distressed that I would have a stomachache after eating it, and she cried and begged several times.Said such a meal can not eat.But the uncle and aunt said that the pigs are fine after eating, and they still sleep and grow meat. Why do you have diarrhea after eating them!

These words were sharp and piercing, and it hurt like a needle prick in my heart.Grandma said, forget it, good boy, how can a person not bow his head under the eaves, bear with it!Grandma also said, don't hate your uncle's family.They do have their reasons.She said that because my uncle was the eldest brother, he dropped out of school when he was very young and went home to help out and take on the responsibility of supporting the family.She said that her uncle had never benefited from her, and that she was a failed and irresponsible mother.Uncle's disobedience to her is also her own repercussions.

Grandma never understood me, no matter what she said, I couldn't stop holding grudges.I have become more and more vengeful, and I really don't know what kindness is.I think this is the uncle's family!Why is it so realistic and vulgar in front of life, even my own mother is hurt with a knife!Their faces made my chaotic mind begin to question this society.I am not afraid of anything, but now I am afraid of the word "tolerance".Reading is not so great, dignity is the most powerful.In order not to make grandma sad, I can watch the whole thing in silence, but in my heart, sparks of anger have already been born, until one day, these cold-blooded and heartless people will be burned to ashes.

The days of Renren finally came to an end one afternoon when I was in the third year of junior high school.The third class that afternoon was physical education. I never had the habit of taking physical education, so after the second class, I went home.

When I got home, grandma was not in the house.I think it must be at the uncle's house.In these years of studying, my grandma took the money to go to the school to pay for the report like everyone else in order to allow me to start the new semester; in order to take into account my young and sensitive self-esteem, I avoided seeing her go to school and beg the principal to reduce tuition fees like in the first year of junior high school. scenario.Grandma would rather spend months in advance on her ruthless son and daughter-in-law.She was more and more able to bear such harsh words.

It's just that at that moment, something like a needle point ruthlessly poked my eyes. I couldn't believe it. The foot that had just stepped out of the back door seemed to be sharp as if it had touched the cold ice.His body was hidden by the back door, his head was buzzing, his heart was pounding, and his eyes were dimly watching.A hatred and pain from the bottom of my body accumulated and surged in my body, like a lump of crushed ice, overwhelming mountains and seas.

——Grandma is kneeling in the middle of the main room of the uncle's house, with her back to me.It was the thin back of a poor old man, kneeling on the ground, the sun and the moon would be dizzy.Her knees usually hurt when lying down, but kneeling on the ground now must be like kneeling on the edge of a knife.

my grandma.She is going to work in the fields, she is going to work in the fields.She would work from dawn to sunset, even if her illness took her life away.She said that she worked so that her grandson could eat something good and nutritious.Her grandson will grow taller, fairer and more outstanding than anyone else!

My tears flooded, my legs limp and I knelt down, kneeling down to my grandma.

Uncle and aunt are as cold as ever.The uncle seemed a little anxious, and said, "Mom, get up. How can you make the neighbors in the village think of me if you kneel like this!"

The uncle and aunt said: "Mom, it's like this every year. In order to let us pay the tuition fees, we cried and made trouble, and now we still kneel down. Huh, I think you are deliberately embarrassing us. Well, you kneel, you just do it like this." Kneeling. You make our life difficult, and your life will not be much easier. Today, I will not give you a penny!"

There must have been blue veins on my face, and my face was so red that it turned black.I can't wait to have a long knife in my hand, and cut these people into pieces.

Grandma said, her voice trembling, and her heart was piercingly sad, "Xiaodong is the only blood left by your brother. No matter what, I will raise him up. Otherwise, what am I going to do to face your dead brother and sister-in-law! I am a person who is about to go to hell, and I am living in this world to the last breath, with just such a little hope, can't you make it come true?"

The uncle became a little irritable when he heard this, and said, "My old mother! You have to see if we have the ability! My two children can't eat enough to eat, let alone go to high school. Xiaodong Even if you have good grades, you still have no money to go to college after high school. It’s not just a waste of time! Why don’t you come back early and help subsidize the family! Didn’t I drop out of school early to support my family before, isn’t it pretty good?”

The uncle and aunt's eyes were full of disgust, "Your life is so precious!" She took a step forward and sneered again and again, "Okay, okay, I think my mother is old, and it's useless to waste words. The high school tuition fee is 600 yuan. A lot, the university tuition is thousands or even tens of thousands. Even if we are gods, we can’t change so much. Now that we can’t afford to eat, we grit our teeth and let him go to the third year of junior high school. , there is no obligation anymore. If Mom insists on letting that heartless person go to high school or even college, well, I have the ability to earn it!" After finishing speaking, he got up from the chair and walked under the shrine altar in the middle of the main room, He bent down to pick up a black bowl with half of the rotten side, and put it on grandma's knee, the viciousness in his eyes showed the ugliness of the world.