the other side of the fireworks

It replaced the blood, causing the body to float, unable to fly to the sky or land on the ground.

Hurrying footsteps came from behind, like piglets running happily in a pigsty, rabbits running around in the grass, Xia Fengshu's lifeless mood suddenly became more energetic, and suddenly felt that the footsteps were so familiar, could it be She, it's already 10:30, but who else is it?Whose footsteps will inexplicably give her vitality?

Xu An ran out of breath, and she was slightly startled when she saw Xia Fengshu. In the night, she couldn't see the other person's face clearly, and could only feel an emotion floating between the two of them.

"I... went to the public restroom."

Xia Fengshu had some strange pleasures. The slight torture to Xu An always excited her calm mood. Xu An was willing to be punished. She is a child who knows shame and right. It is what makes her shine, she has what Xia Fengshu dreamed of, [-]% love.

After opening the door, the room was also pitch black. Xia Fengshu didn't turn on the light immediately, as if he enjoyed the feeling of listening to that person's breathing in the dark. Yes, only at this time can he abandon everything and only enjoy the joy of love .

Xu An didn't dare to turn on the light either. The child who did something wrong always shrugged his shoulders, clasped his hands, and looked at his face with his head half down.

"I'm going back to my hometown with my grandma the day after tomorrow." After a while, Xu An said this.

Xia Fengshu was silent.

"I'll be back on the eighth day of the lunar new year." He confessed eagerly, not knowing why, and the other party didn't say to wait for her.

"I want to go back to my hometown." Xia Fengshu turned on the light, feeling a little bit reluctant to let go of the darkness.

"When?"

"I'm not sure yet, I haven't asked for leave, and I haven't bought a ticket yet."

Xia Fengshu took off her coat, and inside was a cheap dark red sweater. Since the slap in the face, she no longer wore the clothes given by Tong Zhan. She felt that if the clothes were expensive, she would be cheap.

"I'll help you buy a ticket." Xu An said.

Xia Fengshu hummed, then went to wash her face and hands, Xu An knew that she was going to clean the room. "Don't do it when you're tired, the house isn't too dirty."

"Do some chores and relax."

"I'll help you." Although Xu An said this, but he didn't know where to start, he just used this sentence to express her strong desire to share.

"Don't make trouble, just help me." The voice was not loud, with Xia Fengshu's unique coldness, only Xu An could hear the inner enthusiasm.

The key was placed on the small cabinet next to the bed, and there was also a HELLOKITTE key chain bought by Xu An on it, one for each of her and Xia Fengshu.She could take it back with her hand and put it back in her pocket. Xu An's fingers moved. She felt that it would be better for Xia Fengshu to give it to her personally.

Sit down, watching you work is a kind of happiness.

Just watch, it is also a kind of happiness to be watched by you.

Xia Fengshu felt hungry, she didn't eat any food at night, Xu An was fiddling with the computer, there was a song floating in the air, a strange melody, a strange voice, a line of lyrics suddenly touched Xia Fengshu's tense nerves , "Tell me, you love me, like our eternal promise, but all happiness is being tortured."

She sat down, looked at the clean table and said, "Xu An, break up and don't see each other again."

Xu An got up and left.

Xia Fengshu sat blankly, Xu An, I don't want to give up on you when I have to make a choice.

When Xu An got home and stuffed her face under the pillow, she was frightened and fled in fright.

Chapter 28 Xia Fengshu couldn't stop crying, and Xu An in the tears swallowed her heart alive.

Early the next morning, she called Lan Weiqing. Lan Weiqing worked in a travel agency, and she should be the right way to buy train and plane tickets.The end of the year is approaching, and it is hard to find a ticket.

Lan Weiqing was very kind to ask, and readily agreed, and called her that night to ask her to get the ticket.

Lan Weiqing lives in a two-room suite on the second ring road. It is well-decorated and has all the appliances. The room smells like jasmine. Lan Weiqing said that he used aromatherapy. The living room is more than 20 square meters, with brown floors and sky-blue linen curtains. Brand new light grass green fabric sofa, full glass coffee table, 37-inch LCD TV, compared with Xia Fengshu's residence, this rental house is really the difference between a princess and Cinderella.

Lan Weiqing was changing clothes, she seemed to be going on a date, she greeted Xu An to sit down, and took out the ticket from the black patent leather bag, "I got it from the manager, the original price."

"Thank you, it's really efficient." Xu An looked at the ticket happily.

"If I can't get it today, I will ask you to hire someone else." Lan Weiqing changed into a sweater with a large V-neck, revealing her snow-white neck and shallow breasts.Xu An suddenly felt that it was a bit eye-catching, although she also had such a body.Looking away, wanting to say something thankful, he suddenly found a few discs on the coffee table, and Xu An's face was reddened by the naked body on the cover.

"What's the matter, you must have seen this." Lan Weiqing was a little surprised.

"I haven't seen this."

"No, Xu An, you really surprised me, you and Jie Chu have been friends for so long, haven't you seen this?"

"Ah..." Xu An responded without knowing why, his heart beating wildly.

"Jie Chu is such a nice person." Lan Weiqing admired him sincerely.

Xu An thought to himself: Does he need to see whether he is a good person or not to prove it?

After giving the money, Lan Weiqing suddenly asked: "Who did you buy the ticket for? Your family is not from Heilongjiang either!"

"A friend." Xu An was vague and changed the subject, "How much is the rent for this house?"

"One thousand and eight. I added the sofa and TV myself. The original ones are too old. I like to nest on the sofa, so the sofa must be comfortable."

"How much is your salary, can you handle it?" Xu An began to think about whether her future income could give Xia Fengshu such a nest.

"For me, including the bonus, it's only two thousand and seventy-eight. Chen Guang is responsible for the expenses here, and he comes to live here occasionally." Lan Weiqing's tone strengthened her sense of peace of mind, and Xu An didn't feel awkward, love is to bear everything for each other.

"It's really nice!" Xu An looked at the house again, thinking to himself that his house will get the keys in the next year, and it will be decorated in a more stylish way than here. If you have the ability, please hire a part-time worker and let Xia Fengshu get off work Then you can rest.No, she said that she was doing housework to relax, and she couldn't deprive her of fun. Xu An contradicted himself, completely forgetting what Xia Fengshu said last night.

"What are you thinking? So fascinated."

His thoughts were interrupted, Xu An's eyes inadvertently saw the disc on the coffee table again, and he smiled unnaturally, Lan Weiqing said cleverly: "Take it back and have a look! It's an important lesson for women."

Xu An was a little embarrassed and didn't want to accept it. Lan Weiqing gave her two slips and said, "Don't be embarrassed, you will suffer if you don't understand men too much."

Just as Xu An was about to refuse, another picture on the table of two naked women embracing each other attracted her, and she said bluntly, "Okay, I'll pick a few."

Lan Weiqing chuckled and patted her on the shoulder, "Seriously, for whom did you dump Jiechu?"

"Why do you ask this?"

"I'm curious, you can throw away a man like Jiechu, what a man you have to be with!"

"What's not to be close to, it's really ugly." Xu An replied, but sandwiched the CD between the other two in his hand. Lan Weiqing chased her and asked: "Isn't this the world like this? If it wasn't for getting married with Chen Guang, he would definitely be renting a house with him now, living on his salary every month."

"I don't want to live like that." Xu An said solemnly.

"You are lofty, but Xu An, people always go to high places, and there are always men standing on high places. If you want to go up, you have to hold their hands."

Xu An's heart ached for a while, and she suddenly realized that the reason Xia Fengshu said they left was because of the man standing high.

If Xu An knew that love would make people so anxious all day long, she would definitely let herself back when she hesitated.

The paint on the iron door was old and faded, and the iron sheet was exposed above the keyhole. There used to be a doorbell there, but it is gone now. There is only a black hole filled with debris. Xu An couldn't help but think of Lan Weiqing's rental car again. room, she knocked on the door twice harder.

The door opened, and Xia Fengshu stood in front of him coldly, his eyes were repulsive to anyone thousands of miles away.Xu An was not surprised, pushed the door open, went straight to the bedside to get the key, threw the ticket in the bag back and said: "The train the night after tomorrow."

"Xu An, don't do these meaningless things."

"Why is it meaningless? Can you get on the bus without a ticket? Can you go home?"

"I didn't even ask for leave, what are you doing with the ticket?"

"Tomorrow is the new year, why don't you ask for leave?"

"Please don't come, the work schedule has been arranged during the Spring Festival."

"Then how long are you going to delay?"

"This is my business. You don't need to worry about it. Didn't you understand what I said that day? Do you want me to repeat it again?"

"Repeat, I want to hear you say it again!" Xu An's whole body was stiff, and only in this way could she keep her tears from flowing.

Xia Fengshu didn't repeat it, she found that as long as she fell into Xu An's emotions, she couldn't help herself.She withdrew her firm tone, and her whole body darkened, "I'm hungry, let's go out and have something to eat."

Shifting positions and breaking up in that room full of memories is like committing suicide by strapping on a high-strength bomb.

At ten o'clock, Chuan Chuan's business had just entered prime time, and with the key to Xia Fengshu's house in his pocket, Xu An calmed down a little.Both of them don't like spicy food very much, but Xia Fengshu will be very enthusiastic when he sees meat, and Xu An is gradually infected by this enthusiasm, and he can eat anything if he has an appetite.

Xia Fengshu said: "Xu An, people have to live for reason!"

"What reason do you want to tell me?" Xu An's heart became alert again.

"I earn about [-] yuan a month, rent is [-] yuan, water and electricity start from [-] yuan, the electric heater you bought, I don't turn it on when you are away, and the rest is consumption such as food, car, toothpaste and toothbrush. I can't even maintain my income and expenditure. It's a struggle to balance, really a struggle."

"It makes sense to make money, I understand." The strings in Xu An's mind have never been so tight as they are now.She knew that every sentence Xia Fengshu said was paving the way for the last sentence.

"Xu An, I need that job."

"I know, but you can't give me up because of work."

"I'm not in a position to maintain our relationship."

"I do, Xia Fengshu, do you love me?" Xu An was pursuing this question again.

Xia Fengshu was speechless.The emotional entanglement has made the mood bad to the point of no return, love is not all good, and the lingering she gives will prevent freedom.This feeling makes people irritable. Xia Fengshu is looking for patience in the cracks of her heart. This kind of searching has covered her reluctance for Xu An to some extent.

Xu An was unusually firm, "As long as you admit that you love me, I will share all of this for you. From next month, I will pay the rent, water and electricity."

"I don't love you to share my financial burden."

"Then will you let other men share the burden?" Xu An answered the words surprisingly quickly.

Xia Fengshu was at a loss for words, and Xu An made her thinking clumsy. She had a lot of reasons to say, but she couldn't come up with any of them.

Xu An seemed to have the upper hand, and his tone slowed down slightly: "Have you admitted that you love me?"

"No, I didn't say that."

"What's this? You've been trying so hard to get me, and now you're trying so hard to get rid of me?"

"Deliberately?" Xia Fengshu was surprised by this word.

"Isn't it? You emphasized again and again that you liked me first."

"Xu An, should we make it so ugly."

Xu An's bubbling blood was almost hotter than the boiling soup in the pot, "Yeah, what's wrong with me? Xia Fengshu, you made me hate myself."

"Xu An, I'm definitely a big burden, you can't carry it."

"I want to carry it."

Rigid quarrels will always cause emotional flaws. Xia Fengshu and Xu An are like swans and fish in a net, working hard in their respective directions. The fish said: live in the water with me, how happy we are together.The swan said: Let me fly, I still have a lot of things to do.

"Xia Fengshu, have you started to hate me?" Xu An's voice finally returned to normal, rational and full of emotion, Xia Fengshu's nose was a little sore, she was not good at fighting with Xu An, she didn't want to see Xu An Kishi used all his strength to fight against himself.

"Xu An, I don't want one day, you suddenly find that your love for me is not as deep as you imagined."

"What do you mean?"

"you know what I mean."

"Am I just a character in your novel? The fate is up to you to arrange? Since you must break up, why do you need to persuade me to agree?"

"I was the one who disturbed your life, Jiechu is very good and loving..."

"Don't talk about Jie Chu, okay? Don't talk to me in such a guilty tone!" Xu An's fists were clenched tightly, as if a needle had been inserted into her spine, and she was doing it all over her body. Respond with pain and stiffness.

Xia Fengshu immediately stopped talking and stared into Xu An's eyes. The two of them seemed to be enchanted at the same time. They remained motionless without saying a word. After a long time, Xu An said, "I am faithful to my feelings."

"I know, you make me ashamed."

"Xia Fengshu, give me some time to prove that what a man can do for you, so can I."

Xu An's persistence was beyond Xia Fengshu's expectation. In her eyes, Xu An's self-esteem would make her decide to give up at the very beginning of the conversation. Now, she is still persisting, but she has begun to waver. In their subconscious mind, they began to look forward to the scene of fighting side by side with Xu An. With the strong support of their hearts and emotions, did they pass through so many difficult hurdles?In fact, difficulties are looming.

"Xu An, I can't stop and wait, our environment is different, I can't afford to lose."

"Losing? How could I let you lose?"

"Are you overconfident?"

"No, no matter what difficulties there are, I will stand in front of you. Doesn't that explain everything?"

"I'm afraid you won't be able to stop it."

"Then take a gamble."

Xia Fengshu casually picked up a bamboo stick, "Since we can't convince the other party, let's make a bet. Guess whether the bundle of sticks is single or double, and whoever guesses correctly will listen to that."

Xu An snorted, feeling a little reluctant in her heart, but she couldn't even say no to this, not to mention that she had a half chance of dispelling Xia Fengshu's thoughts.

Xu An is a very well-behaved person. She has never gambled or participated in any form of gambling. She has never bought a lottery ticket, but this does not mean that she has no luck. The hands on the keyboard were counting pair by pair, Xu An was full of confidence, she thought she would win, just like her grandmother always told her when she was a child, walking around the world with reason, it is impossible to walk without reason.I am reasonable, from childhood to adulthood, as long as I think it is right, I will be supported.I have never lost, and I won't lose this time.

Xia Fengshu did not have Xu An's self-confidence, she had already put the final decision on the bamboo sticks, Xu An chose double, she chose single, just like the positions they insisted on, her mood changed once counting each time. One child hoped to be single, all of a sudden hoped to be double, the number of draws was getting less and less, and when the last one was already seen, Xia Fengshu stopped, and the result was enough, there was no need to drag it Last minute.

Xu An's heart tightened, he didn't believe the result, Xia Fengshu said: "Give me the key."

Xu An shook his head.

"Shall I count again?"

"Let me count!" Xu An took the bamboo stick, her hands trembled a little, like a nervous child who couldn't recite the speech script at the whole school speech meeting, but she didn't want to step off the stage because she couldn't face it. This fails.

Xia Fengshu was sad in her heart, but her face was still indifferent. Finally, she looked away to hide the tears welling up, but at this moment Xu An suddenly picked up a bamboo stick, put it in her mouth, and bit it with her teeth. After chewing off a small piece, Xia Fengshu was stunned. When Xu An bit the second piece, Xia Fengshu broke down and said, "You've lost weight, I'll listen to you."

Xu An was still eating the bamboo stick, without any expression of pain, Xia Fengshu couldn't stop crying, and Xu An in the tears swallowed her heart alive.

This city likes to rain at night, especially at [-] or [-] o'clock, there will be a sudden burst of rain, the rain is always very urgent, Xia Fengshu calls it wolf rain, describing the rain as fast and fierce as a wolf, with With a chilling air, the lights are covered by the rain of wolves like a flock of sheep waiting to be caught. They will not be eaten, but the gentleness exuded will be looted. The rain of wolves sweeps away the warmth and laziness, and brings them back their home.There will be a short emptiness in this city. In such an empty night, Xia Fengshu is the most relaxed and comfortable.

Xu An refused to go to the hospital, she said she could digest it, but there were some scratches inside her mouth, and it hurt even to drink water.Opening the window, the rain pushed the wind in, the coolness mixed with the moisture penetrated the stagnant mood, and the things other than emotion slowly dispersed, Xia Fengshu said: "Are you sure the bamboo stick won't poke your stomach? "

"I chewed it up to powder, never heard of gnashing teeth?"

"You eat me!" Xia Fengshu leaned on his chin and said weakly.

"Xia Fengshu, you hate me even more!"

"As long as I have extra strength, I will use it to hate you."

"Hate must be together."

"I hated my dad when I was young. He beat me. Being beaten is the most indignified thing. I was beaten from the house to the yard by her and then out of the yard. The whole street watched me being beaten. My mother stopped me. I will be beaten, but my mother will definitely stand in front of me, and then I will run away when he hits me, I am not afraid of his slap, I am afraid of my mother being beaten."

"I can't imagine that kind of misery. I will stand in front of those who beat you. If you run, I will run with you. If you hit us, we will suffer together."

"Many people are deceived by my face. People recognize beauty and ignore other ugliness. I am a fish swimming out of a dirty ditch. The water can wash away the dirt, but not the essence."

"Being poor and abused doesn't kill the good."

"Okay, I'm dark."

"Have you seen it?" Xu An had a sudden thought.

"what?"

"You haven't read it! We both missed this compulsory course in university. You, like me, are obsessed with keeping certain holy ideals. The so-called darkness is just an ideal and attachment that is not accepted by everyone. In your In your novel, your vision of the future is vague. For a child who lacks love, since she can’t get her beloved floral dress, she has a shrinking attitude towards life. But the more Such a person is pushed forward more and more, so she is troubled by more and more confusion. She thinks she has lost herself, but the latent belief leads her in the right direction, although you have not written a perfect book. But I already know what you want. Xia Fengshu, we are loyal to our feelings and to each other, and we will have the life we ​​want. If one day, I find that I cannot give you happiness, I will let you go. "