if i am not me

In the silent night, Hogwarts Castle, bathed in the moonlight, fell into a deep sleep after a noisy day. Except for those nocturnal creatures that occasionally ran or flapped their wings in the shadows, perhaps the place where the whole castle was still lively was the place where there were almost no people. People know the underground.

In the secret room of Salazar Slytherin, two figures were still vigorously waving their wands, and white or blue light shot out from the top of the wands, bringing temporary brightness to the gloomy hall.It was still the same incantation from yesterday, still the obscure incantation, but even though they repeated the syllables tirelessly until they were exhausted, they still got nothing.

It was late at night, and the accumulated fatigue of the past few days seemed to erupt tonight. After another failure, Draco bit his lower lip angrily. He didn't realize that he had bitten the corner of his lip until he tasted the faint smell of rust in his mouth. .But he just stared blankly at the wand in his hand, wiped the sweat from his forehead, and started a new round of attempts again.

"Enough!" Suddenly, Harry, who was standing in the distance, came to his side at some point, and tightly held his hand holding the wand. "Draco, come here tonight."

Harry looked slightly annoyed at Draco's pale face under the radiance of the magical flames and his temples that were completely drenched with sweat. If he hadn't found that his movements were becoming more and more stiff, wouldn't this kid have planned to ignore him all the time? His body bears the bottom line and continues to practice?Originally, he planned to find an opportunity to talk to him again, but Drake's body did not allow him to look for that still illusory opportunity.

Looking at Harry with a serious face in surprise, Draco was a little puzzled but still asked thoughtfully. "Tired? Then go back and rest first, I'll practice for a while." After speaking, he motioned for Harry to let go of the hand that was holding him, but Harry just pulled it tighter unexpectedly.

"Draco, that's enough, let's go back and rest." The tone was flat, but it could not be refused.

Frowning, Draco looked at Harry strangely and asked. "Are you angry?"

"You know I'm angry too?" Raising his eyebrows, Harry put on a very rare expression of anger on his face that was always full of smiles, took the wand from Draco's hand, and Harry put it Put it in your pocket. "Okay, now we're going back to rest, you need to get a good night's sleep."

"So I asked you why you are angry." Draco didn't seem to feel his anger from Harry's wrist being pulled tightly, and he was even more indifferent to Harry taking his wand away. Draco only felt Harry's anger tonight Leigh is too weird.

"Because I can't bear it anymore!" He couldn't let Draco continue to pursue the power that he would get sooner or later regardless of his body.

"...What can't you see?" For Draco, Harry's anger was really inexplicable, even if he usually claimed to understand Harry, he was a little at a loss at this time.

Taking a deep breath, Harry stared into Draco's blue eyes. "I can't see you ruining yourself like this, you kid has reached the limit!"

Hearing this, Draco felt something stabbed in his heart, which made him refute naturally. "I don't!"

"If you saw what you are like I do, you wouldn't try to contradict me, Draco!"

His face froze, and Draco also straightened his face, and said coldly, "Even so, it's my own business, give me the wand."

Hearing what Draco said, Harry, who was just annoyed at first, suddenly burst into an inexplicable anger from the bottom of his heart, an anger that had not been seen for more than ten years.It is different from the resentment about the final destination of his previous life, and the anger at the killing of his grandfather. It is a kind of emotion that often appeared when he was a typical Gryffindor. Want to vent emotions.But he had no intention of suppressing it, and maybe Harry also knew that he needed this kind of Gryffindor-like courage tonight to resolve the rift between him and Draco who didn't know when - although they both ignored it tacitly, but Doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

Drake's attitude made Harry's heart bitter, and at the same time, he felt that anger seemed to be burning his sanity, "Your own business...Damn it, do you want me to watch you destroy yourself for that damn spell?" What's wrong with you, Draco, is power really that important to you?"

Drake was taken aback, obviously he didn't expect Harry to say that, but regarding Harry's question, he unconsciously thought of the vicissitudes and sadness that occasionally drifted through Harry's eyes when he was in a daze, and thought of him telling that he didn't The slightly trembling shoulders of the known past, thinking of the hidden secret that Harry wanted to speak but stopped, thinking of the Stunning Spell that Harry shot at him that night... Yes, he needs power, he needs stronger power, Enough to protect him from letting him abandon his strength.

"Yes..." Looking at Harry's green eyes, which were brightening with anger, Draco said firmly. "Very important."

"Why, is it because Voldemort is back?" At present, it seems that this is the only reason, but Harry doesn't think it will be the whole reason.

While pondering, Draco just stared blankly at seeing Harry's eyes under the flames of anger revealing undisguised concern for him, and suddenly didn't want to continue to hide his feelings.Harry, do you share my concerns?Following Harry's own wrist and pulling Harry towards him, Draco put his other arm around Harry, resting his head on his shoulder.Taking a deep breath, he whispered quietly in Harry's ear, "Because I want to protect you..."

Harry froze, he never expected Draco's answer to be like this.

Feeling Harry stiff in his arms, Draco broke free from Harry's unknowingly relaxed hand, and hugged Harry tightly.The moment he decided to speak he knew that no matter how Harry reacted he would not let go, even if he would get Harry's blatant disgust.

"I like you...Harry..." Finally, he was able to express his heart to the one he loves, and finally he didn't have to hide his love carefully, and finally he could get a little bit of response, even if there was nothing he wanted in it. mood.Draco just hugged Harry tightly, telling his love in his ear over and over again.

"I like you……"

Harry felt that his brain couldn't think of anything, and "like you" was the only word that could turn in his mind.Now he was just being hugged by Drake in a daze, and his breath was filled with the smell of Drake, the smell that made him feel at ease.In an instant, Harry understood, it turned out that such feelings did not only belong to him... So...

For a long time, silently, Draco anxiously waited for Harry's answer, and suddenly felt that he was not as strong as he imagined. His hands trembled slightly, but he still held Harry firmly, so that there was no gap between them.He was waiting for the answer, the answer that would determine his fate.

At some point, Harry's wristbands hanging on both sides touched Draco's back, and he responded with the same strength.Lifting his head, which was stuffed in Draco's arms, Harry had an indelible smile on his lips. "Fool."

Draco looked at the corners of Harry's mouth, and in an instant, intense joy filled his body. It turned out that it wasn't just him who was waiting... but them.

"We're all idiots..." The unfinished words were sealed between Harry's lips and teeth, and there was only a jerky entanglement in his breath except for the smell of each other.

A series of unprepared developments made Harry forget his original emotions, and now he seemed to only feel the strong sucking of Drake on his lips, just like his longing for Drake.It's not that they haven't kissed before. When Qiu Zhang and Ginny were their girlfriends, kissing was commonplace. Harry thought it was a kiss, but now he knew he was wrong, it was just mouth to mouth.A real kiss is a sucking movement that almost wants to absorb the soul of the other person like now, and it is an entanglement that longs to be together for life and life.

It took an unknown amount of time before they let go of each other, panting lightly with flushed cheeks.Harry looked at Draco's bright eyes covered with a layer of moisture, smiled slightly, and raised his hand to caress Draco's delicate face. "I'm a man."

"I know."

"You are the heir to the family."

"Is that a problem?"

"...your family will not allow a man to intervene."

"How do you know if you haven't asked my parents? Instead, I'm worried that Mary will try to kill me."

Hearing this, Harry chuckled, and Draco seemed to think of Mary's expression when he knew about him and Harry, giggling.Harry stared blankly at Drake's smiling face, slowly suppressed the smiling expression, and looked at Drake with unprecedented concentration, "Draco."

"Uh?"

"I...killed people..." The gender of the family is just an excuse. The real fear is that the human nature that has been hidden and suppressed will be disgusted and rejected...

Startled, then relieved, "...so what?" Looking at Harry's green eyes reflecting his own shadow, Derek drew the outline of his own sinking with his hands, "You are still Harry, belong to me Leigh, even if you were the Dark Lord..." Loved only this man, good or bad, bloody or not.

His high-hanging heart was gently let go, and Harry buried his face in Draco's embrace that made him deeply miss him. "Thanks."

"Idiot... want to say?"

"I'll tell you later, I'll tell you everything..."

"Then I want to kiss you now..." Covering those red lips again, Draco swallowed all Harry's words. At this moment, they didn't need words.