I Just Came to Borrow a Light

Jiang Chengyu's bar is called No. 18 Qinghe Street, and the address is at No. 18 Qinghe Street. It is a small street with a particularly strong literary and artistic atmosphere in the city. It is a gathering place for all kinds of literary and artistic youths, and it is a graffiti street.

Every time Lin Chengbu came here, he felt uncomfortable. Every house and every doorway on both sides of the street seemed to be far away from him.

No. 18 is in the south of the road, a little recessed, and you can't see it unless you go to the front, but once you see it, you will feel that it is the entrance of a different time and space.

The decoration is pure black, the light bulbs are covered with black grids, and one or two bright red dots are sprayed on the wall. It looks depressing and abnormal. Jiang Chengyu said that our slogan is to let those who want to pretend Make it look like the real thing.

When Lin Chengbu walked into No. 18, it was just after 9 o'clock, and there were not many people in the bar, and Bruce was hidden in various corners that were not easy to be seen against the backdrop of his low profile.

There were two or three people sitting in front of the bar. When Lin Chengbu looked over, he felt that he saw Yuan Wu for a moment, but there was only one waiter leaning on the bar, and it was not time yet.

He basically hasn't been here since Yuan Wu had a problem, and it feels like a lifetime away when he walks in now.

When Lin Chengbu walked through the hall to the office area at the back, a waiter politely blocked him: "Hi sir, inside..."

Lin Chengbu glanced at him and said nothing, probably this person is new here.

"Long time no see, Mr. Lin," another waiter came over to greet him, and said hesitantly when Lin Chengbu continued to walk in, "Brother Chengyu is in the...office."

Jiang Chengyu's office was at the far end, and Lin Chengbu realized why the waiter hesitated when he stood outside the frosted glass door and was about to knock on the door.

Through the door, he could see two figures next to each other inside, and he couldn't tell what they were doing, but judging from the outline of the figures, they should still be wearing pants.

Lin Chengbu sighed, reached out and knocked on the door.

"What?" Jiang Chengyu's voice came from inside.

"Me." After Lin Chengbu finished speaking, he turned and leaned against the wall next to him.

Ten seconds later, the door opened, and a man dressed in avant-garde came out and went to the hall. Lin Chengbu didn't see his face clearly, he only knew it was a man. Of course, he knew it without looking.

He entered the office, Jiang Chengyu was leaning against the desk, his shirt buttons were unbuttoned several times.

"Sorry." Lin Chengbu cleared his throat.

"What would you like to drink?" Jiang Chengyu asked.

"Don't drink, I'll leave after taking out something." Lin Chengbu looked at the time, "I'm so sleepy that I need to go back to sleep."

"Wine? Coffee? Or tea?" Jiang Chengyu continued to ask.

Lin Chengbu glanced at him, and Jiang Chengyu had a look of disapproval on his face, so he had no choice but to answer: "Plain water."

"Fuck," Jiang Chengyu went to the water dispenser to take a glass of water, half-thrown it and put it on the table, "I have a request for you, can you have a better attitude."

"Thank you, Brother Chengyu." Lin Chengbu took a drink from the cup, sat on the sofa, and smiled with the corners of his mouth, "Is that so?"

"If you're going to act, you probably won't even be able to get a corpse." Jiang Chengyu poured himself some wine, and sat next to him, "Tell me, why did you suddenly want his set of glasses?"

"I don't know, I just want...to let him have a chance to get in touch with his past," Lin Chengbu looked at the water in the glass, and that's what he meant when he drove his satchel to meet Yuan Wu last time. Although it seemed to have failed, but Yuan Wu's appearance today still made him feel that he couldn't stop, "I'm afraid that if it goes on like this, he will forget more and more."

"He has forgotten a lot." Jiang Chengyu took a cigarette and threw the cigarette case to his hand. "Actually, what should he remember?"

Yes, Jiang Chengyu is right, how much does Yuan Wu remember?

Sometimes it's scary just thinking about it.

And this time he suddenly discovered that Yuan Wu's problem was not just forgetting and memory confusion.

"Chengyu," Lin Chengbu looked at Jiang Chengyu, "Do you... know his family?"

"I don't understand," Jiang Chengyu said, "I'm not chasing him."

"You two have known each other for a long time, right? Don't you know anything?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"We have known each other for a long time, right?" Jiang Chengyu smoked a cigarette, "Do you know what's going on in my family? Are my parents still alive? Do I have brothers and sisters? How old am I..."

"31, I know that." Lin Chengbu said.

"Fuck, that's because I was in the same year as Yuan Wu." Jiang Chengyu said.

"...Well," Lin Chengbu couldn't help laughing after thinking about it, "I'm sorry."

"Get out," Jiang Chengyu stood up and walked to the cabinet next to the desk, "I really don't know his family, and he never said anything about it. The most awesome bartender, after he doesn't come, those fans will cry every day."

"Oh." Lin Chengbu sighed softly. In fact, he didn't know much. Just like Jiang Chengyu said, Yuan Wu hardly talked about family affairs with anyone, and he didn't seem to be able to. Heart-to-heart friends.

"This set, take it," Jiang Chengyu took out a box from the cabinet, "I originally wanted to keep it and sell it to his fans later."

"You've got it." Lin Chengbu smiled, took the box and opened it.

The box is very beautiful, and there is a whole set of bartending tools inside, each of which is engraved with a mark, which is a (●—●) expression, all customized by Yuan Wu.

Lin Chengbu has never figured out why Yuan Wu, who seems to be indifferent to people and not very good-tempered, likes this expression. For a person like him, even if he wants to use expressions, it will at most be a (?_?) soldier commander's face.

Maybe this expression is too complicated to engrave?

"I'm leaving." Lin Chengbu closed the box, took a shopping bag from the side, put it in, and stood up.

"Go home?" Jiang Chengyu sighed.

"En." Lin Chengbu nodded.

"Then report to Shenqiao?" Jiang Chengyu asked.

"I'll go back in two days. I'm afraid he'll bother me if I go too often." Lin Chengbu opened the office door, turned his head after thinking about it, "Brother Chengyu, thank you."

"Let's make a promise with your body." Jiang Chengyu said.

"You don't lack friends with sex." Lin Chengbu walked out.

"Your uncle." Jiang Chengyu came over and closed the door.

It was rare that it didn't rain today. Yuan Wu sat under the shed at the stern of the boat. Today's chapter has been written and sent out. The reader's response doesn't seem to be anything special, so he can feel at ease in a daze for a while.

This story is not long, much shorter than the previous ones, almost half as long as the previous ones.

It's too short. According to this update rate, it should be finished in more than a month.

And then, what to do after writing this story?

Write new ones?

What to write?how to write?

He frowned, staring at the water, feeling very confused, and a kind of uncontrollable panic welled up little by little. This feeling did not come from the water, but his confusion about the front.

That kind of fear and despair that is about to have nowhere to go.

After smoking two cigarettes, he got up, turned on the sensor, and lay down.

It's better to sleep for a while, and you don't have to think about anything when you fall asleep.

He fell asleep very quickly, and he would become dazed soon after lying down, but this kind of daze was not pleasant, and it was different from the soft daze that fell asleep when he was sleepy.

This is confusion, pure confusion.

It's hard to breathe.

But if it is really unhappy, what is it that makes it unhappy... I can't tell.

"You're lucky!"

"We may not pay enough attention to you, but..."

"You are much happier than him, why are you still so dissatisfied?"

……

Yuan Wu felt that the sound was far away and could not be heard clearly, but he could clearly perceive the content.

Heard it too many times.

Yes, heard it too many times.

He knew every sentence and every word by heart.

Yuan Wu turned over, hugged the blanket beside him tightly, and tried hard to roll up.

It's been a long time since I heard this voice. I don't remember how long it was, but it was a long time anyway.

Some miss, more apprehension.

Grandma is very kind and has a gentle smile, but he still wants to avoid it.

"Who do you say... who am I? Am I you or me... What about you? Are you me or you?"

"Have you ever thought about it, maybe I shouldn't exist... Who am I..."

Yuan Wu looked in the mirror.

He tried his best to avoid it, but it was as if he was forcibly imprisoned in front of the mirror by something, and he couldn't even move his eyes.

He had to stare wide-eyed at the mirror.

In the mirror is his familiar but unfamiliar face, his own.

Smiling brightly.

The kind of smile he'd never had before.

"Who am I?" He smiled in the mirror.

"Stand! What are you doing! Get out!"

Lin Chengbu's majestic threatening voice sounded, and Yuan Wu suddenly broke away from his chaotic and chaotic consciousness, and then he was startled after being stunned.

"Back again! Back again!"

Yuan Wu frowned and pressed his forehead, why did Lin Chengbu come again!People who have to work four days a week feel so free that they can count dog hairs.

"Excuse me, is anyone there?" A middle-aged woman's voice came from outside.

Yuan Wu was propping up his arms and trying to sit up, but when he heard this sound, he froze suddenly.

"I'm from the village committee. I'm here to investigate the floating population," the woman added, "Is anyone there?"

The cold sweat all over Yuan Wu's body seemed to be blown out at this moment, and he remained silent without speaking.

There was a knock on the hatch.

"Stand! What are you doing! Get out!"

Hearing the footsteps on the boat approaching the cabin window, Yuan Wu gritted his teeth and stood up, and went to turn off the sensor.

"Hello," a woman appeared at the window, "Are you sleeping?"

"En." Yuan Wu replied without looking at her face.

"Then you can cooperate." The woman took out a notebook, "I'll take a look at your ID card, and just answer a few questions."

Yuan Wu didn't make a sound.

"What's your name?" the woman asked.

Yuan Wu's heart was beating so fast that he could feel it in his ears. He turned around silently, rummaged through the pile of clothes, and found the small card thrown in the corner.

ID card.

He didn't speak, just handed it over.

"Yuan Shen," the woman glanced at him, he turned his face to the woman and froze for two seconds, the woman nodded, "You have been living here since you bought this boat from Li Jun, right?"

"En." Yuan Wu responded.

"What kind of work do you usually do?" The woman asked again.

"Sleep," Yuan Wu replied, and after feeling the woman's gaze, he added, "Write a novel."

"Oh, a writer?" The woman smiled and handed him her ID card, "Our environment here is good, you must be inspired."

"Yeah." Yuan Wu took it and put it in a small biscuit box next to it.

The woman continued to ask a few more questions, nothing special, and Yuan Wu felt a headache, so painful that he couldn't remember what he was asking and how he answered it.

He didn't even remember when this woman left.

The big head lay on the window and called him several times before he came back to his senses.

"Brother Xiaowu," Datou said with a lollipop in his mouth and another in his hand, "this is for you to eat."

"Thank you." Yuan Wu took the lollipop, opened it and put it in his mouth.

"Shall we go plant flowers?" The big head stretched out his hand again, with a few small seeds in his fleshy palm, "This is a five-star flower, which can climb vines."

"...Okay." Yuan Wu nodded.

He needs to do something to let his chaotic emotions pass quickly, so that his attention will no longer be on the matter just now.

He went to the pier with the big head and went to plant flowers in the miscellaneous forest.

Lin Chengbu stood at the back door of the shopping mall, waiting for Xiao Ni to come out. He made two phone calls, but Xiao Ni didn't answer. He probably would be kicked out by the security guards if he went directly to the office, so he had to wait here.

He had to ask about some things, although he felt that Xiao Ni might not be clear about it, and if he knew it, he might not want to tell him more, but he really couldn't find anyone else to ask.

After waiting for almost half an hour, he finally saw Xiao Ni coming out from the back door of the mall, but just as he was about to walk over, Xiao Ni had already seen him, turned around and walked quickly to the side.

"Ni'er!" Lin Chengbu chased after her, "Just 5 minutes! No, 1 minute."

"I'm really annoyed," Xiao Ni turned and looked at him, "Lin Chengbu, can you go to the doctor? What else can I tell you? I really admire you. I'm Yuan Shen's ex-girlfriend! Do you know what an ex-girlfriend is? You know how long I broke up with him! Why do you keep pestering me? Can you find someone else if you have anything to do?"

"It's useless to find someone else," Lin Chengbu stopped in front of her, "I just ask one question... Where is he now?"

"I don't know!" Xiao Ni shouted, raising her voice, "How do I know where he is!"

"You really don't know?" Lin Chengbu frowned.

"No! I know! I know!" Xiao Ni stared at him, "I really don't know, I beg you, don't come to me, okay? I'm so annoying, I don't want to have anything to do with these things anymore, you Got it? And we don’t know each other well, right? It’s just that I delivered things to the bar, met a few times and ate beef jerky twice, right?”

"I'm sorry." Lin Chengbu said in a low voice.

"Okay, don't apologize," Xiao Ni waved her hand and sighed, "Just don't come to me again."

Lin Chengbu returned to the car, feeling his mind was in a mess, he laid the seat flat, lay down and stared at the roof of the car.

Shawnee doesn't have any more information here, so who else can ask?

There were only three people he could ask, Yang Hui, Jiang Chengyu and Xiao Ni. Jiang Chengyu didn't know anything, and Xiao Ni didn't know anything. He had called Yang Hui before, and he didn't know anything either.

In the end how to do it?

He frowned depressingly and closed his eyes.

The phone was ringing in his trouser pocket, and it took Lin Chengbu a long time to open his eyes and take out the phone.

It was Yang Hui who called, and he answered, "Hello?"

"Xiaobu," Yang Hui said over there, "I just thought about it again, why don't you go to our local photography forums or groups to inquire? I heard him mention something about taking pictures before, and other It's gone."

"Really," Lin Chengbu sat up, "Will he go to those forums or something?"

"Should be, let's inquire about it," Yang Hui said, "But I want to ask, why did you suddenly change direction?"

"I can't tell," Lin Chengbu frowned, "I just...suddenly felt that he didn't just forget the past, nor did he have to finish the story..."

"Huh?" Yang Hui was stunned.

"Didn't I get beaten up for calling him by his name last time?" Lin Chengbu said, "I never dared to call him again after that. I always felt that he was forcing himself not to recall the past..."

"Isn't it? Subconsciously, he knows that you are the one who knows him, and he doesn't want you to reveal it?" Yang Hui said.

"Now I think it's not just that," Lin Chengbu pinched his brows, "Why do I think... not only can't he remember..."

"Huh?" Yang Hui didn't understand.

"Someone said before that he is not him now, and I suddenly think that this may be quite right." Lin Chengbu lowered his voice, "Why do I think that he is really not him anymore."

"Is it okay to plant it here?" Datou pointed to the mud next to a bush.

"No." Yuan Wu sat leaning against a tree, watching Datou busy.

"Why?" Big Head asked.

"The sun is blocked here." Yuan Wu replied.

"By it?" Datou pointed to the nearby bushes.

Yuan Wu nodded.

"I thought it could grow with its friends when planted here." The big head was a little disappointed, "Where is that kind?"

"On the ground where nothing grows," Yuan Wu said, "Look at the ones that grow together, the ones that are covered don't grow tall."

"Oh," Datou nodded half-understanding, and turned around a few more times, "Then I'll plant some more, let's plant it here, there is no grass here, let it grow here alone."

"Okay." Yuan Wu responded.

Datou took a small shovel and worked profusely for a long time. He dug a small hole on the ground and put a few seeds in it. When filling the soil, he turned his head again: "Brother Xiaowu, what about the hole in this hole?" I put several seeds, what if they grow together? Will it block the light?"

"They will adjust themselves." Yuan Wu said.