the other side of the fireworks

It is said that the vanity of a beautiful girl is directly proportional to her beauty. Xia Fengshu is definitely an anomaly. The poster board with her face printed on it arrived. Surprisingly, she is the only one in the photo, and almost everyone is tsk tsk She admired how beautiful the shot was, but she was the only one who was indifferent, others thought she was so proud that she was so proud that she was so arrogant.

Xia Fengshu doesn't seem to care about these misunderstandings. Her indifference is enough to push the men's admiration tens of meters away. It is the common impression of men that she is unattainable, and some people think that she is famous.In fact, Xia Fengshu was a little more realistic, and the old lady's incident made her more cautious in dealing with things. She would not talk if she could not speak, and would not contact if she could not contact her.

She has been looking for a house for the past two days, but the search has not been smooth, either too expensive or too dirty. After learning the lessons of the previous two rentings, she no longer has the idea of ​​co-renting. When she walked out of the supermarket gate, she turned her head and looked at the house that she had just hung up. On the poster above, the face in the photo is very strange, the smile is also blunt, and the more you look at it, the uglier it is.

Someone stopped by her side, she realized it, and she wanted to leave immediately. She didn't like to look at other people's faces, and usually only looked at her own path. "Ah, my ex-girlfriend is still so beautiful."

Xia Fengshu stopped and looked back. It was Tong Zhan, looking at her with a smile.

A person will meet many people in his life. If he leaves an impression on this person, he will silently compile a list, which can be roughly divided into people he likes, people he hates, people he needs, and people he hurts... Xia Fengshu is quite She likes to classify, but so far she really doesn't know which grid to put Tong Zhan in, because she didn't make the grid of ex-boyfriend.

Tong Zhan said: "I didn't see this poster, I really can't remember that I used to have such a beautiful girlfriend."

Xia Fengshu didn't say a word, she didn't know what else to say to this man.

Tong Zhan took two steps towards her, keeping a distance of one and a half meters, with four eyes facing each other, Xia Fengshu saw a strange and handsome face, until the other party smiled and saw the canine tooth, the familiar feeling pushed away The door of memories, Tong Zhan said: "Why don't you talk, you don't know me?"

"Why are you still so boring." Xia Fengshu threw out such a sentence, and Tong Zhan's smile tightened a bit.

"You never told me I was boring before."

"It's too late to say it now."

"You're getting colder and colder when you talk. Why, you've become a star and your temper is getting worse?"

"No, I've always been down-to-earth."

"When we were in love, I was obedient and obedient to you, and you also proposed to break up. Now, why do you treat me bitterly and bitterly, as if I have sorry for you? Is this the legendary love that turns into hatred. "

"Is it still a legend to hate you because of love? Can you count how many women hate you because of love? But that doesn't include me."

"Okay, I can't say no to you, I will take root here after graduation." Tong Zhan changed the subject, but his eyes never left Xia Fengshu's face, not only lusting for beauty, but also observing his appearance.

Sure enough, Xia Fengshu's face changed slightly, "Yes, I'm alive here."

"A cash register job isn't for you."

"Why... so you didn't meet me at the door."

"I've admired your work status. It's ordinary, not a star at all."

Xia Fengshu ignored his criticism, and said flatly: "I still have something to do, so I won't chat with you."

Tong Zhan said, "Don't you have any nostalgia for me?"

"The past is the past, and I don't like sloppy things."

"I don't want to get back together with you either. Your attitude is too hurtful, as if I'm a piece of shit and I need to get over it quickly."

"I don't mean that, and I don't know how to talk to shit. I really have something to do." Xia Fengshu was talking when the real estate agent called.

Tong Zhan took out a form from his briefcase and said, "Registration form, we can do it."

Xia Fengshu was surprised, this is definitely a heavy gift, with absolute attraction, Tong Zhan said: "No? I only have one copy, and it is also the last one. This form cannot be copied. It is circulated internally, although it is not deliberately I brought it to you, but I can't bear to let my ex-girlfriend work here, it's a waste of money."

Xia Fengshu took it over, thinking about what to say, Tong Zhan said: "I haven't changed my phone number, you can call me if you have any questions. Take a closer look, it's a good opportunity, don't waste it."

Tong Zhan left, Xia Fengshu looked up at the sky, could it be that there is a pie in the sky?

After passing the written test, Xu An finally felt elated.My aunt and grandma couldn't hold back their smiles either, as if back to the time when Xu An got the university admission letter, the aunt said: "Our Xiao'an is really good at it, we can get it right in every test."

Grandma said: "Her grandfather said long ago that this child is a Wenqu star, and he must be promising."

Xu An lay on his grandma's lap and ate oranges, planning to find Xia Fengshu in a while.At this time, the phone rang, Xu An was stunned when he answered, who is Lan Weiqing?The other party reminded her repeatedly that he had had dinner with her twice before Xu An remembered that she was the girlfriend of a good friend of Jiechu.

"You didn't change your phone number!"

"Ah, no change." Xu An felt weird, why did I change my phone number?

"We have a party tonight. The theme is the civil service exam. I heard that you also participated. Come too."

"Me?" Xu An thought to himself what kind of party this was.

"At Zhipin Western Restaurant, let's have a chat, I'll wait for you!" Xu An was puzzled when the other party hung up.My aunt encouraged her to go, and there will be an interview next, to exchange experience and prepare for it.Grandma also said to go, I have been holding back at home for a long time.

Xu An is an obedient child, this time she is obedient not to attend this party, but to meet Xia Fengshu.

Xu An's popularity has always been good, but he has never had close friends, and they are basically at the level of a gentleman's friend.I had two heart-to-heart friends in high school, and I still keep in touch with them by phone now. After college, I haven’t had heart-to-heart conversations with people around me, mostly listening to their complaints.Those classmates only knew that she lived in her aunt's house, and they didn't know anything about her complicated family background. Instead, two friends from high school would ask her about her parents, whether they cared about her or made trouble for her.Xu An's mind is very capable of handling troubles, and also has a strong ability to digest them on her own. Many things that other girls worry about are like swallowing ice, no matter how cold or hard she can melt them.She is confident that she can do what she should do, and she insists on what she wants to do.

Xu An was a punctual person, and she didn't have the habit of being late for 15 minutes. She even arrived a little early, and when she wanted to say hello, she went to meet Xia Fengshu.There were only three of them when she arrived, and in less than 10 minutes, there were seven or eight of them, some men and some women, all of whom were nodding acquaintances, and Xu An didn't feel uncomfortable even if he didn't recognize him.Counting Xu An, among the five who took the exam, only Xu An passed the written exam.Congratulations and envy were endless, Xu An had a grass called Xia Fengshu in his heart, and after a few words of entertainment, he became a little impatient.Some people also said that it is too early to be happy, the interview is the key battle, the most important test of relationship, Lan Weiqing asked Xu An about his preparations, Xu An shook his head, saying that it had nothing to do with it.As soon as these words came out, they attracted incredible gazes.Then he started talking about things in a hurry, emphasizing the importance of relationships, Xu An listened, she was not a nerd, how could she not know the stakes, but it was not her turn to worry about it.In other words, she feels that her mission has been completed, and the next thing is to do her best and obey the destiny.However, this conversation made her realize that everyone here is from some family background, at least they are also middle class. Basically, there are other ways out if they can't get into civil servants. She can't help but think of Xia Fengshu, that lonely person. Nothing to rely on.

No, she has me.

At this point in his thoughts, three more people came, one of them was Jie Chu who made Xu An restless.

Jie Chu lost weight, his eyes were still gentle, I don't know whether it was intentional or not, he sat beside Xu An.Xu An didn't mind, everyone here knew that she and Jie Chu were lovers, so as soon as they sat down, some people would tease about it.Chen Guang, who came with Xu An, sat next to Lan Weiqing, and it seemed that the intimacy was getting better.Lan Weiqing's ex-boyfriend and Chen Guang should also be considered friends!There is no reason to talk about feelings, Xu An looked proud at Chen Guangchun, who was always alone, but Jie Chu was lonely, and felt a little sad.

Until they parted, Jie Chu didn't take the initiative to say anything to Xu An, and it was for this reason that Xu An couldn't find the time to leave.

When everyone said goodbye to each other, Jie Chu asked Xu An, "Do I need to see you off?"

This sentence once again expressed the love of this man, out of necessity, helplessness, hesitating to speak.Xu An could feel it, and when he thought of all the past, he felt very apologetic.

Lying on the mattress he bought, Xu An asked: "Xia Fengshu, will you take this mattress with you when you move?"

"There's a bed over there." Xia Fengshu was sorting out the manuscripts, and hadn't taken a good look at Xu An since she entered the door, let alone inquiring about the results of the civil service examination.

Xu An was depressed, and felt depressed. Seeing Xia Fengshu concentrating on reading the manuscript, he was understanding rationally, but emotionally, he really wanted to be with her for a while.

"Then I'll take this mattress home." Xu An turned around and lay down on the mattress, feeling so lonely that he didn't know what to do.

Xia Fengshu didn't respond, Xu An only heard the paper flipping like fallen leaves blowing the street, and the drawers opening and closing. Later, Xia Fengshu covered her body and kissed her from behind her ear, "I miss you so much."

"Is my heart a brown sugar? You always talk about it."

"I don't want to be so nasty and distracted by doing other things, don't you think I can't even look at you?"

Xu An met Xia Fengshu's lips, no matter what reason she used to prevaricate Xu An, she could accept it, not to mention that her reason was so ingenious, the existence of the body was to confirm the process of thought, every time Xu An hugged Xia Fengshu's body At that time, she felt that this life was enough.

"Xia Fengshu, I love you." Xu An and Xia Fengshu were startled by one sentence.

"I didn't want to hear it, why did you say it?"

"I, I didn't know why I just said it." Xu An felt anxious that Xia Fengshu had left her embrace.

"Xu An, have you thought about the future?"

"I thought about it."

"Does your future include me?"

Xu An didn't know where the heartache came from, and he felt sorry for Xia Fengshu, "Xia Fengshu, I don't want to be separated from you anymore, even though I didn't think of a perfect plan. You are an insecure person, I still Not capable enough to give you a sense of security."

The light of the desk lamp flickered a little, as if it was about to explode, and Xia Fengshu's face became more and more blurred by the flickering, "You passed the written test."

Xu An stared deeply at Xia Fengshu's face, trying to understand her mood at the moment.This was the exam that Xia Fengshu missed, and they had the opportunity to advance side by side.Xia Fengshu seemed to have seen through her mind, and smiled faintly, "Actually, my civil servant exam is just a dream, and it doesn't matter if I pass the written exam by chance. If I miss it, I miss it. I don't regret it very much."

Xu An stretched out his hand to hold Xia Fengshu's, "You love me too, love me like I love you, don't you?"

An anxious emotion emanated from Xu An's eyes and hands, and Xia Fengshu felt it. It was Xu An's uncertainty and persistence in this relationship.

"I liked you first." Xia Fengshu's answer was neither serious nor serious, specious.

"Why do I think you're thinking about how to break up with me?"

"No, I didn't think so."

"Never think like this, Xia Fengshu." Xu An didn't know why tears welled up in his eyelashes, "After I love you like this, I will do my best to maintain this love, because I firmly believe that there will be no such love in the future. , so I will not let go no matter what."

Xia Fengshu threw herself into her arms, filled with a firm force in her heart, "Why do you say that?"

Xu An didn't answer, but just hugged her body tightly.The tears did not flow down, and gradually dissipated in Xu An's eyes. She was not fearless because of ignorance, but because of Xia Fengshu.

It was difficult to sleep late at night, and they took out their chewing gum and competed to blow bubbles, and the one who blew the smallest had to answer each other's questions.Blowing around, asking back and forth, from whether you cheated in the exam to your first kiss and first night, Xia Fengshu said, "Tell me about your home!"

Xu An was a little surprised. Is Xia Fengshu's request a sign of progress?The performance of approaching the other person's life.Things about her family are a bit complicated to talk about, Xu An tried to describe them in parallel and advance them in time.Xia Fengshu, on the other hand, likes to listen to the main points in a single line according to the characters.She is especially interested in Xu An's grandma. Hearing her love for Xu An, Xia Fengshu is envious and jealous. I don't have the ability to give myself more, and I have to help her bear many things.

In the second half of the night, Xia Fengshu told Xu An about herself, Xu An asked, and she said to those who dared not ask, the dead brother, the living father, the home that cannot be called home, the mother who is busy and hard, in the pain of losing a child Struggling hard to provide for her daughter, and then returning to the place where the family was ruined to clean up the mess.

"Xu An, I don't have more time to wait for job opportunities. I have to make money. I can't let my mother suffer anymore."

"I understand, what are you going to do?"

"I won't pass up any chance."

When Xia Fengshu said this, what she was thinking about was the application form that Tong Zhan gave her in the drawer. As far as she knew, being able to enter that unit meant that she would be allocated a house first, and her salary was higher than that of ordinary civil servants. More than half, that form is not too much to do with gold leaf, this is definitely a chance.

At this moment, Xu An didn't know this, she was still lamenting Xia Fengshu's childhood, it can be described as miserable!No wonder her character is so sharp, she grew up in the thorn bushes, she has been hurt since she was born, she can either make a ball of mud, or make a knife, the mud can make her survive in the thorn bushes, The knife allows her to split everything and bring her back to life.Fortunately, she is a knife.

No wonder she doesn't like to laugh, life never allowed her to laugh.Xu An hugged her tightly, and his legs were also entangled with her. A desire surged up, making her whole body hot.Xia Fengshu clasped her fingers, "Can you?"

Xu An was slightly startled, "What will happen?"

"What are you going to do?" Their faces were too close, and every time they said a word, the tip of their lips would touch.

Xu An kissed her, and climbed up Xia Fengshu's body. Xia Fengshu catered to her, but they were equally clumsy and ignorant. When they took off their underwear, Xu An stopped, "It will hurt."

"Maybe."

"No, I don't want your pain."

Xia Fengshu didn't know whether it was bitter or sweet, and felt hot and sad, so did Xu An. She knew little about sex, and only cherished Xia Fengshu's heart, and forcibly suppressed her desire.

Embracing, the heat never dissipates.

Xu An gave the laptop to Xia Fengshu, "Use her, it's convenient to organize the text."

"I'm used to writing on paper."

"I will type on the keyboard from now on." Xu An put the computer on the table, leaned on the table and said, "You have to learn to say yes, yes, yes, yes, agree."

"Why should I learn?"

"I'll let you learn." Xu An put his arms around Xia Fengshu's neck, holding Xia Fengshu's neck, and said in a strong tone, "You have to learn to listen to me."

"Xu An, do you want to dominate me?"

"I want you to rely on me, you know? It's tiring to make a decision by yourself, and then bear it alone. In the future, there is something for me to stand in front of, okay?"

Xu An said that he wanted to do it, but Xia Fengshu only listened to his tender words. Xu An, our love cannot be seen in the light. If you want to protect me, you will lose the backer behind you. How can I rely on you? You, that is a drag on you and your life.