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The sun was getting higher and higher, and it was almost noon.At this time, the villagers either had an early lunch and rested in their houses, or they had not returned from working outside, so there was no one in the small orange grove where Lin Siran and the others were standing.

"Siran." The scorching sun in August shone bead-sized beads of sweat on Xiao Lu's forehead.A crystal drop of sweat dripped onto his slender eyelashes, precariously falling down, making the uneasy joy in those eyes more conspicuous.

Lin Siran didn't miss the expectation in his eyes, he knew what he was looking forward to, but unfortunately, he was destined not to be able to say what he wanted to hear.

Beside him, the soul Xiao Lu also looked at the opposite person with a complicated expression. He didn't know Lin Siran's intentions, but looking at the expression on that Xiao Lu's face, it was not difficult for him to guess that his Siran might be Make peace with that person.

As an illusory existence, he has long since lost his heart, but when he thinks that all the things between him and Lin Siran will become the past these days, he still can't help but feel a burst of heartache.How much he wanted, how much he wanted to express his thoughts in front of Si Ran without fear, he wanted to beg for his pity, for his pity for his waiting for more than ten years, for his sorrow of not being able to touch anything.He knew that he had always been soft-hearted, and maybe a cry could bring him back, but he couldn't.

He is no longer the conceited and selfish Xiao Lu in his previous life, he loves him not to satisfy his own desires.He wants to see his smile like a spring breeze, and he wants to see him happy every day, even if that happiness is based on his pain.

He wants to be a stone statue by his side, not saying anything, not talking, just watching him and the one he loves grow old day by day, he will always be with him, and never leave, even in the end It can only be turned into a breeze in front of his grave, but that is also another way of growing old.

He thinks like this, but his heart still throbs. Love is possession and exclusiveness. Even if he is mentally willing to be a consecrator, physically he can't help but resist pushing his lover into the arms of others.For Xiao Lu, his existence has been wiped out by the whole world, and another Xiao Lu has taken his place.To him, losing Lin Siran is to deny his existence once again.

Thoughts were spinning a thousand times in his heart, Xiao Lu, who was controlling his own soul without revealing anything on his face, could never have imagined that Lin Siran would blurt out such a sentence.

"Let's break up, Xiao Lu."

The smile at the corner of Xiao Lu's mouth froze. A second ago, it was still warm in the spring river. After saying this, his eyes were filled with bottomless darkness. "I don't like joking, Siran. Let's talk about other things, don't you like animals? I talked to the director of Feiyang Pet Hospital a few days ago, and I plan to inject capital to build it into a national chain of pet hospitals. Better help animals. What do you think of my idea? Do you like it? If you don't like it, we can still..."

Lin Siran coldly interrupted Xiao Lu's childish way of changing the subject, and repeated again: "Let's break up, Xiao Lu."

"Why?" Two identical voices sounded.

Or depression, or fear.

"You obviously still love me, why did you break up with me?"

"Don't you love him, why did you break up with him?"

"Of course it's because I don't love you anymore." She answered decisively without any room for hesitation.

"I won't agree, Siran, you know, I can't agree." Xiao Lu shook his head slowly, staring at Lin Siran's face, and said the same without hesitation.

Lin Siran ignored his words, looked back into his eyes and continued: "I don't love you anymore because I never loved you in the first place. I have always regarded you as a substitute, the one I love The person is long dead, and I just love you as he is. I'm sorry for doing such a thing. Now I realize that this mistake cannot continue, whether it is for you or for me. "

Of course Xiao Lu wouldn't believe it, he firmly believed that Lin Siran was only temporarily unwilling to forgive him, and firmly believed that their previous relationship had never changed.But what his lover said still made him sad. He could accept any words of beating or scolding him, but breaking up touched his bottom line.

"Siran, don't lie to me again. I know everything about you. There has never been such a person as you said. If you are not willing to forgive me, I will wait for you. I just hope that you will stop talking What about breaking up. Okay?"

The human Xiao Lu thought that Lin Siran was unwilling to forgive him because of the wrong things he did, but the soul Xiao Lu thought that Lin Siran wanted to break up with the other party because of himself.

He said anxiously: "Siran, if you love him, just stay with him. I can't do anything, and I may even disappear inexplicably one day. You don't have to worry about me, it's right to be with you My best return."

The words of the two people kept coming back to Lin Siran's ears, one was domineering, the other was humble, as if they were two completely different people.A child who has almost been smooth sailing since childhood, the greatest hardship he has experienced is the memory lost due to illness and emotional fluctuations, the conceit in his character is still stubbornly engraved in the bone marrow, and the domineering love can give his lover the most comprehensive protection.A catastrophe that has gone through two lifetimes, and almost lost everything. Because of the loss of the most precious treasure, the edges and corners of his character have been polished clean, but he is still loving and gentle, and he is willing to give for the one he loves. all.

Such two people who are the same but different are actually worthy of love, but unfortunately, for Lin Siran, they are indeed wrapped up in the most delicious sandwich, even if they happily eat it, they cannot digest it.

Gathering his mind, he brushed Xiao Lu's hand away from his wrist, and said, "I don't need your consent, and I don't allow you to interfere with my decision. Once I say we're breaking up, there's no room for redemption."

This sentence was too decisive, so decisive that Xiao Lu had no choice but to believe it.His lover really wants to break up with him.It's not a joke, and it's not something I imagined. It's just a breakup, regardless of the reason.

He panicked, thinking that Lin Siran would never live with him again in the future, thinking that he would have to spend the rest of his life alone, thinking that there would be no familiar figure by his side when eating, and no one by his side when sleeping. With peaceful sleepy eyes, he completely panicked.He will not allow it, will not allow this person to disappear from his life, when he stumbled in, he accepted him, fell in love with him, and melted him into his blood, how could he allow him to be self-willed now Leaving, taking his bones and flesh and blood, tearing from his body!

"I won't allow it." Pressing tightly on Lin Siran's shoulder, not letting him leave, the expression on Xiao Lu's face was terribly gloomy.

Lin Siran knew that when people lose control of their emotions, their strength tends to increase unconsciously, so when he was pinched by Xiao Lu's shoulders, he had already anticipated the pain he would suffer.However, he didn't expect that the strength Xiao Lu used was not ordinary, but it made him gasp, thinking of the distant past.

Was it when a girl confessed to herself?In the previous life, before the plan against him was implemented, Xiao Lu used exactly the same movements and expressions to block him.He couldn't help but glanced at the other Xiao Lu beside him, and sure enough, that transparent face was in a trance of nostalgia, and it seemed that he also remembered the past because of this action.However, the past is only the past, and all we have is the present.Xiao Lu couldn't go back to the past and tell himself at that time, don't carry out that plan, don't be blinded by hatred, just like at this time, he was powerless to stop Lin Siran from making a decision.

"I am free, Xiao Lu, don't make me hate you."

A word of hate is far more important than any look or performance.Of course he doesn't want his lover to hate him, hate means they have no future.But what should he do?He didn't want to lose him, and he didn't want him to hate him either.He has made countless choices in his life, and there are many cases where he can have both, but this time, he couldn't find a way to get the best of both worlds.He could only, stubbornly, stand there, motionless, as if he wanted to be rooted in this ground forever and ever, to pray that the person under his fiery palm would not walk out of his life.

This is a tug-of-war, belonging to the two of them.

If there was no truck speeding from a distance, maybe this tug-of-war would have a different ending.

For the villagers of Guanglin Village that day, the rampaging truck head, the driver with red eyes and hateful face, the orange tree that was knocked upside down with its branches scattered, and the panicked crowd running not far away, all arrived. But at the moment of life and death, a man's terrifying roar.

"Siran!!!"

The author has something to say: This chapter took me all night to scribble and change, hoping to write out all the conflicts between them.

By the way, I saw several new classmates leaving messages, hehehe, what ah!

The air conditioner in summer is really, it's too hot at one degree, and too cold at one degree, it's just tangled.And summer is simply a paradise for all kinds of reptiles, the stupid author really likes to eat watermelon around the stove in winter.