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Lin Siran remained silent, picked up the spoon as a cover, raised his hand and continued to scoop the soup in front of him, as if he didn't hear anything, if his hand wasn't trembling slightly.

Xiao Lu knew before that Lin Siran was not defeated by his own stubbornness, this time, he finally realized it personally.

He has never loved anyone, and he is not interested in reading those stories about love and love. He is very busy, and there is something in his subconscious that has been urging him to strengthen his strength. He is busy studying, working, following Innate intuition and experience to build your own business empire.Therefore, when he found his destined lover, he was ecstatic, but he naively thought that there would be no problems between them.His character is strong enough, but he is willing to break his back for his thinking, his thoughts are stubborn enough, but he is willing to be paranoid for his thinking, he is willing to make all changes for him, and he believes that nothing will change the relationship between them.

The mountain is not just me, I will go to the mountain.He has always thought this way, but he has never thought about it, what should he do when the mountain refuses to accept your approach one day?

"Siran." Xiao Lu held Lin Siran's hand holding the spoon, the hot soup overturned, and his palms were red from the heat, but he was so stubborn that he refused to let go as if he didn't feel anything.

There was a smile on his face, and his words were tender, as if expressing his heart, but also as if he wanted to get into Lin Siran's heart and take a look: "Tell me, Siran, no matter what it is, even if it is cruel It doesn't matter if you scold me, I am willing to accept it."

Lin Siran's hands trembled even more, he forced a smile, but his tone was extremely stiff: "I don't have anything to say, hurry up, the food is getting cold, don't you want to go back after eating?"

In fact, why didn't he want to make it clear to Xiao Lu that he had always been unable to hide his words, and would show everything on his face, but this time, what should he say?Tell him that he actually remembered the memories of his previous life. In that world, another Lin Siran fell in love with another Xiao Lu. He thought they could live forever, but in the end, Xiao Lu lived and Lin Siran committed suicide?

It couldn't be more ridiculous, no normal person would believe what he said, no matter if it was a relative or a lover, not even Xiao Lu.They will only think that they are crazy, just like their father Lin Haiyang. The doctor may draw a genetic conclusion from the pathology, the mother may be sad and cry, and the mentor and friends may feel sorry for it. , and Xiao Lu, Xiao Lu whom he trusted so much, may still take care of himself unswervingly, just like treating a real mental patient.

However, he doesn't need these. What he needs is to live a normal life and breathe the air of a normal person.

What's more, even if he didn't want to admit it, that memory did break his trust in Xiao Lu. He was always worried that he would no longer love him, and in the end, he waited for his own ending—like that Lin Siran, alone, Until death is a person.

As for Xiao Lu, Lin Siran's almost repelling words made the smile on his face unstoppable, he adjusted his facial expression reluctantly to make his tone appear gentle, and he called Lin Siran's name again.

This time, Lin Siran didn't even open his mouth to respond to him, as if treating him like a ball of air, he kept silent.

A table of dishes gradually cooled down, and the hands held by the two began to become numb.

Xiao Lu finally couldn't help standing up from the chair, walked to Lin Siran, bent down, hugged his shoulders, and said, "Siran, if I did something wrong, just tell me clearly, without any hesitation, I will will change."

"Maybe I haven't said it before, so this time, please allow me to tell you that I love you so much that I am willing to do everything for you."

Lin Siran still didn't speak, he just lowered his head and hid his face under the shadow.

The lines on Xiao Lu's face became tense uncontrollably, and he humiliated again and again, bowing his head to beg Lin Siran's forgiveness, but what about the other party?Refusing to be strict with him a word, aren't they a couple who can rely on for life?Why don't you tell him anything?Why does rejecting his advances cruelly exclude him from his world?

He loves him, that's right, he is even willing to fall into the dust to love him, just to look up at his lover's face.However, that doesn't mean he doesn't feel pain when his heart is ignored?

He is not a man of iron, he is also made of flesh, he will be frustrated and disappointed, and he will be angry and sad.He originally wanted to surprise his Si Ran, but what he got was not only a kind return, but also a malicious rejection.

He straightened up suddenly, without saying a word to Lin Siran, turned around and walked out of the house without hesitation, never looking back.He was afraid that if he stayed any longer, he would lose his temper.He is not a clay figurine, and the clay figurine still has a bit of anger. He thinks that as an uncompromising company president, his self-cultivation is good enough, even so, he can't help the anger in his heart.However, he never said a single harsh word to Lin Siran, no matter what, he still couldn't bear to see him sad.Besides, he also needs to be quiet for a while, hiding in that distant country to lick his wounds by himself, and then muster up the courage to come back.

Next time, he hopes that the Si Ran he loves can come back.

The door was closed with a bang, and Xiao Lu left resolutely.

Abandoning him and leaving alone, Lin Siran still sat motionless on the chair, like a long-lasting stone sculpture.After a long time, when there was no trace of heat left in the food, he picked up the chopsticks and started eating.The cold rice became extremely hard, and it seemed difficult to chew it, but he didn't seem to notice anything, and swallowed big mouthfuls, mouthful after mouthful, as if he could swallow all the bitterness that was about to overflow.

The speed of eating was so fast that he accidentally choked on the rice ball and couldn't breathe. He tremblingly picked up the spoon to scoop up the soup, spoon after spoon, but he still couldn't get it to his mouth. On the table, on the floor, on clothes.He picked up the bowl of soup and poured it into his mouth indiscriminately. The blockage was washed away, but the soup also poured over his entire face.

He sat there decadently, as if he had become himself ten years ago again, the self who was helpless facing the bloody ground.

On the surface, ten years have made him mature and outstanding. He is praised by his tutors in his studies, admired by his classmates, trusted by his colleagues in his career, and affirmed by his parents.

In fact, he has not changed at all, he is still so weak and incompetent, neither has the courage to tell the truth, trusts his lover frankly, but also has no ability to change the status quo, he simply broke up with his lover, just because he is greedy for the other side. A little bit of tenderness.

What a sad person, he lowered his head, something slowly flowed into his mouth, hot and salty, but bitterer than that bowl of soup.

Soon after Lin Siran's article was published in "Animal Medicine", a newspaper contacted him and his mentor, wanting to do an exclusive interview.Lin Siran was not keen on it, but his tutor couldn't wait to agree without asking the student's consent. Lin Siran had no choice but to accept it.

Lin Siran's mentor is an old professor in his fifties, he is not young, but his heart for fame and fortune is not young.But he is good to the students, he usually takes care of Lin Siran, and even praised him after his paper was published.

This time, the newspaper interview was specially arranged by him in the closest animal laboratory in the school in order to show the good learning conditions of the school.During the afternoon of the interview, he spent half of the time praising and boasting to his favorite student, and the other half was bragging about himself as a bole. On the contrary, Lin Siran didn't say a few words.However, the people in the newspaper didn't care if the protagonist said nothing. Although the youngest "Animal Medicine" paper publisher sounds quite famous, the public doesn't pay enough attention to it. What the reporters want to discover is more Captivating topics.For example, what his supervisor said, the animal experiments to make this thesis.

Regarding animal experiments, this is a very cautious issue. Although it is inevitable, it should not be advertised.Lin Siran's mentor was a little carried away. Obviously, the data obtained by Lin Siran's thesis this time were all obtained after three years of practice in Feiyang Hospital, but he used the experiments he usually did as an example to tell the reporter secretly, and also It is said to be the basic data support for Lin Siran's thesis.

As for Lin Siran, he should have noticed this, warned his mentor, and reminded the reporter.But he was troubled by the matter between himself and Xiao Lu. After the two broke up unhappy that day, Xiao Lu never contacted him again. Even Mao Zhu said that the boss rejected his report.And at night, more and more "bad" memories haunted him, and what he experienced was no longer those pleasant scenes, but another Lin Siran's painful struggle in depression, day after day without sleep It was the disgusting scrutiny and scolding of acquaintances and strangers around him when he was slandered by those slanders; it was the last phone call he had with Xiao Lu before he was voluntarily taken away by the police.

In his memory, Lin Siran was dazzled by love and blinded by his lover, but he didn't. When he thought about what Xiao Lu said on the phone, when he thought of the days when he was locked up in the detention center, Xiao Lu, who said he wanted to protect him, did nothing. When he got in touch with Lin Siran's pitiful ending, he suddenly had a terrible guess.

That conjecture was so terrifying that it almost made his hair stand on end. He didn't want to think about it, and he didn't dare to think about it, but he was still tortured and couldn't sleep at night, his expression was in a trance.

Lin Siran originally thought that the most terrifying thing would be nothing more than this, but he did not expect that a series of conspiracies against him would soon come unexpectedly, which would be enough to destroy his reputation.

The author has something to say: Seeing the little ones worrying about being abusive, they should be fine, right?

After all, the stupid author is so low that he would cry while writing, but after posting it, the friends don't seem to feel abused at all?

In the previous message, Xiao Gu said that she was crying, but no one responded.So, should, okay?