I Just Came to Borrow a Light

Lin Chengbu had to go to work today. Although he didn't sleep all night and wanted to sleep on Yuan Wu's bed, he could only squint for a while before taking the spare key hanging behind the door and going out.

Yuanwu's house is quite far from Chunzhi Restaurant, Lin Chengbu left 20 minutes earlier, and when he entered the back kitchen, he still arrived late.

"Huh? Brother Lin?" The people in the kitchen were stunned when they saw him, "Have you changed your style?"

"Huh?" Lin Chengbu looked down at Yuan Wu's clothes on his body, "Is it so obvious?"

"It's too obvious," a waiter passed by and said with a smile, "It's not your clothes at first glance, you stole it?"

"It's stolen, keep it a secret for me." Lin Chengbu nodded and entered the dressing room, stood in front of the mirror and looked at himself. He was still holding a normal T-shirt from Yuanwu, but the printed pattern was a little unclear. , it's not so obvious that it's not your own, right?

Tsk.He turned around and took the uniform, stopped when he was about to put it on, and glanced in the mirror with his back turned.

"Hey, what are you, uncle..." He looked at the Q version penis straddling from the left shoulder to the right crotch on the back of his clothes, "I...fuck."

This is indeed very obvious.

I guess I was tired and stupid so I didn't realize it when I put on the upper body. At that time, I just glanced at the messy picture on the front, and put it on without writing FUCKME...

He hurriedly took out a T-shirt from his locker and changed it on. He didn't have Yuan Wu's ability to completely ignore the eyes of his surroundings.

It's a busy day today, with many customers and many requests for reserved tables, and all the dishes ordered are made by De Lin Chengbu himself.

It was almost ten o'clock when he finished his get off work and got off work. Lin Chengbu sat in the car, feeling like he couldn't keep his eyes open.

In order to refresh himself, he took out the little piece of paper he found in the crack of the bed from his pocket.

The address only had the street name and house number written on it, and there was no specific district. Lin Chengbu checked the map on his mobile phone, and found that this street was not too far from Yuan Wu's house. It took about 40 minutes to drive there.

What address is this?

Yuanwu's vacation home?Unlike, this person used to live a chic life and didn't need a group to spend a vacation somewhere.

Yuan Wu hides her boyfriend's home?Fuck it must not!

That's... Yuan Shen?

Lin Chengbu frowned, it was Yuan Shen's address, could Yuan Wu be there?What is he doing there?I feel that Yuan Wu should no longer regard himself as Yuan Shen, is that to miss?Masochistic?

This is really refreshing, Lin Chengbu feels more energetic.

There was a small supermarket outside Yuan Wu's house. When Lin Chengbu returned, the small supermarket was still open. He went in and bought some snacks, convenience food, and yogurt.

Downstairs, as usual, he looked up at the windows of Yuan Wu's house, but the lights were not on.

A little disappointed, but also a sense of relief.

To be honest, he wasn't sure how Yuan Wu would react if he found out that he had come to his house.

According to Yuan Wu's temperament before the picture, he would probably beat him up, but according to Yuan Wu during this period... I don't know.

Lin Chengbu sighed, went upstairs and entered the house.

After checking all the details, it was determined that Yuan Wu had not come back.

The spoiled and moldy things in the refrigerator were cleaned up by Lin Chengbu yesterday, and he put all the snacks and yogurts he bought just now into them.

The refrigerator suddenly became warm and lovely.

Not bad.

Lin Chengbu took out a small notebook and put the shopping list in it.

Looking at the bills that were forcibly added to Yuan Wu's head, Lin Chengbu suddenly wanted to laugh, and after laughing against the wall for a while, he was a little dazed again.

What is this for?

It proves that no one in this world remembers Yuan Wu anymore, does he still remember?

Everyone doesn't care about Yuan Wu anymore, so he still cares?

and then?

so what?

He sat down on the sofa and sighed softly.

It's not that he really expects Yuan Wu, who is so moving, to promise him with his body... He really promised himself, but he might not dare to ask for it. Yuan Wu's temper, holding back his anger, may give himself a beating when he explodes. .

"Ah..." Lin Chengbu lay down on the sofa and twisted, "Where the hell are you!"

It's been a week, Yuan Wu looked at the calendar on the wall, every passing day he made a mark with a pen, if he did what Dr. Liang said, he would make a tick, and if he didn't, he would make a cross.

Five forks this week.

Dr. Liang said that some things are easy to say, but not easy to do. If you do it, it will help. It depends on whether you can do it.

What he has to do now is actually a lot of simple repetition. He also knows the role of these homework, suggesting and affirming himself, and separating himself from the guilt towards Yuan Shen.

However, he himself knew that, as Dr. Liang said, the problem was not only Yuan Shen's suicide, but what he wanted was to first get rid of the emotions that were disturbing him all the time, and then go to the hospital. Consider something else.

Dr. Liang suggested that he go home and live, and stop letting himself stay in an environment full of traces of Yuan Shen.

He followed this advice, and today he plans to go home first.

In fact, it is not necessary to stay here, but... when he thinks about the house that has been vacant for so long, he feels a sense of despair, how dirty it is... when he thinks about cleaning up the house in disgrace, he feels that he is still in the house. Wandering outside is more comfortable.

I don't have the phone number of a reliable housekeeping company at hand. Besides, the house is so dirty that ordinary housekeepers are not willing to answer it at all.

When Yuan Wu was driving home with a satchel, he wanted to call Lin Chengbu and ask his elder sister if he would like to take the job, and it would be okay to pay more.

He always carried the keys with him, although for a long time because he had deliberately forgotten them, he no longer knew where the keys were and what they were for.

Or know and don't want to think about it.

It was like he would be irritable every time he saw Lin Chengbu in the chaotic days. He didn't hate Lin Chengbu, although he couldn't talk about any other thoughts.

His resistance to Lin Chengbu is only because subconsciously he clearly understands that Lin Chengbu knows who he is, and Lin Chengbu represents the end of the life of "I am Yuan Shen".

All the details that he didn't want to think about and deliberately ignored would wake him up from his dream.

And Linchengbu, it's like a wake-up call.

Didi, Didi, Didi, don't stop until it wakes you up.

Yuan Wu parked the car downstairs, looked up at the upstairs, and almost didn't remember which floor he lived in. It has not been two years since he bought the house, and he hasn't gotten used to living in it yet.

He sighed, did some mental work for himself, and went upstairs.

As soon as the elevator door opened, he saw the clean door of his house and the shiny door lock.

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Wrong floor?He glanced at the floor number again, that's right, it must be the wrong floor, right?

Standing at the door staring at the door and hesitating for a long time, Yuan Wu took out the key and tried to turn the lock.

opened.

The stale air and all kinds of musty smells didn't come as promised, and the fresh air that hit his face made him a little confused standing at the door.

He froze for a while before touching the wall and turning on the light.

Depend on.

The windows are bright and clean, and the air is fresh.

There is no dust even in the crevices of the wooden floor, as if a deep cleanliness has been fighting here for a long time.

There are clean new slippers next to the shoe cabinet by the door.

After staring at the slippers for at least a minute, he stretched out his foot and kicked them.

There is no agency.

It was indeed his home, the house he had lived in for over a year.

Yuan Wu walked around the house a few times, everything has been tidied up, even the kitchen stove is clean, he stood in front of the refrigerator, took out the yogurt, the expiry date has not expired.

He is now almost certain that Lin Chengbu has been here.

As for when it came, he looked at the production date of the yogurt, it should not be older than last week.

This feeling is not very easy to describe.

Yuan Wu poured himself a cup of yogurt, and stood in the middle of the living room holding the cup, which was not easy to describe.

The sofa cover must have been washed. He went over and touched it, and the crispy feeling of being sun-drenched still remained, as well as the curtains, bed sheets and quilt covers.

The curtains... must have been washed, he touched a hole in the bedroom curtains.

It was torn and sewed up with another stitch. The corners of the stitches were very ugly, and the thread was not the same color. The white thread on the gray background looked like an earthworm.

He remembered the cross-stitch that Lin Chengbu had mentioned, and felt that he could almost imagine what it looked like.

"Are you staying with me?" Yuan Wu sat on the edge of the bed and patted the pillow lightly.

The bed was also tidy, and Yuan Wu found no trace of sleeping on the pillow, not even a single strand of hair.

Lin Chengbu probably didn't sleep on his bed for a long time, and the pillowcase still smelled of sunshine.

He stayed in the bedroom for a while, then turned to the balcony.

He was stunned when he saw several pots of dandelions neatly arranged on the balcony.

I leaned over and took a closer look at the dandelion stalks. It was an old stalk, so it wasn't a new plant. It should be...the pots I planted myself before.

Only then did Yuan Wu realize that his house was fully equipped with water and electricity, so he went to turn on the gas stove, and the gas was still supplied.

The feeling at this moment is even more indescribable than when I first opened the door.

He imagined that Lin Cheng would walk over, take his utility bill from downstairs, and then pay the bill on time for two years...

Suddenly, my eyes felt a little astringent.

He pressed the corner of his eye, maybe he should call Lin Chengbu.

... Recommend Dr. Liang.

Without the trouble of tidying up the room, Yuan Wu took back the things left by Yuan Shen, but in fact there was nothing there, only a few pieces of clothes.

All his things are on the boat, no, they should all be at Lin Chengbu's place now.

This kid should already know that he is back to live, but Yuan Wu turned on his phone a few times, and there was only a greeting text message from Jiang Chengyu, and Lin Chengbu never contacted him.

What are you thinking about?

Is it really Jehovah, hello, I am relieved?

Yuan Wu did not contact Lin Chengbu.

He didn't want to contact anyone until he didn't feel like he was back to normal life, at least not to his old rhythm.

He is not used to being interrogated with concern.

I also hate comfort and explanation without any practical meaning.

Dr. Liang's suggestion was still effective. After returning to his home, Yuan Wu felt that he could at least fulfill the seemingly simple but difficult requirements of Dr. Liang without the presence of Yuan Shen around him. , Thinking about Yuanshen every day is fixed for a certain period of time. When the time comes, start thinking about it and stop when the time is over. No matter if there is anything to think about, this time can be used to think about it.

As for the time outside this time, Yuan Wu looked at the cross-stitch he bought on the table... Maybe his level is higher than Lin Chengbu's.

He opened the first cross stitch.

This is the largest piece of cross-stitch in a bunch of cross-stitches that he carefully selected and bought. He went to many stores to buy it.

After buying a cross-stitch Zhang, he was forced to listen to a half-hour-long preaching by a sister in her 60s, which made him so dizzy that he almost wanted to call Dr. Liang.

The name of this cross stitch is... Heavenly Father.

The color thing is quite complicated.

Yuan Wu felt that his life became more regular day by day. He met and chatted with Dr. Liang for an hour every other day.

The yogurt Lin Chengbu bought was a brand he had never tasted before, and it had a strong taste. After drinking it, he went to the small supermarket in front of him, found the same one, and bought two big cans.

The kid still hasn't contacted him, as if he disappeared.

However, Yuan Wu didn't intend to look for him. He was still in a state where he couldn't resume his previous relationship with anyone without being awkward, and if he wanted to find Lin Chengbu, it would be much easier than Lin Chengbu looking for him.

Just open a little curtain, take out the binoculars, and take a look at the street outside the community, and you can see a person wearing a baseball cap and a mask sitting on a bench by the roadside.

Yuan Wu sighed. He could tell that this person was Lin Chengbu without even thinking about it. It wasn't that he was familiar with Lin Chengbu, but that the mask on Lin Chengbu's face belonged to him.

This IQ.

Simply moved.

Lin Chengbu sat on the bench very regularly, and Yuan Wu felt that in a month, he could even know his weekly work schedule based on the time he appeared.

Yuan Wu didn't know if he was worried about him or he didn't dare to contact him directly. In short, it has been almost a month since Lin Chengbu appeared on the bench so regularly.

But every time Yuan Wu went out, he would hide from the bench. Yuan Wu noticed it several times, but he didn't find where he was hiding.

What about kids playing hide and seek?

Yuan Wu felt that this kid was so childish that it made people feel a little distressed for no reason.

He didn't have to go to Dr. Liang today, and the number of times he went to see Dr. Liang was reduced by one from this week.

He was sitting on the sofa, holding the key of Yuanshen's room and turning it up and down. After about 5 minutes, he picked up his mobile phone and turned it on, and called Dr. Liang.

"Doctor Liang, do you think I should give my brother's key to my grandparents?" He looked at the key, "The house is rented. I renewed the group once before, and the time is almost up."

He will not continue to rent this house.

But if the house is returned, all the things in the house will have to be moved out. What should I do with Yuan Shen's things?

Dr. Liang did not directly tell him what to do, but let him decide for himself.

Does he want to keep anything, what to keep, why, what to do with the things he doesn't keep, whether to give them to grandparents or throw them away, if he gives them to grandparents, he will definitely meet the two old people, what will happen when they meet?

All of these, he has to consider whether he can face and bear it.

Such decisions are not easy to make.

Yuan Wu is very clear, but such a decision can only be made by himself.

He was holding a notebook, laying on the sofa and sketching.

The notebook contained records of various treatments and counseling during this period, and he slowly flipped through it.

The handwriting is really ugly. In fact, there is no need for cross-stitch embroidery. It is true that he should practice calligraphy when he is fine.

He didn't want to keep flipping through Yuanshen's notepad before, because his own words were too far from Yuanshen's, and he could recognize them at a glance.

Gee.

"I think he's been doing pretty well recently. He's recovered his running habit, but he just didn't go to the gym." Lin Chengbu called Jiang Chengyu while sitting on the bench, "Has he contacted you?"

"No," Jiang Chengyu yawned, "but he should turn on the phone every day, and he read all the text messages sent."

"It will definitely be turned on. He wants to contact Dr. Liang," Lin Chengbu said. "I don't think I need to keep an eye on him every day. After a while, he will probably be fine. He should return to the 18th." ?”

"If he doesn't return, I will beg him to come back," Jiang Chengyu said, "My signature bartender, besides, I'm really used to his appearance at the bar."

"En." Lin Chengbu responded.

"You sound melancholy?" Jiang Chengyu smiled.

"No." Lin Chengbu also smiled, "Isn't it the same as before, what's so sad about it."

"That's too false," Jiang Chengyu said, "Tell me the truth, it's not bad if you don't think he'll never get better, at least he's had a close relationship with you for the past two years."

"What's not bad, I went to Shenqiao to look for him later, he didn't remember the previous things, I met him several times," Lin Chengbu clicked his tongue, "I'm not a complete pervert, I I can't stand introducing myself every few months."

Jiang Chengyu laughed for a long time over there: "Hey, he should be able to remember it now. If there is a chance, I really have to interview him. How does it feel?"

"I think so," Lin Chengbu said in a low voice, "I think, I thought about it for a while, if I met someone like me, I would think this person is sick."

Jiang Chengyu laughed even harder: "Hurry up, I think Dr. Liang is reliable, you and Yuan Wu go to see it together, and increase your sympathy with the same disease."

"Come on, I..." Lin Chengbu raised his eyes, suddenly froze, and said incoherently for a long time, "I'll...fuck, I'll hang up...I have to hang up..."

"What's wrong?" Jiang Chengyu asked.

"Yuan Wu... is here." Lin Chengbu hung up the phone after finishing speaking, and stared across the street.

Yuan Wu didn't know when he came out. He wouldn't go out at this time, so Lin Chengbu was so relieved that he didn't even look at the gate of the community while he was on the phone.

It was too late for him to hide now, Yuan Wu was standing across the street.

This is a small street, and now Yuan Wu is at most 20 meters away from him.

If he wants to stand up and walk away now, Yuan Wu will be able to see him immediately, although he covers himself quite tightly, but... Yuan Wu just stands there, his eyes lingering on him.

He estimated that Yuan Wu had recognized him.

After the fourth car passed by on the road, Yuan Wu walked over here, at a very slow speed, like his usual style, always dragging his steps, a bit lazy.

Lin Chengbu didn't know what kind of posture he should use to welcome this unexpected meeting at this time, so he could only sit still, with his arms on his knees, watching Yuan Wu slowly sway to him from across the street.

They were already facing each other, and they would have to bump into each other one step further. Yuan Wu stopped. Before Lin Chengbu could stand up, he stretched out his hand, hooked his fingers around the mask and pulled it down.

"That... I'm just... I'm here..." Lin Chengbu had to pull off his mask, "I'm just here..."

"Borrow a lighter, sir." Yuan Wu took a lighter from his pocket and handed it over.