green water for a long time

Lu Lanbo hesitated for a long time, and when April was approaching, he sent a WeChat message to Lu's mother, saying that he had decided to go to the United States to get married.But for several days, Mother Lu did not reply.Lu Lanbo thought that parents needed time to accept, so he didn't say anything more.

That day, Lu Lanbo remembered that the weather seemed to be fine.He was sitting on the bus, and a row of white ancient buildings on the side of the road was particularly bright against the blue sky.If Lu Lanbo were to recall more details of that day, he would not be able to remember.

When he got home, he found that Qin Mingchang hadn't come back, thinking that it was probably a temporary operation.He cooked rice, simple rice porridge, the rice porridge slowly became transparent and viscous in the casserole, and started bubbling.

He waited for a long time, but suddenly there was a strong wind outside the window.He sent Qin Mingchang a WeChat message but did not reply.Lu Lanbo saw that it was past 9 o'clock in the evening, so he read professional books on the bed.

At some point, he opened his eyes and saw Qin Mingchang sitting by the bed.The light of the desk lamp was dimmed, and he couldn't see the expression on Qin Mingchang's face clearly, but his abnormal behavior caught Lu Lanbo's attention.

Seeing that he woke up, Qin Mingchang went to bed, lay on his side next to him, and reached out to stroke his neck.

His hands were a little cold, and Lu Lanbo heard the wind outside getting louder.After a long time, Qin Mingchang said, "Let's wait for our wedding."

Lu Lanbo turned his head a little puzzled. He wanted to see Qin Mingchang's expression eagerly, so he immediately got up and sat on the bed, and reached out to turn on the chandelier.

The bedroom suddenly became brighter, and the warm lighting made the room feel warmer.But Lu Lanbo didn't notice this at all.He didn't know why Qin Mingchang said that, but there must be a reason for him to say that.Lu Lanbo suddenly felt restless and nervous.

Qin Mingchang sighed, got up and sat on the edge of the bed, his back was facing Lu Lanbo, his usually tall and straight figure was a bit hunched, he seemed to use great strength to support himself.

"Your mother called me." He sighed, his voice was very soft, as if floating out.

"so what?"

"She said a lot. But I only remember one sentence. She said that I brought you into the thornbush and let you accompany me to sink in this hell."

"Obviously I did it voluntarily!" Lu Lanbo couldn't control his emotions, he could only take a sharp breath.

"I don't want to agree, but I have to think about it." Qin Mingchang's voice was helpless, and after a long time he said slowly: "Maybe I was wrong from the beginning, I can't be so selfish."

Lu Lanbo was a little taken aback. He seemed to have just been woken up from a dream. He reached out to grab Qin Mingchang's arm, but his hand was trembling badly. "No matter what you think, you can't change the fact that I'm with you."

Qin Mingchang didn't answer, he turned to look at Lu Lanbo, but quickly lowered his head.This was Qin Mingchang's unprecedented moment of embarrassment, powerless.

"Unless you want me to say give up? My mother's words are so important? I am willing." Lu Lanbo's tears dripped down his chin on the navy blue pajamas, and soon blossomed into small flowers.

Qin Mingchang just stared at the little flowers on Lu Lanbo's chest, he didn't know what he could say at this moment.When he received this call at work, at first he thought about refuting Mother Lu, and he even wanted to go to Shi Yan immediately to prove his sincerity.But he was the one who brought Lu Lanbo to this situation, which he could never deny.When he understood this, he suddenly felt that he was wronged.Maybe Lu's mother is right, Lu Lanbo should have a bright road, but now he is dragging him along this despised dark alley.

"You know you will lose me like this!" Lu Lanbo was sobbing so badly that he felt that he couldn't breathe or even speak a complete sentence, and he felt that his limbs were numb.Now, he can only grasp Qin Mingchang's arm with the only sobriety he has. This action seems to have exhausted his life's strength.

Qin Mingchang lowered his head: "You still have your parents. You can't leave them."

"I'm not even afraid of losing myself!"

"I just hope we can think about it again." Qin Mingchang grabbed Lu Lanbo's hand. Lu Lanbo's hand was long and slender. Qin Mingchang grabbed it so hard that he could feel the blood flow in Lu Lanbo's hand.

Lu Lanbo couldn't calm down his current emotions. He felt that the strong wind was howling for him, and all the emotions came to his heart, unwillingness, heartbreaking unwillingness.Qin Mingchang, why should you decide everything.Lu Lanbo really wanted to quarrel with Qin Mingchang, but he saw Qin Mingchang's embarrassment, and saw Qin Mingchang's powerlessness as a middle-aged man.What can he force Qin Mingchang to do?

"Qin Mingchang, can you do something for us?" He begged a little, eager for Qin Mingchang's answer, but also afraid of Qin Mingchang's answer.

Qin Mingchang handed Lu Lanbo a facial tissue, which was the only thing he could do now.

"Go to sleep, you have to go to work tomorrow." Qin Mingchang reached out to turn off the light and walked out of the bedroom.

Lu Lanbo's tears finally stopped. He felt that there was still hope. Qin Mingchang loved him so much, how could he let him go so easily.Yes, they need time, they need to calm down.He needs to calm down now. He can persuade Qin Mingchang slowly, or he can wait for Qin Mingchang slowly.Lu Lanbo took a deep breath to calm himself down slowly.

As if sleeping but not sleeping, Lu Lanbo spent the night, he really wanted to fall asleep and wake up with nothing changed or forgotten.It's a pity that in the sleepy dream, he could only run forward as hard as he could.

When I woke up in the morning, it was raining lightly, but the wind was still strong.

Looking at Qin Mingchang who was making breakfast in the kitchen, Lu Lanbo felt unwilling and angry, as if someone had poured cold water from head to toe. Lu Lanbo suddenly found that it was so easy to resent someone.

"Have breakfast quickly." Qin Mingchang said as usual.

"How did you drink the coffee today, and what to do with the rice porridge left in the pot yesterday?" Lu Lanbo glanced at the dining table.

"I didn't pay attention, otherwise at night..."

"Is it not to your liking?" Lu Lanbo felt angry, and he rushed into the kitchen and poured all the rice porridge into the sink.

Qin Mingchang was taken aback by his actions.

Lu Lanbo went out the door without looking back, and when he arrived at the entrance of Fu'an Hospital, he found that the seam of the door had been filled in at some point, and it was very smooth, as if the gap had never existed.If, did not exist.

The busyness of the endocrinology department made Lu Lanbo feel a little calm. Now he urgently needs busy work to consume his energy and occupy his thoughts, so that his heart will not hurt so much.

He got the word to go on a respiratory medicine rotation when he was off duty.

Lu Lanbo didn't know how to go home and face Qin Mingchang, so he could only stroll on the street.It's still cold.When he walked into a book cafe, he remembered that it seemed that the last time he had a blind date was here.

He walked back and forth among the bookshelves aimlessly, maybe reading a tragedy now suits his mood best.At this time, he saw a small book "The Reader of Life and Death", he pulled it out with some hesitation, and sat on the sofa to read it.

If it wasn't for hunger, Lu Lanbo might have watched it for a while.Perhaps the physical discomfort can alleviate the psychological pain, and Lu Lanbo's mood has stabilized a lot.

Lu Lanbo simply ate a sandwich at 7-11, and when he returned home, Qin Mingchang hadn't come back, maybe he also wanted to escape.

Lu Lanbo was sitting on the sofa, he needed to see Qin Mingchang.

After a long time, Qin Mingchang finally came back. He walked into the living room with a wet smell.

"Let's chat." Lu Lanbo spoke first.

Qin Mingchang took a deep breath and sat on the opposite sofa a little stiffly.

"Are we breaking up like this?"

"No." Qin Mingchang answered quickly.

"I want to live separately for a while, maybe we can think more clearly."

"Do you have to do this?"

Lu Lanbo felt as if his throat was blocked by something, "What do I have to do? Isn't the choice always in your hands? I thought a lot today." Lu Lanbo felt a little helpless, "Before I saw you, I thought about it." A lot of words. But when I saw you, I suddenly felt that I didn't need to say anything."

Qin Mingchang was taken aback by the question, he shook his head.

"You see, you have to blame yourself for everything. You did it to your mother, you did it to Wenge, and now you do it to me." Lu Lanbo sighed, and continued: "So maybe it's our best choice now. When I don't hate you so much. I'll pack up tomorrow afternoon."

Qin Mingchang's fingers trembled slightly: "Can you not leave?"

"I think it's better to separate now. You can go home after I leave tomorrow. I don't want to see you." Lu Lanbo wanted to cry, but at this moment he was extremely calm.

Qin Mingchang could only nod his head. He stretched out his hand, but it seemed to be frozen again.His arms were raised and then fell weakly, very much like his love.

In the afternoon of the second day, Lu Lanbo packed his things. He had very little luggage, a suitcase was all he had.He thought that there were still some vegetables in the refrigerator, and he wanted to write a note, but he was afraid of leaving something behind.

He put the watch and ring on the bedside table, and carefully made the bed.

He wanted to take away all traces of himself as best he could.In this way, he will feel better, and Qin Mingchang should feel better too.

He returned to his house, but he felt very calm, and he opened the suitcase, trying to slow down the speed of cleaning the house as long as possible.

When Lu Lanbo came to the second respiratory department, he followed Zhou Wenyang. Because of Lian Yu, he privately called Zhou Wenyang's sister-in-law.

It was only after Zhou Wenyang that Lu Lanbo learned that the important private job of a respiratory doctor was to collect debts.In fact, this situation exists in every department, but especially in the Respiratory Department of Fu'an Hospital.

"Head nurse, let's go to Zhang Beihai's house to ask for money tonight." Although Zhou Wenyang is very professional in his work, he is not good at dealing with people.

Su Fenglin, the head nurse in the Respiratory Department, is very young. She is of medium build, with curved eyes and a cute smile.She nodded.

When Lu Lanbo heard it, he said to Zhou Wenyang, "Why don't I go with you after get off work?"

Zhou Wenyang thought about it and felt that it would be better to have a man.

The three of them came to Zhang Beihai's community after get off work, contacted the director of the business committee, and the four of them went to Zhang Beihai's home.

Although Zhang Beihai's house is not big, the decoration is still very good.

They talked to Zhang Beihai for a long time before they knew that Zhang Beihai was angry that he lost an electric car at the hospital gate during his hospitalization.

Lu Lanbo didn't know what the relationship between the loss of the car outside the hospital and the hospitalization fee owed to the hospital was.He glanced at Su Fenglin, who was still persuading Zhang Beihai very carefully.

After 9 o'clock in the evening, Zhang Beihai couldn't bear it anymore, so he reluctantly agreed to pay the bill at the hospital tomorrow.

Lu Lanbo returned to the gate of Jiazheng Community, he wondered if Qin Mingchang would be waiting for him at the gate as before.

Unfortunately, no.