through those heavy years

Time flies, and in the blink of an eye, the most anticipated Spring Festival is coming soon.The Spring Festival is not only a day for drinking and eating meat, but also a time for family reunion and joy.The hearts of the married co-workers are already hot. When they think of reunion, they will naturally think of their wives, and then think more deeply in their direction.The anger that has been suppressed for a year must be vented during this Spring Festival.They even got together without a limit, chatting about their wives' upper body and other extremely private parts, and even said that the size is relatively small.Because of their large size, I couldn't help thinking in my heart, would normal men look like this? If this is the scale to measure a man's maturity, then when will I grow up, and how worldly I will grow up!

As the Spring Festival approached, the snow became more and more white underground, and a thick layer had accumulated on the steel bars, paths, and black tiles in the bathroom.Looking from a distance, there is a vast expanse of whiteness.

The work on the construction site remains unabated, and we have to finish some of the projects at hand before the holiday.Because the workers are always thinking about the best things in their hearts, everyone is full of energy.The work that usually needs to be supervised can now be completed spontaneously and efficiently.

Luo Feng doesn't have a wife, but his emotions are getting higher and higher day by day.He took me to the city to buy various things.He wants to buy a down jacket for his mother and a coat for his father.I have to buy a hat for my mother and cotton shoes for my father.He returned home like an arrow, with excitement written all over his face.Under the happy smiling faces of him and them, it seemed that I was left alone. The closer to the New Year's day, the more I became less interested, so I was a little cranky.

Luo Feng asked me: "Why do you look depressed?"

Although I told Luo Feng about grandma, I never talked to him about why I left grandma and came to this city suddenly, because I was ashamed and unwilling to speak.I have never talked to Luo Feng about my views on the villagers. Although these views are deliberately ignored, they have some influence and affect my mood when I go home.

I said, "No, it's pretty good! I'm going to buy some things for grandma too!"

He chuckled twice, and said, "I must be more filial to grandma!" Then he said to himself, "Go home and climb the train this year, I have a companion!"

I haven't told him that I have thought about it for a long time, and finally decided not to go back this year for Chinese New Year.I'm going to tell him now.I said, "I'm not going home for the New Year!"

"Ah?" He looked at me in disbelief, as if he had never heard such an outrageous sentence, "Your grandma is at home, if you don't go home for the New Year, where are you going to celebrate the New Year?"

"Just stay here to celebrate the New Year!"

"Why?" He felt unreasonable.Everyone is looking forward to going home for the New Year, since some people don't want to go home.He was dull for a while, and then he thought, Wang Xiaodong gave up the college entrance examination and came to this city suddenly, there must be some reason at home, and this reason may be the main factor that caused Wang Xiaodong not to go home for the New Year. guessed.He is a person who can quickly grasp the hearts of others and understand the reasons.

But it is too unreasonable for him to not go home after a year of hard work, or to say, he is very unwilling, unhappy, and unhappy.He said: "No matter what your reasons are, you still have to go home. Don't you miss your grandma?"

Yes I do!I said in my heart.But grandma's stubborn temper, at this time, must not be forgiven.I'm afraid that if I go back and talk back to her and watch her shed tears, I will have to persuade me to go back to school and take the college entrance examination in the end.I have made up my mind to stop studying, and my life in school is completely over at the moment I leave.I won't and can't give Grandma any hope.Even if the reason of money is aside, I don't read it.Now one person is free and unfettered, quite enjoyable.And when I go back, I have to go through parting.I don't like the sadness of parting very much. It's hard to part with each other, and the tears are blurred, as if I want to swallow life alive.

"I'm determined not to go back. It's useless to say anything!" Our hands were full of shopping.Under the neon lights of the city, braving the cold wind, I first took a few steps forward.My heart is sad, an indescribable soreness and pain.Grandma must be looking forward to my coming home for the New Year.I have felt her calling in my heart.Unfortunately, at that time, I was always blindly stubborn, unable to see through, unable to see through.I think, even if there is no big reason, as long as you make a psychological decision, you will stick to it, and it is useless to say anything.

"Hey, hello!" Luo Feng was extremely impatient, for the first minute he was still thinking that he would not be alone on the train home with a companion, and for the next minute I answered him that he would not go back, determined, determined.He caught up and said, "Then I won't say anything, but I also said the same thing. No matter what reason you have, you have to go back if you don't go back!"

Afterwards, Luo Feng and I had to deal with each other a hundred times.Whenever he speaks earnestly, I just answer: "No!"

The decision rests with me, and he has nothing to do in the end.The pace of time is like the wind, and it is approaching the day when he will go back.He packed his luggage and stood at the door of the dormitory looking at me.Luo Feng was the ticket for the afternoon. At this time, all the roommates had left, and the dormitory was suddenly depressed. There were only him and me left.

"Are you really determined not to go home for the New Year?" Luo Feng asked me again.

"No!" I still replied resolutely, acting very cold-blooded

"Your decision is not mature at all!" Luo Feng said a little angrily.

Yes, children from poor families are sensible early.I have never been so naive.

Seeing my silence, Luo Feng sighed and shook his head helplessly, "Do you really miss your grandma?"

"I thought about it!" The more it came to the day when I went home for the New Year, the more I thought about it, and my heart was broken.This is the first time to spend the New Year away from grandma, and it is also the first lonely and desolate Spring Festival for grandma (I know she will not celebrate the New Year with her uncle’s family, even if it is deserted, she would rather be alone). , Grandma will use a rotten iron basin to build a very prosperous fire and place it in the center of the main room.Then prepare me a quilt and let me sit by the fire to keep warm.Grandma can cook chicken soup, make dumplings, and cook a delicious and rich New Year's Eve dinner, which I share with grandma.It was a very happy Spring Festival. Even if our family didn’t have any guests to visit the New Year on the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth, and seventh days of the new year, there was grandma and me, and I felt very happy.However, even if such happiness does not exist this year, I am determined not to go back.I suppressed the overwhelming yearning for grandma, and vigorously dragged out a large package that I had prepared a long time ago from the corner of the bed, handed it to Luo Feng, and said, "So, it's hard work for you to bring these things back, grandma See, it will be more or less consoling! It also carries my longing for grandma."

Luo Feng looked at me, frowning.He accepted it somewhat reluctantly.In the end, I didn't know what to say.

In addition to a few warm winter clothes in the package, the rest are some nutritious products and some medicines for treating rheumatoid arthritis that Luo Feng and I carefully selected for grandma in the city, and there are also delicious foods that she has never tasted in her life. snack fruit.It's a pity that ice cream is easy to melt and it's not easy to keep (there is heating on the train), otherwise Luo Feng would have to take one home for the sweetness of the taste, and give it to grandma to taste.

I still remember that when I was a child, my grandma told me the story of her childhood.She said that she had never eaten any snack fruit since she was a child.Until one time, when she was about ten years old, she went to the market in a rural town.She and some village sisters walked more than [-] kilometers to the market town to join in the fun.There are so many people in the market town, shoulder to shoulder.Grandma and the others walked with difficulty, and happened to pass by an apple stand. The smell of apples wafted their nostrils, and they couldn't bear it, so they stopped by the apple stand.

They are penniless, but the smell and color of apples are particularly alluring.Some daring sisters were reluctant to leave, so they asked the price for an excuse, and pretended to pick and choose.Grandma also mixed in to pick apples, and then listened to the other sisters amusedly haggling in the tone of adults.Those who sell apples know they cannot afford them.After circling for a while, they coaxed them away impatiently.

They wandered around for a while and then went straight home.It wasn't until walking halfway that grandma suddenly realized that she was still holding a red apple in her hand.

She emphasized that it was really unconscious.At that time, I still wanted to send it back, but it was getting late, and I was afraid that it would be completely dark when I rushed back, and the stalls must have closed down.So I can only take this apple home full of anxiety and guilt.After returning home, she secretly shared the apple with her grandma.Grandma's grandma said that she had never eaten something so watery and sweet, and neither did she!

This is a memory I remember deeply, and it makes me feel that this kind of thing has a special beauty and calling.Now, I have the ability to do this, so I thought about bringing something to my grandma that she had never eaten before, and she would be more or less happy in her heart.

Looking at Luo Feng, I pretended to be relaxed and said: "By the way, remember my grandma's appearance, and describe it to me when you come back!"

At that time mobile phones had become popular, but for us it was a luxury.We never intended to buy a cell phone, let alone one with a camera.

"Well, what about the money in the bank?"

I said: "Take out all my money and give it to grandma, and tell me not to be too tired. Especially when you are old, you must take good care of your body. By the way, you must force the money to her." Because she was too stubborn.

"Ah, oh!" Luo Feng was puzzled for a moment, but he didn't seem to take it too seriously.He reluctantly carried the package on his back.Words of dissuasion have been said a thousand times, and it would be futile to waste words.

He said earnestly: "It's not so pleasant to spend the New Year alone. Take care and be safe!"

Nodding, they all looked at Luo Feng sadly, and said, "Be careful on the road. Remember, grandma is stubborn, and you must hand over the money to her." Luo Feng still didn't quite understand, and nodded following my words.Seeing that it was getting late, I put my luggage on my back and got up to leave.I hesitated for a while, but still chased him out, determined to send him to the train station.When they got to the station, they said goodbye to each other, and stood there for a long time watching his back until they were submerged in the vast crowd.

The train station is full of heads.This is the first time I have seen the power of the Spring Festival travel season. There are huge crowds of people, big and small bags, and a dense, airtight place.It's just different from before, everyone has similar smiles on their faces.

There was heavy snow falling in the sky, and there were fewer and fewer pedestrians on the road.Walking alone on the road in the city, a kind of sadness crept into my heart silently, empty with pain.I can be cold-blooded in front of Luo Feng, but the desire hidden in my heart to go home is too strong, when I am alone now, tears roll down like broken beads.Grandma, grandma, I miss it very much, and I can only call silently.

Grandma is my home, and my home is grandma.And in this home, what I feel the most is that my grandma's dark yellow face is full of sad tears.

Grandma's tears washed my childhood, even my adolescence.After her parents passed away, she never shed tears.Sometimes when she sees my cheerful figure brimming with joy, she will cry; sometimes when she lies quietly in her arms and sleeps, she will cry when she looks at my immature face.So many times, so many times, I was numb.Let her say that the wind blinded her eyes.

However, most of her tears were shed for my study!She always thought that it was she who made me arrogant and unruly, and that she made me withdrawn and weird.She is always willing to take on anything.Her love is too heavy, and I can't breathe on top of me, and I see it as a kind of torture.